#au: the spy of tirrigan

[malkaleh]

“I was always a rebel" & Tortall?

Content Note: child abuse and grooming. From this prompt meme (please feel free to send me more everyone)

Alex becomes a spy and tells almost no one. It has never been safe to do so, not when Roger of Conte is what he is - not when Alex could see how he himself could have so easily fallen for the Duke’s allure. Not when it would mean the doom of his dearest friends. No, Alex will pretend, even if it means they can no longer be his friends.

Sometimes he wakes up in the night, thinking about who he might have been had he not met George Cooper, had not found a purpose and a Trickster God in Corus and gained a concealed immunity to all that Roger is and does.

What he never tells George or Myles of Olau or later, any of his friends is that Roger takes him to bed as well as into his service as a squire. Alex never lets himself think he truly knows Roger, he cannot afford to, but he does, he thinks, know him very well. What he does know is he is the only person Roger has ever trusted completely - there is a satisfaction in fooling him so entirely, though Alex of Tirrigan can never be complacent about any of it. He cannot afford to, not when so much hangs in the balance.

“Oh Alan - he’s not much for thinking and he certainly does not want to think of magic - I’m inclined to believe Olau found something in some ancient tome.”

His voice is light, as he lies in Rogers arms and inside he wonders that he can so easily hide his rage and fear - gods, the fear that he could have failed. That Roger could have become the King. For Alex must walk a knifes edge, to make sure that Roger continues to trust him and to make sure he saves all those he loves.

The young knight does not always win.

There is a part of him, a large part, after Rogers first death who wants to let it all go, but he knows he cannot, somehow. A spies intuition, that says no, no I must stay behind my mask.

“Keep me under suspicion” he says to Myles, to Jon, to Alanna. “Just to be sure”

The relief when it works, when Roger pulls him into a crushing kiss, when he returns - a kiss that feels so very wrong. Alex wants to scream at Thom, but Thom will not, cannot listen. And Alex can see, oh he can see how different it is when Roger is with Thom. He hates it.

“There was never any need to be jealous, my Alex. He and Delia are tools, nothing more. But you, you my perfect loyal squire, you have always been more to me than I ever expected”

Oh Alex knows that Roger will make him Kings Champion and have him share his bed always, should Roger become King. The image closes around him, like the vision from the Chamber of the Ordeal until he and Alanna together put a sword into Roger of Conte’s heart.

“I was always a rebel” he says “Always” 

Later he holds the children of the friends who have become family in his arms and weeps in relief. 

[malkaleh]

Alex of Tirrigan Spy AU ?

I got a fic request for this one and it’s my ‘what if Alex met George before he went to squire for Roger, got to talk to someone (possibly also George’s mother, who I think would help) who could help him process his feelings and so he is ‘…I think the fuck not’ at Roger’s bullshit and makes the decision to pretend to go along with it but does not.’ He also might get some kind of gods favour so he’s immune to Roger’s magic.

Alex becomes a spy and tells almost no one. It has never been safe to do so, not when Roger of Conte is what he is - not when Alex could see how he himself could have so easily fallen for the Duke’s allure. Not when it would mean the doom of his dearest friends. No, Alex will pretend, even if it means they can no longer be his friends.

[malkaleh]

WIP nudge meme

I got from @shes-a-voodoo-child

here’s a list of all of my WIPs; send me the fandom/pairing/summary in an ask and i’ll add at least one sentence & share a bit:

au: in spite of him

au: gloriana and robin 

maya has a day of it dot gif 

civil war featuring king arthur jahan 

ot4 rosamund clifford is the only one in this relationship with chill 

Duke of Essex in the civil war 

into the fire in space rewrite (magic valdemar au ish)

Mary Tudor and one of her brothers girlfriend/wife would fight each other in a denny’s parking lot 

doing spy stuff featuring elizabeth, robert and elizabeth’s brother george 

spy stuff featuring Anne Dudley-Tudor-Cecil and King Thomas (Turhan) II

Accidentally kidnapped the monarchs (plural) husband fml. 

Gregory Cromwell has FEELINGS. 

elizabeth and her first child ot3 verse edition

Alex of Tirrigan Spy AU 

Ozorne POV of Immortals 

Helen Norwich (my name on the line)

Hunger Games Triss and Dresses

Golden World 

Into The Fire (In Space) featuring PAIN.