#baking through my anxiety and depression ✨✨

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I made apple fritters for the first time 🍎🍏

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hi. ✨

i've created this sideblog to detail my journey through living with, healing, and recovering from, mental illness. i wanted to create a blog to talk about the ways i look after myself, am kind to myself, and the steps i'm taking to slowly begin to unpack and heal, in the hopes that someone else might find this helpful too

there won't be any gory details re: trauma, or the reasons for my mental health problems. this is a safe, positve space, with a focus on healing. i'll be talking about conditions, symptoms, and treatments, and the kindnesses i show myself to help along the way, but none of the reasons for the problems i'm facing. that information is for my friends, family, and medical professionals.

even so, if you're following me, and you want any triggers tagged, please let me know.

lets start with an introduction: hi, i'm lottie, i'm 24, and i'm currently dealing with the physical and mental effects of chronic stress. i also have anxiety, and previously suffered with depression, which has improved greatly over the years. i love baking, writing, horror stories, and terrible adaptations of cinderella.

i hope my little ramblings will help you, or will at the very least give you ways to be a little kinder to yourself 💜

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Top five Redacted Audios

I’ve been tagged by the sweetest people that made this fandom journey more enjoyable so I’m extra happy @lovelylonerliterature & @batch-of-pengwings ✨

I don’t have anyone to tag ~ introvert gang where are you at~ so feel free to use this as an invite to do one of your own and I’d love to read it

FYI coming up with this list took me a minute, I couldn’t chose for the life out of me

First, Davey ✨: Tsundere boyfriend shifts for you , I’ve said this before but compared to the first time I listened to it ; now I somehow find it more endearing.

It’s like after we got to know David and how he’s just a soft ball; listening to his inner monologue when he thought Angel was scared of him , just to be annoyed a second later for calling him cute and petting him , had me laughing so hard because he gives the “ What is this ? Affection ? Disgusting . Do it again” oh he’s tough and it’s written in the softest cursive . I too would make it my life mission to tease him.

Second would be Asher , this man THIS MAN makes my heart melt . Ash saying “Baaaabe” give me instant serotonin boost

Pillow forts , cuddles and kisses with your sweet werewolf boyfriend , when they say not all men , they just mean Asher ✨ . This whole audio is just wholesome , I listen to it at times when I’m down and my cheeks end up aching from all the smiling . You definitely can’t watch a movie with him , but who needs a movie when there are cuddles and an affectionate puppy around ? Therapy : expensive . This audio : Free anti-anxiety

Milo ? Milo Greer ? , Milo’s accent cleared my skin , cured my depression and made the corps grow .

Your werewolf boyfriend finds you having a panic attack , I was gonna keep this light but I just needed to put this one here . As someone who has anxiety , P.A are shit to handle alone. I didn’t expect much when I clicked on the video, but heaven was it a nice surprise, the way it was handled, the way Milo gave sweetheart space and didn’t cross their boundaries , talked to them through it & just waited until they were ready to come to him , legit made my heart clinch. What I liked the most is how at one point , when his mate was more stable he started talking about lighthearted topics and suggesting things they could easily both do which was so wholesome, it’s just 👌🏼 ~I love a man.~

Next we have , our favorite found family trope

The D.A.M.N group , I couldn’t chose just one so here is all of them Friendsgiving with your Bois

When I tell you this one brings me so much joy. It’s so perfectly made , the banter , the bickering , the laughs and shared moment and so much more all mixed and baked into a beautiful pie and this was it. Not to be that person but I’m opening applications to find my own D.A.M.N group cause when is my turn to be happy 😩/jk. All to say , If home was a sound , it would be this one.

FINALLY, Avior . Oh my beloved Moon 🌙

Imagining the future with your Demon lover

I did not expect Avior to be this romantic, I did not expect him to be this loving, and just so so soft spoken. -Avior would definitely give Vincent a run for his money-This audio is so bittersweet because you can see what was, after experiencing a whole lot of what is , and just imagining the endless possibilities of what could have been or would be, is just painful bliss. I may not talk about Avior much , but he has a special place in my heart . Also this is legit what plays in my mind every time I think of this audio .

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HI I LOVE YOUR ART STYLE, I love how you draw faces!! [also, tell me about your OCs? :] ]

HI THANK YOU!!! it makes me all giddy that you like it 🤠

There's a lot a LOT about my OCs and I don't want to just full on infodump so I'll give you a general rundown of my major OCs (whom I draw the most lol)!! Let me know if there's anyone specific you want to know more about!

Indigo, Phillipa, Rosemary/Lark (it's been so long and I still haven't decided on her name lmao) and Keahi (who is also getting an overhaul real soon!!) are all of my PCs for Dragon Age: Origins! Indigo, Keahi, and Phillipa all end up romancing Alistair bc I just love him too much dbebnskw but both Indigo and Phillipa are more on the cavalier side while Keahi is much more reserved. I also have a worldstate where Keahi romances Leliana! Pippa and Keahi are both bi/pan, while Indigo is ace and Lark is straight. Lark has a very traumatic past lmao but she ends up romancing Zevran I think! I haven't played very much as her yet so nothing is set in stone lol

Laurna is my main DA2 pc! She's super chill (although she has ✨self confidence issues✨ about her body and magic) and loves baking. In my actual playthrough, she ended up in a love SQUARE with Fenris, Anders and Merrill ofjdsk. When she lived in lothing she had a hufe crush on Leliana. Throughout DA2 she's well known for her magenta hair snasdkgf

Hades is my player character for the Mass Effect Trilogy! She's pretty stoic and depressed and she ends up romancing Kaidan!! She's pretty reliable and midway through ME:2-3 she shaves her head lol. She's demi :)

Arabella and Guppy are two of my Dungeons and Dragons characters! I've never once played lmao but I am scheduled to DM a game for some of my friends in a few days so that's fun :) Arabella is a half orc, half-elf cleric who lives with her mom and her mom's side of the family (who are wood elves). Guppy is a triton warlock who used to be a literal fish before being turned into a humanoid by her warlock patron.

Aster, Filigree, Arden, Faye, and Nasrin are all player characters from various interactive fiction games! Namely Body Count, The Exile, and A Tale of Crowns! Aster is actually a lot like Laudna from Critical Role campaign 3! She's very nice and witty, and is always down to make a new friend, despite her sometimes terrifying appearance. Filigree is a very curt, no-nonsense type of person is has issues about guilt lol. She's pretty slow to trust, and lmao she has the slowest slow burn with Vethna (a romancable NPC lol). Arden is my main PC in Body Count, and is lowkey kind of a self insert lmao. She has a Lot of anxiety, and is romancing Charlie (hopefully). Faye was my "everyone else" romance for Body Count, but I ended up sticking with Arthur! Nasrin is the PC I've played the least of (I keep meaning to get back into a Tale of Crowns and then forgetting ugh), but in my head she's your traditional Cinderella type!! In my mind, shes very pretty and a little nervous about suddenly being thrust into a position of power. Nasrin's eyes in game are described as gold, and I mistakenly interpreted that to mean her whole eye (sclera included), but I decided to keep it anyway because it was cool lol.