#baby i don't know what this essay's about until i've written it

[jovialcloudqueenisnotonfire]

anyone else write their mandatory outline after they write their paper bcs they're a "figure it out as you go" type academic?

[kristlewrites]

“Baby I’m ready for take off”

CW: Cock Warming ,Chest Riding, Fluff(?), Poorly written smut, comfort(?) nicknames ( ma, mamas, papa, and baby)

PAIRING: Connie x Black!FemReader

WC: 0.9k

🫧🗯️: Test run post! Don’t judge🤒 ALSO! first time writing smut so if it���s bad i’m sorry, it’ll probably remain like that for a minute…(title is from a wayv song.. doesn’t have to do anything with the fic🪦🪦)

MINORS DNI

(take off!)

It's been a long day, long week even. School has been beating your ass with essays and finals..this was your only chance to relax. You enter connie's apartment around 6 pm, he wasn't there because he's also been busy but not with school. The team made it to regionals and the coach has been working the team the bone with drills everyday.

     You use your key that he lent to you and make yourself at home, he lived off campus. You make your way into the shower and clean yourself up real quick and change into his pajamas, although a lot of your clothes is in his room, hell ! you even have your own drawer! But you love the way his clothes feels on you and his scent makes you feel safe. You were absolutely starving by the time you got dressed and decided to go order some food, wing-stop you finally decide you got yourself a 12 pc hot and lemon pepper with a side of fries and A sprite. When the food came around it was almost eight and Connie should be on his way home.

   After you finished eating you cleaned up super quick and went to bed, connie showed up about an hour later. He knew you were here but seeing you in his sheets and pjs made his heart falter. He went in the shower quickly and joined you in bed. He tried his best not to make any noise but regardless you still woke up 

    "Sorry ma, didn't mean to wake you up"

    he said so gentle, 

      "how are you? I'm sorry I came home late.. i didn't expect coach to keep us so long"

   he caressed your cheeks trying to get you back to sleep. You looked up at his beautiful freckled face, you missed him so much you guys havent been able to see each other at all this week with being so occupied with your own personal activities and affairs. Small tears stream from your eyes, he wipes them away with such care and delicacy.

   "I know, I know ive missed you too, baby"

    You turn towards to him and indulge into his chest , he's not wearing a shirt which is normal since he gets really sweaty at night (😭😭🪦🪦🪦) you start talking about the events that happened that week, how your essay went, how you absolutely failed your stats test, new books you bought, girl drama, and how stressful it's been for you. He nods occasionally and throws in a couple of "mhms" to let yk that he's still listening. This goes on for about an hour and at this point you're just rambling, but connie understands how much you love to talk and let's you continue without complaint, that is until you ask him about his week and what he's done. 

   At this point he's practically knocked out. 

   "Hah, What was that baby what did you say??" he said a little bit groggy

   You repeat your question, but while you do you see that he's HARD??? No way this man was hard from just hearing you talk.But then he must've been backed up from this whole week because of how rarely he saw you or had anytime for himself. When you think about it has been a while since y'all had sex, because of how seldom it's been to even talk to him on the phone 

   "Hey con.. You're hard, how long has it been?" you ask while playing with his nipples. (🪦🪦🪦)

   "Baby you don't even understand how much i've missed you..c'mere" He pulls you closer to his penis.

  Slowly he removes his pants and boxers, revealing his hard leaking cock.. good lord it was so much prettier than you remember. You slowly enter his dick into your hole, surprised by how wet you were.

   "Be careful mamas I could jizz into you at any point" you laughed at his choice of words, it was clear that he hasn't been relived in awhile..and while you were also tired doesn't mean you could at least help him out!!?? and you were on the pill so that should count for something..right??? Continuing you grab ahold of his tip and insert it, until fully seethed into your pussy. It felt so good, you grabbed his hand and placed it on your stomach showing him where his dick is. That really pushed him over and sprayed your pussy through and through. your poor baby he was so sensitive. You guys stayed like that until morning.

   Waking up, you find yourself looking at connie sleeping so soundly and peacefully. You reach for your phone but feel restricted once you've realized the man got a whole ass dick in you. omggg

  "Baby wake up" you whisper yell, tapping his chest. you roam your fingers on along his abs, a few seconds later connie shifts a little bit to remove his cock from you and lifts you up and places you down on his chest. This all happens so quick that u immediately shiver, with your wet slicky pussy on top of his chest he begins move you up and down while his dick teases at your ass crack. Your nails dig into his abdomen while you grind your silky pussy over his abs. Connie's hands take pleasure in your tits while they bounce up and down, twisting and turning you nipples putting you into over drive. Your cum glazes over his abs, you panting hard. First thing in the morning... You rest your head on his chest finding his heart beat while he rubs your head calming you down. 

   "I love you ma" he whispers, he feels your smile into his chest and laughs a bit. He raises your head, "did you hear what I said?" He leans in for a kiss and you return it. "I love you too papa"

(Think of this as a soft launch ijbol)🫧🗯️

[theflyingfeeling]

Random thoughts etc. just writing these down for me, read if you're interested in my uneventful life lol

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Had my orientation for my new job yesterday and I'm still so excited!! I spent a year studying there 11 years ago (👵) so it's fun to go back, but it's definitely also gonna be a little weird first. Both of the two teachers who taught me there will be absent this semester (unless the other one returns from her maternity leave after Christmas, but that's not set in stone yet), although I'm meeting the other for another orientation tomorrow, which I'm excited about because she's probably my favourite teacher ever and she's just so great and said such nice things about my writing skills 😭 so it's a shame I won't get to work with her nor the other English teacher (the one on maternity leave), so it's just me and the Swedish teacher (who will also be my supervisor), and my memories of her are...not quite as pleasant 🥲

the Swedish teacher: so you were here 11 years ago? that means that was my first year teaching here! me: oh yes, I remember it was your first year! :) the Swedish teacher: oh god, I must have been a total dummy back then! 😄 me, thinking of how she had accused me of not having written my Swedish essay myself: 🙂

lol obviously I'm not bitter about that anymore and I also sort of understand why she thought I had not written it myself (somehow talking Swedish in Swedish class is not the same as writing an essay in Swedish in the safety of your home), and she did apologize afterwards, assumably having brought this up with the English teachers and being told there's no way I would've done that, and yesterday she was suuuuuuuuper nice and helpful , so I'm sure we'll get along just fine 😌

...I know I just said I'm excited, but I haven't really done any planning for the courses or anything concrete at all, so if you see me crying about life next week, assume it's because I've realised how horribly incompetent I am for the job 🙂👍

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Today I was on godmother duty with my niece (10½ months) and y'all should be SO proud of me from protecting her from the evil, baby-eating spider that was climbing on her carriage 😪 It was a dramatic and somewhat traumatic encounter with life-threatening wildlife, especially when the spider wouldn't hop off the carriage when I swept it with a twig the first time, but together we made through it (the niece was sleeping the entire time)

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Speaking of wildlife, I saw a little stoat running on the parking lot of my building this morning 🥺 I hope it he had a safe journey to wherever it was hopping...

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Seeing BC on Saturday (yes, again 🥰) and I'm so excited because 1) aaaaaaaaa what if they play the new song, I know it's not officially out until next week but come ooooon it's the last show of the summer tour and the last show in Finland until god knows when (😭) and they also played Don't Fix Me at shows last summer before they officially released the song so idk about you guys but I for one am totally getting my hopes up 🤞, and 2) aaaaaaaaa gonna see so many of my beloved BC mutuals, it's gonna be a grand ol' reunion again!! 🥺💕 however, I have zero idea about when/how I'm gonna get there (it takes ~4 hours to travel to the venue from where I live, and amazingly the train ain't much more quicker than the bus 🙂) or when/how I'm gonna be leaving back home again because I still haven't decided whether or not I should stay the night somewhere (I don't want to miss any potential after-show hangouts, but I also really love sleeping the night in my own bed lol), so if this issue would somehow just solve itself that would be great thanks ✌️

[sizzlingpatrolfox]

It's really silly that people are using 'alpha and beta' male for anyone in BTS let's be real they're all 'alphas' by stupid incel / pick-up-artist logic. Being soft-spoken or shy or introverted isn't the definition of alpha v. beta, it's a man who can command resources and partners because he has enough male / able-bodied / hetero-patriarchial / capitalist / lookist privilege. I'm sorry even if someone in BTS is a pillow-princess sub bottom they're plenty 'alpha' in life's hierarchy.

Perioddddd, this is something I agree with. They're MEN and most of all, they're rich men.

In all seriousness, I think it's just really intense and unnecessary and kind of crazy to talk about real people as alpha/beta/omegas(?) there are other words to describe the way we develop our personality and relationships with people. So in that sense, I don't take this discussion too seriously because alpha is not a word that's in my vocabulary. I don't use it and I don't think it should be used to describe people seriously. I don't even understand why it was a discussion to begin with, because if someone told me Jimin alpha I'd take it as a joke, say fuck yeah daddy🤭🫣 and move on.

Whatever the reason, I just usually end up thinking the same every time I see discourse like this: a lot of people here just doesn't seem to interact with a huge variety of men in their daily lives, or maybe they don't interact with men at all.

Take my dad as example. You can picture a brown man, buzz cut, 180cm, calloused hands, doesn't talk too much, obviously doesn't text or make phone calls, I've never seen him cry, he's never told me that he loves me, he's never said anything sentimental and I used to actually be scared of him until I was like 16 because he was so strict. He would unplug the internet cable at 9pm no excuses and off to bed.

My dad is literally what anyone would describe as an "alpha male". I would also tell you he's one.

Nevertheless, do you wanna know who cooks at home? My dad. My mom hates cooking and doesn't know many recipes. My mom used to work during the mornings and he worked afternoons so it was my dad who woke me up every morning to go to school until I was around 9. He braided my hair, he literally did my hair every morning, he sprayed perfume on me, he got my clothes ready, he made me breakfast, he'd go to my school meetings, he did art with me, he painted my nails. My mom was screaming at me and making me cry while teaching me maths 😭😭 (I hate maths) it was my dad who'd come up and tell her to be more patient.

I don't get it, I don't understand why people feel the need to take a man who does something they think it's not "stereotypically male" and label him as feminine or queer. For half of my life, my dad did at home everything mothers are "supposed" to do and I would've never thought of calling my dad feminine or a not stereotypical cis straight man, because in the end he is a cis straight man, no matter how many times he's braided my hair or no matter that he even knew how to braid a hair in the first place.

It was just funny to me that a whole essay was written about how calling Jungkook or any BTS member an alpha male is so wrong and uncalled for and he's actually the opposite of that, only to end up saying Jimin is an alpha male lol. So they think it's pretty much an offense to think of JK as an alpha male but Jimin sure, you can think that of him.

The whole discussion was taken way too seriously because of jikookers constant need to reinforce JK's soft boi image. They've always jumped at anyone who doesn't think of him as sugar star baby bambi candy. Maybe if you have to constantly "defend" someone's feminity/feminine traits and how dainty they are and you need to search through thousands of hours of content to find a one minute compilation of someone tucking his hair behind his hair to prove that he doesn't look or act like a stereotypically cis straight man, then maybe his "feminity" or delicate character isn't as predominant as you think it is.

I personally do think the parts that would make people think of JK as an "alpha male" are more obvious or in-your-face than other parts of him. And that's okay. Even one look at his Instagram posts (both deleted and present) would tell you the same. He knows how to craft an image of himself that he wants people to see, he's been learning how to do that since he was a kid and anyone who sees in him the bad tattooed emotionally constipated guy on a black motorcycle, they're literally going off with what they see and he's chosen to show. Not everyone has the time or the interest to watch 10 years of bangtan bombs and DVDs to see if there's more to him.

[debbiechanclub]

Hello

I have a question that im really curious to ask

What would be Nellie like in the bullet club?

Like as her character and I’m also really curious if her and David did make public their relationship

TOO SWEET

MEG🌼

Hi, Meg! I LOVE that you're curious about this and I'm more than happy to answer!

So, the main thing that Bullet Club (and really, David) has done for Nellie is restore her confidence. She'd really been sort of beat down and burnt out by both her career and personal life until David came back to Japan for the G1 Climax 32 (2022). He really reminded her that she's a bad ass who deserves more than just the status quo, and so Bullet Club Nellie is a lot more assertive and aggressive. But she doesn't talk shit that she can't back up on her own; she's not chickenshit heel Bullet Club 😉

She's also actually really good friends with all the War Dogs and (surprise, surprise) I have a lot of thoughts about her dynamic with each of them.

After David, Nellie is the closest with Clark. She definitely looks at his antics like wtf is wrong with you (affectionate), because while he can be an absolute menace inside the ring and out, he's also a super genuine person who cares a lot about his friends. And idk, they just have fun together. But sometimes he def tries to flirt with her and David shuts that down real quick 😂

Then there's Gabe, and Nellie tries her best to be his voice of reason lmao. Like she wants to be the angel on his shoulder when all the guys are being devils 😂 She just cares about him and knows he's had kind of a rough go of it and wants to see him do well. I think part of her feels bad about the way Jay treated him when he was a Young Lion, too 😂

I definitely think that, in actuality, Alex is the kind of person who if he gives you a hard time it means he likes you, and that's def the vibe with him and Nellie. He talks a lot of shit to her just because he's from NYC and she's from Philly and there's that natural rivalry there. But she always laughs at his dumb dad jokes so she's cool in his book.

As for Dan, he's ride or die for his friends and family, and Nellie knows he has her back 100%. Also, I've talked about this with @aussiearrow - Dan (and also Gabe) has definitely fired back at rando dudes who say weird, creepy shit in the comments of Nellie and Torrance's socials 😂

Which brings me to David 😊 When I saw that you asked if he and Nellie had made their relationship public, at first I was like, "What do you mean? She went out there with him for Dominion, of course they made it public." But then I realized they didn't kiss or anything out there, so I guess that's not definitive 😂 But yes! They make it public (and neither of them gaf what Jay thinks about it 🤭). And sometimes Nellie is purposefully obnoxious about their relationship. Like you know how David has been leaning into the fact that he's a rich nepo baby? Well, Nellie has definitely made a post somewhere saying something like, "I don't have to wrestle anymore because daddy takes care of me, but I'm too good not to" 💀. But that's just her leaning into her heel stage persona 😂

So yeah, there's my essay of an answer (and I could have written more, trust). But seriously, it made my day seeing this in my inbox, and I hope I've answered your question! And feel free to ask any others you may have!

[gabenvrhappened]

PlaylistsOr... Ruthlessly Crying Out Loud Like a Seventeen Babe

The idea was in my head for months now: what if I created a playlist to post on my Tumblr? I wanted to have a space where I could write about songs I love but that I don't feel like have much of a story to have a whole essay written about them — or because sitting down to write always takes time, and sometimes, it's time I don't have. So it only seemed right to share these songs as if they were a playlist of my recent obsessions. Want to join me?

Favorite Lyric: I don't believe in violence ⬩ But you know I won't be silent ⬩ I'm a lover, not a fighter ⬩ But if anyone tried to hurt you ⬩ I would be ruthless for you ⬩ Do something crazy, you know I would, baby ⬩ I swear I've got your heart and if it came down to it ⬩ I would be ruthless;

Ruthless by Kacey Musgraves came to me when I decided that I wanted to get to know more songs, starting from artists I already know because that would be less overwhelming. While playing her newest album, Ruthless stood out the most. In the past, her album Star-Crossed, and specifically the song Justified, helped me through a hard time in my life that I already spoke about here a lot. I don't consider myself a fan of hers, mostly because I like one or another song.

This one got me in this new moment in my life where I'm feeling more confident and posting more of myself on social media. And, just like most of the songs with this love theme, it makes me hopeful in finding someone that would make me feel ruthless. In fact, I just had a date this week, and it was so sweet. Who knows if I'd be ruthless for this guy? And kind of random, but somehow this song reminds me of Speechless from the Aladdin movie, sung by Naomi Scott, that I love so much and that Im still resentful that it didn't win an Oscar.

Favorite Lyric: I had a dream that we danced at a crosswalk, down the block ⬩ Didn't even care that we made the traffic stop ⬩ You put your hand on top of my hand;

Moving on, 17 by Julia Michaels also came to me while going back to artists I like, but in her case, it was more of a comeback to an album that I hadn't paid much attention to back in the day. Her Inner Monologue project brought "Into You" to my playlists when it was released, but nothing stood out much for me. Just like Kacey, Julia is an on-and-off type of artist. Her song, for example, All Your Exes was and still is the biggest anthem for me that will always crave a new excitingly discoverable type of love.

Funny enough, all along, she had a song called 17 and I never bothered to press play? Songs with this age in their title are certain to make me obsessed (for all that feeling of youth and flashbacks of a good time), like the one from Avril Lavigne (that, just like this one, brings us back down the memory road, on a universal feeling of, if sixteens are sweet, seventeens are wild). In fact, this Michaels's song almost made its way through a separate post because I thought it would be a good #TheOldGabe post together with Avril's song and Ellie Goulding's song... until I figured out her song was called Sixteen instead... well. It's here now, and it even gave me a new idea for my list of adventures: dance on a crosswalk. She doesn't sing it, but if there's rain involved, then it's checkmate for me.

Favorite Lyrics: I don't know what to tell you ⬩ Maybe I never knew ⬩ Not tryna make you jealous but it looks so good on you ⬩ Been stuck on elevators, in airports and empty rooms ⬩ Been stuck here, waiting for you ⬩⬩ You're sweating off your makeup ⬩ You're running every light ⬩ What's gonna help you wake up ⬩ Won't help you sleep at night ⬩ Sometimes I see the future ⬩ Sometimes I'm not so bright ⬩ Sometimes you're looking for a fight;

Now we can continue with songs that were released recently. The first of them was For Crying Out Loud by FINNEAS. I didn't know he was releasing something, so I pressed play at first without pretension, but from the very second that that first listen had ended, I became hooked on the song. I feel like, just like Charlie Puth, he has so much potential as a producer — a potential that he's living up to, especially with all his work with Billie Eilish.

I've been addicted to his tunes before, like the masterpiece Hurt Locker and the enticing Let's Fall In Love For The Night, so I knew he had it in him, but I didn't know that it was this much. This is such an infectious song, and I can't stop catching myself saying to myself how good of a job he did here. I could pick every single part of the song to be my favorite lyric or part, which is rare to happen.

Naturally, the second I understood how this song had its effect on me, I sent it to my friend, and then I searched if he was planning to come to Toronto for a concert. Nothing yet, but fingers crossed.

Favorite Lyric: "Is there anything you wanna talk about?" ⬩ You said, "Like what?", I said, "Don't play around" ⬩ You said "Just leave it alone, babe" ⬩ What if I can't, babe ⬩ Is there anything you wanna say to me ⬩ Like "baby, if we don't stop, we'll ruin everything" ⬩ You said, "You'd better go home, babe" ⬩ If that's what you want, babe;

Lastly, but not least, we have Babe by Amy Shark. She just released her new album, and I was sort of ashamed of myself for not knowing it since I love her. But I don't blame myself. If her first album, Love Monster, was fantastic (incredible songs like Leave Us Alone, Never Coming Back, and Middle of the Night — just to name a few), as she was releasing her later albums, I felt like the quality was declining. Until we came to this one, where she was releasing songs that weren't (sometimes barely) two minutes long. For me, that's the worst way an artist can sell their soul for streams.

When Two Friends was released, my hope was alight a little bit, and now, with the record out, it's no surprise that my favorite song comes from the same subject that inspired the song I first mentioned. It's been a long road since I've discovered her through the Love, Simon soundtrack. Unlike FINNEAS, though, I feel like the chances of her coming to Toronto aren't that high. Which is a bummer (even with her not singing the incredibly perfect Sink In in her shows).

What caught my attention in this song was the line about the goodbye kiss on the cheek. I did that on the date I mentioned earlier. Let's just hope it's not this type of goodbye, because this song portrays a playful and secretive relationship ending. Through the very clever chorus, made almost entirely of dialogues, we can feel the pain these two former friends, now lovers, are feeling. I just hope they're happy, because I want every couple to be happy — seriously, one of the things that hurts me the most is seeing a couple fighting on the street; it always makes me want to come to them to help remind them of the love they once shared — but considering her album it's called Sunday Sadness, I'm not sure about that.

[possessionisamyth]

gaming wins did a video on RE3R what a surprise people shat on it in the fucking comments so did he kinda they mentioned they were surprised to get as long a video as they did (he didn't mention the call backs to RE1 with the introduction of the hunters and running from a boulder (or even Nemmy catching the rocket which is something that can happen in the second Tyrant boss something i just remebered that he did), wish he mentioned the differences between easy - hard vs nightmare and inferno)

I do agree with the comments he made about Carlos and when is Carlos being brought back

I stopped watching videos like cinemasins when people decided to take everything they said as objective truths instead of the funny satire they intended thus ruining many peoples media literacy when it comes to critical analysis of the things we watch, read, and play. I know they made cinemawins in an attempt to circumvent this result, but by then I was already over the genre of white guy does rage quit video essay on things I enjoy. Moreso when a lot of those reviewers who were popular at the time were revealed to be very mask off about neglectful, racist, or sexist practices within their business.

But this is a long way to say, I don't watch those videos or those channels anymore to get those people's reactions. I especially don't read the comments. Ever. It's not good for the baby. (me, im the baby)

There are some things in RE3R that I felt were worth criticizing. The bugs putting maggots in Jill's stomach via the depositor in her throat and making her puke it out was 100% someone's kink. And it was unnecessary. Nemesis should've been a stalker enemy like the tyrant with boss fight encounters instead of having all his appearances timed. The two nightmare sequences were an attempt to show how the mansion incident is still affecting Jill, but they needed to be written better than they were.

I know the original RE3 had a lot of alternate scenarios you could get based on where you decided to go at what time. It was like those choose your own adventure books (which I always hated), but it helped people not all play the game the exact same way until they talked to others about it. There were attempts to do this with a few timed events in the remake, but they just led to alternate "You Died" animations. Which to me just wastes my time and isn't worth the trouble.

I have a thing where the more frustrated I get with a game the less likely I am to finish it because I am a casual player. I'm there for a good time and a good story, and the longer I'm having a bad time, the higher my chances are of just watching a playthrough or reading through the wiki. I don't replay for achievements. If there's information I missed that I feel is worth going back to get because I had fun playing it, then I will pick up the game again. But that's it. Maybe that's another reason why I do not really fit in here. Everyone I've seen or talked to who've been playing for a while tries to get every costume, and every treasure, and every achievement, and beat every game mode, and I don't care about all that. ^^; If my friend says "hey did you see this note?" and I didn't, I can look up a video on it. BUT, if a friend says "hey, did you get this dialogue sequence?" and I had a good time with the game, I'll replay it to try and get that sequence for more information.

And maybe that's also where the RE3R falls short for the huge amount of completionists in this franchise. The variety in their encounters has become extremely streamlined in comparison, and it's easier to focus on the big or more obvious things they took away instead of some of the fun or unique changes they made. Like how Carlos' design is the glow-up of the century. Or how Jill's rail gun is now a strap metaphor (to me). Or how they gave Mikhail some actual dialogue to set up the image of a personality instead of him being dead weight until he sacrifices himself. Or how Tyrone gets more than a few lines and we get to see a glimpse of his and Carlos' dynamic instead of him just dying to Nikolai like in the OG. Also, I don't care what anyone says. Carlos punching hunters is a fun mechanic. The slow-down time effect in games is a fun mechanic in general for me (because I can't fucking aim and it saves my ass every time).

I think the second to last boss fight with Nemesis would've been more fun if you had to be precise with those shots while he was running on the tanks. If there was a consequence to missing like small spurts of acid spewing from those tanks you had to dodge, that could've changed it up from the previous boss fight where you do the same thing with the buildings. It would've been annoying, but hey. That's kind of the point of boss fight progression with the difficulty increase. It also would've been better than just adding zombie dodging like you already half-ass do with him in Dead By Daylight. Ah. I'm getting off topic. You get my point.

BUT YEAH! Very much bring back Carlos Oliveira, my husband, immediately at once.

[aux-squiggle]

W poodletrain

Lorynna I'm concerned you view getting rid of a non-person, never-conscious fetus because I don't like it the same as, in fact somehow WORSE than picking through real breathing living children for traits I want.

Please be excellently for real.

I do intend to long term foster one or two girls in the future, but that is not the same thing as having a baby and anyone treating foster kids like a substitute for their own child will surely cause immense trauma to that poor kid.

Firstly I don't give a flying shit what anti-choicers think of my choices. I do not care if my life and letting women know how they can live their dream separatist lifestyle (if they want similar things to me) upsets anti-choicers because keeping quiet about women's freedoms to placate misogynists is not freedom. I don't want to be chained even in the way I talk about random things on Tumblr, I do not care if it upsets the slavemasters.

Like poodletrain indicated, adoption is a very unethical and abusive industry and saying that is somehow preferable to a safe, expertly done abortion (which in Ireland surgical abortions are offered under general anesthesia) is pure madness.

Yes abortion is not light and simple but the harms a son can do to other women are not light and simple either. And I would rather have a traumatic miscarriage than have a son. Men are risks to women, why would I want to be part in fashioning that?

The problem is, Lorynna, you don't agree with pro-choicism on the true basis of pro-choicism, which is complete arbitration. You see abortion as justifiable in a large set of cases. Those two are not the same things.

I've written an essay already about this type of thing and also want to add it's very disrespectful to say fetuses (real or hypothetical) are someone's child before they want to accept it as a) a child and b) their child specifically. No fetus can be determined a child by anyone except the mother until it's born.

Also designer babies refers to the use of CRISPR or other gene editing technology to edit the genes of a fetus or zygote who is then carried to term. Not to selective abortions. Or else you would have to think aborting disabled fetuses is also practicing designer babies.

You thinking about what I should be ok with regarding (future) intentional pregnancy/ies is utterly ridiculous and coincides with how you call yourself pro-choice yet are not operating on pro-choice fundamentals. Thinking your opinion on what family structure I should be happy with has any weight here is some strange conservative backwards thinking you should address. Like in the essay, I've mentioned sacrifice minimization and it seems on some level you're not comfortable with it, which is your business to keep to yourself.

I've also addressed sex selective female abortion in that same essay. If you want to argue with someone over it being hypocritical to accept aborting males or not females, then pick someone else because I actually don't care if a woman aborts females either. Fetuses aren't people. Men being increasingly violent pieces of shit because there are less women around isn't her fault.

Poodle already addressed the stupidity of the idea "this is not what abortion is meant for." Abortion doesn't need a reason behind it.

Just found out there's a product called SneakPeek that has a 99-100% accuracy of telling you the sex of a fetus at 6 weeks (99% accurate @ 6w, 100% accurate @ 7w in a study).

This is fantastic because usually you find the gender with 100% certainty at 14-15 weeks via Scan, but that's a problem for me because abortion is banned after 12 weeks in Ireland, and it would cost nearly 2 bands to get an second trimester abortion in England. Also, an abortion that late is much tougher to go through than an abortion at 7 weeks.

So this is great because it means I can abort male fetuses for free, much earlier, in my home country instead of being prepared to drop 2k and take a flight each time I get pregnant.

Technically it doesn't ship outside of US but Irish ppl commonly get US sold goods through An Post which gives us fake US addresses then ships here.

Not sponsored btw if it wasn't obvious, I doubt SneakPeek would market well as a method to abort males lol

Daughter or an abortion 🙌🏾

[elijah-wilfred-boyle]

Something New

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soooooo...

a little while ago (in January) I promised you all that I'd write smut for Darius from the owl house and I completely forgot about that, but now I'm back and I've written it, the story and premises is mainly for me but hey, smut is smut

This is NOT an x reader story tho, this is smut involving Darius and my OC Ocellus, who I will talk about more I'd you want to know about them.

Anyway, onto the smut!

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Ocellus had had a pretty average day at their job at Hexside, and was now sat on the couch in their home grading assignments.

"And that now makes", they said, placing a copybook onto a pile, "Three students with the exact same essay, I'll have to talk to them about that."

They continued on quietly, only stopping at the sound of the front door opening.

Ocellus smiled lightly and stood up, going over to greet their husband.

Before they could even say a word to the man, Darius pulled them close and kissed them hard.

Ocellus moved into the kiss with ease, but made a surprised muffled noise when Darius picked them up and held them against the wall, deepening the kiss and pushing up against them.

Ocellus wrapped their arms around him and pulled away, smiling dizzyingly at their husband.

"Well that sure was a greeting", they breathed, "what's the occasion?"

Darius buried his head into the crook of Ocellus' neck, kissing the space there gently.

"I've been thinking about you all day", he groaned, pushing his body even closer.

Darius lifted his head and looked his spouse in the eyes, "remember when we first got engaged and I asked you if you'd ever want to have kids?"

Ocellus' face flushed and they nodded, liking where this was going.

"Well", he purred, leaning close to their ear, "I was thinking about fucking a baby into you. All. Day."

A wide smile found Ocellus' face.

"Oh, please do."

Darius grinned at them, planting a kiss on their lips before going back to bite and suck their shoulder and neck.

His hands travelled up their sides, beginning to pull off Ocellus' shirt before they were swatted away.

"No, Darius, you're not fucking me against the wall, not after what happened last time." Ocellus said, placing their feet back on the floor and pushing the man back.

"Are you seriously still going back to that? It was one time!"

"It was one time too many, I don't want to have to call the Construction Coven again because one of us lost control of our magic during it and put a hole through the wall!", they exclaimed, walking back through the sitting room, discarding their clothes as they did.

"You can fuck me here or in the bedroom, nowhere els- AH"

Ocellus didn't have a chance to finish speaking when a tendril of abomination, pulled them down onto the floor and their husband hovered over them.

"Will this suffice?", he asked, sitting back to pull off his shirt and pants.

Ocellus didn't respond to his question, simply staring at his body.

He smirked at them, moving back over, and placed an arm on either side if their head, caging them in, "I'll take that as a 'yes'."

Darius leaned down and slowly placed kisses down Ocellus' body, paying most attention to their tits.

He kissed lower and lower until he reached their hips and pussy.

Ocellus opened their legs more to give him space, moaning quietly as he kissed their thighs.

Darius licked a stripe down their inner thighs to their wet cunt, running his hands over as much skin as he could.

"You're so beautiful", he moaned into them, burying his nose into the dark hair in-between their legs and licking at the organ.

Ocellus' moans got louder as he kept licking and sucking their pussy, "oh fuck, Darius!"

They wrapped their legs around the man, trying to pull him closer, and grabbed at their tiddies, massaging the mounds while moaning.

Darius brought his fingers up and began fingering at cunt pushing a finger in and drawing a lustful scream out of his spouse.

"Oh fuck, titans, Darius, oh, oh, I'm gonna, FUCK, I'm gonna cum, oh!"

Ocellus took in a large breath and fell back as they came, Darius licking up their cum.

Then he climbed back up to face his spouse and pressed a kiss to their cheek.

"You still good to continue?", he asked, rubbing their sides gently.

Ocellus nodded, turning their head slightly to kiss him, "yea I'm good."

Darius hummed to himself and took hold of his love's legs, hoisting them over his hips.

He took his dick in his and and stroked it a few times before rubbing it against Ocellus' cunt, pushing the head in, moaning lowly.

Darius paused for a moment, looking up to make sure Ocellus was still okay, before gently thrusting his hips forward.

Ocellus squeaked at the sudden movement, wrapping their arms around their husband once again and pulling him close.

Darius continued to thrust into them slowly, but eventually began to speed up, relishing in the moans of his spouse.

"You enjoying yourself, my love?" He questioned, placing soft kissed around their face.

"Ye- Oh go faster, please!", they moaned, and Darius obliged, thrusting into them harder and faster.

This continued until Ocellus squeezed their legs around him tightly, about to cum again and Darius' thrusts became sloppy and irregular.

After a few more thrusts, Darius pushed himself deep into Ocellus' pussy and came hard, moaning and Ocellus followed shortly.

The couple lay on the floor for a while longer, breathing heavily, before Darius lifted himself off his spouse and pulled out, watching dazed as cum dribble out of Ocellus.

Turning his attention back to Ocellus, he noticed that they were beginning to doze off; their chest rising and falling slowly and their eyes falling shut.

"Come on, Love", he said softly, moving to pick them up, "the floor isn't the best place to sleep."

Darius picked them up and carried them to their shared bedroom, placing them gently on the bed and putting the covers over them.

He climbed in next to them and pulled them close, shutting his eyes and falling asleep.

[sariahsue]

I just saw your take one Lilo&Stitch's approach to child protection and I was wondering if you could give some advice on how to write realistic stuff in this matter? I've been meaning to write a foster care/adoption fic and I do know the system in France must be at least a little different - and I will get down the research hole once I have a bit more time - but do you have any advice on how to write the kids reactions, the way parents deal with everything, the bonding part... things like this, so I can avoid clichés.

You don't have to answer though, feel free to ignore all this akdjwja I just figured there's no harm in asking XD

Yeah, sure! (To anyone else reading this who has a fic, feel free to send me a message if you have questions!) I’m definitely not the most knowledgeable person, but I know quite a bit. And I’m sure things are a bit different in France (hopefully their court system is better - yikes!) but I think the human element would be pretty similar, so here we go. 

First off, know that everyone is foster care is having a rough time constantly. Foster kids, workers, parents, foster parents, foster siblings. And no one knows what’s going on long term. There’s always a lot of uncertainty. Will the kids go home soon? Are parental rights going to be terminated at the next court date? Who knows???

The birth parents, at best, are going through a really tough time in their life, made worse because their kids were taken away from them. Some care about their kids, but they’re extremely self-centered and have zero parents skills. Some are manipulative and see foster care as free babysitting, and as long as they get to see their kid for an hour or so a week, this arrangement is fantastic for them! At worst, they’re just horrible human beings who abuse children. In general, most parents are clueless and selfish and pretty manipulative. They say they’re good parents and have no clue why their kids were taken away, even though their kid has cigarette burn marks on their back, or had to eat out of the garbage to survive because the were left alone for hours at a time when they were four, or worse. They have no clue at all what their behavior does to their kids, and they refuse to listen to anyone who tries to explain it to them.

No matter what type of parents they were, their kids ALWAYS love them and want to go home. Every single one of them. No matter the age. No matter what their home life put them through. Some of them aren’t old enough to understand why they can’t go home. Some have been in foster care for years and hardly remember living at home but still want to go home.  

It makes for complicated foster relationships sometimes because the kid will be attached to both birth and foster parents and feel guilty or conflicted or disloyal, or they’ll try really hard not to be attached to the foster parents in the first place. (I can think of only one exception to this. Two sisters who had been put into another home and liked the foster family and decided that they were going to be adopted by this family and were very excited about it... except the foster family had no plans to adopt them. I never learned what happened there.) 

And this is before accounting for the mental health struggles that often accompany the trauma most of them have been through. Some kids come in with anxiety that makes it difficult to trust new people. Some kids’ behavior is so extreme that it’s difficult for foster parents to take care of them, and so the kid moves around constantly. (If their behavior is too bad, they can sometimes be put into either a group home or residential, either temporarily or permanently.)

Parents are also entitled to visits, usually either weekly or every other week, at least while the goal is reunification (which is always starts out as). Before the pandemic, these usually took place in the DCF (Department of Children and Families is what it’s called in my state) office or in a visitation center. Sometimes the court orders that the visits be supervised so they don’t start promising their kids that they’re coming to get them next week. Often the workers think that sitting down the hallway not listening counts as supervision. 🙄 

With the pandemic, kids have been meeting over Zoom. That’s being phased out pretty soon here. Kids are almost always triggered by these visits. I mean, they look forward to them usually. Some kids are mad at their parents and don’t want to talk to them, but almost always, they want to see their parents. And almost always whatever behavior problems they had before is extremely worse for the next 2-5 days. (Which is terrible if you get a visit every week.) Some parents bail on these visits regularly. Some consistently bail on only birthdays and Christmas. We’ve learned not to tell the kid that they have a visit coming up until we know it’s definitely happening, or sometimes only right before we’re planning on leaving to go, because the anticipation of a visit is triggering or because getting stood up by your own mother is traumatizing. Sometimes you can get the kid’s therapist to write a note asking for the visits to be less frequent for the kid’s sake, but often that just means every other week instead of every week.

For foster families welcoming kids into their home, it’s a little different. They’re often more stable, and their whole life isn’t shifting around them. They’re just getting one or two kids into the family. The home dynamic is going to be a little different. Nothing huge, compared to what the foster kids are going through. It often depends on the kid how fast you get attached. Sometimes you know kids are only going to be there for a month because their normal foster family had to deal with an emergency, but the plan is to take them back soon. Sometimes they’re adorable babies and you get super attached really, really fast. Sometimes they’re so unhappy and scared that they make your home life completely miserable. Sometimes you’ve seen so many kids come and go over the years, and they’ve all left eventually, and your heart becomes guarded to protect you from that pain. But you get attached eventually anyway. 

And sometimes your parents are given a newborn whose goal is reunification and it’s love at first sight even though you don’t know if you can keep him, and then he’s put up for adoption when he’s two and you adopt him SO HARD. And then you make future foster kids upset because you can’t adopt them too. :( And even though they get adopted by friends of yours, they still feel conflicted over it four years later. 

You would think that a kid raised completely in their adoptive home from birth would have no problems, and sometimes that’s the case. Sometimes they still get upset about the adoption when they’re older because the foundational belief they have about themselves is that their mother didn’t want them, even though it’s not true. 

(This is the real-life story of my brother. We are the only family he’s ever known, and he’s 13 now, but he still has issues over being adopted. The other boy is 16 and is doing much better with his new family now, though he still has some issues. We had him for a very long time, and we were all happy that we know his adoptive family well because we stayed it contact with him, which almost never happens when a foster kid leaves.)

Oh, I forgot one thing. Usually when kids first get to your house, they are perfect little angels for a while. Depending on the kid, it’s either a couple days or maybe even three months. It’s called the “honeymoon period.” Once their subconscious realizes that this is a safe place to work on their issues and they aren’t in physical danger, they start to process what they’ve been through. It comes out in a variety of ways. Behavioral issues, bedwetting, explosive anger, nightmares, etc.

A note about social workers: All the workers (at least in my state) constantly have too many cases. Like, double what they’re legally supposed to have. Most of them try hard to keep up. Some DO NOT CARE. Some are fantastic and put extra time in to go to the kid’s end-of-the-school-year recitals and build a relationship with them. They’re in charge of organizing visits and making sure the kids have everything set up and are generally important in the kid’s life. They’re required to visit once a month and make sure foster parents have all the right paperwork and arrange dentist visits and bring them to all their therapy appointments. (FYI, You get a piece of paper that says you’re the legal guardian. You have to show it to schools and doctors when you make arrangements for the kids. My mom also keeps a copy in her purse, just in case a kid starts screaming “HELP! SHE’S NOT MY MOM” in the middle of the store or something. It’s never happened, but you know, just in case.)

Also, you would think that they’re the constant in the kid’s life, but if the birth parents move, the case gets transferred to another office in the state, and so the social workers switch. I sincerely hope that’s not how things are done in France because it’s garbage for a lot of reasons.

Okay, I’ve written you an essay, but I hope it was a useful essay! Let me know if you have any more questions!

[bitofbookishness]

Thanks @studylikegeller​ for these tough questions!

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Week 1 Who are your top three favorite protagonists?

I don't really have a favourite. I'm more attached to the whole worlds of books (even books set in the "real world") rather than particular characters. Now, if I were asked about my favourite literary critics...

What was your favorite book as a child?

I don't remember having a favourite book as a child. I remember some series I would read a lot of (Baby-Sitters, Mandie), and then getting into Dolly Fiction stories in my early teenage years, and the Goosebumps books, by R.L. Stine, until I realised that I didn't like how they were effecting my view of the world. By the way, it's fine to not read certain kinds of books for that reason, as long as you have had a little think about it!

Week 2 What is your all-time favorite poem?

"The Lady of Shallott" by Tennyson is definitely up there; many of the Psalms in the Bible; Paradise Lost by John Milton; but again, not really one particular favourite.

Is there a book that you absolutely hate?

Just this last week I could not finish Samuel Beckett's Echo's Bones. The protagonist's attitude to women and children was just really off-putting, so I didn't even want to finish it. And fair enough, I say!

Week 3 Tell us about a book you have a deep emotional connection with.

It's the Bible. As a Christian, I find it really encouraging and instructive for my faith; as a lover of literature, it has many great stories and theme that are referenced by so many writers, and the use of language is wonderful, especially with the older English translations.

Can you read with background noise?

Yes, but depending on what it is, it might make it harder to concentrate on certain books. And it depends on how tired I am. Mostly I prefer quiet.

Week 4 What is that one book that you’ve been wanting to read for a long time but haven’t for any reason?

I've been wanting to read soooooooo maaaaaaany for soooooooo looooooooong, and mostly I haven't gotten to them because I've been reading other things, or doing other things, like trying to write a PhD on yet more books, or having a kid who now I insists I spend a lot of time reading books to her! To list one, In Other Worlds: Essays in Cultural Politics, by Gayatri Chakravorty Spivak. This amazing woman translated Jacques Derrida's Of Grammatology into English. And apparently didn't get mad at him for stating everything three times in slightly different wording! (At least, that's the impression I had of it, trying to read it a few years ago. Yuck.)

Do you like reading thrillers? Do you have a favorite?

Definitely not. Again, there's that (to me) negative effect on my view of the world. Plus, they just make me paranoid and more jumpy than I already am, and if the house is dark or its night time, I already have enough of a job telling my imagination to not be silly, I don't need the things I've been reading to make it worse. That said, there are some I've read in the past that I've liked the story or how they've been written, but I don't think I would read them again. Bread and Chocolate by Phillipa Gregory, and another one I can't remember just now and don't want to go hunting for... my books are all over the house... some of them stacked triple deep... I do know that if I'm reading suspense, I truly loathe the "maybe it didn't really happen" ending.

[thestupidhelmet]

I've been reading lot of your metas lately and I really love them but I noticed that your criticizm of Kelso is really harsh. I think he's not that bad. His sexist remarks are mostly played for laughs and he wasn't that sexist and stupid in season 1. I think that in season 1 he was actually a good guy then he suddenly became a sex obsessed pig in season 2. Don't you think this might be because he's somewhat traumatized by Laurie's invasion of his boundaries and emotional blackmailing and abuse?

Thanks! I’m glad you’re enjoying my metas, and I understand how my analysis of Kelso might seem harsh. That’s likely due to the fact my metas involving Kelso tend to analyze his worst arcs on the show.

That said, regardless of whether sexist remarks are played/written for laughs, they become part of a character’s makeup if s/he says them. Red and Jackie’s xenophobic remarks toward Fez are played/written for laughs, too. That doesn’t make Red and Jackie any less xenophobic.

I do think Kelso – stripped of Ashton’s charming, often hilarious portrayal – is an unlikable character for much of the show and generally not a “good guy”. But Ashton’s likability comes through Kelso, making it harder to discern just how awful Kelso truly is for most of the series. When I watch Kelso on T7S, I don’t grumble about his terrible behavior. I laugh at his antics and enjoy Ashton’s performance. It creates some cognitive dissonance, and I posted an interesting meta last night discussing that very phenomenon.

Below the cut is an extensive, thorough meta. Tuck in. :)

In season 1, Kelso does have a good friend moment in “Grandma’s Dead” (1x23). A man knocks Eric unconscious with one punch, and Kelso and Hyde avenge Eric’s honor and fight that man and his friends. Other than that, though, Kelso doesn’t demonstrate any real friendship to anyone. He’s focused on himself, Jackie (positively and negatively), and Laurie.

In “Drive-In” (1x08), Kelso almost has another good friend moment with Eric. Eric asks Kelso not to accompany him and Donna to a drive-in movie. But Kelso doesn’t follow-through because Jackie makes the opposite promise to Donna, and Kelso doesn’t put up much of a fight. Kelso and Jackie fool around in the back seat of the Vista Cruiser, making Eric and Donna uncomfortable.

Neither Jackie nor Kelso act like good friends in this episode, but Jackie’s the only one who tries to uphold her promise to Donna. She’s also the only one who acknowledges that she’s not “being a very good friend”. She repeatedly attempts to fend off Kelso’s amorous advances but ultimately gives into them.

In “Sunday, Bloody Sunday” (1x10), Eric needs help finishing a term-paper because he has to entertain his grandmother. Donna offers her, Hyde, and Kelso’s help to write it for him. Jackie offers to get her own essay (that she mistakenly believes is) on the same subject. Kelso, though, is determined to break up with her in that very moment. Unlike Donna, Hyde, and Jackie, he’s entirely self-focused.

In “Ski Trip” (1x13), Kelso cheats on Jackie the first time. He kisses Pam Macy behind the school gym, and Jackie breaks up with him (temporarily). He doesn’t show any remorse for what he did. He just wants Jackie to forgive him.

KITTY: Michael, what are you doing down here?KELSO: You know what? I think Eric actually went [to Jackie’s ski cabin without me]. What a jerk!KITTY: Well, why don’t you just go to Jackie’s cabin and talk to him?KELSO: Ican’t. I don’t have a car; and, besides,Jackie hates me forever because I kissed Pam Macy.KITTY: You know, when Mr. Forman and I were dating., I saw him kissing a girl in a movie theater once, and I forgave him.KELSO: You forgave him for kissing another girl?KITTY: Yes, sir. I mean, it wasn’t – it wasn’t so much kissing as it was a groping, sloppy, pawing, nibbling nightmare.KELSO: But, but you forgave him!KITTY: Yeah, I forgave the bastard!KELSO: Cool!

Kelso hitchhikes his way to Jackie’s cabin, not because he feels badly about hurting her. He wants to go skiing with his friends, confront Eric about Eric’s lack of loyalty to him, and to get Jackie’s forgiveness. When he reunites with Jackie, he still shows no remorse and doesn’t apologize.

JACKIE: You walked all the way here in the driving snowstorm just to be with me, didn’t you, Michael? And you would never, ever do that for Pam Macy, would you?KELSO: No?JACKIE: Lover..

Kelso’s forgiven because he guesses that, “No,” is the answer Jackie wants to hear. Basically, it’s dumb luck. Jackie interprets his journey to the cabin as evidence that he loves her. In other words, she suffers from confirmation bias.

In “That Wrestling Show” (1x15), Kelso takes advantage of Jackie’s fear he’ll break up with her now that they’ve had sex. He uses that fear to control her and order her around. That’s not what a good boyfriend – let alone what a good person -- does to someone he supposedly cares about.

Throughout season 1, Kelso demonstrates his lust for Laurie. She rejects him until “A New Hope” (1x20), where he initiates their first make-out. This episode takes place right after Kelso and Jackie reconcile in “Prom Night” (1x19). Likely only one week into their renewed relationship passes before he cheats on her again.

Laurie doesn’t force herself on him in “A New Hope”. She puts out a lure, implies – though not explicitly – that she’s interested in him, and he bites (well, kisses).

He doesn’t demonstrate that he’s a good guy in season 1. He’s consistently selfish. In the episodes and scenes where he isn’t selfish, with rare exception, he’s neutral. Not harming his friends but also not showing them loyalty, compassion, or generosity.

In comparison, during season 1 Eric shows Hyde significant loyalty, compassion, and generosity (particularly in “Punk Chick” [1x22] and “Hyde Moves In” [1x24]). He shows compassion and loyalty to Jackie in “The Pill” (1x17), and Jackie tries to be helpful to Eric in “Sunday, Bloody Sunday”. Donna is consistently a good friend to Eric and Hyde. Hyde and Fez are consistently good friends to each other. Hyde is variably a good friend to Eric and Donna and a selfish a-hole. 

And Kelso has a single, solitary good friend moment in season 1, as described above.

Interesting to note: he doesn’t experience a significant amount of friendship from anyone else in return, either, during season 1. Eric, Hyde, and – to a lesser extent -- Donna badger him to dump Jackie. Hyde often talks condescendingly to Kelso as if Kelso’s an idiot. Fez calls Kelso a whore, etc.

The only moment of friendship toward Kelso in season 1 that stands out to me happens in “Water Tower” (1x21).  Eric is concerned for Kelso’s well-being after Kelso falls off the water tower. Kelso’s wrist seems broken, and Eric tries to get his mom’s help (and is, as we know, traumatized by catching his parents in the middle of sex).

he suddenly became a sex obsessed pig in season 2. 

Kelso is clearly sex-obsessed in season 1. He just doesn’t actually have sex until “Stolen Car” (1x14), but in “Drive-In” (1x08) Kelso has the following conversation with Eric:

ERIC: You and Jackie have done it, like, a million times!KELSO: True! Yeah, slid into home on the second date!

Eric’s line indicates that Kelso brags about having sex with Jackie often – and  before this episode takes place. But Jackie’s dialogue to Donna during the same scene refutes these claims: “[Michael and I] have never done it! We got to third base once, and that was an accident!”

In “Sunday, Bloody Sunday,” Kelso is seconds away from breaking up with Jackie. Donna orders him not to, and he and Jackie make out right outside the basement door.

In “Eric’s Birthday” (1x02), Kelso becomes aroused just by being in Laurie’s presence. She’s wearing only a long sweatshirt, no pants, to cover her underwear.

LAURIE: If we were at the beach, you wouldn’t even notice me.HYDE: If we were at the beach, Kelso would be in the water right now.

Once she leaves the scene, Kelso interprets Laurie’s non-sexual dialogue about Eric’s surprise party as hitting on himself.

KELSO: Oh! Yeah! Your sister wants me! I mean you sawher coming onto me, right? Remember? I said, “Hello, Laurie,” and Laurie said…

FANTASY LAURIE: Hello, Kelso. I’m waiting. And I want you, baby, to take menow.  I need it bad. I need it all night. And Momma loves her baby. I’mcompletely naked under this, and I’m hot for you, Kelso!

The writers clearly wrote that scene for laughs, but it also shows Kelso’s obsessed-with-sex (and with Laurie) mindset in second episode of the series.

Don’t you think this might be because he’s somewhat traumatized by Laurie’s invasion of his boundaries and emotional blackmailing and abuse?          

I’m all about calling out toxic relationships in the show, whether the perpetrator is male or female (or where both parties act badly). What Laurie does to Kelso in “Red’s Last Day” (2x02) is unacceptable (I wrote a meta on it here). That scene was “played for laughs,” too, but it doesn’t invalidate the awfulness of what Laurie does. It doesn’t make her any less of a rapist. The characters’ actions and words are their actions and words.

I hope I’ve made clear now why “[Kelso’s] sexist remarks are mostly played for laughs” doesn’t make Kelso any less of a sexist. If he’s saying sexist remarks, they’re in his mind to say. Being a sexist is part of his character.

In real life, Laurie’s violation of Kelso and her subsequent manipulation and emotional blackmail of him would likely traumatize him. But as written on the show, it doesn’t. It’s not in the material, which is a shame. But That ‘70s Show is a comedy. The writers weren’t going to turn it into a drama or dramedy that dealt with trauma and recovery. That doesn’t make Laurie’s treatment of him, however, any less reprehensible.

Laurie’s not held accountable by T7S’s writers for what she does. They write Kelso as initially rejecting Laurie’s sexual advances in “Red’s Last Day” then quickly giving into pleasure and accepting it. His no turns into a yes. The meta I linked a few paragraphs up delves into this more thoroughly.

But in this meta here, I’ve already established that Kelso is sex-obsessed in season 1. Laurie doesn’t catalyze that aspect of him. He cheats on Jackie twice in season 1, brags about having sex to his friends that he’s not having. Doesn’t break up with Jackie because, in large part, he craves their sexual relationship. He probably would’ve been the same with any girl who fooled around with him. His lust isn’t Jackie-specific. But Jackie’s the only one offering (until Pam Macy and, later, Laurie).

What Laurie does do, however, is free him from the idea that he can have sex with only Jackie. Just before Laurie forces herself on him in “Red’s Last Day,” Kelso has the following fantasy.

PAUL ANKA: Yeah, with a ride [van] like this you must get a buttload of ladiesKELSO: Actually, Paul, I’m just with Jackie at the moment.PAUL: Just Jackie? What are you, an idiot?KELSO: Well […] I know that a fine machine like this would well snag me lots of pelt. But I love Jackie, and a real man can deny his man-instincts…

Part of him isn’t happy being monogamous. His heart seems loyal to Jackie, but his body isn’t. Later, he has the following exchange with Jackie:

KELSO: So I’d like to see other people!JACKIE: No.KELSO: What I mean to say is that you and I should see other people.JACKIE: No.KELSO: Okay … what if just I see other people?JACKIE: No.KELSO: Okay, okay!

This is actually one of Kelso’s most honorable moments on the show. He tries to get out of his relationship with Jackie so that he can pursue all the sex he wants. Not only that, he wants her to be free, too. Unlike in season 5, he doesn’t expect Jackie to be miserable and alone while he sleeps with whomever he wants.

But Kelso isn’t assertive enough to contend with Jackie’s controlling nature. He backs down, stays in a relationship with her, and pursues all the sex he wants anyway, just without her knowing.

I don’t fault him for saying, “What if just I see other people?” He’s giving her a choice by being honest about what he wants. He’s essentially saying, “This is what I’m going to do if we stay in a relationship. You can accept that or not.”

The problem isn’t that Kelso doesn’t want to be monogamous. It’s that once he agrees to be monogamous, he lies to Jackie about doing the opposite.

We learn in a subsequent episode that Kelso had “some side action” from a girl from Sacred Heart during his relationship with Jackie and affair with Laurie. In “I’m a Boy” (6x08), Kelso reveals he cheated on Jackie a lot more than we ever imagined. He interpreted Jackie’s annoyances at him as “breaks” that gave him permission to sleep with whoever he wants. But they weren’t officially broken up in those moments.

Throughout the series, Kelso is portrayed as a sex addict with little to no impulse control. Laurie doesn’t create that addiction him, but she opens the door to him acting on it fully.

[perseusjackson-jasongrace]

I'm just putting myself on blast to let everyone know what @stillneedsmorekissing has to go through when I read her fics

I'm literally so sorry friend I'm leaving whole essays under your fics🥺I don't even realize they get this long until I've pressed "post comment"

[image id: a screencap of an ao3 comment by perseusjacksonjasongrace left underneath the fic, "We should have each other with cream." written by melancholic_pigeon, that reads:

I've been slowing my binge of this because I just couldn't bear for it to end. After all I can never read it for the first time again but I suppose when I reread (because I will reread) I can just keep falling more in love over and over again.

Im just so proud of them (and then by extension you) for how far these babies have come in 11 chapters. I think healing, and learning to heal (which always seems to be different), is the most important part of being human and reading about it, in the way you write it, just encompasses everything it needs to be. I don't really know if I'm making sense but I hope you can string together something comprehensible from this mess.

Anyway I have some notes (of gushing praise and adoration)

1. Your characterizations are immaculate. And I appreciate that although you bring in elements of canon (for the characters) you still keep them far enough away that they feel completely yours. Although i love pjo as I've grown older I've wanted to (and have, to some extent) drifted further away from Canon and Canon characterisation of these characters because I've grown and changed and although my love for them has not I needed them to change with me so I could bring them along into each new version of myself (I really even now couldn't imagine leaving Percy in my past. He is so much a part of me that it'll be like losing who I am which is terrifying)

Now that I've shared way too much information that I'm sure you could hardly care about onto the next note

2. The rift between Annabeth and jason is. ............ Haunting. That's the best word I could come up with. Maybe because they're both trying to heal from hurting the same person they loved in the same way or maybe it's because theyre trying to mend a past that started out friendly and ended in the complete opposite direction but the way you write them feels haunted. Like ghosts of their pasts continually hunt their present. And I truly love it. Because although I've never fallen out with a friend so badly we've stopped being friends even now, I have lost people to my childhood as we grew and changed but those memories still sit in my mind, sometimes come forward and play on a loop. I guess I know what its like to be haunted so reading about their own trials just resonates with me in loud, wonderfully alarming ways. I also appreciate how you're helping them close that rift. Which brings me into my next nore

3. The gentleness with which you treat your characters (because at this point they are undoubtedly yours) is beyond my ability to put into words. All I can say on this front is that my heart clenches, and softens, and burns, and dies, and rises every time. I feel that gentleness with my chest. Its a big reason I keep coming back to your stuff, to read anew or reread for the 100th time.

And a final note

4. Thank you for this fic. I love this, I'm pretty sure I'm in love with you, and I hope you never stop writing. You were born for it. Maybe more so than the greats. I feel like the Bronte sisters would have loved to meet you.

Lmaooo can you believe after this entire essay I actually forgot to add something (clearly I don't know how to shut up) but I adore that they did ballet. The dance holds a special place in my heart and whenever I read about characters practicing it I want to curl up with them and tell them I love them. Just yes thank you foe the ballet segment.

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My point is: don't ask me to read your fics because I have a problem and don't know how to shut up😭

@stillneedsmorekissing you made me cry🥺