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c1trvswurld · 12 days ago

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I thought I was so behind questioning my sexuality. But then I asked myself if I was even attracted to women on a romantic level (answer is no). Then I felt like shit for only liking women physically. Then I realized I also don't really like men romantically all that much either. Then I felt like a fuck boy butch for an hour before deciding I don't care and whatever happens happens. So full circle moment

#🍊.txt #i have never really developed a hard romantic interest in everyone #at most i had a crush butbin retrospect i think i was just very attracted to them physically and i interpreted my nervousness around a bad #bitch as my nervousness romantically.#and even then its weird where people are attractive aesthetically? but i rarely get the “i need to fuck them NOW” feeling others do #i only feel that way with fictional characters LOL #i think i am somewhere on that aroace spectrum and id love to ask and know #but if i went into specifics publicly itd out me and my type of attractions as a FREAK #so im keeping that to myself for now #but i feel so shitty sometimes fir only being attracted to ppl physically #i wanna know what its like to love #is it as good as people say it is? is it as heart breaking #id take it over feeling nothing #kinda feel broken in that regard #idk if its my relationship with my body or some cluster b shit but i just cant feel in that way. at most i feel familial love #and even that is limited. i love my family like how omniman loves his wife #god that is a fucked realization ive just came to #have to rb some gay yuri after that

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