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[pe0ple3ater]

Hello! As per request, here is my full analysis on Cellbit and his turn to cannibalism!

Before you read, here are some things to keep in mind!

This is only my interpretation, you're allowed to disagree. If you do, I'd really be happy if you, respectfully, added to the post! I want to hear your thoughts and analysis. Or you can DM me! Let me say it again, you will respectfully disagree with me. If you're rude, I'll ignore and or block ^^

I am just some guy, I don't have all of the answers. I'm only a casual watcher of Cellbit and only know his lore from what I've read! I may be wrong! However, I have taken a lot of time reading up on him and watching as many videos and clips as I can hehe

This dives into some heavy shit., such as Cellbit's negative feelings about himself, delusions, and unhealthy relationships. You need to be aware while reading this!

It's written a bit like a fic, because I can't help but be dramatic

Enjoy!

An exploration of Cellbit, violence, cannibalism, and love.

The first we know of Cellbit is the Hunger Games event, made canon by his conversations with Bad.

Cellbit was young, a child soldier thrown into these harsh games for the pleasure of faceless watchers because it was either die in the streets or die trying to get some quick cash and possibly win.

The whole situation is fully out of his control; this is the beginning of his spiral.

Keep in mind that he's a child. These conditions are not what he should be dealing with. His mind is forced into a survival mode where he has to do whatever he can to stay alive.

He has to kill people to survive, and then when things get bad, he has to eat people to survive. It's what he has to do. He has Bad, the first person he’s ever looked up to and has wanted to make proud, showing him how to butcher a body and what parts taste the best.

Cellbit has to do this, or he'll die.

It's out of his control.

To deal with the disgust, the fear, the self-loathing, and the trauma. His brain forces him to convince himself to like it. It's easier to enjoy the things that scare you than to be constantly disgusted and afraid by them. He convinces himself he likes it all, the blood, the killing, the cannibalism. It still makes him sick; deep down, a part of him knows he's wrong. He hates these acts and feels disgusted; he manages to drown it out with the screams of the people he has to kill.

When they win, and he looks over to see Bad smiling tiredly at him, ragged and flushed with victory and pride, it solidifies that enjoyment in his head. He won, he did everything he had to, and he feels good right now, and that means that everything he had to do to get here is good as well.

He's a child, remember that.

Next, he's in prison.

Another situation where he has no control other than what he can force himself to have.

The phone becomes a comfort, a lifeline he uses to force the people around him into respecting and fearing him.

People being scared of him feels good, incredible.

No one has ever really been afraid of Cellbit before. If they're scared of him, they can't hurt him. He learns to manipulate people, and he garners the respect and control he’s been grappling for. He becomes some twisted form of friends with Felps, someone who respects and fears and helps him. It's good, he's settled.

He keeps trying to escape because that's just another thing he can control.

Then he meets Pac, and maybe he falls in love, but at this point, he is an amalgamation of trauma and violence. He has never been in love or been loved, not by anything but the hilt of his knife. Pac is like him; he can see it in how he throws himself at situations that scare him. Cell can see the flash of interest in his eyes when they look at each other. Cell wants to have him. He makes Pac afraid of him; he controls him because if Cell can control him, maybe he can keep him. It’s what he’s learned to be true of himself.

They plan to escape, and they try to leave him alone. Cell's control on the situation slips, and he lashes out against the people trying to take it away. He feels nothing when he kills JV other than rage and his blood on his hands.

He needs to restate his control over Pac. He needs Pac to be his forever, in some way. So he eats his leg.

He likes eating people, and he likes Pac. These wires are crossed in his head. All Cell has ever known is violence; every time he's cared about someone, it's always ended in pain. He doesn't know any other way to be. He hurts Pac, and he eats his leg so that Pac will bear that mark forever. He will never exist without the mark of what Cell did to him. He will never escape from Cell’s love, and Cell will always hold that over him. It makes Cell so happy; he thinks he loves Pac, and now Pac will always know how Cell feels about him.

He kills Felps. It hurts. He doesn't want to, but he can't leave any ties to be found; if Felps hates him, it's easier.

They escape, and he gets left behind. He does what he needs to do to survive; finally, his life is his.

He gets "better," goes to therapy, and tries to fix himself. He learns that he is fundamentally wrong and that his brain doesn't work as it should. He understands that he is a monster, and Cell can't look at himself in the mirror for a long time. He stays away from people, mostly.

He goes to Quesadilla Island, and for a while, things are okay.

Pac is there; every time Cellbit looks at Pac, the broken part in him purrs and claws at his throat, and the new parts of himself he's trying to establish shrink away in disgust. He apologizes and makes promises he doesn't know he can keep. Mike glares at him, he’s always been the angry part of Tazercraft. Pac looks at him wearily, leans away when he gets too close. Yet he accepts him without much fight. Cellbit tries not to think about other times he accepted him without a fight.

Cellbit has a fragile control over his life.

He spends many days barely holding himself back from hurting Roier. He loves him, and no matter how many times Cellbit tells himself it's not true, he will always be made of violence. He forcibly files down the parts of himself that he knows hurt people. He tries so hard. He dreams of Roier under him, chest open and heart bared to him. Waking up from those dreams he’s filled with pride and love. He curls around his husband and sobs into his chest, and Roier tries to reassure him that it's okay; he knows Cellbit would never hurt him. Cellbit keeps himself on the brink of exhaustion; if he's too tired to think, he's too tired to hurt people.

He still tries not to look in the mirror.

He kills the Fed workers when the eggs go missing. He hates them. He eats at the raw flesh like he did so long ago because he needed to do this. He can't control where their children are, but he can control these worker's deaths, make a statement that he knows the Feds will see. Cell and Cellbit are not two separate people. They never have been, they are the same, and Cellbit has never felt more himself than when he ripped into those fucking bears. He goes home, cleans up the blood, vomits, and lays awake, wondering what the fuck is wrong with him.

Cellbit hates himself, Roier kisses his cheek and climbs into bed. Cellbit hates himself. He selfishly clings to Roier and lets himself be loved in a way that doesn't hurt. Cellbit hates himself. He squeezes his eyes closed and thinks about ripping into his husband the way he had those innocent workers.

Cellbit hates himself, and Roier mumbles that he loves him.

[lmanberg]

you know whosss defiiiniiitely not straiiight alssso?

b^dboyh^lo,,,

BiBoyHalo

[pe0ple3ater]

Hi hi! 🖤 Two things:

I really enjoyed reading your Cellbit cannibalism analysis. you explained it so well and that's pretty much exactly how I imagine it going but you were in depth I would have enjoyed it regardless. Ahhh my absolute favorite part though was "Cellbit hates himself, and Roier mumbles that he loves him." and everything about that. Cellbit and Roier's whole relationship from you is *chef's kiss*

I wanted to ask your opinion because I'm indecisive--bad/cellbit is bad on top or bottom? (totally seperate from their lore this is a current general question not back then)

--Sin Anon

I'm glad you enjoyed reading! I was really happy with the response on that analysis hehehe everyone was so amazing about it! I really enjoy character analysis so that was originally something I wrote just for myself so I'm really happy other people managed to enjoy it!!

Okay so, if you're talking about the AU you're writing I say bottom Cellbit. Cellbit is the most whiny, big teary eyed bottom in my head. He CAN be dominate, but the second someone shows some force towards him he melt into a puddle and gets so wet he doesn't know what to do with himself. He's used to being in charge so having it taken away from him kind of turns him on.

[pe0ple3ater]

Your cannibalism cellbit study makes me incredibly happy, and this isn’t even criticism (at least I hope it’s not) I just wanted to throw in my two cents. I think that the games left a very strong foundation for cellbit, especially in the realm of care and affection because of his mentor. While he was already eating people before he even met bad, bad definitely complicated his feelings towards the matter. Bad is basically the hungriest guy ever and eats everything he can, which is something he’s very candid about. It was canonized that during times of desperation bad would cut off pieces of himself to feed to cellbit, (seeing as, being a demon it would eventually regenerate). Also during a conversation with Bagi, mouse said that demon blood is pretty addictive (though it’s not clear if this is specifically to vampires or in general). 

So image you’re a teenager, you have no memory of a life before the area, and the only form of love and affection you know comes from a guy who quite literally cuts himselve apart for the sake of keeping you alive (by feeding you a potentially highly addictive substance). Your whole basis of love and sacrifice comes from the literal consumption of the other. that would mess anybody up, especially when considering the high contrast with feelings of instinctual, visceral disgust.

(I hope this made sense, it’s very late and I’m very tired but I was really excited/inspired by what you wrote)

YIPPE ANOTHER ONE!! LETS GO!!! You've actually given me a lot of infomation that I had no idea about, thank you so much!!

"While he was already eating people before he even met bad, bad definitely complicated his feelings towards the matter."

I didn't know he was eating people before, but I enjoy the knowledge very much because like you said, it gives us the chance to look at Cellbit's relationship with Bad and the way it formed his brain. Yes complicated feelings! I love! Because here he is, like 15, having done this act he's told is horrible and disgusting, and someone is telling him he did good, that they have a chance at winning now! What is Cellbit supposed to feel other than pride?

"It was canonized that during times of desperation bad would cut off pieces of himself to feed to cellbit.."

IM SORRY HE WHAT?? Okay so basically this just adds to my analysis that Cell ate Pac's leg out of love. Because Bad gave him parts of himself and Cell feels affection for him, and now Pac can give a part of himself because Cell feels affection for him. This is actually like, the biggest piece of infomation you could have given me because it just...solidifies my ideas. I love you, we could kiss.

"Your whole basis of love and sacrifice comes from the literal consumption of the other. that would mess anybody up, especially when considering the high contrast with feelings of instinctual, visceral disgust."

YES you understand me!! Human psychology is so..fucky! I really love this line, because humans are wired to, you know, not be cannibals. So you have the instinctual "oh god this is horrible and wrong" vs "this is what love and care is" RAGGGH this was so good holy shit.

THANK YOU SO MUCH. PLEASE COME IN MY INBOX AGAIN.

[pe0ple3ater]

Some demon Bad stuff while I finish the first chapter of the religion/corruption au fic:

Lots of dresses. Not even for horny reasons it just makes him feel sexy and pretty.

Oh yeah, he/they/it Bbh, btw

Likes having its shoulders exposed for the same reasons as the dresses, but also cuz they love getting scratches, hickeys, bites, collars etc.

They like clothes that barely cover his tits. Barely. and the whole easy access thing

Appearance is generally the same but breasts and other slight changes depend on victim's preference

Bad’s tail being pulled or stroked gets him wet immediately. You could probably get him off just from that. There was one fic (deleted now and I don’t remember who by) where his horns were verryy sensitive as well

Human disguise is barbieboyhalo

Tail fucking. Anything it can do with its hands they'll do with the tail. Especially on themself Bad loves edging or teasing with his tail cuz it's not strong enough or thick enough to be satisfying inside but it's long and the spade creates a unique feeling for sure. You can see the spade stretch its hole but slick leaks out easily around the rest of it

Masochist, loves feeling like a doll or pet and just letting people use them

Sacrilege is HOT. The crucifix brand, "repentance", fucking over an altar, Bad is an absolute slut for that shit and definitely mainly targets religious people (I'm not projecting what)

--Sin Anon

YES I'M SO HAPPY ABOUT THIS AU!!

"...but also cuz they love getting scratches, hickeys, bites, collars etc."

As he should. I mean he looks so pretty with them!

"They like clothes that barely cover his tits. Barely. and the whole easy access thing"

Easy access is important, especially if he's fucking around with priests. They're so busy, they don't have time for too much debauchery, so when they're ready to go you better be too. Or, if they're really starving for it, there's less clothes to get in the way!

"Bad’s tail being pulled or stroked gets him wet immediately. You could probably get him off just from that."

BARK BARK BARK YES PULL HIS TAIL. Etoiles fucking him with Bad's tail wrapped in his fist...using it to pull him back on his dick with every thrust 0///0

"You can see the spade stretch its hole but slick leaks out easily around the rest of it"

Yes, my favorite BBH is a wet and messy BBH. Big fan of this, super big fan.

"Bad is an absolute slut for that shit and definitely mainly targets religious people"

Hey I have a priest kink too man, they're just like me..

[pe0ple3ater]

ask game? hm,, codebreakers, archivists please? oh! and bagina,, and maybe landduo if that isn’t too much,, :3

LANDDUO my beloved. I enjoy them SO MUCH.

Codebreakers is obvious, I'm super normal about them..

Archivist I simply don't understand. Maybe I saw it in purgatory but other than that I just don't understand it?

Baghina (I think that's the right two) I love because their unwavering trust and awkward gay flirting is everything to me.

[pe0ple3ater]

For the ask game : Djduo, Codebreakers and Starhalo ? :>

You seriously sent some of my fav ships. Djduo is EVERYTHING to me. I love them. I'm working on something for them. Codebreakers is the reason I got into Etoiles in the beginning!! Starhalo I've come around to because of a friend

[pe0ple3ater]

Bad in a dress because he deserves them and I’m-tooo-shy is The Badboyhalo artist ever and I’m shamelessly promoting them. This is the dress inspo in case ur wondering

https://www.tumblr.com/im-tooo-shy/740999551073337344/owo?source=share

INDEED THEY ARE THE BADBOYHALO ARTIST EVER. Love!! Everyone go check this out PLEASE