#balladeerfic

[balladeerssong]

Scaramouche x fem!Reader smau. masterlist.

prev. | PART XI. - nexus. | next.

in which Ajax comes clean, suddenly making everything and nothing make sense (written part).

It took you a few deep breaths to finally pick up his call after staring at his name for long enough. You don't say a word after raising your phone to your ear, waiting for him to speak.

"Y/n?" his voice low, he calls out to you, making sure he wasn't imagining the soft momentarily vibration of his phone, signaling the beginning of a call.

"Hello, Ajax." you reply simply, toying with the string of your hoodie while comfortably sitting in your gaming chair.

"Y/n, I.. I wanted to talk to you about this before, but I just couldn't."

That was strange. You've never heard Ajax have so much distress in his tone, let alone trip over his words or stutter. It was now quite clear - his sudden request to call yesterday night was NOT about the collab stream.

"What's wrong?" you ask with genuine worry in your voice, shifting on your seat slightly.

"I wanted to do this properly, but you leave me no choice, Y/n. You can't believe how incredibly ashamed I am right now."

You could practically see him pinching the bridge of his nose in front of you, like he always does when you two stream together.

"I've just.. known you for so long it makes things even harder. I'd never want to ruin such an important friendship like this."

As his words were nearing their conclusion, the blurry guess of what he was going to say was finally getting clear in your eyes.

"Ajax. Do you like me?" you ask before he could beat around the bush even longer.

He stayed silent for a minute.

"Like you? Of course I like you! Otherwise we wouldn't be frie-"

"No, Ajax. Do you like me more than just a friend?"

Silence took over once again, this time a more evident, deafening one. You could hear his soft breaths through the speaker, serving as evidence of his presence.

"Yeah. Yeah, I think I do."

Now it was your turn to be silent. Ajax was undoubtedly attractive, had a great personality and you've been close for so long, of course it was hard not to feel something for him. And yet still, your mind wandered to Kunikuzushi without you noticing. You certainly didn't like him that way, no, you had just met him. But something in you was still rejecting the idea of you and Ajax together, and you weren't sure why.

"Can we.. talk about this later?" you spoke quietly.

"Was it too sudden?"

"Yeah, I think so." you nod softly, even though he cannot see you.

"Alright Y/n. I'll talk to you later."

Without letting you respond, he hung up, the soft beeping of your phone squeezing your heart tightly. What are you supposed to do now?

[balladeerssong]

Scaramouche x fem!Reader smau. masterlist.

prev. | PART XII. - no words. | next.

in which something is off, but... why is no one saying anything again?

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| SYNOPSIS | being a uni student and a streamer at the same time, let alone doing well in both, is wonderful. but if one gets too much, the other does as well, leading to unexpected difficulties. what happenes if two strangers fall into this exact same trouble, at the exact same time?

a Scaramouche x fem!Reader, social media au.

| WARNINGS | swearing, suggestive themes, family-related trauma, love triangles, friend group dramas.

| MASTERLIST |

profiles I.

profiles II.

extra profiles

part I. - work, work, work!

part II. - wednesday?

part III. - worried.

part IV. - withdrawal.

part V. - who?

part VI. - a poem

part VII. - anony-mouche?

part VIII. - ajax..

part IX. - almost. (written)

part X. - an invitation?

part XI. - nexus.

part XII. - no words.

part XIII. - normal

part XIV. -

part XV. -

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Scaramouche x fem!Reader smau. masterlist.

prev. | PART X. - an invitation? | next.

in which a friend is there to lend a helping hand!

A/N: GOD I'M SO SORRY i literally disappeared for like what.. 2 months?? things in my personal life have been rough, but i'm back now! once again i'm very sorry for the wait 🥹🫶🏻

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Scaramouche x fem!Reader smau. masterlist.

prev. | PART VII. - anony-mouche? | next.

in which a brave move is made, causing a commotion..

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Scaramouche x fem!Reader smau. masterlist.

prev. | PART IX. - almost. | next.

in which silence is good and bad at the same time.. (written part).

Much to your surprise, by the time you got ready after agreeing to take a walk with Kunikuzushi, he was already outside of your apartment's door. The streets were dimly lit, but it wasn't hard to notice his puffy, red eyes under the streetlights. There was never silence between you two - you usually kept the convo going with whatever was on your mind. However, this time around you knew he didn't need that right now. He simpy needed someone to be silent with; someone to keep him grounded while he lets the soft wind sort his thoughts for him.

You walked in a lazy pace on the route you took the first time you hung out. The park you stopped at was one you visited countless times before during your previous years at the Akademiya, but being there with Kuni in such a comfortable silence it felt so different, it would be hard to explain. Sitting side by side on the swings, both of you gently pushing yourselves back and forth while countless thoughts occupy both of your minds.

It wasn't until your phone lit up in your hand, a text notification appearing on your screen. You took a glance at Kuni, who seemed to be too lost in thought to even notice. You took a second to open and read the messages you've recieved.

A serious message from Ajax? Surely a "once in a blue moon" experience.

You thought for a second. Issuing a call in such a serene moment would be so disrespectful, no? He probably wants to talk about something regarding the duo stream on sunday, that can probably wait a few hours.

His short response gave your heart a light squeeze. It was never your intention to hurt his feelings, but sometimes it was hard to tell if he's being serious or not. It's really just about the stream.. right?

"That message you got must be interesting. You look so distressed." Kuni's voice was quiet as he spoke. The tears he likely shed a while ago were still straining his throat.

"Oh, just one of my friends asking me where I am. Nothing to worry about."

He nodded in response, his feet slowly dangling in the air below him. He was looking at the full moon above the park, perfectly visible - its reflection in his eyes serving as a spotlight to give a clear view of his uncried tears. It felt like such a perfect moment to say something. To ask what happened, to tell him it's okay, but nothing left your mouth.

"Sumeru is great, I like it so far." He spoke before you could. Despite the comical timing to say this, it sounded genuine.

"I'm glad you do! You being here is great as well." You shot him a sweet smile, an innocent, unsuspecting one.

He wanted to tell you, he wanted to tell you everything on his mind. How his best friend was right. How he fell in love with you after the first day, how he got attached so quickly he never spent a single break in uni without you solely because of it. How his mother never loved him, never spent time with him, gods, she never even LOOKED at him. And when he saw the way you smile at him so effortlessly, how natural it is for you to be kind to him, to guide and help him, he immediately felt the bleeding hole on his heart starting to heal. But at the end of the day it was all a dirty, pitiful excuse in his head.

So maybe silence is the best choice for now.

[balladeerssong]

Scaramouche x fem!Reader smau. masterlist.

prev. | PART VIII. - ajax.. | next.

in which Ajax is a nuisance. or is he..?

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Scaramouche x fem!Reader smau. masterlist.

prev. | PART V. - who? | next.

in which your friendship seems to be a bad omen to some..

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Scaramouche x fem!Reader smau. masterlist.

prev. | PART IV. - withdrawal. | next.

in which everyone wishes the stars of the show were there.. except for them?

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prev. | PART VI. - a poem | next.

in which confessions are said, but only some are heard..

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Scaramouche x fem!Reader smau. masterlist.

prev. | PART II. - wednesday? | next.

in which wednesday is perfect! or not..

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Scaramouche x fem!Reader smau. masterlist.

prev. | PART XIII. - normal | next.

in which we confess, confuse, and conclude..

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;; ｙｏｕ＇ｒｅ ｓｏ ｂｅａｕｔｉｆｕｌ;;

ʸᵒᵘ ᵃᵈᵐⁱʳᵉ ᵉᵛᵉʳʸ ˢⁱⁿᵍˡᵉ ᵗʰⁱⁿᵍ ᵃᵇᵒᵘᵗ ʸᵒᵘʳ ᵖᵃʳᵗⁿᵉʳ, ᵃⁿᵈ ʸᵒᵘ'ʳᵉ ⁿᵒᵗ ᵃᶠʳᵃⁱᵈ ᵗᵒ ˡᵉᵗ ʰⁱᵐ ᵏⁿᵒʷ.

ʷᵃʳⁿⁱⁿᵍˢ: ᵖʳᵒᵍʳᵉˢˢⁱᵛᵉˡʸ ᵍᵉᵗˢ ˢᵘᵍᵍᵉˢᵗⁱᵛᵉ. ˢʷᵉᵃʳⁱⁿᵍ. ᵐᵉⁿᵗⁱᵒⁿˢ ᵒᶠ ᵃˢˢᵃˢˢⁱⁿᵃᵗⁱᵒⁿ.

ᵖᵃⁱʳⁱⁿᵍ: ˢᶜᵃʳᵃᵐᵒᵘᶜʰᵉ ˣ ᵍⁿ! ʳᵉᵃᵈᵉʳ

ⁿ/ᵃ: ᵗʰᵒᵘᵍʰᵗ ᵒᶠ ᵗʰⁱˢ ʷʰⁱˡᵉ ʰᵃᵛⁱⁿᵍ ᵐʸ ᵐᵒʳⁿⁱⁿᵍ ᶜᵒᶠᶠᵉᵉ, ʷʰᵃᵗ'ˢ ʷʳᵒⁿᵍ ʷⁱᵗʰ ᵐᵉ

Being the well known balladeer's lover is quite a difficult role, but you knew it from day one. Him dragging you here and there, ordering you to do things for him even though you were just an outsider for the Fatui, acting all emotionless when you needed his kind words the most; these were all common things, but you still decided to stick around. This made more than one rumours to spread around among Scaramouche's men, but they never managed to reach the leader's ears. Even if they would have, he wouldn't care. If you loved someone else, he wouldn't care. If you were only with him for his money, at least you're not useless, so he wouldn't care. If you were plotting something against the Fatui, you're weak and easy to kill, so he wouldn't care.

Of course you knew of these rumours. The thought of Scara hearing his men's version of the things going on first made you above anxious. You didn't want to lose him because of others, you loved him dearly as he is. In fact, you thought it was time to show him that he can feel too.

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"Come in." a harsh call could be heard from your lover's office.

Pushing the handle down, you enterred the room with confidence despite Scaramouche's intimidating additude. He looked up from his paperwork, and after seeing you he relaxed and layed back - he probably expected more work to be placed in front of him.

"What is it this time? Can't you see i'm busy?" Oh, you didn't care. Without answering, you approached him and simply sat in his lap.

"W-What are you-" You slowly cupped his face, stroking your fingertips along his soft cheeks. Your actions made him extremely flustered, making him turn away immediately.

"No, no, no, don't turn away!" you pleaded, gently tapping on the side of his reddened face. He turned back carefully, still avoiding eye contact.

"Your eyes.. they are so pretty." you praised him, making the harbinger shoot his eyes back at you with an angered expression, face still hot from embarrassment.

"What's the meaning of this? If you need anything, just spit it out and i'll get it, no need to-"

"Your face is so soft."

"H-hey! Are you even liste-"

"Scara, you're so beautiful."

He stopped his attempts in shutting you up. He stared at you for a brief moment, trying to process the words that just left your mouth.

"I'm- I'm beautiful?"

"Yes. Every part of you." Your words left him breathless. They were so unbelievable, he couldn't help but doubt them. There has to be something behind this, right?

"Your neck too, it's so delicate." Running your hands down from his face to his collarbone, you leaned in to place a few gentle kisses on his skin. It sent shivers down Scara's spine, melting in your touch, but he couldn't let his guard down. As you started to softly bite and suck on his sensitive spots, he let out a quiet whimper, but he immediately covered his mouth with the back of his hand.

A mere minute passed, but it felt like an eternity for the both of you. Your lover was slowly getting lost in pleasure getting more and more red until there was no deeper colour to take on.

"You're lucky were in- mmh.. privacy. If you ever- nngh.. do this in public, i'll- haahh.." You look up at him with a questioning look.

"You'll do what?" Gathering his composture, he spoke.

"I'll fucking kill you, you get that?" Your eyes trailed down to his hand, grasping your waist as you sat on him. Leading your touch down on his arm, you grabbed his wrist, raising it from it's current position.

"Kill me? With this hand of yours?" you teased. Scara gulped and nodded barely visibly, making you smile in adoration. Without another word, your lips teased his for a few second, inviting him into a sloppy and messy kiss. He couldn't help but moan, setting off fireworks in your stomach. You pulled away in need of air and got off from his lap, making your way to the office door. Giving him one last smile, you left the breathless, flustered and aroused Scaramouche.

You will definitely get this back later, but you don't mind.

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hello everyone!

quick information before you proceed to my blog.

the main theme of this page was supposed to be Scara fanfics, but since do enjoy writing for other characters too, obviously it became home to writings about other characters as well.

Scaramouche-only posts will be tagged with the hastag 'balladeerfic', so you can find these works of mine easier.

thank you for reading and understanding, have a wonderful day!! <3