#aughhh i've watched the ending 3 times now

[uruwashi-no-nightingale]

im coping

[feuqueerfire]

23.5 Eps 9 - 12 Live Blogging

well... I started watching an on-air show after a long time (February 2023 Never Let Me Go, I'm not counting Our Skyy 2) and I really just binged the first 8 episodes and fell off lol. Interestingly, I also had to binge the last 4 eps of NLMG because I stopped keeping up weekly after ep 8 (though I did watch eps 4 - 8 on a weekly basis before that).

Anyway, I wasn't feeling a Need to come back to this show because I found the resolution to Ongsa-Earth underwhelming and the reaction I've seen to these last few episodes has also been middling, so hmm idk. I'm also just not in the mood for high school shows right now (I Will Knock You is also on-hold rip), so it feels a bit unfair to this show to watch it when I'm not in the mood but what can you do? I don't want to leave it hanging even after the show ends.

Ep 9: When The Earth Tilts (May 22/23)

9-1

aughhh I really don't know if I should make myself just watch this or not because they're being cute but I just... kinda don't care. I'm indeed in the mood for something more dramatic but I also think I'm just apathetic toward them the way I became toward Akk and Ayan as soon as The Eclipse finished airing and also to Palm and Nueng toward the end of the show (although I loveeee Palm and Nueng now after some time has passed, so maybe that'll be the case here too?)

the introduction of the exchange program

Oh, dad and Ongsa just moved to Bangkok and they're getting to live as a full family, so I guess Alpha and mom lived here before

Aw, Aylin interacting with them and forcing her mouth to do smiles to try to fit in/communicate with human family

I... watched 10 mins the whole day, rip

am I being unnecessarily harsh on this show or does the conversation not seem... natural between Onsga and Sun like it's just a bike riding scene and it should be fine but why am I just like... this isn't how people talk.

at first I was like nooo Ayling shouldn't need to put on makeup to fit in the way she was trying at lunch with Alpha and Ongsa but it's cute if she wants to do it herself before meeting with Luna heh

khun faen hehe

pls not the two pairs competing

9-2

aw, Teacher Nida and Bambam helping an insecure Alpha

9-3

chef Alpha omg

no more P'Ton flirting, we have progressed past the need for P'Ton flirting

Aylin basically pieing his face was so deserved, idc that Ton helped Ongsa and Sun or whatever, he's annoying

oh nooo my poor overwhelmed Aylin

9-4

1 year scholarship to America

and now the guilt of Alpha telling Sun to not leave Ongsa, oh no

is this their first I love you? I can't remember

ahhhh the towel scene + kisses

lol I know how the scene ends because of spoilers but I would've lost my damn mind while waiting if I didn't know lol

I wasn't really into it at the start of this ep but I liked it again by the end!

I didn't mind Luna asking Aylin to socialize more with her family because it's a fairly small step since she already spends time with them and I think it'd be good for Aylin to push herself a bit out of her comfort zone and realize the benefits of maintaining relationships but the stuff at the end was too much, like why must Aylin sit at the table for lunch with a bunch of Luna's friends when she already struggles with people? I hope Luna thinks it through more next ep and apologizes but I'm nervous that that won't be the case based on some fan reactions, though idk if that was to ep 9 or ep 10.

Ep 10: (May 23/24)

10-1

plss Alpha with the knife truly is so funny

ah, Sun's out to her parents + they know Ongsa's her gf but Ongsa didn't know they knew everything

...not keeping secrets

and vaguely hypothetically asking about distance and time

10-2

secrets plaguing Aylin and Sun

oh, Sun's telling Ongsa. and she hasn't even taken the test yet and doesn't know if they'll make it. honestly a pretty good time to get Ongsa, no misunderstandings or really much secrecy yet

10-3

Teacher Bambam and Nida lmfaooo Bambam reading all the tarot cards correctly but not picking up on them being about HER!!

I feel like we've been finally learning more about Sun these past 2 eps through this scholarship and her desire for it

DON'T GIVE UP SCHOLARSHIP AND EXCHANGE PROGRAM AND NEW EXCITING EXPERIENCE FOR THIS RANDOM HIGH SCHOOL RELATIONSHIP

not even TESTING for the scholarship?!?! girl pls

I went to bed and was supposed to watch the last part before going to sleep but I didn't feel like watching Sun out Ongsa (maybe? based on a bit of the Next Part teaser at the end) so I'm here the next morning

10-4

my Aylin !!! :(

but also like... is it that big of a reveal that Aylin was bullied? feels like More should've been said or explored here?

I'm gonna smack Ton

the teachers confession!! hehe

Ongsa's right to tell Sun to pursue her exchange program dreams

okay Sun's outing of Aylin was accidental and I'll give it a pass because she's a teenager who has grown up in a very accepting home and they're all out at school, so she didn't think before mentioning the 3rd wheeling thing

but she should realize that Ongsa's trying to steer the conversation away and back off

instead of confronting Ongsa and outing her in front of her parents and wtf is "so you're never gonna tell them about me?" why is 'never' coming up here? you've barely been dating bruh and haven't discussed anything. like she could've been upset at Ongsa for keeping her a secret without feeling the need to declare it in front of her parents when Ongsa doesn't want to come out

and then just Leaving and riding away on P'Sunny after doing all that?!?!?

I've seen that Ongsa's the one who has to apologize to Sun apparently and I don't want to watch that at all.

Ep 11: (May 24)

11-1

indeed you should've been mad at finding out Ongsa's Earth, would've made more sense than here.

NO MORE TON, ENOUGH

11-2

do I care about Tin and Mawin? I cared more earlier on in the show but now idk

why is there so much Ton, he and Charoen better not end up together like she literally does not like that man

I don't really get the 'you don't understand me at all' thing tbh

11-3

parental acceptance

another series mention of worrying about disappointing the parents

the thing is I just feel like coming out isn't only about "you worry too much about what others think" like that's not the same category as Ongsa not telling anybody about Sun and her dating because Sun's popular while she's not. It has more to do with possible pushback and violence from her own family where she didn't feel safe enough to come out. and i just don't like that coming out and being publicly with a girl is treated as the same thing as 'caring too much about other people'

and like make your home and environment a very explicitly queer-accepting space so that your daughter isn't so afraid of coming out to you and doesn't know what reaction to expect wtf

11-4

losing my entire mind at the Luna/Aylin scene, they're soooo cute, I'm soooo giddy hehehehehehe

Sun's parents at least telling her to not change for the one she loves

and Sun says sorry too

long-distance incoming, i'm guessing we'll get some time skip next ep

So close to the finale, finally

Ongsa sending Sun Hundreds of texts and going to her home at night is why. at least Sun called her out on the texts + acting unhinged publicly about the sun, but why have her go to Sun's house at night while Sun's explicitly ignoring her and knock and text and stuff. at least Alpha was taking her away but still. I'll overlook it (kinda how I still was so into PaiSky in Love In The Sky despite Pai's endless SIMs and calling) but it's been noted.

Ep 12: Promise Me... Sun (May 24)

It's a shame that my feeling is glad that I'm almost done rather than being sad about reaching the end.

12-1

Aylin, I freaking love youuuuuu, cutieeeeeee

12-2

terrible cook Ongsa, so true, same girl

12-3

the merch alien hat

at least we're not getting Ton with Cheroen

12-4

Grade 11... were they in grade 10 before?

the separation being in the literal last part is later than I expected

Aylin putting the Luna love note in her mouth hehehe

Nida/Bambam plssss lmfaoo

no! Ton and Charoen are not in love, leave her aloneeeeeeeeee

Aylin is such a trickster when it comes to getting kisses hehehehehehhe

no more glasses for Ongsa, I saw this on a Tumblr post and was like ?! >:(

reunited

Overall:

GMMTV's first GL and MilkLove's first full GL; I was super excited, especially after having watched MilkLove in Bad Buddy and the Magic of Zero special, which is why I started watching this on-air (thought I'd start it even earlier than ep 8 but didn't because of exams). So it's a shame that I feel so... nothing about the show, especially the main couple; I think Aylin/Luna is my fave ship in here. I think I also just wasn't much in the mood for a silly high school romance series right now, which isn't the show's fault but contributed to why I didn't feel the pull to continue watching the show. When I did watch it, it could get pretty cute though, I giggled/gushed a few times, especially about Luna and Aylin. The teachers' storyline was cute too, though barely there. Aylin was the MVP for sure.

Rating: 6/10

[roseofcards90]

For the ask meme: 7/8/25 mob, lu guang? ^^

YAYYY THANK U FOR THE ASK MUN!!! Also oooh interesting! :0

Mob

7. What's something the fandom does when it comes to this character that you like?

I love every single fan art I've seen of this little guy FKJDNDLFK I don't think there's one that I didn't enjoy, so props to the fandom for being able to put him in so many different fan arts and crossovers with other series

8. What's something the fandom does when it comes to this character that you despise?

I can't exactly think of anything specific, but I think just not looking beyond Mob's character and only focusing on shipping him with Teruki (which goes for Teruki as well and reducing his character to only being gay for Mob) not saying the majority of terumob shippers do this btw, I just think it's a common phenomenon that's also present with Serirei too

25. What was your first impression of this character? How about now?

Damn I'm trying to think back to when I first watched mp100...iirc I don't think I understood Mob well as a character? Like more of his flaws I mean, I didn't understand the Mogami arc well enough at the time to comprehend what it meant for Mob and his character, so my first impressions were very much surface level at the time. But now that I'm older, I can understand him a lot better

Lu Guang

7. What's something the fandom does when it comes to this character that you like?

THEY GIVE HIM DARKER SKIN IN FAN ARTS SOMETIMES AND I LOVE IT SO MUCH WE NEED MORE DARKER SKINNED LU GUANG!!!

8. What's something the fandom does when it comes to this character that you despise?

Hmmm...I think only seeing Lu Guang's character as just the plot twist/reveal at the end of season 2? If that makes sense 😭 more along the lines of erasing his complexity with just being like "oh he fucked up the timeline/he's so gay for Cheng Xiaoshi" when I think there's a lot more to his actions and his character than those two things. The fact that his character subverts expectations and him being a hypocrite of his own rules, his subtle kindness and consideration for others, and his foils with Li Tianchen being a really cool aspect that I wish people analyzed more during that arc.

25. What was your first impression of this character? How about now?

Tbh my first impression of him was that he was going to be the stereotypical stoic, level-headed white haired guy 😭 that I wasn't going to gleam anything interesting from him, but he really did turn out to be my fave in the end because of everything I mentioned above! I hope we get season 3 soon and see more of how he handles the consequences of his actions + more interactions with Qiao Ling because I NEED THEM TO INTERACT AUGHHH

[littleblueberryartist]

#VENTI SEEING HIS PAST SELF AND JUST. “hoo boy how do i deal with this one!”#“i know exactly how badly i was handling everything back then” (this and all other tags are via @lanternlightss!)

Exactly sdfgfdsg Like there's the moment of short circuiting at seeing *yourself* but also just. I know first hand just how messed up I was and man how do I approach that-

#PERHAPS THIS IS WHAT RAGNVINDR FELT#aqua. aqua. aqua im going to fucking bawl#and if the other sees something in his expression they do not comment on it what if i EXPLODE. into PIECES

I am. A fan. Of those Venti looks at his own reflection and sometimes it fucking gets him angst I also think that part of the reason Ragnvindr left and their relationship remained tense even if I see them reconciling somewhat is because Venti shares the bard's face and watching the face of someone you know is long gone stay unaging and express hurt is painful.

Sure at this point in the future I do think that Venti has gotten better at dealing with it and understands why Ragnvindr did what he did. But ho b o i seeing it first hand outside of a reflection would probably still throw him for a loop.

Oh also I imagine past Venti to still be in archon robes so that's how present Venti clocked which part of the timeline that one is from so fast. But on the flip side, past Venti might have thought and hoped that it was the bard, if only for a moment. And maybe, just a little bit, they pretended that it was.

#past venti seeing the future and seeing that it turns out okay in the end#AUGHHH#DOES IT GET BETTER. DOES IT STOP HURTING#IM GOKNA CRY#PAST VENTI IS NUST HESITANT HOPE HUH

I imagine that post rebellion Venti was just A bundle of nerves

Like yeah they won the battle against Decarabian, but they also lost so many loved ones, they have to deal with divinity and a new form, they had to rebuild Mond. They're new to all this too! So the uncertainty of the future was probably terrifying (Dunno if they know all the songs at this point but I feel like that would be another mess of powers to sort out with their newfound godhood tbh) So yeah! Seeing future Mond, and seeing how it appeared to be thriving was a big relief. And so Venti allows themself to relax a little bit, and to tentatively begin to hope.

#he had never spared himself that mercy in the past#like. what if i just wailed.#ITS A LOT HARDER BEING RUDE TO YOURSELF#When it’s an entirely separate being!!!!#points LOUDLY#like looking into a mirror but they are so confused looking back#and you just. cant bring it in yourself to be cruel. to say the same things you once had told yourself at one point#you want to be kinder so they may turn out the slightest bit better

POINTS BACK AT YOU!!! EXACTLY!!!!!

It's a lot easier to be kind to others than yourself and you know, the whole "that person looks exactly like someone I care about dearly" probably doesn't make it any easier to be mean lol

#a promise of gentler winds. im gonna vanish into dust

I really wanted venti to do some kind of comforting gesture and since they're already at windrise and I'm a sucker for how cecilias have been through hard times but many of mond's other specialties have never known that harsh wind So like what if flower symbolism What if Venti gave the anemo archon flowers that love the wind and grow exclusively in areas with a gentle nourishing breeze. What if past Venti got some love and care

#“barbatos smiles” may i ask if this is what you felt with the “i love you?” im gonna disintegrate

I've said it before and I'll say it again "I love you" left me in literal fucking tears I had to put down my phone I will never emotionally recover-

But that aside fun fact! I left the last line a little ambiguous on purpose! There are 3 ways you can interpret it (and they can absolutely co-exist!)

The first way is probably the most obvious. Where it's a direct callback to the line "They say nothing as they drink in the future, but they almost smile." Now finally comforted, past Venti finally smiles and lets themself hope for a better future.

Something you can note for this take is that Venti is referred to as "Barbatos". Before this point in the fic past Venti has been referred to as "the other" in some way. I don't know if it's clear but this is present Venti sort of removing himself from the situation. It's easier to be nice to someone else and all that. Past Venti being finally referred to by name in present Venti's pov? In a way, that's also Venti acknowledging that they are the same, and coming to the realisation that yeah, maybe he deserved more kindness too.

The second is that present Venti is the one smiling, because he's finally figured out what to say to the other, and in the process feels a little bit more at peace with himself. Something something healing your inner child and realising that you deserve to be treated with kindness even by yourself (especially by yourself)

And the last one is basically a combo of the two! Both of them are smiling and "Barbatos" is used as a shared name to refer to them both (cuz it felt a tiny bit confusing to use Venti when that's been used for present Venti specifically in the fic lol)

Venti was at a loss for what to do.

That was…that was him wasn't it? The figure on the floor? The one looking around lost and afraid? That was him, right after the rebellion. And now they were looking right at him.

Venti would like to think that he was good with people, good at reading them and comforting them. Thousands of years of practice will do that. But what does one do with the person in need of comfort is one's past self? 

Archons, I was a wreck back then That was his first thought.

Ah but seeing someone with that face, seeing them so distraught, as an observer…perhaps this is what Ragnvindr had felt. Venti helps the new god up.  And if the other sees something in his expression, they do not comment on it.

________

Windrise has always brought Venti comfort. Yet somewhere so important to him held no sentiment to the other. It’s strange to think about. Regardless, the elemental energy did help them relax a little, as he had hoped. 

The new god looks to the skies and sees the birds soaring free, watches the flora sway in the gentle breeze. They say nothing as they drink in the future, but they almost smile.

________

"Does…Does it get better?" 

There's a hesitant hope in the question. One that doesn't expect much in response but can't help but hope anyway. 

"Does it stop hurting?" is left unspoken.

"..." 

For the first time in a long time, Venti does not know what to say.

He thinks back to all that has happened, thinks back to the things that are yet to come for the other. He thinks about the darkness brewing in the present, the songs yet to be sung in the future. He finds his heart hurting for the younger god. Hurting for the pain that will come. And hurting for the pain that has already happened. Strange. He had never spared himself that mercy in the past. What a difference viewing your past self as a separate person makes.

"It will. Eventually." He says, finally. And he hopes that it will too.

"And…it still hurts, sometimes." He admits, not wanting to lie, and watches the other nod. They expected that. His heart breaks a little more.

Venti picks a windwheel aster, carefully tucking it into his younger self's hair. A promise of gentler winds, of peaceful moments in the breeze. "But I promise that it won't always be like this. I promise that it will get easier to deal with in time."

Barbatos smiles.

________

I may have written a little something based on this post about Venti meeting his younger self

[tapejob]

Sorry late ask but for the opinion bingo: Geno, Cam A., Brass, Beezer, TK, Coots, Pavs, Holtby

a beautiful mesh of the boys 🥺 ily

geno: (x)

atkinson:

everything about flyers cam breaks my heart but also half of that is also me severely projecting so c'est la vie. there's something very aughhh. heartbreaking about someone coming in so in love with your city and your team and full of confidence about the season and seeing in real time what happens to the team they were so initially enamored with crumble despite being the best scorer trying to raise it up. it's not like he had super big ties to the city, he literally came in this season and now he's being subjected to all of this. it's like watching in real time someone falling out of love. it kind of hurts. i hope he gives us a second chance, but i also really really don't.

brassard:

everyone but *my anon is wrong about them <3 i'm just along for the ride and getting sucked into the narratives while clutching my ex-flyer/rental player feelings. the projection is strong with this one but i really really hope he finds happiness. and also that archibald chokes on a stick and that brass gets to reclaim his rightful place. also that he feels better soon and heals up. i want a lot for him including being an unexpected playoff star and also being able to find home. lots of that

farabee:

bee's hair is so fucking sick and the way his face fits him is truly so correct. there is no other way a guy named bee should look. side note i think there's a little hockeys category called guys with sick flows and interesting mouths and i think both mitch and bee belong in there. that being said the whole future captain narrative for bee and the fuck ass franchise pressure rn when he should be ripening into his prime years is very oomph. insane about it. he's the narrative foil of atkinson for me in which he was a high scorer franchise face born and bred to play here forever, he loves it so much. but he's just as stuck here as his predecessors and there is probably nothing he can do about it anymore

tk: (x)

couturier:

aw coots. i'm sorry. not a bingo luckily! but all of his friends are dead or dying off, it sure seems like the end of an era now. forever the only selke winner. he's been a little quiet this season, and i hope he gets some rest

pavs: (x)

holtby:

BINGO! i'm saying wasted potential here because i was really looking forward to seeing what happens with him the full season, but unfortunately he got sidelined with the injury :( sorry mate, i hope u recover quick. for all the posts about holtby missing his caps friends and wanting to go back i see u and acknowledge u and love u so much but i've also got him cemented in my little dallas goalie polycule spot :') i hope he's enjoyed his time here and would love to see him come back but we'll just have to see what happens... also i am talking abt dallas twt fans when i say stfu about him being a bust signing. ryan suter is right there