#bamf tahl

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Fandom: Star Wars, Prequel Trilogy, Jedi Apprentice Series, The Wrath of Darth Maul, Star Wars: Rebels, Star Wars Legends: Tales of the Jedi

Chapter: 29/?

Rating: Mature

Warnings: Graphic Depictions of Violence

Relationships: Obi-Wan Kenobi & Xanatos, Qui-Gon JInn & Feemor, Feemor & Bruck Chun, Xanatos & Qui-Gon Jinn

Characters: Obi-Wan Kenobi, Xanatos, Qui-Gon Jinn, Feemor, Bruck Chun, Bant Eerin, Tahl, Quinlan Vos, Ahsoka Tano, Orykan Tamarik, Cay Qel-Droma

Additional Tags:  Time Travel, Time Travel Fix-It, Angst, Fluff, Hurt/Comfort, Liberal Use of the Force, It Gets Worse Before it Gets Better, Found Family, Secret Identity, Yoda’s Disaster Lineage, Redemption, Psychological Trauma, Unhealthy Coping Mechanisms, PTSD, Panic Attacks, Slavery, Minor Character Death, Graphic Death, Graphic Injury, Body Horror, Force Ghosts, Minor OCs, BAMF Obi-Wan Kenobi, Everyone Needs a Hug, Everyone Gets a Hug, Xanatos is a little shit but we love him, Protective Feemor, Bruck Chun gets some character development :)

Summary:

“Young Bant Eerin is having…difficulties.”

Feemor frowns. “Master, we have no way of knowing what she is truly seeing. It could be past, present or future— and we do not even know if the future she sees will come to pass.”

Even so, Bant’s visions are troubling, full of shadow and violence. At the centre of it all is one person. Sometimes man. Sometimes boy. Sometimes something else entirely. But it is always Kenobi, there is no denying that. His essence is the same, no matter how it twists and warps and crumbles.

“If we could only find him—” Qui-Gon interrupts himself, gaze far-off. “In another life, maybe, he could have been my- my padawan, but now…”

Feemor worries for his former Master. And for this strange youngling he’s never even met, and likely never will.

-

In which Obi-Wan acts in the only way he knows how after a lifetime of regret and self-sacrifice.

But the thing with that is this: Obi-Wan has thought himself to be alone for far, far too long. And he is not the only player on the field.

[ao3feed-obikin]

Brought to Light

read it on the AO3 at https://archiveofourown.org/works/49157002 by Red_Raven_Reading Anakin Skywalker and Obi-Wan Kenobi are in a very controversial romantic relationship, and in the middle of a war, so have to be discreet. They fail. Many times. Or, alternatively, 14 Times Someone Realised Obi-Wan Kenobi and Anakin Skywalker are Sickeningly in Love and the 1 Time They Didn’t Hide. Words: 22265, Chapters: 1/1, Language: English Series: Part 2 of Seduced by the Light Verse Fandoms: Star Wars - All Media Types, Star Wars Prequel Trilogy, Star Wars: The Clone Wars (2008) - All Media Types Rating: Mature Warnings: Creator Chose Not To Use Archive Warnings Categories: F/M Characters: Obi-Wan Kenobi, Anakin Skywalker, Mace Windu, Yoda (Star Wars), Kit Fisto, Asajj Ventress, Ki-Adi-Mundi, CC-2224 | Cody, CT-7567 | Rex, Hondo Ohnaka, Dooku | Darth Tyranus, Ahsoka Tano, Quinlan Vos, Cad Bane, Bail Organa, Padmé Amidala, Sheev Palpatine | Darth Sidious, Original Characters, Bant Eerin Relationships: Obi-Wan Kenobi/Anakin Skywalker, Obi-Wan Kenobi & Anakin Skywalker & Ahsoka Tano, Obi-Wan Kenobi & Ahsoka Tano, Bant Eerin & Obi-Wan Kenobi, Padmé Amidala & Anakin Skywalker, Obi-Wan Kenobi & Asajj Ventress, Ki Adi Mundi & Anakin Skywalker, CC-2224 | Cody & CT-7567 | Rex, CT-7567 | Rex & Anakin Skywalker, CC-2224 | Cody & Obi-Wan Kenobi, Dooku & Obi-Wan Kenobi, Dooku & Jocasta Nu, Dooku & Sifo-Dyas (Star Wars), Obi-Wan Kenobi & Quinlan Vos, Obi-Wan Kenobi & Bail Organa, Padmé Amidala & Obi-Wan Kenobi, Sheev Palpatine & Anakin Skywalker, Anakin Skywalker & Mace Windu Additional Tags: Mentioned Qui-Gon Jinn, Past Qui-Gon Jinn/Tahl, Past Padmé Amidala/Anakin Skywalker, Families of Choice, Torture, Aftermath of Torture, Post-Battle of Jabiim (Star Wars Legends: Republic Comics: Issue 55), Post-Movie: Star Wars: The Clone Wars (2008), Episode: s01e11 Dooku Captured, Episode: s01e12 The Gungan General, Force Bond (Star Wars), Mentioned Sifo-Dyas (Star Wars), Mentioned Jocasta Nu, The Force Ships It (Star Wars), Post-Episode: s01e20 Innocents of Ryloth, Mentioned Barriss Offee, Episode: s03e09 Hunt for Ziro, Mentioned Aayla Secura, Episode: s04e18 Crisis on Naboo, Post-Zigoola (Star Wars), Protective Padmé Amidala, Delegation of 2000 (Star Wars), Mentioned Clone Force 99 | Bad Batch, Mentioned Grievous | Qymaen jai Sheelal, Canon Divergence - Star Wars: Revenge of the Sith, Female Obi-Wan Kenobi, Anakin Skywalker Doesn't Turn to the Dark Side, Pregnancy, Anakin Skywalker Needs a Hug, Anakin Skywalker Gets a Hug, BAMF Obi-Wan Kenobi, Protective Anakin Skywalker, Obi-Wan Kenobi is So Done, Mace Windu is So Done, Troll Yoda (Star Wars) read it on the AO3 at https://archiveofourown.org/works/49157002

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Baby kitsune obiwan and quigon finally reconcile with lots of cuddles and fluff with mom tahl in the background?

@mostie01

“I am losing him, Tahl. And I don’t know what I can do to change that.”

The honey skinned Jedi had never seen her friend since childhood in such an emotional state. He was lying on his bed, yet it looked like he had not sleeping at all the last night. Also, it didn’t seem, as if he was going to leave his bed anytime soon. He looked like a beaten puppy, close to tears, yet unable to shed them. She didn’t need to be a genius, to know what was bothering him though.

In a gentle voice, she said, “Qui-Gon… you are certainly not going to make things better by falling into depression or by lying all day long in your bed. Have you even tried to talk to him?”

“Of course I have,” his tone was aggressive, but he finally had sat up, “But he won’t talk with me.”

Tahl remained calm. “No, Qui-Gon. I mean, have you actually TALKED with him? I don’t mean about your unfortunate situation, but about… it doesn’t matter about what. And if he does not answer you, or say something in return, than that is fine too. Remain calm and keep talking. He… I don’t know what actually happened between you two and what made Obi-Wan do, what he did. I only know that he is traumatized and NOT by the incident. Something was bothering him way before he was hit by that speeder.”

The long haired man sighed. “What could it be though?”

The honey skinned female shrugged, where she sat on the edge of the soft mattress. “What did he say to you again ‘what would be different’? Have you ever considered… that your protectiveness of him, might go too far, or that he does not understand. Your fox boy is still young, Qui, perhaps he thinks that you are ashamed of him and that you won’t allow him out because of this.”

As much as he hated to admit it, it WAS a possibility. Another heartfelt sigh escaped the male Jedi, he ran with his hand through his face and finally nodded. “I will take him to the garden, or the Fountain Room today, if the healers allow it that is. Perhaps that will cheer him up.” In his eyes raged a storm. “I don’t want to lose him.”

“I know,” she said softly. She patted his arm reassuringly and finally stood up, leaving and therefore giving her friend enough privacy to change and to collect his thoughts. Silently, she sent a quick prayer to the Force and hoped, that her friend would find his happiness again and that soon.

“Have I ever told you about the first time that I landed in the healer’s ward?” Qui-Gon had not expected an answer from the silent boy, who was slowly following behind him. It was a great accomplishment that he had even GOT the boy to go with him. He continued, “It had been a very stupid accident. Mace - believe it or not, he was a funny guy and a real troublemaker, before he got a seat on the Council - had dared me too climb the big tree that is still standing in the middle of the Fountain Room, guarding all Jedi and all that grows here. The challenge was not that hard and I had already won the dare, but Tahl had been present… and I was a young boy, trying to impress her. I fell, of course, and broke an arm and a leg.”

He chuckled fondly at the memory, even though his younger self would probably call him insane. In hindsight, he had truly been a idiotic Padawan. He should have known that it wouldn’t impress Tahl, hell, she had not even been looking, while he had climbed higher and higher.

“Needless to say, I got the biggest scolding in my life from my Master… after I was released from the healer’s wing, he forced me to sit in a corner in our quarters, for hours. I learnt the template of his wallpaper by heart… it had not been pleasant.”

“Was he… mad?” the question was an innocent whisper and Qui-Gon had to force himself not to stop and stare at the boy. he was sure that it would have scared the boy back into his secluded self again. 

“He was furious,”  he shuddered at the memory. “I didn’t understand his ire and his punishments then, I was a reckless and mindless boy after all. But a few days later, something similar happened. Just… this time the Initiate was not as lucky as I had obviously been… and I suddenly realized that the reason for my Master’s reactions was the fact, that he cared about me, very much.” From the corner of his eyes, he saw Obi-Wan’s eyebrows furrow.

“What happened?”

He eventually DID stop walking, but just because they had reached the place he had wanted to go. They were now standing under the thick and large branches of the tree that had already been there when Yoda was a Padawan, at least that is what the green troll always said. 

“He died,” he replied slowly, his gaze was distant. “He hit his head and all the arriving healers could do, was determining his death.”

“Why did he do it? I mean… after your accident?” he seemed in a good mood today and Qui-Gon silently thanked Tahl for that. He had a feeling that his best friend had been visiting Obi-Wan before he had.

“I don’t know. Perhaps he got bullied into it, perhaps he just wanted to show everyone that he was better than I was. But those are just assumptions. I truly cannot tell you the reason for his actions.” He hesitated, “Why does a being do, what it does? Sometimes, our actions do not seem to make any sense, sometimes they appear to be more harmful than actually helpful. Sometimes, we do something rash, without seeing the consequences and then we get a big surprise. And sometimes, it would have been better to talk first.”

He looked down at the ginger haired boy, whose face was still heavily bruised and who was also still recovering from his broken bones. Obi-Wan started to fidget under his scrutinizing gaze and he did not seem to want to say anything more on this matter. That was fine by him, he would give his kitsune a little time.

Qui-Gon turned away from his young charge again and moved towards the tree roots that peeked out of the ground. He let himself drop to the floor and leaned against the hard wood, tilting his head back and closing his eyes. He was glad that he had chosen this time of the day, when most young Jedi had classes and most adults were sparing. He was distantly aware of a pair of feet, their owner was limping slightly, coming hesitantly closer. He made no move to acknowledge Obi-Wan however.

“Will you punish me too?” asked the young fox demon eventually.

Surprised, Qui-Gon reopened his midnight blue eyes and gazed upon the uncomfortable looking ginger haired boy. Awkwardly, he cleared his throat. “Why do you ask.”

Obi-Wan shrugged, his gaze turning to his feet. “Tahl said you cared about me.”

“Ah,” he nodded in understanding, before taking a deep breath, releasing it through his nose. “I think… I think you have been punished enough… by your accident, I mean.”

Obi-Wan nodded slightly. “And the muzzle?” So it WAS bothering him after all.

“The Council can go to all nine Sith hells for all I care, I am not going to make your wear that… that…. thing, like an animal.” His outrage must have shown.

A pair of blue-green eyes gazed up, confusion and a tiny glimmer of hope in them. The young boy’s mouth was partly open, as if he wanted to say something, but didn’t know how to voice it. Qui-Gon remained patient and waited.

“Why not?” something told the long haired Jedi Master that this was the core of all their problems and something told him that his next words, were crucial.

“Obi-Wan,” his voice was serious, deadly serious, “you are NOT an animal. You may be a fox demon, but this doesn’t define you and you shouldn’t let it.”

Small hands turned into fists, “And why do you treat me like one?”

Qui-Gon blinked. He had seen the glittering tears that his boy had quickly hidden, by turning away. “What?” he was taken aback by the question.

“Why do you treat me like a monster, if that is not what I am?”

“How… How can you say that?” he jumped to his feet, intending to cover the distance between him and his distraught charge, but Obi-Wan wouldn’t allow it. He always took a step back, when Qui-Gon took one towards him.

“Why else would you not allow me to go out? Why else am I not allowed to have contact with anyone else? I am dangerous, aren’t I? I am a monster, an abnormality, that’s why you keep me in your quarters… that’s why you will never really love me!” to the end of his speech, Obi-Wan had gotten louder, until he was yelling. By now, there were also tears running down his bruised cheeks.

Suddenly, as if all strength had left him, the tall Jedi Master fell to his knees, his arms hanging useless at his sides. He looked at the boy before him with disbelieving eyes. “That is…” his voice was shaking, “That is not the reason why I wouldn’t allow you to leave. Is this truly what you believed?”

Obi-Wan nodded.

“Oh child,” this explained so much. He could not believe that he had made his boy think that he was a dangerous monster that needed to be kept imprisoned. “I am so sorry,” tears were now falling from his eyes too, he had hurt his boy so much. How could he ever hope of forgiveness and trust.

Obi-Wan was taken aback by the unusual outburst of the man before him. Never before had he seen his Daddy cry, never before had he seen him so broken and defeated. But before he could say and retort something, Qui-Gon was already talking again.

“I am sorry Obi-Wan. I had not realized… I should have known… I…”

“Daddy?” he whispered, still unsure what to make out of this.

The brown haired man had to close his eyes at what he was still called. He had still a chance, but this time, he needed to take it. “I thought you understood. Of course I don’t think you are a monster. And I didn’t want you to leave our quarters alone, because of what happened. You ARE different, there is no denying that, but different doesn’t necessarily mean something bad. I think you are beautiful, you have pure heart and I know that one day, you will become the best Jedi this Order has ever seen. But… but people tend to be afraid and sceptical, when things are concerned that they do not know. This is why the Initiates attacked you… I don’t you to get hurt, I just meant to protect you.”

The young kitsune was stunned by the emotional explanation. It made sense what his Daddy was saying. He HAD felt fear and anger and jealously from the boys, who had attacked him. Could it be true, did his Daddy truly not think him a monster? He decided to test it out and carefully, he took a few steps closer, until he was standing right in front of the still kneeling man. He too got to his knees. A pair of midnight blue eyes were watching him and there was a great sadness in them.

Qui-Gon noticed the return of that small spark of hope he had seen earlier. It had grown and it gave HIM hope too. 

“Obi-Wan?”

The ginger haired fox demon leaned forward, until he was resting against the other’s chest. Then, he whispered, “I love you.” He held his breath, not daring to move and waiting for the older male’s reaction.

“I love you too, my little one,” a pair of strong arms wrapped around the kitsune. “More than anything else. I never meant to hurt you, you have to believe me?” Qui-Gon buried his nose in coppery hair. the boy smelled of healing wing, something he would change as soon as possible.

“I know,” and now, he truly did. Something between them snapped wide open in this moment and Obi-Wan was flooded, with what he identified as his Daddy’s emotions, mostly his love and his need to make it up to him.

He snuggled closer to the tall man and he allowed his tears of suppressed emotions to fall. A lot has built up the last few days and it needed to get out, it WANTED to get out, especially after such a revelation. Obi-Wan just wished he had known about his Daddy’s true intentions a lot sooner, it could have spared them both a lot of pain.

“We will be alright, my dear one, my little sunshine. We’ll be alright,” Qui-Gon was mumbling nonsense in his charge’s hair and he did not know if it was meant to assure him or his boy. It didn’t matter though, for Obi-Wan relaxed more and more against him. 

After a while, the Jedi Master maneuvered himself and his little fox boy so, that he was once more leaning against the giant tree, with Obi-Wan comfortable on his lap. The boy seemed reluctant to let go, then again, Qui-Gon could completely understand him. 

“Sleep,” he cooed, when he felt the young one’s tiredness over their bond, “I’ll be there.”

“Promise?” Obi-Wan yawned.

“I promise.” They were not completely done with talking yet, but at least the biggest misunderstanding was cleared. And finally, they were reunited again and now that they were, Qui-Gon would make sure that they would remain as such.

[obaewankenope]

Two Roads Diverged [AO3]

My fic for the Star Wars Big Bang of 2021!

Summary:

Obi-Wan Kenobi watched a dynasty fall. Ben Kenobi lives a second life and promises to prevent the demise of all he holds dear. The Force is his ally. He trusts in the Force. He is the instrument of the Will of the Force.

Ben Kenobi will not fail a second time.

In which the Chosen One perhaps is not who the Order believed it to be and the Force acts in mysterious and confusing ways. The end result is something different and new. A bright future rather than burning flames.

Of course, Ben Kenobi is the focal point of it all. Why wouldn’t he be, with his luck?

Relationships: Obi-Wan Kenobi & Qui-Gon Jinn, Obi-Wan Kenobi & Anakin Skywalker, Obi-Wan Kenobi & Garen Muln, Obi-Wan Kenobi & Bant Eerin, Obi-Wan Kenobi & Garen Muln & Bant Eerin, Tahl & Qui-Gon Jinn, Cliegg Lars/Aika Lars, Cliegg Lars/Shmi Skywalker, Obi-Wan Kenobi & Yoda, Yoda & Mace Windu, Obi-Wan Kenobi & Mace Windu, Padmé Amidala/Anakin Skywalker

Additional Tags: Alternate Universe - Canon Divergence, Time-Travel, Fix-it fic, Obi-Wan Kenobi Needs a Hug, Obi-Wan Kenobi has Trauma, Xanatos lives, Anakin Skywalker Is Good, Star Wars: Prequel Era Fix-It, Obi-Wan Kenobi Loves Anakin Skywalker, BAMF Obi-Wan Kenobi, Obi-Wan Kenobi is a Mess, Obi-Wan Kenobi Gets Therapy, Qui-Gon Jinn Lives, Shmi Skywalker Lives, Sheev Palpatine | Darth Sidious Being an Asshole, POV Obi-Wan Kenobi, Force Shenanigans (Star Wars), Jedi as Found Family (Star Wars), Found Family, A collection of family shaped people, Families of Choice, Asexual Obi-Wan Kenobi, Asexual Qui-Gon Jinn, Asexuality Spectrum

Art-work done by @stars-in-my-damn-eyes who is wonderful!

[cross-d-a]

Fandom: Star Wars, Prequel Trilogy, Jedi Apprentice Series, The Wrath of Darth Maul, Star Wars: Rebels, Star Wars Legends: Tales of the Jedi

Chapter: 27/?

Rating: Mature

Warnings: Graphic Depictions of Violence

Relationships: Obi-Wan Kenobi & Xanatos, Qui-Gon JInn & Feemor, Feemor & Bruck Chun, Xanatos & Qui-Gon Jinn

Characters: Obi-Wan Kenobi, Xanatos, Qui-Gon Jinn, Feemor, Bruck Chun, Bant Eerin, Tahl, Quinlan Vos, Ahsoka Tano, Orykan Tamarik, Cay Qel-Droma

Additional Tags:  Time Travel, Time Travel Fix-It, Angst, Fluff, Liberal Use of the Force, Found Family, Secret Identity, Yoda's Disaster Lineage, Redemption, Psychological Trauma, Unhealthy Coping Mechanisms, PTSD, Panic Attacks, Slavery, Minor Character Death, Graphic Death, Body Horror, Force Ghosts, Minor OCs, BAMF Obi-Wan Kenobi

Summary:

“Young Bant Eerin is having…difficulties.”

Feemor frowns. “Master, we have no way of knowing what she is truly seeing. It could be past, present or future— and we do not even know if the future she sees will come to pass.”

Even so, Bant’s visions are troubling, full of shadow and violence. At the centre of it all is one person. Sometimes man. Sometimes boy. Sometimes something else entirely. But it is always Kenobi, there is no denying that. His essence is the same, no matter how it twists and warps and crumbles.

“If we could only find him—” Qui-Gon interrupts himself, gaze far-off. “In another life, maybe, he could have been my- my padawan, but now…”

Feemor worries for his former Master. And for this strange youngling he's never even met, and likely never will.

--

In which Obi-Wan acts in the only way he knows how after a lifetime of regret and self-sacrifice.

But the thing with that is this: Obi-Wan has thought himself to be alone for far, far too long. And he is not the only player on the field.

[cross-d-a]

Fandom: Star Wars, Prequel Trilogy, Jedi Apprentice Series, The Wrath of Darth Maul, Star Wars: Rebels, Star Wars Legends: Tales of the Jedi

Chapter: 28/?

Rating: Mature

Warnings: Graphic Depictions of Violence

Relationships: Obi-Wan Kenobi & Xanatos, Qui-Gon JInn & Feemor, Feemor & Bruck Chun, Xanatos & Qui-Gon Jinn

Characters: Obi-Wan Kenobi, Xanatos, Qui-Gon Jinn, Feemor, Bruck Chun, Bant Eerin, Tahl, Quinlan Vos, Ahsoka Tano, Orykan Tamarik, Cay Qel-Droma

Additional Tags:  Time Travel, Time Travel Fix-It, Angst, Fluff, Hurt/Comfort, Liberal Use of the Force, It Gets Worse Before it Gets Better, Found Family, Secret Identity, Yoda’s Disaster Lineage, Redemption, Psychological Trauma, Unhealthy Coping Mechanisms, PTSD, Panic Attacks, Slavery, Minor Character Death, Graphic Death, Graphic Injury, Body Horror, Force Ghosts, Minor OCs, BAMF Obi-Wan Kenobi, Everyone Needs a Hug, Everyone Gets a Hug, Xanatos is a little shit but we love him, Protective Feemor, Bruck Chun gets some character development :)

Summary:

“Young Bant Eerin is having…difficulties.”

Feemor frowns. “Master, we have no way of knowing what she is truly seeing. It could be past, present or future— and we do not even know if the future she sees will come to pass.”

Even so, Bant’s visions are troubling, full of shadow and violence. At the centre of it all is one person. Sometimes man. Sometimes boy. Sometimes something else entirely. But it is always Kenobi, there is no denying that. His essence is the same, no matter how it twists and warps and crumbles.

“If we could only find him—” Qui-Gon interrupts himself, gaze far-off. “In another life, maybe, he could have been my- my padawan, but now…”

Feemor worries for his former Master. And for this strange youngling he’s never even met, and likely never will.

–

In which Obi-Wan acts in the only way he knows how after a lifetime of regret and self-sacrifice.

But the thing with that is this: Obi-Wan has thought himself to be alone for far, far too long. And he is not the only player on the field.