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[hythlodaes]

“This is what happy feels like.” for Atton/Meetra

thank you taylor! :’)

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“You know, for someone who never stops talking, you can be surprisingly antisocial.” 

Meetra’s words punch through the muddied sound of Dxun’s jungle, alive all around them but still distant. The only light between them is blurry, and it drifts in from the fires that dot the way back to camp. Whatever moonlight passes through the shifting clouds above them is enough to give her the sense of Atton–the lines of his jacket, his dirty hair falling over his brow, and the jut of his chin. 

Maybe she’d recognize these things even in the dark. 

It’s what was on her mind when she was cramped inside the basilisk droid–not Kavar, not the actual, literal war on Onderon, but Atton. Canderous’ eyes were sharp on her, Kreia’s moody silence heavy in the air, and all she could think was, I hope he’s safe. 

So yes, even in the dark, even away from the crowd of Mandalorians and her crew celebrating their victories, he’s all she wants to see. 

“I’m hiding,” he explains, and as Meetra draws closer, she can see the way his lips pull into a lazy grin. In his hand is a mostly-smoked cigarette that he drops to the ground. “Did I ever tell you it’s a bad idea to cheat Mandalorians? I never learn my lesson. I mean, I know we won and all today, but I’m not sure I could take them in a fight.” 

She knows it’s a lie the second it comes out of his mouth. Atton might call himself a lousy cheat, but she’s yet to see it happen, and even so, he always talks his way out of trouble. Still, she shakes her head and laughs. “My hero.”

“You know it, babe,” he says with a lazy smile. Meetra steps closer to him, into his space, and he smells like smoke in contrast to the warm, musky scent of Dxun–something too familiar, something haunted, but next to Atton it isn’t as heavy on her mind. 

Her hands find his chest, and his skin is warm under his thin shirt. She angles her head back, meets his gaze in the dark, and asks, “What are you really hiding from?" 

He shakes his head. "I was just thinking–which I am capable of, despite popular belief." 

"Oh really?” she asks with a grin, watching him roll his eyes. His hands settle on her lower back. “What were you thinking about?" 

There’s a vulnerability in both the question and the answer. Atton takes a breath, breaks eye contact. He looks up at first, and she watches the line of his jaw and the shadow that curves down his neck before he meets her gaze again, saying, “I had a few realizations in that temple today, and…I don’t know. I think it helped me let go of some of the things I’ve been holding onto.”

“Yeah?” 

“Yeah.” He looks down, shifting his weight before he continues, “I think there’s even the potential to be happy here.” 

That makes Meetra pause, and the edges of her lips curl into a strange kind of smile. It’s an odd thought, isn’t it? Maybe she’s been hurting for too long that she has to stop and consider what that would even mean. 

It’s like–she stands here in his arms, and months and months ago he was just a stranger to her. Her thoughts trace over memories of the two of them in the cockpit, laughing over whatever dumb thing one of them’s said (anything–it’s always anything to fill the quiet), or how they play pazaak when neither of them can sleep. There’s the way he held her after they found Vash’s body, when she needed him but she didn’t know how to ask. 

He found her and she finds him, and she stands here with him now. They know each other’s pasts and still trust each other to keep them safe. To be kept safe. It begs the question–

“Is this what happy feels like?” 

He lifts a hand to tuck her hair behind her ear, gentle, and it lingers at the edge of her jaw. Calloused fingers draw down to her chin, which he angles up before leaning in and pressing a chaste kiss to her lips. When he pulls away, he stays close enough that she can feel his breath when he says, “Maybe.” 

Warmth pools in her stomach as she pulls him in again; kisses him again and again. Her lips part against his and it’s like she’s still asking the question, but his body responds and the answer is the same: maybe, maybe, maybe. 

[shawneesmith]

leia.......

send me a character and i’ll list:

favorite thing about them: this is so so so hard because she is so multi-faceted that it is impossible for me to pick a favorite thing about her but! one of my favorites is that she is still so full of love after everything she’s been through in her life. she has so much love for han, for her children, for the galaxy at large. her experiences have shaped her immensely, but they haven’t taken away her heart

least favorite thing about them: oh gosh uh… i guess i don’t like how argumentative she can be sometimes, especially with han during the war, though i can’t entirely blame her

favorite line: just off the top of my head - “will you hear me? or will you instead choose death?”

brOTP: luke/leia!!!

OTP: oh you already know… hanleia

nOTP: hm i guess… leia/mara? not that it was anything close to canon. i just don’t like it. also leia/boba fett, which some people ship for some reason

random headcanon: leia is exceptionally skilled at throwing knives. han taught her on the way to bespin; he was just teasing when he suggested it, so they played around with them. during the gap in which han was frozen in carbonite, leia perfected knife-throwing on her own. she very rarely has any real use for the skill, but it’s cool to have

unpopular opinion: a lot of people say shit like “leia was the only skywalker not tempted by the dark side” which is so false! leia was so tempted by the dark side! see: this excerpt from return of the jedi: beware the power of the dark side

Like Luke, Leia is now beyond fear. And even beyond anger. Jabba simply must die!

A grim power flows through her. Jabba thought she was a plaything. But he underestimated this princess.

SOUNDS AN AWFUL LOT LIKE SOME DARK SIDE INFLUENCE - AT THE VERY LEAST - TO ME!

song i associate with them: queen of peace - florence + the machine

favorite picture of them: i have literally hundreds saved but this has been one of my favorites for years & i don’t really know why. it’s just pretty. she’s so pretty i love her so much

[counterspelling]

jaina solo!

First impression - In Crystal Star: this kid is the only good part of this book terrible book, and I know she's befriending a weird centaur unicorn kid but she's doing her best to protect her younger siblings and escape their captivity!!

Impression now - ACTUAL LOVE OF MY LIFE, I will miss her forever, she dedicated her entire life to protecting the galaxy at the highest of costs to herself and never let whatever she was going through stop her from doing what's right or fulfilling her destiny as the sword of the jedi

Favorite moment - When she outflies every other participant at Lando's Folly and nearly doubles the length of time she was out there compared to whoever took second place, "the kid can fly" OR "in a situation like this, Jaina thrived on chaos, she became chaos" OR "you can call me Great One, most people do"

Idea for a story - Hey, how about that SWORD OF THE JEDI TRILOGY???? How about finally giving her the recognition she deserves so she can stop taking a backseat to her brothers and male cousin the way she did all through Del Rey Star Wars???

Unpopular opinion - Not an unpopular opinion, just a salt one, but it took 20 goddamn years to get her out of love square hell????? Really??? Just continually???? For so long??? She deserved so much better!!!! She should have just married Jag in NJO and saved me the fucking angst and grief and bullshit

Favorite relationship - Jag, the only time I like Jacen is when we get twin stuff, Mirta, we should have gotten more of her with Tenel Ka!!!, Mara, Leia and Han and the way she relates to each of them, THERE ARE NO BAD JAINA RELATIONSHIPS (except Kyp and Zekk)

Favorite headcanon - Jaina constantly lording it over Jacen that she's the older twin

[wrasslerjedi]

oh man happy birthday!!!!!!!!! ur presence is always a gift on my dash, hope all goes fantastic today u deserve everything!!!

thank you so much taylor!!! :)

[lavampira]

attonrad replied to your post “I was going to wait until the end of the month but I caved and got...”

age some dragons

yes exactly

[visionmarred-archive]

@attonrad replied to your post “I kinda want to blow my money on the Generations expansion bc I’m 100%...”

it's my favorite sims 3 expansion if you like families and legacies it's perfect. every lifestage has new features and interactions

I definitely like all those things! I’m still debating it since I just bought the Back to the Future expansion today, but

legacy stuff

tempting 👀

[persephinae]

happy birthday!!!!!!!!

Thank you!! :D

[eskewcity]

the original life is strange 😮

never played | want to play | terrible | boring | okay | good | great | a favorite

Luv being gay in Arcadia Bay

[hylfystt]

4, 6 & 20?

star wars ask meme!! | accepting | @attonrad

4. clunkiest george lucas dialogue

ajkshdsad the fireside convo with ani and padmé like..... makes me uncomfy

6. most underrated character

lando. he doesn’t get enough credit because “waaaaaah he betrayed han!!” no he was protecting an entire fucking cITY and han is unreliable at best, even worse probably since lando last knew/saw him and anyways he is a hero and a gd general like???

20. what spin-off film would you like to see next?

slams my hands down ahsoka tano movie. ( i would say rogue squadron or kotor but i want those as netflix series )

[immortanfuriosa]

atton, coming in 15 minutes late to his therapy session on a skateboard, wearing sunglasses and carrying starbucks: janet you're not going to fucking believe this

[sephirothism]

i did a picrew tag thingy i saw on the lovely @attonrad’s dash who tagged anyone bc i love making these and procrastinating!

i’m tagging @erenkin, @ashjoannawilliams, @avanhellica, @bb8beeping, and @macabreh because i love seeing y’all’s picrews but also anyone else who sees this!! the link is here!

[shawneesmith]

⭐ the only person i trust for good hanleia takes

[bpdanakins]

8 people I’d like to get to know better meme

tagged by @attonrad aaa thank you!! 💕

name: elizabeth

birthday: december 18

zodiac: sagittarius sun, pisces moon

height: 5′3″ (about 160 cm)

hobbies: reading books/fanfiction, reading medical studies/articles/books for fun, writing (especially poetry), gaming, making shitty edits in photoshop for laughs, either devolving into a gay mess with friends or just talking about nothing until we all inevitably start shit with toddbot, writing meta/discussing lore from various fictional universes, going to the movies i guess?  

favorite color: yellow

favorite book: i have no idea how to choose this tbh. there are books i like for sentimental reasons (i.e. they were very important/influential at a certain period of my life), ones i enjoy content of/are fun, etc... the most recent books i’ve read are the SW prequel novelizations, and the Uglies series has always been one i’ve super enjoyed, tho it’s been a while since i’ve read it. don’t @ me but i also have enjoyed my collection of edgar allen poe & sylvia plath poems even tho neither have written my favourites. ooo, i also really enjoy girl, interrupted by susanna kaysen (the movie is just a gross hollywood dramatization of mental illness so don’t go for it). idk friends 

last song listened to: hello my old heart by the oh hello’s

last movie watched: uhhhmmm... OH, Godzilla (2014)

meaning behind your URL: anakin skywalker has borderline personality disorder and you can’t change my mind

tagging: @kingofattolia, @sapphicfinalpam (mostly for your fave books since i know the rest sfkklj), @mariaromanovs, @sanbantaikarin (y not), @livk-dunesea, honestly anyone who feels like doing it! just @ me <3 also no pressure ofc and do let me know if you don’t like being tagged in these

thank u!!

[lavampira]

attonrad replied to your post “me, starting dragon age: ah yes I’ll impulsively name my female...”

i legit thought i was the only one who stressed abt names having the same matching first letters fshasdksjfs

omg no you’re definitely not alone asfjkl

[valeroyeaux]

I was tagged by @unclesamwilson to make a picrew of myself using this doll maker (https://picrew.me/image_maker/114808)! the sunglasses had the frames closest to mine.

I'm tagging @ghostlygal @theebonhawke @songofanothersummer @buffkreia @attonrad @sith-shenanigans and @maya-kholin, as well as anyone who wants to do this! also no pressure yall ❤️

[loghainmactir]

much like @amfinwat who tagged me i 2 am a slut for music........

rules: spell out your URL using song titles and tag as many people as there are letters in your URL ! (fuck you fin i have so many letters ansdjkfnsdfkdsf. i’ve included links in case anyone wants 2 listen to the songs..)

l - life party, twrp

o- old 45′s, chromeo

g- guillotine, jon bellion/travis mendes

h- hey girl, lady gaga/florence and the machine

a- almost (sweet music), hozier

i- isle of flightless birds, twenty one pilots

n- nobody, mitski

m- miracle, caravan palace

a- angels, chance the rapper/saba

c- can’t sleep (wolves), walk the moon

t- talking to myself, watsky

i- i like that, janelle monae

r- redbone, childish gambino

im taggin!! not that many people LMAO, @lyriumrain @jewishtabris @ltsarahkerrigan @nattpojken @asurana @attonrad and @autumnyte