#astro moonbin imagines

[hoforwonho]

thank you, moonbin. rest in peace.

[lxvemaze]

instagram stories with bf!moonbin

jinjin, mj, eunwoo, moonbin, rocky, sanha

[blu-joons]

When He Lays Down On Your Butt ~ Astro Reaction

JinJin:

“I’ve found the perfect spot to sleep,” Jinwoo proudly announced, making sure he had your attention as he laid himself down.

“No way,” you tried to argue as you figured where he was about to lay, but Jinwoo was far too quick for you as he rested his head down against your butt before you could roll away.

A confident laugh came from him as he shuffled over your bump to get comfortable, “I was right, this is the perfect spot for me to sleep.”

“Stop sounding so smug,” you scolded, kicking your foot back so that it knocked into Jinwoo, “I’ll get you back for this too.”

A loud laugh came from Jinwoo, “you can never stay mad at me for too long.”

“If I was strong enough to move you off of my butt, I definitely would right now,” you sighed back across to Jinwoo, “you’re lucky to be strong.”

“You usually love how strong I am.”

“I know, don’t remind me.”

MJ:

“Don’t mind me,” a giggly Myungjun told you as he laid down on your butt from your invitation, feeling strange straight away.

“What’s so funny?” You cluelessly asked him, unsure as to what had tickled him so much. ��Please tell me you’re not laughing at the fact that you’re laying on my butt right now, are you?”

The pause that came from him soon told you everything. “It just feels so funny, I never imagined that I would lay here, it’s kind of surreal.”

“I can’t with you sometimes,” you laughed, pressing your hand to the top of your head. “What am I going to do with you?”

Another shy chuckle came from Myungjun, “do I look cute down here Y/N?”

“Do you look cute laying on my butt?” You questioned Myungjun in disbelief, “what am I even supposed to say in reply to that, you’re an idiot.”

“I’ll take that as a yes from you then.”

“You always look cute to me.”

Cha Eunwoo:

“I’m so tired,” Dongmin remarked as he dropped down on the bed, glancing at your figure that was already stretched out.

“Lay down then,” you told him as you absentmindedly scrolled through your phone, suddenly feeling a weight come down on your butt. “I meant lay down on your pillow, not lay down on me.”

A shrug followed from Dongmin as he struggled to hold back his laughter, “I just thought I’d lay down in the cosiest spot for me to rest in.”

“You can’t spend all night asleep on my butt,” you challenged, rolling your eyes at him. “You know you’ll have to move.”

Dongmin’s head shook back at you, “is that a challenge? I reckon that I can stay.”

“There’s no way,” you immediately predicted in reply to him. “I can make laying on my butt very uncomfortable for you if you want me to do so Min.”

“You wouldn’t do that to me though.”

“Do you want to find out and see?”

Moonbin:

“This is comfy,” Moonbin couldn’t help but tease as soon as he lowered his head down, planting it in the middle of your butt.

“I’m glad you’re comfy,” you joked, surprised by how heavy he was as he laid down on top of you. “I don’t remember saying that you could lay down on me, and especially on my butt too.”

A cheeky smile formed on Moonbin’s face as he met your eyes, “you can’t say no to me now that I’m here, and especially as I’m so comfortable.”

“I reckon I could get you off if I wanted to,” you smirked, jolting your butt up so that Moonbin’s head bounced in the air.

He shot a glare at you straight away, “that’s so mean, what did I do to deserve that?”

“Next time you decide you want to lay on my butt, it’s a reminder to ask first,” you teasingly scolded him, “I don’t just let anyone lay down on my butt you know.”

“But if they’re as handsome as me?”

“I guess they can get away with it.”

Rocky: 

“Hi,” Minhyuk giggled as he noticed you glancing down to look at him, settled on your butt with a wide smile on his face.

“What do you think you’re doing?” You challenged with a shake of your head, watching as Minhyuk didn’t move an inch. “That’s not a pillow you know, you can’t rest your head down there.”

A pout formed on Minhyuk’s face as he refused to budge. “Pillows are boring, it’s fun to try out new things to rest on instead sometimes Y/N.”

“That’s a ridiculous excuse,” you scoffed back down to him, “you’re just saying that to convince me to let you stay laying there.”

A slight nod came from Minhyuk, “is it working? Can I stay laying on your butt?”

“You’re impossible,” you whispered, but found yourself nodding your head anyway. “I don’t know how, or why, I let you get away with these things sometimes.”

“It’s because you love me so much.”

“Of course, that must be it Min.”

Sanha:

“Y/N, come on,” Sanha huffed as he dropped down on the bed beside where you laid, continuing to work on your laptop.

“I’ve nearly done,” you assured Sanha, watching as he shuffled towards you and laid his head against your butt in an attempt to finally get some attention from you. “Laying there won’t make me faster.”

An innocent smile formed on Sanha’s face as he looked up at you, “I reckon that there’s a few things that I could do that would make you work faster.”

“You’re making me take longer because now I’m focusing on you and not my work,” you told him, “the longer you distract me Sanha.”

His shoulders shrugged back at you, “it’s a sign that you should leave work for now.”

“I’ve got to get this done,” you frowned, finding yourself being pulled in two different directions. “You can’t do this to me, I don’t disturb you when you’re at work.”

“I guess I just want to be with you.”

“Fine, this can be saved for later.”

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Masterlist

[wonhosmistress]

So it’s only been a day but I decided to take upon myself to make an announcement because this involves the entire kpop community. Ever since I came across the first post of Moonbin’s sudden passing I was in shock…I still am.

It hit too close to home not because I was necessarily a stan but I had just discovered the duo Moonbin was with Sanha, but it made me reconsider the guilt and sadness creeping up on me regardless of whether I had just become a fan or i wasn’t. This could happen to ANY of our favorite artists specifically Kpop idols because they only show so much to the public eye. This is another reason why we need to be there for each other as a community despite of having different groups we support, not only that but we need to show these idols kindness and support not bombard them with constant negativity. A small action such as kindness can have a big impact, we NEVER know what someone else is going through.

I’ve been having to take time offline from TikTok and IG because there’s constant bombarding of the heartbreaking news of Moonbin and his funeral and his family/friends in mourning. Sometimes, I think about how this could affect me indirectly as a fan of beloved artist be it who it may or my siblings who also have depression. I wish all of his fans a heartwarming hug and support for whoever may need it, my inbox is open! If you need time away from social media please take it and if you also need to talk to someone or have mental health issues please seek some help💕

I love y’all and please do take care of y’all’s self.

[acciocriativity]

TW: death

I'm devastated rn. My deepest condolences to Moonbin's family, friends and however had the the absolute joy to be an aroha and followed Moonbin's journey until now.

I really can't imagine that he isn't with us rn, it simply just doesn't make sense to me. He was such a bright soul and he deserved so much more in life than this.

Moonbin, you wouldn't be forgotten, ever. Your spirit will life forever in the heart of your loved ones and arohas as long as we live too.

Rest in peace, Moonbin and thank you so much for all the joy and light you brought us 💕

[theshower]

astro was the first group that ever introduced me to kpop. i stumbled upon their predebut drama “to be continued” one day back in 2016 when i was having a really hard time, and they’ve helped me through so much since. i really fell in love with the six of them,

but moonbin was my first ever real kpop bias.

i’m literally heartbroken by his passing. i just wish i could say thank you to him for introducing me to a whole new world, one that has brought me so much happiness for these past 7 years.

rest in peace moonbin 🤍

[iiwannabeme]

Seungkwan for Moonbin on his ig post♡

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[binsanlover]

moonbin & his wife:

[herwonderland7]

CHAPTER 3 — KINGDOM OF ESTELLEA

CHARACTERS ― Riana Aera Morian, MJ (ASTRO), Cha Eunwoo (ASTRO), Moonbin (ASTRO), Rocky (ASTRO), Jung Jia Valentia Neolas, Kim Minhyung Noah, Kim Royoung Daniel, Aretha Anthia Morian, Elexis Violeta Doukas, Zen Alberto

GENRE ― fantasy, nct!prince, nct!royalty, nct!as!vampires, nct!as!wolves

WORDS ― 3152

WARNINGS/AUTHOR’S NOTE ― Mention of Blood and Stab Wound.

SUMMARY ― Aera finds herself in a surrounding where she isn’t too familiar.

Aera falls in a thud as soon as the portal opens – with her basically rolling out with a loud groan coming out from her.

“Argh..” Aera let out a groan with a mixture of a sigh. She thanked the gods that she was literally being transported to a bush rather than a concrete floor – since she is feeling a sharp pain somewhere below her body.

Slowly opening her eyes, the bright skies greeted her which explained why her sight was quite bright even if her eyes were closed.

As she tried to sit up, she was met by a sharp pain on her hip. Aera looked down and let out a sharp gasp – to see a knife basically stuck onto her own flesh. 

“That explains the pain.” She muttered to herself, gulping her own lump on her throat. She wasn’t afraid of the pain, she was afraid of the redness she is seeing now – which is her own blood  basically trickling down the stabbed wound.

“Freaking—

She cursed herself after taking the small knife out of her – now feeling the tremendous pain, throwing it aside as she tried to get her breathing to a normal speed.

‘It hurts to move,’

Aera tore out a part of her inner shirt – to make a bandage for the meantime for her wound. After finishing the small problem, Aera now fully looked around. She couldn’t tell if she was in Aerina. 

She didn’t even know if she was in Wonderland or not.

But all she knows is that she is somehow in a garden, a back garden – seeing a small statue surrounded by bushes leading to a path. Aera slowly stood up though it hurt.

Sighing, Aera took a step at a time while clutching onto her wounded part as she ventures out. 

‘It looks like nobody's around..?’ Aera looked around again, trying to see if there is anyone around but after seeing every corner, there is literally no one. 

Shrugging slightly, she followed the path and that’s when she was met by a short garden maze.

But her eyes followed to the front as her gaze met up. Though it was foggy, she could tell that she had stepped foot in a castle. Aera looked behind, and her eyes went slightly wide to see more fog appearing to where she was previously.

Aera quickly went ahead without looking back, and now her sight turned hazy the more she stepped forward – causing her to let out small coughs.

“Why does it turn foggy all of a sudden?” Aera commented, as she was swatting around the air. Now she thinks the surroundings were playing with her – it turns foggy purposely.

The more she walked ahead, the more her sight turned hazy.

Just as she took a step forward, she felt a tip of sharp blade right behind her back – which caused her to stand frozen. All of a sudden, the haze that was surrounding her started to disappear slowly.

Now revealing where she is standing.

In front of her, she could see the inside castle through the huge clear window.

Now she didn’t dare to look behind – not knowing what or whom is literally pointed at her. But she knows there is someone.

“Didn’t know someone had the guts to enter here, usually they would be killed instantly if trespassers come by.” Whoever this person is, he is sure is taunting Aera just by how his voice sounded.

Aera slowly held up both of her hands - though she felt a sharp pain on her wounded hip which caused both of her hands to gripped onto the wound, that’s when she felt the sharp blade again at her back.

“Okay, okay! Relax! I’m hurt!” Aera groaned annoyingly, at the same time turning back slowly while gripping onto her hip.

As soon as she turned around, she met with the man who was somehow taunting her. 

It wasn’t just one. There were two.

One of them gasps with his eyes widening the more he stares at Aera, “Oh my god, Binnie…” 

Aera looks at the both of them – judging how they were dressed. She could see an emblem on their collars, now she knows she is literally in a kingdom. But she couldn’t tell which kingdom it was. 

She couldn’t even remember the previous kingdoms in Wonderland.

‘I’m so dead.’

She could only gulp in fear while one of her hands was gripping onto her wound.

As she was staring into these two men hardened, she could feel her stance becoming nauseous. Aera could guess it’s either because of her getting weaker or because of the wound.

“I..” Just as she was trying to let out a word, she could feel her body collapse.

And before her vision turns into darkness, she could see one of the figures catching her – feeling herself in someone’s arms before she fully passed out.

“Thank you for the breakfast, I’ll get going now.” Jia thanked the royal housemaids as soon as she finished her breakfast, as always, before excusing herself as she grabbed her book. This was her usual routine.

Breakfast, have a walk around the castle, read the book by the back-garden, lunch, horse-riding, reading again, dinner, and head to bed. 

This has been going on for nearly a month since she just graduated from royal school.

She had been granted the green light by her father – by writing through letters if she could switch school to a public one, which was to her Uncle Doyoung’s school named School of Neo. 

She wanted to go since most of her cousins enrolled there, and knowing soon all of her own siblings will be enrolling there too.

Just as she had her usual walkabouts, Jia heard rushed footsteps coming from the back.

“Jia!” A familiar knowing voice called, and as she turned behind, she saw two familiar faces.

“Minhyung! Royoung!” Jia called, waving towards the two boys who were running towards her. Minhyung and Royoung are Queen Anthia and Prince Doyoung’s sons, they are the first born and they are twins.

“What are you doing here? Is Auntie Anthia here?”

Minhyung smiled slightly, “No. We are here with our father.”

Jia’s face fell slightly, “Oh…”

“Don’t be sad, Jia. You’ll see her soon, she’s just busy for now. Right, Min?” Royoung turned towards his twin who was nodding. The twins knew that Jia had looked up to the twins’ mother as a mother figure ever since Queen Aera left.

“Right.” Minhyung nodded, “Anyway, did anything happen yesterday?” 

Jia frowned slightly towards his question. “What do you mean?”

Minhyung glanced towards his twin – Royoung frowning down towards his cousin.

“Yesterday, in Aerina, the stars in the skies.. They were being.. Odd..” Royoung said slowly, head tilted slightly. Jia’s eyes widen slowly, now she gets his question.

“Oh!” Jia exclaimed. “In Neo too! I mean, yesterday, the stars were playing hide and seek too!” She explains, causing Minhyung and Royoung to look at each other.

“And I assume the barrier too..?” Minhyung looks at Jia with a slight wince, seeing her nodding.

Royoung clicked his tongue in confusion, “..But nothing bad happened yesterday, so why did the barrier appear?”

“That’s the thing, Ro.” Minhyung turned towards his twin. “..It means something happened. Don’t you listen to your history lessons’ in Dad’s school?” Minhyung looks at him in disbelief.

“..The barrier only appears when dark magic is involved. That was what the barrier is for. Protection from dark magic that Queen Aera had done before… she left.” Minhyung explains softly at the end, his eyes falling towards Jia who’s eyes were downcast.

“I miss her.” Jia muttered – she wasn’t afraid to be vulnerable in front of her cousins. In fact, they had seen the Jung siblings break down in Aerina’s tradition of celebrating Queen Aera’s birthday. 

“We all do, Jia.” Minhyung ruffled the young one’s hair, while Royoung had his arm on her shoulders’ – pushing her slightly into his arms, as he hugged her.

The twins had heard stories about Queen Aera – most of the stories were heroic, but most were quite funny regarding her everyday lives in the palace. Which is why she is loved by many, especially by King Jaehyun.

The twins accompany Jia on her walkabouts as they go to the main floor – that’s when she sees Yoel running towards their way.

“Jia! Jia!” Yoel yelled out, with Jia basically frowning towards the older one. “You know if the royal housemaids caught you running—

“Father is back! C’mon!” Yoel didn’t waste any time to grab Jia’s hand, as they ran off from the twins – which they decided to run after the Jung siblings.

“You sure it’s her? What if it’s the Ice Warlock doing—

“We’ll know if it’s his doing, MJ.”

“And besides, no one can duplicate a human’s blood. Look, and I don’t think it’s the Ice Warlock this time.”

“Eunwoo’s right. And look at her finger….”

“..She is really pretty not gonna—

“MJ!!!”

Aera frowns at the voices that didn’t even bother to whisper. It was as if they were having a full conversation, not minding she was there. She could feel her eyes fluttering, her vision starting to focus as well as seeing faces basically looking down at her.

Once her vision has turned focused, Aera out of nowhere sat up which caused some of the unrecognisable faces to shriek while taking a step back. 

Her eyes went downcast, seeing that she had fully changed into a white pyjamas-dress. Pyjamas in a dress. Aera frowned slightly, kind of little concerned about the fact that men had changed for her.

“Don’t worry, we had a female housemaid changed for you.” One of them states her worries, causing Aera to widen her eyes slightly.

“You can read minds?” Aera speaks quietly, the others kind of look towards each other.

“Well, we’re not vampires.” Another spoke, “..We are Estelleans. We are fairies, each one of us has powers and mind reading is one of them.”

‘Estelle… Which century is this?’

“Century sounds old, your majesty. First thing first, allow us to introduce ourselves. My name is Myungjun, in short, MJ.” He introduced himself first, flashing a wide smile.

“I’m Rocky, or you can call me Minhyuk. This is Eunwoo,” He pointed towards the prince-like looking one.

“..And this is Moonbin..” Eunwoo pointed towards an individual at the back who was leaning against the door – Aera could only look towards them, kind of in awe.

She quietly had her feet landed on the cold floor, she tried to stand up but her stance was wobbly causing some of the guys to go towards her – the first to reach her was Eunwoo since he was nearer to her.

“I’m afraid you have to lie down for now, your majesty. Your wound is kind of deep.” Eunwoo warned, eyes deeply gazed onto hers. Aera sighed softly as she was being sat on the bed.

“...How were you stabbed anway? How did you get into that situation in the first place?” MJ asked casually, earning a few disbelief looks from his own members. They were giving him the look of respect since he is literally speaking to the Queen of Wonderland.

Aera looks at him with a small smile – before sighing. “..By the Dark-Elf. I was stabbed by the Dark-Elf in my museum.”

Moonbin’s eyes widened, his eyes meeting his other members.

“W-wait, you’re saying the Dark-Elf was on Earth?” Rocky questioned in awe, which Aera nodded. “In-fact he disguised himself as Jaehyun – which got my attention.”

Eunwoo was now staring at Aera with full of concern – before he turned towards MJ who was already looking worried then turning towards Moonbin and Rocky who were standing at the back, mirroring the look of MJ.

“I think you need to inform the rest.” MJ turned towards Rocky and Moonbin who gave a nod towards the older one – before bowing towards Aera as they excused themselves.

Aera watched them leave. “Where are they going?”

“Writing to Neo, Athenian and—

“So I am in Wonderland!” Aera exclaims happily, earning a shocking look from Eunwoo as he chuckled to see how elated she is. 

“Yes, your maj–

“Call me, Aera.” She turned towards MJ. “All of you, call me Aera. We are way past the titles, after you saved me.” Her gaze turned towards Eunwoo who looked like he was in a daze.

Now he knows why everyone loves Aera – it’s her personality.

“For the meantime, you can’t move.” MJ winced as he looked at her hips. “So maybe we could tell you stories of what happened in Wonderland while you are here till you fully recover?”

“We know you would want to return to Aerina as soon as possible.” Eunwoo continued with a small smile, which Aera nodded with a wide smile.

“Something went wrong with the constellations last night. Has been fixed by God Leon. Apologies from the Athenian household, written by the twins, Prince Jonah and Prince Joel.” Anthia read from the neat-handwriting that was from the Athenian household.

“I wonder what happened.” Anthia muttered to herself as she folded the paper, looking towards the bright sky. The Queen of Aerina was sitting on her usual desk – going on her royal routine which was checking on the reports.

She checks on each update from different parts of Wonderland – seeing if Aerina needed to support some parts but so far, there was none thanks to King Jaehyun who had been travelling around Wonderland for the past few months by sea.

Anthia puts away the documents and letters neatly as a sign that she had concluded her day when her eyes travelled towards various moving picture frames. 

There were pictures of the big family of Neo and Aerina together, pictures of her own children with Aurelia and Aera’s children, and lastly pictures of herself and her two younger sisters. Anthia could feel herself smiling as she went through the pictures, with memories behind them.

The last picture, was a moving picture of Aera basically laughing, standing at the back-garden of Aerina. She was wearing a simple dress – she wasn’t in her Scarlet Witch form.

Anthia grabbed the picture frame of Aera, analysing her face that looked too happy in the future – it made Anthia smile naturally. 

‘I hope you are happy out there, Aera.’

Sighing shakily, Anthia quickly put down the picture frame as she stood up from her office chair – Anthia quickly got out of the office room, to already see a familiar figure waiting for her down the hallway.

“Everything good?” 

Anthia’s voice made the figure turn towards her way – seeing a small smile as she bowed towards Anthia. 

“Yes, I called one of the general’s in Neo Kingdom. They said everything is back to normal.” Violeta reassured with a smile, walking beside Anthia as they headed down the stairs.

“It’s kind of weird, don’t you think?” Anthia turned towards Violeta. “The stars are fading, and it reappears again. Not to mention the barriers activated itself..?”

Violeta sighs a little loudly, “.... To think about it, Wonderland has always been weird so I can’t say much about the stars. The Athenians are the ones responsible for that.” Violeta paused, as her steps started to slow down.

“As for the barriers,” As Violeta trailed off, this caused Anthia to turn towards the General with a small frown. 

Anthia started to work with Violeta ever since Aera left Wonderland – and now she understands why Aera trusted Violeta so much, even Aera had put her life in Violeta’s hands when she needed saving.

“...Jaehyun said it only activates when dark magic is involved.” Violeta whispered slightly, not wanting the housemaids that were walking passed by them to hear their conversation.

“I heard even Morian’s barrier has opened too, father called me just now.” Anthia informed quietly, which Violeta nodded. Now this made both of them frown deeply.

“..But, nothing bad happened yesterday.. So why...?” Anthia continued, while Violeta stood in front of the Queen.

“Maybe someone or something wanted to break into the castle, but failed to do whatever they were trying.” Violeta guessed, which Anthia shook her head while sighing through her nose. She was frustrated because it has been a while since this happened.

The last time it happened, she received direct news from Jia, one of Jaehyun and Aera’s children. It was revealed that the Ice Warlock was trying to enter Aerina but failed due to Aera’s protection barrier.

“It can’t be the Ice Warlock,” Anthia said in disbelief and Violeta was about to reply when rushed footsteps were heard – seeing a very familiar figure walking towards them.

“Zen, you look like you were being chased by maidens.” Violeta teased, wiggling her brows towards the Queen – seeing Anthia shaking her head to Violeta’s forever teasing towards Zen who was glaring towards the General.

“What is it, Zen?” Anthia looked towards Zen who was gripping onto a letter a little too hard. Zen’s composure straightens, he looks a little too nervous to say the next words.

“It’s from Athenian.” Zen said – Anthia gesturing Zen to continue his words. “They said that Queen Aera is in Wonderland.”

Anthia froze on the spot, while Violeta was looking towards the letter – she didn’t even ask Zen for the letter as she snatched it away from his grip. Her eyes moved left and right in a speed where no one had seen her read before.

There was a smile coming from Violeta as she turned towards Anthia, “Anthia, Aera is back! She’s finally back!” 

Anthia’s eyes fluttered in tears, as she broke out into a smile. “..Where is she now? H-How..?”

“That’s the thing, your majesty.” Zen quietly said before pulling another letter out towards the two ladies which Anthia quickly got ahold of.

Just like Violeta, she reads at a fast pace, causing her to gasp – a worried frown was shown on her face.

“What? What happened?” Violeta questioned at the same peering onto the letter – a look of concern formed slowly as she reads the letter.

I received a letter from the Athenian Kingdom that the Gods and Goddes of Constellations were supposed to transport Queen Aera to Athenian, but they made a mistake on transporting the Queen to Estellea. 

Queen Aera is in Estellea castle right now under Prince Eunwoo, Prince Rocky, Prince Moonbin and Prince MJ’s care. 

I have examined the wound from Queen Aera’s and it was from the Dark Elf. 

Prince Eunwoo has also told me that Queen Aera has been attacked by the Dark-Elf on Earth, which was impossible. As we have lived in Wonderland for centuries, we only know a powerful being could travel to Earth.

Perhaps our greatest fear has come true?

If it is, we have to get ready, your majesty.

Do visit Estellea to see Queen Aera as she is waiting for you.

Yours Sincerely,

Prince Jinwoo, JINJIN of Estellea Kingdom

𝐩𝐫𝐞𝐯𝐢𝐨𝐮𝐬 𝐜𝐡𝐚𝐩𝐭𝐞𝐫 (𝐜.𝟐) ⤄ 𝐧𝐞𝐱𝐭 𝐜𝐡𝐚𝐩𝐭𝐞𝐫 (𝐜.𝟒)

her wonderland : for infinity [the 3rd adventure]

[astro-moods]

Birthday wishes for our Moonbin

- may you always feel as loved as you are

[ihophashbrowns]

oh.... my heart is fucking broken

[lxvemaze]

彡you just had to ruin it like that

pairing' moonbin x reader

genre' fluff, non idol au

wc' 3.5k

warnings' brothers best friend trope, mentions of drinking

song rec' somethin' stupid by frank sinatra

a/n' i feel very soft and squishy after writing this

“You have got to be kidding me.”

Every year on New Year’s Eve, your family would go on a trip to stay at your grandparent’s beach house for the holiday. Even though you and your brother were now in university and living away from home, It was always your favorite few days of the year- a time where you, your parents, and your older brother could relax in peace. A time without any of your brothers annoying friends somehow finding a way to show up and ruin your peace and quiet.

“Come on, it’s his last holiday here before he goes to grad school overseas.”

Unfortunately this year, your brother had decided to invite his best friend, Moon Bin. You didn’t hate Bin. Quite the opposite, actually. You’d had a crush on him for nearly as long as you could remember. Him and your brother were two years older than you, and while you and your brother were practically best friends, Bin acted like it was his life’s personal mission to annoy the hell out of you every time you saw each other. After they graduated high school, he and your brother opted to go to a university together closer to home, while two years later, you went for one a few cities away. Your brother was a little bit hurt that you didn’t want to go to the same university as him, but to be honest, you just didn’t want to be around Bin.

“All the more reason for him to stay with his family.” The last thing you wanted at the moment was to be cooped up in a small secluded house next to the ocean with him. Honestly, you thought you’d gotten over your little crush on him when you first went off to university. You’d made your own friends, dated around, and started living your own life. But when your brother brought up bringing his closest friend on your vacation, your heart dropped into your stomach.

“Why are you being such a pill about this? I thought Bin was your favorite of my friends.” You and your brother were outside your house, putting your family’s various luggage in the back of your parents' minivan.

“Well, yeah. But that’s not really saying much. Besides, you kinda sprung this on me last minute.” You tossed your small suitcase into the trunk next to the bag of various sugary snacks and booze that your brother had packed, and your parents certainly hadn’t approved of.

“Dude, you’re acting like I invited your arch nemesis. You haven’t even seen him in like, almost three years. I mean, I know he used to pick on you a bit, but you were no better.” Your brother sat down on the edge of the trunk, pulling the hood of his sweatshirt over his head.

“Yeah, I know. I don’t know, maybe it’s just because we’ve never brought anyone else on this trip before.” You stuffed your hands in your pockets and sat down next to your brother.

“Well either way, he’ll be here any minute, and then we’ll be off.”

Your parents came out of the house, bundled up in thick coats and scarves to fend against the biting December air. As much as you loved your yearly trip to the beach, it was always so cold on the coast.

Your family were all gathered outside by the car as Bin pulled up in an Uber. He stepped out and grabbed his bag. Your mother cheered and rushed towards him, pulling him into a warm embrace, which he returned with a big smile. Your father patted Bin on the back as he approached the van. Your parents always treated him as their own. 

Your brother folded down the back row of seats so Bin could fit his luggage in with the rest of yours, and you internally groaned as you realized that the three of you would have to squish together in the middle seats. 

You all settled into the car and were on the highway, you squished between your brother and his giant of a best friend, headphones on, trying to ignore the fact that Bin’s knee was so close to your own, his leg was practically on top of yours.

After two painfully awkward (at least for you) hours in the car, you were finally pulling up to the beach house. You stepped outside of the car, taking your first deep breath in hours, the cold air almost painfully filling your lungs. You stared up at your grandparents house that you’ve spent every New Year’s of the past 20 years in, letting out a quiet laugh as you remembered all the mischief you and your brother used to get into during those days.

You walked around to the back of the van to grab your suitcase out of the trunk, only to find Bin standing there, holding it out for you, his backpack slung over one shoulder. You mumbled out a quiet “thanks” as you took the handle from him. The two of you started up towards the house, trailing behind your parents in an awkward silence. Bin turned his head towards you and started to open his mouth before your brother came barreling at you two from behind, slinging an arm over each of your shoulders.

“You two ready to get fucked up tonight?” He giggled, referring to the several bottles of alcohol that he had brought in his bag. You and Bin shared an amused glance before you ascended the long staircase up to the house, hoisting your suitcase up with you. You probably should’ve brought a backpack.

“I think I’ll pass.” You sighed as you lugged up the stairs. “I’ve got to finish a paper before I go back to campus in a few days.”

“You know, you’ve somehow gotten less fun since you started uni.” Your brother huffed. You rolled your eyes at him as you continued to struggle with your suitcase. Bin, seemingly tired of your huffing and puffing, wordlessly took the suitcase from your hands, leaving you dumbfounded as he and your brother continued up the stairs. You stared in shock at how easily Bin carried your heavy suitcase, and you came to the sudden realization that he looked much more broad than the last time you saw him.

You shook your head as if to clear it and rushed up the stairs to catch up to the two boys.

Once you’d all gotten settled into the house and claimed your bedrooms, you and your mother got started on dinner. You’d gotten started on chopping and peeling various vegetables for the stew your mom always made on New Years, when none other than Bin sidled up to you, leaning on the counter, observing your hands as they peeled a potato.

You glared at him through the corner of your eye as you continued peeling the potato in your hands. You could practically hear the smug look on his face as he leaned just a little closer. You sighed in frustration and set the potato and peeler down, turning to face Bin, who was smirking at you. “Can I help you?”

He rolled his eyes and poked you in the side, causing you to jump back a bit, which allowed him to stand where you were and take your place chopping and peeling vegetables.

“Just as annoying as I remember you.” You sighed and crossed your arms, leaning on the counter as Bin had done previously. You watched Bin as he chopped the now peeled potato, and you realized now that he’d rolled the sleeves of his sweater up, that your previous observation of him being broader than before had been nothing short of an understatement. He was ripped. You supposed your brother had been dragging Bin to the gym with him since they started university. You couldn’t take your eyes off his arms as they flexed while he chopped. You could see his muscles working, veins popping out, but his skin still looked so soft-

You glanced up at Bin’s face to see him looking down at you smugly. You quickly turned your head away from him so he wouldn’t see your reddening face. You heard him chuckle from behind you and the scraping of the knife as he discarded the potato peels into the trash.

“So…” You turned to face him again as he spoke, but you deliberately avoided looking at his arms. “It’s been a while. How’ve you been?”

“I’ve been alright. Living life, you know?”

He nodded as he started on a carrot, not before rolling up the sleeve of his sweater a little bit higher, causing you to glance down at it. You could see him smirk again.

“That’s good. You made many friends yet?”

“A few.”

“They haven’t figured out how annoying you are yet?”

You rolled your eyes and lightly smacked his bicep, which you regretted doing as soon as you felt how firm the muscle there was.

“Any boyfriends…or girlfriends?”

“...I’m focusing on my degree right now.”

Bin looked like he was about to say something before your mother stepped in and started fussing over him. 

“Now Binnie, why are you cutting those vegetables? You should be relaxing.”

“Just trying to help out, mom.”

You rolled your eyes when he referred to her as “mom”. You always hated when he did that, and he knew it, judging by the look he gave you after he said it. You walked away from the kitchen and towards the staircase that led upstairs, giving one more passing glare to Bin, who just gave you yet another smug grin as you walked past.

When you arrived in your room on the upper level of the house, you immediately walked towards your bed and flopped down face first into your pillow, once you did, you let out a muffled scream of frustration.

You really thought your crush on Bin was gone. You thought that you just had a crush on him because he was older, and taller, and more experienced. And you thought that now you yourself were older, taller, and more experienced, you would be unaffected by him. But clearly, you were wrong. Why did he have to get buff? Why did his face have to get more handsome? You might’ve just been seeing things, but you were pretty sure he’d gotten even taller since you’d last seen him.

You didn’t know how long you’d been wallowing over your crush, but soon enough, your already tipsy older brother burst into your room to tell you that dinner was ready.

Dinner itself was fairly uneventful, your brother drank nearly an entire bottle of wine, you kept your eyes firmly on your stew so you wouldn’t look up and make unintended eye contact with Bin, who was sat across from you. And of course, your parents fawned over Bin and praised him for going off to a prestigious foreign university for his graduate degree.

After dinner, you volunteered to do the dishes, and Bin immediately offered to help. You tried to decline, but with your mother praising him for how much of a nice young man he was, you figured it was a losing battle.

“So, no boyfriend?”

“Bin, that is the second time you’ve asked me.”

“And?”

“Still no.”

Again, you could practically hear his smirk.

You resisted the urge to splash soapy water on him as you handed him another bowl to dry.

“You know,” he started as he put the bowl away in the cupboard, “you’re a lot different than I remember you.”

“How so?” You handed him another bowl.

“Well, you’re not as short, for one.”

This time, you did splash soapy water on him. Which was definitely a mistake, since after he was done swearing at you, he turned his back to you and removed his sweater, leaving him in just a white t-shirt, which appeared to be a little bit small for him as it hugged his back just enough for you to see the outline of the well-toned muscles.

You quickly averted your eyes as he turned back around, this time handing him a handful of spoons.

As soon as the two of you were done with the dishes, you wordlessly retreated to your room, passing by your parents and brother in the living room who were working on another bottle of wine while watching a movie on the TV.

Once you made it to your room, you took a deep breath and sat cross-legged on your bed, taking your laptop out of your bag and deciding to actually try to get to work on your paper. This proved to be a struggle, since every other word seemed to remind you of the tall handsome man downstairs.

You couldn’t tell how long you’d been staring at your computer screen, but when you heard a gentle knock on the door, you glanced at the clock on your screen which read “11:15 PM”.

You groaned as you stood up from the bed, stretching your stiff limbs before opening the door.

You were taken aback when you saw Bin standing there, wearing a puffy jacket and holding a beer in each hand.

“Come on, we’re gonna go for a walk.”

You stared at him incredulously for a second. “That…sounds like a threat?”

He rolled his eyes, handed you one of the beers, and gestured for you to follow him downstairs. You hesitated for a second, looking back at the laptop on your bed before sighing and following.

You glanced into the living room as you walked past, and saw your brother passed out on the couch, leaning on your dad’s shoulder as he and your mom watched the TV.

Bin waited patiently by the front door for you as you put on your boots, coat, and scarf. As soon as you were done, he opened the door and wordlessly gestured for you to go out.

The walk to the beach was short, but silent. You wondered what was going through Bin’s mind as the two of you walked along the sand. Even with the loud crashing waves of the ocean beside you, your mind was anything but quiet. You found yourself staring at Bin’s face as you walked beside him. His jawline had gotten sharper, you noticed, and he definitely was a bit taller.

“You’ve been staring at me all night, you know.”

You paused and quickly looked down at your sand-covered boots. “No, I haven’t.” You lamely lied, immediately cringing at yourself.

You heard him chuckle beside you as the two of you continued on.

Eventually, Bin stopped walking. The two of you were far enough down the beach for the lights of the beach house to be a small speckle in the distance, and the small town down the highway just close enough to where you could see the lights on the boardwalk.

“So…” Bin opened his beer, “no boyfriend.”

You rolled your eyes so hard you could’ve sworn you felt them stick for a second. “For the third and final time, Bin; no. I do not have a boyfriend. You can stop judging me.” You opened your beer and took a long sip. You had a feeling you were going to need it.

“Okay, well, that one wasn’t a question. It was a statement. And for your information, I’m not judging you. I don’t have a girlfriend, either.”

You felt your heart jump at that, but you shook your head in false pity. “Why not? Haven’t found a girl willing to put up with you yet?”

He scoffed and took a sip of his beer, shaking his head.

“Nah, I just haven’t found one I really want to be with.”

“Well, what type of girl do you want to be with?”

“You tell me what type of guy you want to be with, and I’ll tell you what type of girl I want to be with.”

You rolled your eyes and took a deep breath, not sure if you were willing to play this game. And yet, you did. “I just want a guy who’s not a total dickhead to me. Someone my family likes, someone my friends like, someone who’ll give me space to breathe, and encourages me to complete my education and have my own career.”

You looked up at Bin, expecting him to be smugly smirking down at you as he typically did, but instead, he was looking at you softly, almost warmly.

“What about you?” You quickly asked in a lame attempt to ease the tension.

He huffed out a laugh, taking another sip. “I don’t know. Maybe someone who I’ve known for a while. I don’t like the idea of getting into a relationship with someone I don’t know well.”

You took a sip in an attempt to conceal the rising blush on your face.

“And maybe…someone I can poke fun at. Not in a mean way, you know? Just someone I can joke around with.”

You could feel his eyes on you, and you were hoping it was dark enough so he couldn’t see how red your face had gotten.

“It’s almost midnight.” You said, looking up at the sky to see if you could spot any distant fireworks.

Bin didn’t say anything, but you could still feel his eyes were fixated on you. You took a deep breath and looked up at him, meeting his eyes. You couldn’t describe the look on his face if you tried. He’d never looked at you like that before. No one had ever looked at you like that before.

“What?” You asked softly, your voice barely above a whisper.

Still, he said nothing, but you jumped in place as you felt his hand slip into yours, entwining your fingers.

“Your hands are cold.” He breathed out, his eyes not leaving yours.

“Yeah, well, it’s cold out.” You couldn’t break the eye contact.

The two of you stood in silence for what felt like an hour. You couldn’t decipher the look on his face, but every now and again, his eyes would flit down to a lower spot on your face. The vague question of why he would be looking at your nose flowed through your mind before the two of you were startled by a loud bang.

The two of you looked over towards the town, and saw fireworks lighting up the sky.

You looked back up at him, his eyes finding yours a moment later.

“Happy new year.”

He gave you a small smile before looking down at his feet. “You know, there’s this tradition that people do at midnight on new years.I don’t know if you’ve heard of it.”

Your heart started beating faster. “I think I know what you’re talking about.”

You held your breath as Bin’s hand left yours and moved up to your cheek. You saw his eyes scanning your face for a moment before slowly leaning in. You closed your eyes, expecting to feel his lips on yours, but he stopped. You could feel his warm breath on your face, and you opened your eyes to see him looking down at you hesitantly.

You breathed out before taking in another deep breath and bringing your hand to the back of his neck, pulling him down the rest of the way.

Your stomach fluttered in a way that you’d never felt before. You wrapped your other arm around Bin, prompting him to do the same. You’d kissed your fair share of men, even a few girls, but none of them had made you feel the way that Bin was making you feel. You felt like your heart was about to burst out of your chest the way it does in cartoons. You two could have been standing there wrapped in each other for hours, and neither of you would have noticed. You could only think of each other, you could only feel each other.

Eventually, the two of you pulled away for breath. You made eye contact for a split second before you turned your eyes downward, feeling your face heat up again at the way he looked at you. He chuckled at your embarrassment and pulled you closer to him, resting his chin on your shoulder.

“You know,” he started, voice muffled as he pressed his face into your neck, “I think I love you.”

You held in the giddy giggle that threatened to escape, and instead pressed your face into his shoulder. “Well, I know I love you. I have for a long time.”

Bin pulled away from your neck, prompting you to look up at him. He looked down at you, giving you another smug grin. He let out a teasing “ooh”, giggling as you hid your face in your hands.

“You just had to ruin it like that.” You groaned. Bin giggled again, pulling your hands away from your face and leaning down to give a gentle peck to your nose.

“You know I love you.”

“I do now.”

[delisae]

Rest in peace Moonbin 🫶🏻

[kodzuken-chan]

I can't seem to believe the news the moment I read it, it was so shocking to the point I kept denying and I was still in denial till I saw Fantagio's message on Astro's official insta page.....

I have nothing else to say but to please stay strong during this tragic time...My condolences to Moonbin's Family and ASTRO...

Please Rest in Peace my dear Moonbin, you"ll always be in our heart with that contagious smile of yours.

REST IN PEACE, DEAR MOONBIN (1998-2023)

[schrodingers-hoarding-problem]

sorry wtf did I just learn?? im in class rn you can't just tell me this

tw: death, mental health

he passed away? im not even sad yet I think, im just so shocked right now. its just so sudden and startling

it's not confirmed yet but the fact that it seems like more people are committing suicide recently is so alarming but sadly not super shocking

I wasn't into kpop (and was too young for these topics) back 5-7 years ago when it seemed to peak, but this is honestly such a huge issue

not even just kpop itself, but Korean (and asian/specifically East Asian) cultures of just work work work & how taboo mental health is. I hope this can at least lead to more and more conversation being able to open up around mental health & safety, but its devastating that this is what has to happen for it to be taken seriously

but this truly does just keep happening because no steps are being taken to fix it. so it just keeps going in cycles every few years