#at least i can make my reverse checklist and add two ✅️✅️ to people ive replied back to

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the mortifying ordeal and sisyphean task of replying back to people after what you convince yourself has been maybe 3 days, maybe almost a week if you'd have to be more honest with the likely amount of time passed from prior experiences

and yet somehow be surprised it's been double the amount of time in reality, and replying back wasn't as terribly energy consuming as the passive poison damage from not getting back yet led you to believe.

and then doing the same thing again because you have crippling executive dysfunction, and doing your best to be gentle and kind to yourself to unlearn beating yourself up about it because it's already hard enough on its own and getting something done, no matter how small, is still something different that is enough in that moment, in the face no change at all