#author: meningeez-loueez

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"Tim," Lucy turned in her seat, staring at him. Face shadowed in the lamp light, Tim couldn't stop his brain from the she's beautiful, that scraped across his brain. An immutable fact of the universe. "You can miss him, you know? And I don't know if you want to, or maybe not with me, " she twisted the moonstone ring on her finger, looking away before bringing back her eyes to his. Staring into what felt like his soul. "But you can talk about him. You can still... Talk about all of it. I'm here. I'm always here." As he stared into her face, the person he trusted with his life every day, the person that he- Tim inhaled sharply. "I don't know how." His voice sounded horrible. Raspy. "Sometimes I want to but I..." -All he could hear in his head was the pounding of his skull into the dry wall, the screaming for him to “stop crying for fucks sake”, chewing painfully on Christmas cookies with an ice pack on his eye, his dad grinning while handing him a new baseball mitt- Her hand moved to his arm. It let him take a breath. "I don't know if I can. Yet." It was almost a whisper. "I'll be here when you want me to be."

- Blue Christmas by @meningeez-loueez