#bc I’m autistic and this is a special interest and I’ve prob watched over a hundred times and I’m telling you

[sluttyspiderkinnie]

Also! I feel like there was serious corporal punishment and/or imprisonment or even execution on Shlorp if you refused to conform, since that’s the biggest emphasis we’ve seen on what’s an extremely important Shlorpian value. So the other theory I’d be willing to accept is that Terry did this because he was assigned to since there’s still no sense of free will without awful painful or lethal punishment. There’s just absolutely nothing canonically provided to convince me that he would’ve gone along with this unless he was going to be hurt or killed.

Also because I’ve been talking so much recently about deeper analysis of characters and my begging for more background about pre-mission lives on Shlorp, I’d like to point out that it’s totally fair of Korvo to be frustrated that Terry really doesn’t care about the mission and doesn’t know what he’s talking about when he’s supposed to be an expert on the pupa. But I also speculate/headcanon that Terry cheated and lied his way into even getting a mission because if he didn’t he would’ve been left to die. Either that or something just bad was gonna happen to him. What I’ve been imagining is that when Shlorp blew up, they left a lot of Shlorpians to die if they didn’t think they’d be beneficial to creating a new and even further advanced society for Shlorp 2.0. I just don’t think that Terry would’ve even put in the effort to do all of that unless there was a serious motive to. And I think if he actually disclosed literally any of that to Korvo then he’d be way more understanding and patient w Terry. But also he’d still be like pls help me I get it but this still sucks for me because I feel duped and being lied to abt what I was going into is not fair to me. I am beggingggggg for context about this.

[asdthoughts]

tips for shutdowns/meltdowns/overloads

*note- i apologize for the lack of color/organization, colors strain my eyes too much. i am also using small words n statements bc i’m currently v overstimulated so i’m sorry if sum words aren’t clear. /gen

follow autistic/neurodivergent accs on insta (or any other social media but the ones that i’ve found most helpful have been on insta), they post lots of tips and helpful info as well as validation and encouragement. sum of these can be found under #happeycore :)

apps like jelly dream (watch jellyfish, customize the lighting, and change the types of jellyfish), heat pad (changes color as you tap on the screen with your body heat), fidget toy pack (has lots and lots of different fidget toys that r virtual), etc. help me a lot bc they either help me get energy out or give me smthn calming to do while i calm down

listening to 8d/slowed/pitched down music, rain, nature sounds, etc. helps me as it gives my brain a calm thing to focus on. i usually listen to the neighborhood, arctic monkeys, hozier, the 1975, etc. slowed down.

noise canceling headphones r a lifesaver. the ones i have for a gun range, they’re hollow n create a vacuum around ur ears, and i highly recommend them. if not, earplugs, earbuds, or even just a pillow over ur head, can help a lot.

fidget toys. this seems obvious but they can rly help. if u can’t get some, trying getting the like $2 kids toys at like the checkout lines or smthn. just smthn small and cheap so you can say ur gonna give it to a kid if u need to. like i got a rubber dino to squeeze, and a shark with those squishy beads in it from a dollar store.

try engaging with ur special interest. sometimes it’s hard to even have the energy to keep ur eyes open but, if u have the energy, smthn as simple as holding an item that’s related to a special interest/hyperfixation can help a lot. like for me, i hold some of my favorite rocks, watch the jellyfish or ocean things, or count my stickers.

try changing ur clothes or surroundings. sometimes those can be part of the problem without u realizing. i always try to change into my comfy pajamas if i can. i recommend getting the workout clothes from like target or walmart (or the pajamas that don’t look a lot like pajamas), or getting a seam ripper to thoroughly get the tags off, for really soft clothes.

try to use an alternative form of communication. writing, signing, typing, texting, using a text to speech voice, etc. even if u have the energy to talk, sometimes it’s best to save the energy u have. it can b hard to feel comfortable doing that so i’d suggest not trying to do smthn that’ll just work u up more but if u feel comfy, it can help a lot.

*i probs have more but i’m tired. also check the tags pls. feel free to rb/comment any tips u have :)

[troglobite]

fhsldhs i was listening at work and i got a bit distracted when they were reading the submission and then i realized they were talking about ice skating and was like "WAIT WAS THAT BECK'S" and went back to hear that bit again and was disappointed that it was not yours

also i super wanna submit something myself but am afraid i would not be able to limit it to a few sentences. *~*~AUTISM~*~*

@drcoxsredwingsjersey

completely forgot to reply to this earlier bc i slept in super late BUT thank you bc same. lol unfortunately twas not....but fate had been so cruel as to trick us BOTH into thinking that it was... lol

also dude, same. i’m afraid that’s why they didn’t read mine. technically it was only a few sentences. then i hit space several times and said ‘this isn’t for the podcast, this is for y’all’ and linked like....6 videos for them to watch. BUT LIKE. HOW CAN I MAKE THEM UNDERSTAND MY ENTHUSIASM FOR YUZU’S SKATING IF I DON’T SHOW THEM HIS SKATING???? anyway. lol

it’s also weird to me that they repeat “keep it to one or two sentences” when the things they read are like clearly MORE than that. idk.

but yeah it’s like. you can’t...create a show...about enthusiasm and love and wonderful things and excitement and positivity....and not expect a shitload of your autistic or otherwise neurodivergent fans to be like “HERE’S MY GIANT INFODUMP TREATISE ON WHY THIS PARTICULAR NICHE INTEREST GIVES MY LIFE JOY” like ???? my dudes, i have loved figure skating since i was a KID. i used to have figure skating barbies and make the kitchen floor a skating rink and make them do incredible jumps and then commentate like the people on the olympics. i’ve spent HOURS researching this shit, deciphering the official score cards from the ISU that are only posted on a difficult to find link on their fucking website and have, of course, stayed up until 5 in the morning to watch a livestream of various competitions because i wanted to see it live with no/good commentary, instead of the heavily edited and talked-over GARBAGE that NBC airs. 

lol idk it’s bizarre it’s just kinda like. suuuuper wish they’d devote a bigger segment of the show to like--like, they do the regular amount of time for some short listener submissions, but then they’d pick one Bigger Submission and talk about it a little longer.

because the idea is to SPREAD that joy and enthusiasm??? and i sent them the videos (after making it clear only the short few sentences were meant for the podcast) bc i want THEM to be enthusiastic about it too! i want them to watch the routines and cry or cheer and clap! i want them to get it! same thing with shakespeare! or performance poetry! i want people to get it and then to enjoy it! if it’s not their thing that’s okay, but i want to invite them in so they at least have all the info to decide whether or not it’s their thing.

PLUUUUUUUS the skating season has ALREADY STARTED. like the us classic started yesterday and pairs and mens skated today! nathan chen and jason brown debuted their new short programs! like!!!! jason brown is skating to HAMILTON and i am 1000000% about to go youtube it and check it out (the livestream kept freezing for me earlier :( )

and yuzuru’s competing at the----...autumn classic? i think? and i’m SO FUCKING EXCITED for his new (old) programs. they’ve been updated, and this fucker has been practicing a fucking quadruple axel are you motherfucking kidding me i guarantee it’s not competition ready but NEITHER AM I so it’s a good thing. lol 

i just---AJSDLFKJSDLKFJSLDFKJASDLKJ SPECIAL INTERESTS I AM IN SPECIAL INTEREST HELL RN I NEED RACHEL AND GRIFFIN TO LISTEN TO A TEENY TINY BIT OF THIS. lololol

i’m probs gonna send in another but about the OSF instead... oh! about the show Will! i think that’ll be good. yeah, okay, i can keep that short, i think....

i just want to spread my LOVE. :( lol