#ausmp is mentioned in this post

[asterssunzephyr]

chat I can go ON about why theyre equal to me.

I love them both bc they gave us so much different dynamics despite knowing how everyone is with each other in other smps

both seasons mean so much to me and I can explain why if someone wants to listen

thats A LIE ill do it anyone, this is my blog & if you have notifs on then thats your fuckin problem expect me to go on for hours if I wanted to.

ONTO THE TALKING

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S1 the season I didnt watch while it was active. I started watching Geminitay, empires smp s1 after it had ended. Originally, while it was still coming out with new episodes, I was watching Lizzie. I got up to right before the Xornoth appearances before I stopped watching because as much as I loved Lizzie, i put two and two together that at the time I wasnt a fan of smps that were new and preferred watching my past, such as Lizzies crazycraft series.

Mind you, I was also a lot more into anime and was actively watching KNY at the time that esmp s1 came out. I was also going through my freshman year of Highschool and right before sophomore year.

Well, we move onto post s1, pre s2, and I decide "Why not pick this series back up? Maybe someone else out of curiosity of expanding who I watch on youtube." well. I picked s1 up post sophomore year and right before my junior year. I finished s1 Fwhip (I am on a mission of watching everyones s1, Ive gone through Shelby (x2), Katherine, Gem (x2), and Fwhip). A month later, s2 started and I started actively watching Shelby and Gem for s2. At one point, in December, I fell behind on episodes because my great grandmother died and I had finals going on as well. Around the start of January I pick it back up from the Festival so I can refresh my own memory.

Cue March 2023, Junior year of highschools for Icarus when I recieve the absolute worst news of my life: My childhood best friend, the one I could always count on, my dog died. S2 ended right before my birthday and I now am in my finale year of highschool, without my dog thats been with me since I was child and getting hit by a train every other week due to sn act class that I only need to graduate.

If s3 of empires smp comes around I hope all of you will be prepared to listen to me sobbing over c!Shelby and c!Gem AGAIN becauze theyre my little fellas and I love them too much for my own good and cc!Shelby has gotten me through the past few months when I havent been my best.

Empires smp is a comfort series for me, and Area Unknown has found its way right next to esmp. Aimsey & Guqqie have become comfort streamers right next to Shelby in the sense that I can watch their vods and I feel content with life and where Im at.

Empires has been there for me these past few years when I didnt think I had anyone else. Empires has lead me to meet some of the best people I've come to be friends with. Empires has connected me to people I never thought I would ever befriend, and Im so thankful for it.

All of you fucks have to thank Empires for me being on Tumblr too.

[memryse]

that post about misogyny in mcyt fandom/shipping has made me think a lot about how i approach area unknown so. slight introspection time. i think it’s silly to discuss misogyny/bigotry if you’re not willing to reexamine your own behaviour and biases

bc my attitude to ausmp has always been “i got into it for scott’s character because that’s the exact sort of awful character that i go deranged insane for”. so i class au!scott as one of my favourite characters ever but i barely know the rest of the smp. and i’m absolutely interested in getting to know the other characters, but i’m busy watching a lot of stuff already and a lot of vods are completely lost anyway, so in practice all i’ve seen are scott’s vods and some aimsey vods.

since not many people in this side of the fandom don’t know as much about that sphere of mcyt, me talking about au!scott usually means people ask me what even is area unknown. and so i don’t rlly get to take that stance of just blorboposting when that happens. because of my limited knowledge i usually end up talking about why i like au!scott/demon brothers and then when explaining the smp as a whole often mentioning au!sunshipduo being canon, but not wanting to conflate promoting the whole smp with promoting the canon sapphic relationship because i don’t like the idea of making anyone out to be the “main character” (the most i’ll ever say is scott is undoubtedly the antagonist) nor do i want to reduce sunshipduo to Just the romance aspect because that feels icky to me. and i figured that was fine because i don’t know any like active ausmp fandom members and looking through the tags on here and ao3 i almost exclusively saw sunshipduo content and barely anything if anything at all for anyone else including scott

but then looking through the tags of that post i saw someone say au!scott has more enjoyers than au!sunshipduo and i’m like. huh. they might be wrong since it doesn’t align at all with what i’ve seen of the fandom content or maybe number of fanworks don’t necessarily reflect the true amount of casual fans whereas sunshipduo have more committed fans, i don’t know. but either way it really made me think huh am i actually contributing to that problem. and then it also made me think well i’m not particularly into romance of any kind anyway so it’s not surprising that i personally am not likely to become a sunshipduo stan once i watch more vods. however i still feel myself vibing harder with flower husbands despite them both being similar flavours of reincarnated romance and is there a reason for that? is it that i vibe more with the less seriously roleplayed flower husbands because i’m aroace and prefer only a hint of romance or is it just some very deep set internalised misogyny. or perhaps both. we’ll find out when i finish watching the vods i guess

ordinarily i wouldn’t post stuff like this but i think it’s fine as a reminder to reexamine your biases every once in a while especially if you’re going to discuss issues in fandom because chances are you’re not magically immune