#at the very LEAST I wanna help Esugen

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   Final Fantasy update! Bc I’m still burning through this game w/ Cam at a brisk pace.

MGP on my mind... I’m somewhat decent at Gold Saucer things and I got pretty items to showcase that. (So far, Black Coeurl kitten minion, Claws of the Beast, and Oasis set... Next up is...a “few” other things. 👀💦 Really hoping I get lucky and win the cactpot at some point...!)

IN THE AZIM STEPPE and it feels so good?! The music is a blast, but I also just. Love being surrounded by Au Ra, KSDJFHGFHDJSK--

(Magnai makes me laugh. He really is a prick, but in a funny way and also he’s-? Weirdly layered? Most characters of his type would be pretty dumb (honestly speaking) and I expected him- for a moment- to not notice Hien ribbing him... Except he did. I cannot WAIT to have Ajisai in the same room as this fool.)

.....I gained another crush on an NPC... Esugen, I will do anything for you. I will speedrun culinarian for you, if that’s what you’d wish. 🥺💕 (I hear he becomes close w/ another Auri and. Let’s OT3 this? Let’s go???)

I almost gave up my crush on Daidukul. And then my brain kicked into Inspiro-Mode so now I know how I can go about...things. (It’s gonna be a ramble-worthy thing, so I’ll try to post about it later.)

...I also had a terrible experience at Bardam’s Mettle, fjghfjdks. Tank + other DPS were on edge; Tank pulled big twice and I couldn’t keep up. Cam tried to ask to keep the pull small, but they brushed him off. And then I was told to stop doing DPS and focus solely on heals (I was attempting to balance at the time), and... Well. Stressed and anxious, I just. Stopped attacking altogether for the rest of the fight. Nearly burst into tears near the end, because I somehow lost my target on the Tank and nearly didn’t heal them in time. They both ended up leaving as Cam and I watched the cutscene...

   So it’s. Been a ride...and now I walk away from yesterday with a more pronounced, dreadful fear of dungeons.