#at least i dont really have an apetite so i dont feel hungry

[ofdreamsanddoodles]

for some reason today my stomach has decided that it will not tolerate even bread, & am now experiencing the side effects of being slightly nutrient deficient

[galaxygalthemess]

i need to vent about eating habits in my house

tw: mighy border on eating disorder talk and other mental health issues such as depression, anxiety, adhd.

ok SO.

in my house my parents eat at opposite times from me and unsafe foods for me. unsafe as in my adhd has a big food texture component, which is 90% why im a picky eater. not a good texture, my stomach clamps up and insists im not hungry until i can get safe foods. so i eat like 1-2 meals a day, usually fast food when my parents arent looking, and i hate it. so i talked to my therapist and she suggested i try to plan out for me to make dinner, at least for myself, once or twice a week.

HERES THE FUCKING PROBLEM: MY PARENTS ARE THE FUCKING WORST AT STICKING TO SOMETHING.

the ammount of times my mom has said 'we are going to try and do this' and just gave up afte r the third day is astronomical. i dobt know till i get home what our fucking plan is, if there is one. sometimes shell try to ppan food but by the third day, like clockwork, i come home ready for the plan and its all blown to bits for NO GOOD REASONS USUALLY. and she never goes back to it! and this isnt just with food, and that throws my entire life into a constant state of anxiety, but i digress.

so ya i talked to her, she said ok. i told her what i can make that i can eat. i even told her unsafe foods for me. a big ones are soup, certain meats and how they are prepared, and in general shit ive never tried. that give me so much anxiety i could cry. so today, it was lunch, but i l dont eat breakfast so my first meal of the day. i had everything ready to make hamburger helper, because its easy to reheat so ill eat more later and it sounds good. hell I BOUGHT EVERYTHING FOR IT MYSELF. before i start, my dad offers to make lunch, so i told him my plan.

i am then informed that I cant do that because its "too heavy" and we were having jambalaya. this is something ive never had before. so i had to have something else, which make me almost sick (texture of the cheese). i then just went to mcdonals, wasting money and eati g more grease than i want to, but at least it was safe enough so i could feel ok.

now im home, they ate earlier, so i would have to reheat it. im too scared to smell it honestly, because i dont want to for e myself not to eat another night and bury the food in the trash. they do this a lot. they spring hard foods on me but it takes days of begging for them to concede to any food i like. and they are foods they like too. i just want to make the meal earlier, but i dont want to make my dad sad, so im probably going to eat a snack that will still hurt but at least fill my stomach. because i really dont like chips and candy as much as i eat them, they are just what we usually have that is safe enough for me to eat.

i feel like crying but also used to it. this is how they treat everything. i still dont have wifi to do hw except right under there feet, where they complain i am all the time, for 2 years, no matter how much i tell them. it doesnt help all my meds lessen my apetites. i feel im developing bad habits ill never get out of. at least i lost 10 lbs on accident i guess.

[illiquidmarkets-blog]

Could you describe your diet? What do you eat for snacks?

You mean in the past 5 weeks when I couldn’t work out and so was eating like porky pig, or when I��m on keto and eating clean?

You probably already know what normal snacks are, I will take that assumption.  On keto my snack go to are walnuts because they’re mostlly fat with a little protein andl ittle carb, raw, not roasted.   My friend non cheat/cheat meal is 2 small sized tortillas with 4 eggs and then some other kind of meat, then shredded spinach with goat cheese and hot sauce and some lite soy sauce. It just means I can only eat a tiny amount of carbs for the rest of the day unless I do intense sprintsl 

If you’re not allergic to artificial sweeteners and whey, flavored whey protein powder is absolutely your best friend, you can make super thick tasty mixed flavor ‘milk’ shakes, thin fake strawberry milk, the least healthy drink in its real form, or use xanthan gum to create huge piles of whey fluff thats like slightly thicker whipped cream, has more gelatinous rebound. 

And if you dont have crazy allergies there are a billion vegeteables to gnaw on during the day. I’m desensitizing myself to spinach.  I’m not sure what’s next on the list.

But on keto with my food sensitivities my diet is simple, eggs, meat, green leaves, lots of hot sauce, canned sustainable billion dollar a can tuna blackened and mied with hot suace in a pan. Maybe some cottage cheese if I want something to sweet.

The trick is simply to start with a  fast for 24- or 36 hours to reset your insulin and ghrelin sensitivity so that you only ffeel hungry when you actually need food and that you feel full whem you actually are hungry. On keto your body will start metabolizing your fat cells into ketone bodies into glucose for the brain.  Body fat is fuel. Controlling apetite is about avoiding dangerous foods and keeping your hormones in control, doing hard cardio makes me really hungry unless I do it in the cold, or take ice cold shower afterwards. 

I could go on forever though and I’ve barely answered your question, my apologies.