#autistic pattern recognition strikes again

[seabeck]

Me, trying to explain how to can tell the difference between species of plants and fungi:

[hoohoobeanie]

So basically, we got that. Your manifesting strikes again

is it manifesting or is it autistic pattern recognition. the damien haas dilemma, if you will.

[sigmaelxgr]

Wow! What a wild thing to say to someone! Sorry you had to deal with that.

I just wanna say that the joy these creations bring you is valuable, in and of itself. The fact that they seem to think that your happiness is not enough, that it must generate monetary or social value for them you is pretty upsetting.

I can understand the impulse to urge someone you love to share their art (especially if you think it's beautiful and worthy of recognition), but that doesn't seem like what they're doing.

You have no obligation to offer your art up for consumption. You do not need the approval of capital.

No time spent on joy is wasted.

aww thank you thats really kind and that made me think for a while (which is good, i like to think) that is absolutely where I state, and it never occured to me that something that appeases me after a long day of work may be a problem bc its repetitive and bears the same patterns i mean, i would read the same books over and over again, it would be no problem for them (i guess), but me drawing the same characters bc it makes me happy to bring them beautiful hair, or new clothes, or just drawing a smile on their lips etc, i dont get it we have financial problems, life is a bit harsh and uncertainty striked France within the last 10 years, i dropped our of school, etc, i get the constant anxiety about the future bc I live it and i would not lie by saying roleplay and drawings and fiction are not refuges for me but to consider it a problem bc it bears patterns, it strikes me you know, and even more bc as an autistic person, i DO have patterns and I know it, i do have almost obsessive interests and I know it, and its so so rude to me to consider it a problem bc it doesnt bring money? They figured i could be a good designer, drawing illustrations and such all my life, im sure i could do it, im just sad that what makes me good, what makes me recover is considered bad bc of repetition im not a professionnal illustrator, im a hobbyist, an amateur repetition is part of me, and drawing to earn money would turn something i do for pleasure and relief into a whole other category i dont say i'll never take commissions tho, i think i'll stick to portraits bc i just looove to give people moods, faces, traits, it makes me so happy but ill stick to what i love to draw, i dont want to suffer for it