#bc I’ve never done fanart commissions before

[myokk]

I’m opening up my commissions!!🥹💓

I’m opening up 3 slots, first come, first serve. I do the commissions in order of being contacted but it will be done within the week🫶

I think everything is pretty self-explanatory, but if you have any questions please feel free to ask!!!! I don’t bite😇 when you send me the request, please be sure to be pretty detailed, and I’ll ask any follow-up questions if need be.

I expect half paid up-front (I do other types of commissions and…I’ve learned this is the best way🥺), and once I get it I start on the commission. I’ll send the initial sketch and there can be one revision, then I’ll start on the final piece.

I’m not sure that anyone will want one, but I wanted to put this out there anyways!! Thanks for reading🥹🫶😙

Also, this isn’t HL specific!!! It could literally be for any fandom, any characters etc.

[number9robotic]

NINES’ ART PLANS FOR 2020 (from the very start of 2020)

Note that these are all subject to change, especially bc my living situation can get turbulent for reasons beyond my control.

NORMAL ART, DRAWING PROJECTS AND STUFF

Focusing on making this a big priority again! Opening commission work VERY soon!

In general, I’m looking to do what I can to make art a viable career path for me again, as due to lots of personal circumstances, THIS of all things is my most stable option for independent income (I know, right?). I want to feel closer as I possibly can to be able to move out and survive out on my own once the diabolical clutches dragging me around the world finally let up by 2021 at the earliest :/

Projects of note:

“UNTITLED CYBERPUNK MAGICAL GIRL PROJECT” is the biggest thing on my mind right now, and I want to make it a regular series soon! Due to me constantly going over “what I’m capable of as an artist” to “what I WANT to do” (read: animation), I’m still unsure if I want to launch a full-blown comic in its place or not. At the very least, however, I want to do more scenario pics of characters and scenery -- maybe styled like those “fake anime screenshots” -- to better solidify my (probably ambitious, probably impractical) vision for it. ETA Q1 2020.

“LOVE CRAFT” (tentative title for that eldritch monster adventure/dating sim) is still being explored! In basic concepts, still need to explore a distinct style/aesthetic and monster designs! This project will probably be relatively small and in a manageable bandwidth. ETA Q1 2020 at the earliest, probably more around Q2.

“STORY MODE” is an especially large and extremely long-term project, activity on it will probably be just in the background. I’m constantly working on writing/revising it, and the bandwidth it requires from me just to properly start in a satisfactory way ensures it won’t see the light of day very soon. Further mention will come ETA Q2-3 2020 at the very earliest.

“WE REFUSE” is kind of in limbo right now bc I hit a brick wall in terms of stories I wanna tell with it and what people want to see from it. I don’t want any of the ideas/characters to go to waste, but I just don’t know where it’ll ultimately fit in for me. On indefinite hiatus.

Also thinking about doing occasional one-shots and ESPECIALLY fanart this year to get some general attention. Things I immediately wanna do fanart of are Soulmonitor, Towergirls, maybe Miku Monday again! These will come periodically, basically whenever I have a moment. In flux.

CHANNEL MONO AND NO SIGNAL STUDIO

This series is also a top priority for me! Resuming mid-January for sure!

I’ve wanted to explore more with the character and the videos, partly because I had other ideas for funny one-offs, partly because I’ve been worried how viewers will respond to Mono in general. However, the increasingly excited response to this project has given me a lot of confidence to explore some newer, adventurous, introspective concepts. Once Mono resumes, still expect the bi-daily off-kilter zaniness, but formed into something close-ish to a story arc.

I’m also in need of getting the Patreon really going in part of my need for financial stability. This series is not free to make, and if I wanna do more, I need to spend more on props, costumes, and film equipment. I’m unsure of how to make the Patreon model totally work for the series and figuring out reward perks, but I do have a few ideas I might wanna try out in the next while.

Also, at long last, I’m finally searching to do merch! In terms of shirts, I’ve got a bunch of for Channel Mono, No Signal Studio, and BITTER/SWEET shirts to load on Redbubble around January! I’ve also been greatly interested in doing enamel pins, but due to the supply-based nature of selling them, I still need time to evaluate the demand and how much I need to get produced, as well as a supplier (I’ve never done this sort of thing before, haha). ETA for that around February at the earliest, news of additional merch coming later. 

Outside of content, I also need to set up a No Signal Studio website in order to keep ALL my content in one unified place. Still looking for a good, low-expense host. ETA Q1 2020, hopefully!

BITTER/SWEET and MUSIC

Will still be producing music, but probably very sporadically as usual. ETA for next song will probably be sometime around April 1 again (happy anniversary!)

I have an album’s worth of songs I wanna make under BITTER/SWEET and maybe just my own name, but the amount of time and attention needed for production, the need for resources I wanna work with but can’t afford, and overall lack of turnout at the end result is making it hard to really commit for the time being. If the demand increases significantly, I’ll be sure to refocus my efforts, but for now, expect release to come out only every few months.

[cinnaminsvga]

Hello! I'm madly obsessed with Fox Rain and was wondering if you'd allow me to use one particular scene from the fic and have it drawn by a BTS fanartist who's accepting commissions. If yes, then are you comfortable with me using a K-pop idol's appearance as face claim for Fox Rain OC? I wanted to ask permission first before having anything drawn. Also, I'm still torn as to what scene I want done. I believe I sent you an Ask before (expressing how much I want scenes from your fic drawn), but +

[cont.] + I haven’t gotten to it since I’ve been saving up money for “Tour 2020”. Now that I’ve saved up a bit, I want to spend my coin on a fic that’s dear to my heart! I’ll also make sure to tag you once the commission has been completed! 🥰💜

hey!! so i’ve spoken to rha about it and we’re both okay with the idea of having you commission an artist to draw a scene from fox rain since we both really appreciate fanart of our works!! however, we’ve both discussed how we were sorta uncomfortable with the idea of using another kpop idol’s appearance as a face claim? we want to make fox rain as inclusionary as possible, which means that we try our best to never describe how the mc looks like just so no one has to feel alienated from the fic. even though we treat our mc very much like her own original character, it still remains that we would appreciate it if you didnt give any discernable character traits that might make other people feel excluded.

if you and the artist can find a way to avoid drawing the mc with too much detail, then by all means!! ofc, we understand that it might be tough to do that, so mayhaps just… avoid using face claims?? its just kinda weird to us since everyone has their own image of how the mc looks like, so using a real-life person’s face is sorta… not what we want to promote since it might put “expectations,” if that makes sense?? HASJDHSJA i’m terrible at explaining but i hope you understand,,,

as for the scene… well, i think i had mentioned jimin’s poem scene to you in your previous ask!! rha and i are honestly fine with anything bc we love every piece of fox rain with our hearts, but if you want a starting point, then that scene is definitely one of our faves!!

thanks again for asking us first for permission. we really appreciate it!!

[alo-piss-trancy]

hi sorry to bother you but do you have any more akira omo fics planned? yours are honestly the best and i'd love to know what/if you're planning on writing with him in the future, or if you have any sneak peaks you'd be willing to share hehe. also have you ever thought about doing commissions because i'd happily pay for an akira omo fic since you write them so well!

Ahh no worries anon, it's never bothering me! I like getting asks! 💛 And oh my goodness that's really sweet of you to say!!! 😻

I've thought about taking commissions before actually, but 1. I'd have to make a whole separate paypal and email and junk which seems complicated for just that 1 purpose and 2. I write too slowly and jump between too many projects, and can only write what I'm vibing with at the time. My juggling system works fine for me writing for fun, but I think if I put the kind of deadline and pressure on myself that comes with paying customers and expectations I'd just end up in a loop of procrastination and writer's block, or half-assing things just to get them done. The extra cash would certainly be nice, but it's just not worth the stress and risk of backfiring haha (and also charging by word count wouldn't work well for me or customers since all my oneshots are long af)

I'm super flattered by the sentiment! 💛 It's just not something doable for me right now. If anyone really wants to pay for a fic, I'd be willing to accept fanart/fic of my faves in return 👀 that's a joke lmao no one feel obligated plz, I'm honestly happy putting out my stuff for free

And now to get back on topic: I'm afraid I don't have a ton planned for him at the moment or WIPs to show since 1. I dumped all those abandoned p/5 omo drafts onto my tumblr to clear my files and 2. 90% of my omovember stuff is D/R oops 😅

But I do really want to do a fic of himXT/ae as a sort of continuation of that old drabble I posted back in the day. (My idea was gonna be for the omovember diuretic prompt, but then I had the Kir/igiriXCel/este one drafted first instead so I'll be prioritizing that). I still wanna do it though, maybe even with them on a public date or smth bc Ak/ira is just enough of a cocky boi to risk it and T/ae would be interested in forcing him to put his money where his mouth is lol

There's also that elevator prompt with him and Ry/uji I'd really like to get around to. I've also always loved the idea of him getting desperate but too nervous to get up during the plane ride to Hawaii and how a few of them might deal with that, OR that one hc anon (you perhaps? Idk how many p/5 anons I have lol) sent me about him chugging soda/being desp suddenly and constantly and it hitting during a Palace.

So yeah I've got a few good ideas just... not the extra time/attention to devote to them right now RIP. Hopefully if my writing brain isn't dead after I finish my omovember fics and that one fe/mslash kin/kmeme fic I can start getting around to at least one 😿 Because I really do miss writing him and 'Cops and Robbers' didn't feel like it 'counted' since it was past canon and didn't have much real plot (like, I loved writing it, but it didn't give me that comfy feeling of my p/5 home since it was a future timeline and the cheesy roleplay interfered with characterization so it wasn't really writing A/kira)

Tbh I also had some ideas involving him that were based on PQ/2 actually, but unfortunately my 3ds finally kicked the bucket a while ago so I haven't gotten far enough into the game for the plots I wanted to base the fics on RIP. I'm hoping to save any Christmas money I get from relatives and my own savings I've set aside to get a replacement next year if all goes well though, so if I get sucked into that maybe I'll start writing a bunch of those haha

[vixenfur]

Tag at least 5 people you love and give a few words on why!

OH MY GOODNESS!!!

Since there was so much BS in the fandom today, time to share some love! :)

- @zeta-jane is an absolute godsend of a friend. They are sassy, funny, talkative, energetic and so full of amazing ideas!!! Zeta is always there for me when I need someone to lean on. They’re such a kind friend and they will not hesitate, baitch to fight people who hurt me- probably because they know I’d do the same for them! They’re such good company both online and IRL, and I am blessed to have met them! I am even more blessed to be writing City of Dust and Shadows with them, which has become the longest fic either of us has ever written! We may or may not surpass it with our future collabs, however ;) They are just the coolest person ever and they deserve all the love in the world. I adore them so much!!! TUT 

- @mikayu-chan is such a got damn SWEETHEART. They are trying to see the positive side of things, especially after so much fandom drama in the past, and I’m so so proud of them for trying their hardest to live their best life. They have it way too hard and I want to give them a big ole hug and many days of fun!!! They always make me laugh and we have a great time on calls! I’m glad that we see eye-to-eye on so many things and that we continue to teach each other new things all the time!! They are really an irreplaceable friend and such a joy to talk with, to write with, and to laugh with. I love you Chan

- @crazyloststar deserves the entire world and more!!!! oMg I cannot express how much I love Alex!!!!! Alex is just a big bundle of happiness and fun and she makes me so so so so so so so happy. I love calling with her and talking, I love writing with her and everything else!! We always have so much fun, I swear I can’t talk to her without laughing my ass off at least once XD we’re always DJDJDHDHDHDJD’ing at each other because we just can’t find the right words to express how hard we’re agreeing with each other/laughing omfg. I adore her and I cant WAIT to cosplay KimiYoi and RyuuTenn with her hopefully at next year’s Yaoi Con WOOT WOOT :D!!!!

- @yuudefensesquad is sUCH A GOOD BEAN who deals with SO MUCH and she just needs a big ole hug and lots of Yuuchan i stg. Caydence is such a funny funky lil nugget and I protecc her with my life okay. Her art? Flawless. Her shitposts? FUCKIN HILARIOUS. Her meta? Super engaging and intriguing! Her bravery? ABOVE US ALL LOL. She is just awesome and I’m glad I forcefully adopted her into my lil family of mikayuu nerds bc it just wouldn’t be the same without her. Caydence ily never stop being you. A lot of shit challenges her irl and everywhere else, but she still keeps her head up and man I really respect her.

- @mikaisatop is MY FRICKIN RIGHT HAND MAN. My SOULMATE. SARAHHH I ADORE YOU. You might be busy rn but I love you so much girl ;__; even though she’s busy I always bother her bc I want her to know I wouldn’t ever forget about her!! I’m so happy we got to collab so much and will continue doing so!! Winter’s Waltz is so much fun to write and I’m so happy she is writing it with me anyways despite such a busy schedule. If it weren’t for Sarah we wouldn’t have so much good MikaYuu content and I applaud her for it!!

- @6lilystrings9 IS JUST THE BOMB DOT FUCKIN COM. Lily and I didn’t super duper connect until more recently but omg talking with her is just a freakin BLAST. We always get so hype with each other, even over each other’s fandoms that we aren’t even in!!! Something about the energy in her pulls out the energy in me and we just get GOING lmao. She is so very talented and amazing and a fascinating person all around! I’m so glad we got to hang a bit at KatsuCon in 2017 but I hope we can do that again in the future! I miss her all the time!

- @weirdfairytales is the MAN. THE MYTH. THE LEGEND. Anna is just the biggest definition of a meme I can think of and I LOVE her for it. I’m so glad that we met way back when MikaYuuHell Skype existed and that she thought of the masterpiece that is Cherry Boy one wild night. I’m so glad we continued to be great friends and talk about so many things. I love when our messages get super long cause we just have so many things to say XD Cosplaying Victuuri with her at Katsu was so lit, and I can’t express how much I love her Victuuri fic too!!!

- @hannaadi88 is such. a. sweetheart. I can’t say it enough. Hanna does so much and gets so little I stfg yall need to APPRECIATE HER MORE. Her writing is STUNNING and the projects she makes for this fandom are just outstanding!!! From gift exchanges (I SAID ONS REMIX BEFORE IM SORRY i was wrong XD) to 365 Days of Mika and Yuu, she has put in so much for us constantly! She has also granted us with the lovely fic Scented, and not to mention one of my favorite fics of ALL TIME, Eye of Horus- the Ancient Egypt take on Unwritten!!! And she named it that without knowing my first tattoo is literally the eye of horus! XD I was shook lmfao and I still am. Meeting Hanna was amazing and the day I spent with her and @ihavetobenkyou (who is also a-freaking-MAZING and a big bundle of goodness!!!!!!) is one I’ll never forget. She’s so chill and just gives off this ‘wise’ aura idk why but I just look up to Hanna so much. No matter what she writes I will always support her and you all should too!!!

- @just-another-dream-about-yuu is ONE OF MY FAVORITE HUMANS TO EVER HUMAN. Julia omfg I cannot express how much I love you. TwT Julia is not only one of the most talented artists I have ever seen, but she is so sweet and fun and so full of energy and excitement!! She’s super busy with adulting so she’s not around in the fandom a whole lot but I always make sure to include her bc I won’t let her leave XD JULIA YOU CANNOT ESCAPE…. lmfao I will always drag you back… I won’t ever forget the day I got a twitter notification that someone drew me Unwritten fanart and the croaking sound I made was insane LMAO my friend who was with me was like WHAT THE HELL HAPPENED XD I was so excited!!! I still adore every piece of fanart she’s given me and I always will. Thank you, Julia, for bringing my imagination to life so many times, for showing me what you saw when you read my writing. It means more than I can say.

- @coleglend is the most underappreciated person in this fandom I swear. Or, who was in this fandom- Cole is off doing other things besides OnS, but regardless, she is so very amazing and beyond talented. I can’t even express how beautiful her art is and the emotions each piece sparks in me. Even her new Marvel artworks are just breathtaking and I truly admire them!!! I don’t know anyone who can make such detailed, visually engaging art- everything she creates belongs in a museum I swear. I want to print them and frame them for my walls!!! I look at her art all the time!!! Now that I’ve established how gorgeous her art is, talk about Cole as a person! She’s so sweet and kind and I love seeing her little posts on Instagram and such, even though I can’t understand most of them, I like seeing that she’s with friends and having a good time.

- @linnpuzzle is one of the coolest most amazing people in this fandom!!! Her art is STUNNING and as she knows, I will drop everything to commission her and buy her merch because I just am addicted to her gorgeous art!!! I am so honored to have some of her art as part of my collection of OnS things and I am forever going to treasure the commissions I’ve purchased from her!! Besides being a great artist, I love talking with Linn, too! I’m so glad we have things in common outside of MikaYuu, like Voltron and Kyo Kara Maoh :D Linn is truly too good for this world and she deserves everything okokok.

- @zilleniose-chu is truly an ICON of this fandom. We don’t talk alot outside of business stuff lolol but they are just freakin amazing!!! I adore their art so much- I always have, ever since I first saw their page!!- and I LOVE their AU’s and headcanons!! They are full of such great ideas and humor and they can share those ideas through really stunning and captivating artwork

- @absolute-exclusivity IS AN AMAZIN. ABSOLUTELY AMAZING BEAN OH MY GOODNESS i cANT TELL YOU ENOUGH HOW MUCH I LOVE LYSIA. AAAAAAAAHHHH THIS GIRL IS GONNA SPEND MY BIRTHDAY WITH ME OUT IN LONDON LESSGO GIRL!!! I’m so excited you have NO IDEA. Lysia is so so so energetic and cute and overall such an amazing friend!! She’s so caring and always willing to listen even when things are busy for her!! She’s full of hilarious, tragic, and heart-pounding ideas and AU’s. We always get lit together talking about fics and headcanons and I wouldn’t trade those moments for the world. I can’t wait to meet her and I can’t wait to collab with her and Zeta soon, too!!

- @rindartist is absolutely one of my favorite artists of ALL TIME no doubt about it. Rin is so amazing, always making so many beautiful artworks of MikaYuu, and now of other lovely series aswelll! I may not be into GBF but her art of it is just lovely and I suggest everyone to commission Rin if they have the means!!

- @p0isonpez is someone I’ve only seen from afar but I absolutely love her art and posts!! I am so happy to see someone new in the fandom sharing such lovely things and interacting with the rest of us!! you seem so friendly and kind and I hope we can talk more sometime! :D

- @temesasu is such a sweetheart!! We’re just starting to talk a little more, but I am soso happy!! They are such an amazing cosplayer and their ONS cosplayers bring such a big smile to my face. They are beautiful and able to make themselves look like so many different characters!!! They are so talented with makeup, I am in awe!! :D And they are so kind and fun to talk to, and I hope we talk more! Thank you for sharing your cosplays with us, you are amazing! Don’t stop!

- @seraph-star is such a good precious person who makes endless good content!! Omg, their edits are just so awesome!! they always have me bouncing my head along, or completely enraptured and breathless, or laughing!! They are so good at evoking different emotions through video editing and as a very casual video editor myself, I am so impressed with their work!! I also love their memes and art and everything else that they share!!!

- @angeru-artist is a precious PRECIOUS ANGEL who deserves the entire world!!!! Omg, Angeru makes such amazing art, with such expressive characters and cute little attributes!!! I love it when I see their art and I’m so glad that we share a few fandoms together rather than just one. Angeru is really bighearted and she goes through way too much hard times, and I wish I could just take her away to somewhere better!!! One day my friend we will forget about the world and just have fun!!

- @maqui-chan iS ONE OF THE BEST ARTISTS I’VE EVER KNOWN OMFG. her art is iconic and unforgettable!!!! Maqui’s art has always been one of my favorites of all time and I can’t even count the amount of times I’ve commissioned her LOL!! I JUST LOVE HER ART SO MUCH OKAY!?? ITS SO GOOD GO LOOK AT ALL OF HER GLORIOUS CREATIONS! she is so talented and she can create anything, from angst to smut to humor, leave it to Maqui to create amazing things!! And omg Maqui ignited the fire in all of our ShuuNaru hearts amiright!??? GOD her art inspired me so much to the point to where I wrote a ShuuNaru fic and it was so much fun!!! Maqui, thank you for drawing so many awesome things and creating so much for the fandom!! Even if you’ve mostly fallen out of it, your creations are always going to be treasured by me and many other people- you’ve impacted people way more than you know! Thank you for always making me laugh on twitter aswell XD you’re amazing and ily!!! 

OK OK I;M OUT OF STEAM I’VE BEEN TYPING THIS FOREVER OK i could go ON AND ON about even MORE people in this fandom but that would take me literal ages LMAO

TO EVERYONE ELSE, WHO I DIDN’T MENTION BC MY BRAIN IS JUMBLED AND I AM EXHAUSTED: I LOVE YOU SO MUCH. DONT STOP CREATING. THE FANDOM IS A FLAMING GARBAGE HEAP SOMETIMES LIKE IT WAS TODAY. But DON’T LET THAT STOP YOU from having a good time, doing what you love, and creating things that you are proud to share!!! And if your heart leads you elsewhere, to a different brand new fandom, I hope you always remember the people you inspired with your work!! I hope you forget the bad memories and always treasure the good ones. I hope that we can be friends and/or that I can continue supporting you no matter where we all end up in the years to come. And if you decide to support me too, I give you my biggest, most heartfelt thanks.

No matter how ridiculous this fandom can get and how much stupid discourse can dampen the mood and disappoint me, I will never let it stop me from loving MikaYuu and OnS and what I do. I will never let it stop me from writing all that my crazy little heart wants. I will continue to write until my passion dies, and when that day comes I will probably cry as I say goodbye and resort to watching from the sidelines as everyone else carries on. I will never forget the fun I had here. These past 3 years have been so impactful already, and I know the future ones will continue to be- with the old friends, with the new friends, and with friends to be made!!

Let’s spread love more often rather than hate. I encourage anyone who feels inclined to make posts (maybe not as long as mine if you dont want XDD) talking about your favorite creators and friends in the fandom, too! Or, if that seems too corny to you, just continue to draw, write, edit, and cosplay! Continue to make people laugh and smile and cry and swoon! Continue to support creators by leaving comments and kudos, by liking and reblogging, by following and commissioning, and sharing and crediting their work wherever you can! Continue to make a difference!

I love you all so much!

[notttt-che]

I’m currently working on one big commission(Yes, the last one! I’m even considering not opening commissions until next year and work fully on Infurubia, time will tell)

Since I have nothing to post(Again ._.) I recorded this tiny video last week. I actually drew more beyond what you see but I will probably do another video when I’ve done much more. It contains one nudity sketch I believe...

Sometimes I don't want to draw OCs and I saw someone doing a full sketchbook of fanart so I thought of drawing once in a while some bits of it.

Emma, Norman, Ray and Phil from The Promised Neverland

Madotsuki from Yume Nikki

Sirene from Devilman

Little devils from Codex Trujillo

Everyone else is OCs and some random heads and character designs. I know I draw more heads that the rest of the body but for me, it’s the part where I can express the character personality more(Then I think about body build and clothings) I prefer doing concept art actually on PC so I have a whole variety of colors there but I don’t mind sketching some via traditional media first and give them a vague color scheme. Last part of the video contains some sketches from The Cornucopia Witch(One large otome game idea I have)  I’m posting those sketches down below and adding their brief description that might erase later because I have no intention of developing anything else until Infurubia is done.

But when the time comes, I will leave up to you guys what game do you want me to do next, since I will start doing commercial games.(So far what I have in mind are 3 ideas: Border 8, a 3 episodes long mystery/paranormal vn, Book of Monsters, 3 episodes monster boy otome and The Cornucopia Witch, otome as well)

So the witch cornucopia is an idea I’ve been harvesting for a long time. I’m not going to spoil much about the plot but I’m pretty sure I’ve mentioned this game before in this Tumblr. I referred to this game as frustration: the otome and it’s basically because the MC is meant to ruin all LIs lives out of the bat and the game consists in fixing it. Speaking vaguely of it, in this world magic isn’t learned but inherited, so there are a few magicians with a specialty in particular. Every 10 years they reunite one month to discuss how their magic affects the current times and the host will always be the MC, the witch of the horn of plenty.

The MC: Cornucopia’s witch. Is forced to act high and mighty bc she is an important figure in the magical scene but the truth is she is really a meek person.

LI 1: Childhood friend/ “Prince” type character. Tall and charming.Works for the military of three different countries in developing new weaponry. Can’t talk much about this chara yet ._.

LI2, the cat. His body is split into 7 black cats, so most of the time you can’t see his real form. Sneaky and observant. His story may give a bunch of spoilers so I can’t talk much about him.

(No, he doesn’t have cat ears and tail......Sadly, debating if I should add him a fang tho, but LI below have one so...)

LI3, the dragon. Big(As Gervase) but speaks very little. Dragons are noble creatures and witches and wizards avoid to befriend them because they are afraid to “stain” them. For unknown reasons, he inherited magic.***He is pretty much expressionless and never opens his eyes(Almost, you may see him doing it once a while but it’s meant to be a little upsetting haha)

This is not a LI but a major character. The witch of Lust. Bounces between a male and female body of different ages. It’s a bit insane but most of the time speaks the truth with a lot of bluntness. 

[disarmingly]

:D

Ah, thank you so much for agreeing to the commission, you made me really happy!

Don’t worry please and take all the time you need! I can be patient if it‘s worth the wait and with your works it definitely is.

To be honest I‘d like it even more if you wouldn‘t explicitly state that they are soulmates - but you can still make it as soulmate-y as you want. I know it‘s pathetic but this way I can tell myself that it‘s a realistic story and that it could also happen in the real world? Ah, please just ignore this I’m stupid for wanting to find someone like that. Don’t let my rambling burden you please.

You can reply however you want, with or without showing my messages, however you feel more comfortable. If you’d rather speak to me directly you can also use this mail address if you want to but if you’d rather talk via tumblr that’s fine as well :)

Could you however do me a great favour please and tell me at least vaguely what amount of money you’d like to get? Because I know that your work and your time and the effort and soul you put into your writing are essentially beyond prize/priceless but I want to give you at least something in return and therefore I’d like to know with what kind of price you’d be ok. So could you please tell me? :) You don’t have to tell me right away, you can think about it a while longer if you want to. But please no saying that your working isn’t good enough to be payed for or anything like that because it obviously IS good enough or else I wouldn’t be willing to pay for it, would I? ;)

Have a good (relaxing, fulfilling, maybe even happy) day

Commission anon

P.S.

Not commission related and probably a bit too personal but; is there anything one could do to make you feel a bit more safe or grounded? You sound awfully lost in your last posts and it pains my soul to think that you might be hurting. So if there’s ANYTHING that might help, that I could do please let me know. And if it’s too much/too personal to ask this or too overwhelming and confusing right now or if makes you uncomfortable then please ignore this and just pretend it was never there.

i can definitely make the soulmate thing very clear. that is a thing i haven’t done before so im interested in it i mean in that it would be a very like…concrete thing rather than my typical kind of implied or proven ways. some combination ^^;; especially for yoonkook / sugakookie im interested in this. i have so many ideas for this sort of longing and finding and completion motifs that im always really into haha ;; it’s like you picked things you already know i like ;; i feel al ittle bad…ah uiojklefsd i will do my best. as for price i um…i mean i have just no meter for the worth of my own things… i was looking around at other fic commissions and there seems to be a range of 15-20 dollars? for like 3k? and then $5 for every additional 1k? but idk if that’s reasonable or just what i’m seeing bc that’s all twitter is showing me squints into the distance…..some people have different base prices than the 15-20 for longfic ranging from like 40-50 but at that point i become really uncomfortable. i know that when i asked someone their opinion they were like blah blah professional writers blah this many words per blah etc…and they weren’t wrong. professional writers do or at least CAN get paid like $100 a day but lol i was like first of all i think i’ve seen people pay for fanart maybe around 80-150? but i think writing is generally harder for people to um… put a monetary unit on. idk. im using that acronym a lot im sorry ;; im just nervous ah. this is one huge clump of babbling ;; i havent actually slept in a few days so like is why im able to answer haha bc my nerves are lowered i guess bc im so…sleepy…b-but i hope that…is a sense of things? at least or if you want i can babble more later…in mail or something ;;

it is selfish of me but the post script makes me feel idk like im always crying a lot lately but that sort of crying that it gives me is kind of hopeful. it’s not so much that i think it’ll be okay like oh it will be okay but that…the crying is like a path to thinking sometimes things are close enough to okay. i always look at how worse people have it. i try to be in perspective no matter how bad it gets for me it cant be so bad because its not like it is for other people in more dire situations. but then i think if someone told me they felt like this i would tell them: everything is relative. i would tell them its okay to be worried or sad because thats the honest feeling….but somehow even knowing this i cant quite do it for myself. i think though a thing like what you tell me, that you care and stuff…ah it’s really… im so stupid haha it’s like too much and just perfect all at once because i guess part of me needs that. but i should do better. to deserve it. im sorry i hope this makes sense. i think this is my last reply of the night but mor e later ihope…

please take care commissions anon<3 and thank youfor thinking im worth…anything. really thank you…/rubs eyes ;_;