#astro moonbin imagines

[hoforwonho]

thank you, moonbin. rest in peace.

[wonhosmistress]

So it’s only been a day but I decided to take upon myself to make an announcement because this involves the entire kpop community. Ever since I came across the first post of Moonbin’s sudden passing I was in shock…I still am.

It hit too close to home not because I was necessarily a stan but I had just discovered the duo Moonbin was with Sanha, but it made me reconsider the guilt and sadness creeping up on me regardless of whether I had just become a fan or i wasn’t. This could happen to ANY of our favorite artists specifically Kpop idols because they only show so much to the public eye. This is another reason why we need to be there for each other as a community despite of having different groups we support, not only that but we need to show these idols kindness and support not bombard them with constant negativity. A small action such as kindness can have a big impact, we NEVER know what someone else is going through.

I’ve been having to take time offline from TikTok and IG because there’s constant bombarding of the heartbreaking news of Moonbin and his funeral and his family/friends in mourning. Sometimes, I think about how this could affect me indirectly as a fan of beloved artist be it who it may or my siblings who also have depression. I wish all of his fans a heartwarming hug and support for whoever may need it, my inbox is open! If you need time away from social media please take it and if you also need to talk to someone or have mental health issues please seek some help💕

I love y’all and please do take care of y’all’s self.

[acciocriativity]

TW: death

I'm devastated rn. My deepest condolences to Moonbin's family, friends and however had the the absolute joy to be an aroha and followed Moonbin's journey until now.

I really can't imagine that he isn't with us rn, it simply just doesn't make sense to me. He was such a bright soul and he deserved so much more in life than this.

Moonbin, you wouldn't be forgotten, ever. Your spirit will life forever in the heart of your loved ones and arohas as long as we live too.

Rest in peace, Moonbin and thank you so much for all the joy and light you brought us 💕

[theshower]

astro was the first group that ever introduced me to kpop. i stumbled upon their predebut drama “to be continued” one day back in 2016 when i was having a really hard time, and they’ve helped me through so much since. i really fell in love with the six of them,

but moonbin was my first ever real kpop bias.

i’m literally heartbroken by his passing. i just wish i could say thank you to him for introducing me to a whole new world, one that has brought me so much happiness for these past 7 years.

rest in peace moonbin 🤍

[iiwannabeme]

Seungkwan for Moonbin on his ig post♡

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[binsanlover]

moonbin & his wife:

[herwonderland7]

CHAPTER 3 — KINGDOM OF ESTELLEA

CHARACTERS ― Riana Aera Morian, MJ (ASTRO), Cha Eunwoo (ASTRO), Moonbin (ASTRO), Rocky (ASTRO), Jung Jia Valentia Neolas, Kim Minhyung Noah, Kim Royoung Daniel, Aretha Anthia Morian, Elexis Violeta Doukas, Zen Alberto

GENRE ― fantasy, nct!prince, nct!royalty, nct!as!vampires, nct!as!wolves

WORDS ― 3152

WARNINGS/AUTHOR’S NOTE ― Mention of Blood and Stab Wound.

SUMMARY ― Aera finds herself in a surrounding where she isn’t too familiar.

Aera falls in a thud as soon as the portal opens – with her basically rolling out with a loud groan coming out from her.

“Argh..” Aera let out a groan with a mixture of a sigh. She thanked the gods that she was literally being transported to a bush rather than a concrete floor – since she is feeling a sharp pain somewhere below her body.

Slowly opening her eyes, the bright skies greeted her which explained why her sight was quite bright even if her eyes were closed.

As she tried to sit up, she was met by a sharp pain on her hip. Aera looked down and let out a sharp gasp – to see a knife basically stuck onto her own flesh. 

“That explains the pain.” She muttered to herself, gulping her own lump on her throat. She wasn’t afraid of the pain, she was afraid of the redness she is seeing now – which is her own blood  basically trickling down the stabbed wound.

“Freaking—

She cursed herself after taking the small knife out of her – now feeling the tremendous pain, throwing it aside as she tried to get her breathing to a normal speed.

‘It hurts to move,’

Aera tore out a part of her inner shirt – to make a bandage for the meantime for her wound. After finishing the small problem, Aera now fully looked around. She couldn’t tell if she was in Aerina. 

She didn’t even know if she was in Wonderland or not.

But all she knows is that she is somehow in a garden, a back garden – seeing a small statue surrounded by bushes leading to a path. Aera slowly stood up though it hurt.

Sighing, Aera took a step at a time while clutching onto her wounded part as she ventures out. 

‘It looks like nobody's around..?’ Aera looked around again, trying to see if there is anyone around but after seeing every corner, there is literally no one. 

Shrugging slightly, she followed the path and that’s when she was met by a short garden maze.

But her eyes followed to the front as her gaze met up. Though it was foggy, she could tell that she had stepped foot in a castle. Aera looked behind, and her eyes went slightly wide to see more fog appearing to where she was previously.

Aera quickly went ahead without looking back, and now her sight turned hazy the more she stepped forward – causing her to let out small coughs.

“Why does it turn foggy all of a sudden?” Aera commented, as she was swatting around the air. Now she thinks the surroundings were playing with her – it turns foggy purposely.

The more she walked ahead, the more her sight turned hazy.

Just as she took a step forward, she felt a tip of sharp blade right behind her back – which caused her to stand frozen. All of a sudden, the haze that was surrounding her started to disappear slowly.

Now revealing where she is standing.

In front of her, she could see the inside castle through the huge clear window.

Now she didn’t dare to look behind – not knowing what or whom is literally pointed at her. But she knows there is someone.

“Didn’t know someone had the guts to enter here, usually they would be killed instantly if trespassers come by.” Whoever this person is, he is sure is taunting Aera just by how his voice sounded.

Aera slowly held up both of her hands - though she felt a sharp pain on her wounded hip which caused both of her hands to gripped onto the wound, that’s when she felt the sharp blade again at her back.

“Okay, okay! Relax! I’m hurt!” Aera groaned annoyingly, at the same time turning back slowly while gripping onto her hip.

As soon as she turned around, she met with the man who was somehow taunting her. 

It wasn’t just one. There were two.

One of them gasps with his eyes widening the more he stares at Aera, “Oh my god, Binnie…” 

Aera looks at the both of them – judging how they were dressed. She could see an emblem on their collars, now she knows she is literally in a kingdom. But she couldn’t tell which kingdom it was. 

She couldn’t even remember the previous kingdoms in Wonderland.

‘I’m so dead.’

She could only gulp in fear while one of her hands was gripping onto her wound.

As she was staring into these two men hardened, she could feel her stance becoming nauseous. Aera could guess it’s either because of her getting weaker or because of the wound.

“I..” Just as she was trying to let out a word, she could feel her body collapse.

And before her vision turns into darkness, she could see one of the figures catching her – feeling herself in someone’s arms before she fully passed out.

“Thank you for the breakfast, I���ll get going now.” Jia thanked the royal housemaids as soon as she finished her breakfast, as always, before excusing herself as she grabbed her book. This was her usual routine.

Breakfast, have a walk around the castle, read the book by the back-garden, lunch, horse-riding, reading again, dinner, and head to bed. 

This has been going on for nearly a month since she just graduated from royal school.

She had been granted the green light by her father – by writing through letters if she could switch school to a public one, which was to her Uncle Doyoung’s school named School of Neo. 

She wanted to go since most of her cousins enrolled there, and knowing soon all of her own siblings will be enrolling there too.

Just as she had her usual walkabouts, Jia heard rushed footsteps coming from the back.

“Jia!” A familiar knowing voice called, and as she turned behind, she saw two familiar faces.

“Minhyung! Royoung!” Jia called, waving towards the two boys who were running towards her. Minhyung and Royoung are Queen Anthia and Prince Doyoung’s sons, they are the first born and they are twins.

“What are you doing here? Is Auntie Anthia here?”

Minhyung smiled slightly, “No. We are here with our father.”

Jia’s face fell slightly, “Oh…”

“Don’t be sad, Jia. You’ll see her soon, she’s just busy for now. Right, Min?” Royoung turned towards his twin who was nodding. The twins knew that Jia had looked up to the twins’ mother as a mother figure ever since Queen Aera left.

“Right.” Minhyung nodded, “Anyway, did anything happen yesterday?” 

Jia frowned slightly towards his question. “What do you mean?”

Minhyung glanced towards his twin – Royoung frowning down towards his cousin.

“Yesterday, in Aerina, the stars in the skies.. They were being.. Odd..” Royoung said slowly, head tilted slightly. Jia’s eyes widen slowly, now she gets his question.

“Oh!” Jia exclaimed. “In Neo too! I mean, yesterday, the stars were playing hide and seek too!” She explains, causing Minhyung and Royoung to look at each other.

“And I assume the barrier too..?” Minhyung looks at Jia with a slight wince, seeing her nodding.

Royoung clicked his tongue in confusion, “..But nothing bad happened yesterday, so why did the barrier appear?”

“That’s the thing, Ro.” Minhyung turned towards his twin. “..It means something happened. Don’t you listen to your history lessons’ in Dad’s school?” Minhyung looks at him in disbelief.

“..The barrier only appears when dark magic is involved. That was what the barrier is for. Protection from dark magic that Queen Aera had done before… she left.” Minhyung explains softly at the end, his eyes falling towards Jia who’s eyes were downcast.

“I miss her.” Jia muttered – she wasn’t afraid to be vulnerable in front of her cousins. In fact, they had seen the Jung siblings break down in Aerina’s tradition of celebrating Queen Aera’s birthday. 

“We all do, Jia.” Minhyung ruffled the young one’s hair, while Royoung had his arm on her shoulders’ – pushing her slightly into his arms, as he hugged her.

The twins had heard stories about Queen Aera – most of the stories were heroic, but most were quite funny regarding her everyday lives in the palace. Which is why she is loved by many, especially by King Jaehyun.

The twins accompany Jia on her walkabouts as they go to the main floor – that’s when she sees Yoel running towards their way.

“Jia! Jia!” Yoel yelled out, with Jia basically frowning towards the older one. “You know if the royal housemaids caught you running—

“Father is back! C’mon!” Yoel didn’t waste any time to grab Jia’s hand, as they ran off from the twins – which they decided to run after the Jung siblings.

“You sure it’s her? What if it’s the Ice Warlock doing—

“We’ll know if it’s his doing, MJ.”

“And besides, no one can duplicate a human’s blood. Look, and I don’t think it’s the Ice Warlock this time.”

“Eunwoo’s right. And look at her finger….”

“..She is really pretty not gonna—

“MJ!!!”

Aera frowns at the voices that didn’t even bother to whisper. It was as if they were having a full conversation, not minding she was there. She could feel her eyes fluttering, her vision starting to focus as well as seeing faces basically looking down at her.

Once her vision has turned focused, Aera out of nowhere sat up which caused some of the unrecognisable faces to shriek while taking a step back. 

Her eyes went downcast, seeing that she had fully changed into a white pyjamas-dress. Pyjamas in a dress. Aera frowned slightly, kind of little concerned about the fact that men had changed for her.

“Don’t worry, we had a female housemaid changed for you.” One of them states her worries, causing Aera to widen her eyes slightly.

“You can read minds?” Aera speaks quietly, the others kind of look towards each other.

“Well, we’re not vampires.” Another spoke, “..We are Estelleans. We are fairies, each one of us has powers and mind reading is one of them.”

‘Estelle… Which century is this?’

“Century sounds old, your majesty. First thing first, allow us to introduce ourselves. My name is Myungjun, in short, MJ.” He introduced himself first, flashing a wide smile.

“I’m Rocky, or you can call me Minhyuk. This is Eunwoo,” He pointed towards the prince-like looking one.

“..And this is Moonbin..” Eunwoo pointed towards an individual at the back who was leaning against the door – Aera could only look towards them, kind of in awe.

She quietly had her feet landed on the cold floor, she tried to stand up but her stance was wobbly causing some of the guys to go towards her – the first to reach her was Eunwoo since he was nearer to her.

“I’m afraid you have to lie down for now, your majesty. Your wound is kind of deep.” Eunwoo warned, eyes deeply gazed onto hers. Aera sighed softly as she was being sat on the bed.

“...How were you stabbed anway? How did you get into that situation in the first place?” MJ asked casually, earning a few disbelief looks from his own members. They were giving him the look of respect since he is literally speaking to the Queen of Wonderland.

Aera looks at him with a small smile – before sighing. “..By the Dark-Elf. I was stabbed by the Dark-Elf in my museum.”

Moonbin’s eyes widened, his eyes meeting his other members.

“W-wait, you’re saying the Dark-Elf was on Earth?” Rocky questioned in awe, which Aera nodded. “In-fact he disguised himself as Jaehyun – which got my attention.”

Eunwoo was now staring at Aera with full of concern – before he turned towards MJ who was already looking worried then turning towards Moonbin and Rocky who were standing at the back, mirroring the look of MJ.

“I think you need to inform the rest.” MJ turned towards Rocky and Moonbin who gave a nod towards the older one – before bowing towards Aera as they excused themselves.

Aera watched them leave. “Where are they going?”

“Writing to Neo, Athenian and—

“So I am in Wonderland!” Aera exclaims happily, earning a shocking look from Eunwoo as he chuckled to see how elated she is. 

“Yes, your maj–

“Call me, Aera.” She turned towards MJ. “All of you, call me Aera. We are way past the titles, after you saved me.” Her gaze turned towards Eunwoo who looked like he was in a daze.

Now he knows why everyone loves Aera – it’s her personality.

“For the meantime, you can’t move.” MJ winced as he looked at her hips. “So maybe we could tell you stories of what happened in Wonderland while you are here till you fully recover?”

“We know you would want to return to Aerina as soon as possible.” Eunwoo continued with a small smile, which Aera nodded with a wide smile.

“Something went wrong with the constellations last night. Has been fixed by God Leon. Apologies from the Athenian household, written by the twins, Prince Jonah and Prince Joel.” Anthia read from the neat-handwriting that was from the Athenian household.

“I wonder what happened.” Anthia muttered to herself as she folded the paper, looking towards the bright sky. The Queen of Aerina was sitting on her usual desk – going on her royal routine which was checking on the reports.

She checks on each update from different parts of Wonderland – seeing if Aerina needed to support some parts but so far, there was none thanks to King Jaehyun who had been travelling around Wonderland for the past few months by sea.

Anthia puts away the documents and letters neatly as a sign that she had concluded her day when her eyes travelled towards various moving picture frames. 

There were pictures of the big family of Neo and Aerina together, pictures of her own children with Aurelia and Aera’s children, and lastly pictures of herself and her two younger sisters. Anthia could feel herself smiling as she went through the pictures, with memories behind them.

The last picture, was a moving picture of Aera basically laughing, standing at the back-garden of Aerina. She was wearing a simple dress – she wasn’t in her Scarlet Witch form.

Anthia grabbed the picture frame of Aera, analysing her face that looked too happy in the future – it made Anthia smile naturally. 

‘I hope you are happy out there, Aera.’

Sighing shakily, Anthia quickly put down the picture frame as she stood up from her office chair – Anthia quickly got out of the office room, to already see a familiar figure waiting for her down the hallway.

“Everything good?” 

Anthia’s voice made the figure turn towards her way – seeing a small smile as she bowed towards Anthia. 

“Yes, I called one of the general’s in Neo Kingdom. They said everything is back to normal.” Violeta reassured with a smile, walking beside Anthia as they headed down the stairs.

“It’s kind of weird, don’t you think?” Anthia turned towards Violeta. “The stars are fading, and it reappears again. Not to mention the barriers activated itself..?”

Violeta sighs a little loudly, “.... To think about it, Wonderland has always been weird so I can’t say much about the stars. The Athenians are the ones responsible for that.” Violeta paused, as her steps started to slow down.

“As for the barriers,” As Violeta trailed off, this caused Anthia to turn towards the General with a small frown. 

Anthia started to work with Violeta ever since Aera left Wonderland – and now she understands why Aera trusted Violeta so much, even Aera had put her life in Violeta’s hands when she needed saving.

“...Jaehyun said it only activates when dark magic is involved.” Violeta whispered slightly, not wanting the housemaids that were walking passed by them to hear their conversation.

“I heard even Morian’s barrier has opened too, father called me just now.” Anthia informed quietly, which Violeta nodded. Now this made both of them frown deeply.

“..But, nothing bad happened yesterday.. So why...?” Anthia continued, while Violeta stood in front of the Queen.

“Maybe someone or something wanted to break into the castle, but failed to do whatever they were trying.” Violeta guessed, which Anthia shook her head while sighing through her nose. She was frustrated because it has been a while since this happened.

The last time it happened, she received direct news from Jia, one of Jaehyun and Aera’s children. It was revealed that the Ice Warlock was trying to enter Aerina but failed due to Aera’s protection barrier.

“It can’t be the Ice Warlock,” Anthia said in disbelief and Violeta was about to reply when rushed footsteps were heard – seeing a very familiar figure walking towards them.

“Zen, you look like you were being chased by maidens.” Violeta teased, wiggling her brows towards the Queen – seeing Anthia shaking her head to Violeta’s forever teasing towards Zen who was glaring towards the General.

“What is it, Zen?” Anthia looked towards Zen who was gripping onto a letter a little too hard. Zen’s composure straightens, he looks a little too nervous to say the next words.

“It’s from Athenian.” Zen said – Anthia gesturing Zen to continue his words. “They said that Queen Aera is in Wonderland.”

Anthia froze on the spot, while Violeta was looking towards the letter – she didn’t even ask Zen for the letter as she snatched it away from his grip. Her eyes moved left and right in a speed where no one had seen her read before.

There was a smile coming from Violeta as she turned towards Anthia, “Anthia, Aera is back! She’s finally back!” 

Anthia’s eyes fluttered in tears, as she broke out into a smile. “..Where is she now? H-How..?”

“That’s the thing, your majesty.” Zen quietly said before pulling another letter out towards the two ladies which Anthia quickly got ahold of.

Just like Violeta, she reads at a fast pace, causing her to gasp – a worried frown was shown on her face.

“What? What happened?” Violeta questioned at the same peering onto the letter – a look of concern formed slowly as she reads the letter.

I received a letter from the Athenian Kingdom that the Gods and Goddes of Constellations were supposed to transport Queen Aera to Athenian, but they made a mistake on transporting the Queen to Estellea. 

Queen Aera is in Estellea castle right now under Prince Eunwoo, Prince Rocky, Prince Moonbin and Prince MJ’s care. 

I have examined the wound from Queen Aera’s and it was from the Dark Elf. 

Prince Eunwoo has also told me that Queen Aera has been attacked by the Dark-Elf on Earth, which was impossible. As we have lived in Wonderland for centuries, we only know a powerful being could travel to Earth.

Perhaps our greatest fear has come true?

If it is, we have to get ready, your majesty.

Do visit Estellea to see Queen Aera as she is waiting for you.

Yours Sincerely,

Prince Jinwoo, JINJIN of Estellea Kingdom

𝐩𝐫𝐞𝐯𝐢𝐨𝐮𝐬 𝐜𝐡𝐚𝐩𝐭𝐞𝐫 (𝐜.𝟐) ⤄ 𝐧𝐞𝐱𝐭 𝐜𝐡𝐚𝐩𝐭𝐞𝐫 (𝐜.𝟒)

her wonderland : for infinity [the 3rd adventure]

[astro-moods]

Birthday wishes for our Moonbin

- may you always feel as loved as you are

[ihophashbrowns]

oh.... my heart is fucking broken

[delisae]

Rest in peace Moonbin 🫶🏻

[kodzuken-chan]

I can't seem to believe the news the moment I read it, it was so shocking to the point I kept denying and I was still in denial till I saw Fantagio's message on Astro's official insta page.....

I have nothing else to say but to please stay strong during this tragic time...My condolences to Moonbin's Family and ASTRO...

Please Rest in Peace my dear Moonbin, you"ll always be in our heart with that contagious smile of yours.

REST IN PEACE, DEAR MOONBIN (1998-2023)

[schrodingers-hoarding-problem]

sorry wtf did I just learn?? im in class rn you can't just tell me this

tw: death, mental health

he passed away? im not even sad yet I think, im just so shocked right now. its just so sudden and startling

it's not confirmed yet but the fact that it seems like more people are committing suicide recently is so alarming but sadly not super shocking

I wasn't into kpop (and was too young for these topics) back 5-7 years ago when it seemed to peak, but this is honestly such a huge issue

not even just kpop itself, but Korean (and asian/specifically East Asian) cultures of just work work work & how taboo mental health is. I hope this can at least lead to more and more conversation being able to open up around mental health & safety, but its devastating that this is what has to happen for it to be taken seriously

but this truly does just keep happening because no steps are being taken to fix it. so it just keeps going in cycles every few years

[i-am-baechu]

Be kinder to everyone. You never know what’s going on behind doors. Love your family a little more everyday and spend the most time with your friends because you never know. When there is love there is no darkness. May these angels rest in peace.

Please remember that kpop idols are humans and they go through tribulations. They’re not just machines, every mean word you say about them they hear it one way or another. Treat them with kindness.

Edited: Also, we also don't know what health tribulations they are going through (not just mental health). Just treat everyone with kindness and try to help people who are affected by this. Big or small, just try to help them out the best you can. Moonbin no matter what showed off kindness and held Arohas close to his heart. He loved Astro so much and always showed off his love to his members and to the fans. I'm still processing this whole thing and I sound like I'm rambling but I just need to get my feelings out because I'm having a hard time with this. I can't imagine what Moonbin's family and friends are going through. I kept watching Moon Sua with Moonbin and just how much she looked up to him and the love they shared between each other. The reason she became an idol was because of her older brother. I'm sending prayers and healing in this time to everyone affected and especially to his family and friends. Please just send love to each other

[ddoxhan]

all I wanna do

like a rain shower in midsummer, I need you cuz all I wanna do is be with you

word count : 5.3k words

genre : fluff revolving around two goofballs; scriptwriter! ningning x office worker! reader; experiencing a disastrous date won't stop you from planning the best date for the love of your life

t/w : none :)

a/n : a light-hearted, playful date with ms ning yizhuo! imagine her laughters throughout the entire thing and just seeing how happy she is being with you 🤍 I love this baby so much :') anyways enjoy !!

outfit? check. water bottles? check. portable fan? check. power bank? check. umbrella? check. snacks for your pretty girlfriend? check. after that disastrous date with yizhuo last time, you were traumatized hence the over-the-board preparation for today's date with her. you had planned a lot of events for the day, hoping that she would be surprised with how you made sure things were to go according to plan. her reactions are just the cutest and no one can tell you otherwise.

regardless of whether it was going to rain, or if you lose her in a crowd as her phone dies, or if she gets incredibly hungry that she's in the mood to murder you. yes, that was how the entire date went the last time when you two headed for a mini concert in the outskirts. just thinking about it again sent chills down your spine. never again, you thought.

as you take a step out of your apartment, that annoying ringtone informed you of who the caller was.

"yeah, babe?"

'on the way? or you just woke up and getting ready to throw on just anything?'

"missy, I'm slaying my fit of the year. and yes, I'm on my way. maybe in another thirty minutes?"

'okay, missy. sounds good to me, see you then babe!'

"love you."

'love you too!'

her voice got softer, as usual walking away from her phone to do her own things. she usually lets you end the call, either you'd end it while chuckling at her antics or listening a little longer to hear her humming a song that's on her 36th spotify playlist.

the sun was shining, the clouds were fluffy, and the bus just passed by the stop before heading for yours. was it more than enough time for you to make it? sure, but, that was if you ran for it. you were definitely not waiting for the next one that was going to be in the next 15 minutes.

the run wasn't too bad, giving you a chance to try out your new pair of sneakers. definitely not made for running, but they were sure looking amazing with your outfit. yizhuo had gotten them for you when you had finished that torturing physics paper one semester ago but you couldn't get yourself to wear them. she insisted that you wore it after she saw them in a new display box you got for it when she slept over after spending hours playing animal crossing with you.

'jagi, didn't I get those for you?'

'yep.'

'wear them when we go on a date next week.'

'but-'

'no buts.'

so that was how you were striding in these slides. they made you a little taller, which was the perfect height to pull yizhuo into a hug and rub your head on her hair. she hated those the most, but you love the scent of her vanilla shampoo, calming and soothing. as you stared out the bus window from your seat, your lips naturally curled into a smile as you reminisced those times when you and her took the bus home during your uni days.

when you had shared social law with her, you always took the bus with her after classes at the end of the day. you had known that she lived a little further from campus instead of the dorms and you happened to also take the same bus line as she did. acquaintances bloomed into friends, and you took your friendship with her to the next stage when you confessed that you saw her as more than a friend. you were the happiest girl alive when she said that she felt the same too.

when you had graduated with your psychology degree and her with her communication degree, that was when you found out that yizhuo had not lived three bus stops away from yours. and that was also when she had found out that you lived two bus stops before where she supposedly lived. in summary, you were two idiots thinking that you guys were so smart for trying to fool each other.

she did indeed live in the campus dorm, but just got down the stop where her friend lived at, in a way using her as an excuse to spend more time with you. you on the other hand, did similarly to spend more time with her by pretending that you got off at the next stop after hers. for four months straight, you had took a whole trip around the neighbourhood each time you had social law.

till this day, this was still something that you and her would bring up and laugh about at how stupid you two were. but you didn't complain, you were stupid in love with her.

a ring on yizhuo's doorbell was enough to make her frown from finishing her favourite shampoo to smiling as it indicated that her huggable human was by the door. when she swung the door open, she was surprised to find you with a bouquet of crocheted pink tulips and a puffy tote bag. first, you hated tote bags because you were afraid of forgetting them on your seat. second, what occasion was it for the flowers?

"hello, girlfriend."

"hello to you too. what's with the flowers?"

a toothy grin was all it took to convince that it wasn't a special occasion that she knew, but rather one that you wanted to celebrate because, you just wanted to.

"it's 520 days since we've started dating. so yeah, happy 520!"

"and here I thought that I had forgotten our anniversary or something."

"well, it's still something to celebrate about."

if yizhuo had her clumsy and quirky antics, you had your puppy-like and unpredictable antics. it wasn't once or twice that you had showed up to her front door with tulips or roses, be it real or fake, or crocheted. or that one time you had a spur in the moment and made her beef wellington for lunch. you didn't even like cooking that much.

'I saw this recipe and I thought you would like it a lot!' as she quotes from you.

but none of that can stop her from loving you more as each day went by. the good morning and good night texts were a must and meeting up at least once every day was the base, whether it be face-to-face or through facetime. as much as she could feel her fatigue from her day fade away when she saw that smile of yours, so did you when you heard that laughter of hers when you crack a joke.

"thank you, babe. I like it a lot."

she tiptoed to press a little peck on your cheek, which led to that big ass grin on your face and your tail would have wagged hard like a helicopter, if you had one. seeing your usual reaction, yizhuo went back to her room to proceed getting ready for the day. oh, did you mention that she looks amazing even when she had her hair up in a messy bun, and the most worn out, comfortable home clothes? yeah, now you know.

as you took your spot on the couch, it didn't take her longer than 20 minutes to be in the cutest outfit for your anticipated outing. the opening of her bedroom door prompted you to stand by the shoe rack and put your shoes on.

"ready?"

"mhm."

after you leaving her place, she naturally headed over to the bus stop while you stepped further from it, making her confused at the way you had a mischievous smile on your face. you walked over to her and dragged her along to the nearest car rental shop, rendering her further confusion.

leaving her at the entrance for a bit, you returned while twirling a shiny key with a far too recognizable logo printed on it,

"I knew we were going to the aquarium, but you didn't mention anything about driving there. when did you even have a driver's license?"

"well, surprise."

driving wasn't a practical option since you lived four bus stops away from your now alma mater. public transportation was a pain in the ass during before and after work peak hours but that was more worth than paying for the parking fee. that included having not told yizhuo about your driving capabilities.

your campus was practically in the middle of the city where most necessities were within public transportation reach. it didn't really matter if you had a car or not cause that was how convenient travelling for stuff was. if there was a need for a car, you would just ask minjeong for hers since she drives. even now, you could get to your job without a car, and you only head to office 3 days a week.

"and you rented a BMW?"

"yes?"

the look on her face darkened further as she couldn't comprehend your spending tendencies. you weren't a thrifty douchebag, so this was really a firsthand experience of you being willing to spend so much when there were cheaper options.

"please tell me you're joking. this could easily cost you half of your monthly salary for a day."

"okay okay, yes, I'm joking."

"thank god."

" but I did buy a kawasaki though."

yizhuo's jaw could not drop further as you said those seven words. she couldn't even form words, let alone sentences.

"wha- huh- you- eh?"

"come on, I got a second hand one so it's a lot cheaper. and it was a snatch with its low mileage."

the whole ride to the aquarium was just her bombarding you with questions on why you decided to get a motorcycle, when did you get your driver's license and a whole lot more. the entire ride there. though you weren't annoyed, you found it adorable that she wanted to know more. you being down bad was an understatement, you were just so in love with her that you don't see any chance of you getting back from being down bad.

you sure didn't need a second hand kawasaki to get to work considering the many reasons that would have stopped you from getting it. but there was one extremely big reason to get it that surpass every other. it was yizhuo. at the end of every day where you would drop by her place to spend time together, she would tell you about the things she encountered on the way home on the train, be it good or bad.

you were content with listening to how she would coo at the children and babies she saw, but grimaced at some things she would witness that you don't even want to reiterate. just then you thought, maybe you should get a vehicle to fetch yizhuo after work. as a scriptwriter, the expectation to get things done by her deadlines were brutal, from your nine-to-five job perspective. at times, she would finish past dinner hours and leave the broadcasting station with slumping shoulders while you waited for her at a nearby cafe to have dinner together after she clocks out. it always made a part of your heart ache a little when she drapes her body over you, with her basking in your scent.

she had always reassured you that she would feel her energy pick up when she spots you at your usual spot waiting. and even more so when she hugs you, as if you were her human energizer. but to imagine the days that you wouldn't be there, it was the right decision to get a vehicle for her to relax in after work on the way home. regardless of whether it was this nice BMW or the kawasaki you got, you get to accompany her back home while she talks about her day at the broadcasting station.

to head home together after a long day and lay in her arms on the couch while watching a movie was always your dream. usually her housemates would be around and it wasn't that comfortable to have the whole living room to yourselves. you would either leave after dropping her off or you would spend some time in her room for a while since she would reason that you have work the next day. one day, you would get a house together with her and make that dream a reality. one day.

"for me? this nice ass bike because you wanted me to get home safe?"

"yep."

she looked at you in disbelief, worried that the cost of this damn bike would put a hole in your wallet while you had a sheepish smile knowing exactly what she had in mind.

"I know it sounds crazy but trust me, I've planned this for a long time."

"how long?"

"roughly 5 years."

as yizhuo mentally counted, she figured that that was when you were still freshmen back in university. although she was flattered by the fact that you fell for her since then, she couldn't help but feel bad. and you knew she would from the way her smile fell a little, just enough for you to be able to tell.

"don't feel bad babe. I did say it's for you, but it's also for me, for us. it's a lot better than having to squeeze into the train and having body odour rubbed all over my face."

the joke managed to lift her mood as she giggles at the way she could relate too. well, you could say that this kawasaki was a dream motorcycle that you've had your eye on for some time now too. her hand reached over to yours on the gear stick, her eyes looking into yours, feeling that she was the luckiest girlfriend on earth.

"you're welcome, and let's go see those penguins, shall we?"

"welcome to underwater haven, ladies and gentlemen, boys and girls! I will be your guide today, so make sure to remember how I look like. you wouldn't wanna get lost and bump into the polar bear."

the crowd laughed at the humor of the male guide, before following to enter into the aquarium for the day.

in one hand, was your professional camera to capture the beauty of the animals (as well as your girlfriend), and yizhuo's hand intertwined with yours in the other. although she was more fond of furry animals in the petting zoos, she absolutely loved the way your eyes would sparkle when you tell her about your favourite aquatic animals that even she had managed to remember by now. you looked like an excited child jumping around and she just wants to give you all the kisses that you deserved for being so cute.

"oh! that's the angelfish. isn't it such a nice shade of pastel blue? and the way they just look so pretty."

"yes yes, very pretty."

and her gaze was just fixated on your smile that hasn't fell ever since you stepped foot in here. she couldn't give a damn about all these fishes that looked the same to her. all it did was make her crave for some good sushi, but she shall not talk about that while you're here. maybe in the next few days, she should bring it up. for now, she would enjoy this aquarium date.

"did you have fun?"

"mhm. did you? weren't you bored a little halfway?"

"I mean yeah but when I look over to you, wow best day ever."

you shot yizhuo a glare before relaxing when you knew that she had eyes only for you.

"I love you too."

that sheepish smile on her face made you chuckle at the way you found it cute, realization for the nth time that you would never be able to win against her. be it her random rendezvous at odd hours or cheeky remarks like this.

"so where would lunch be, ms. 'I have a BMW now so we can go anywhere we want'?"

she's just not gonna let you breathe huh?

"well, it is a thursday today. so you know what that means."

"the bazaar!"

the first time she found out about the bazaar, she had always gone there either alone since her friend had clashing schedules or would resort to the cafeteria food which she disliked a little. after knowing you through social law, she deciced to persuade you to accompany her there.

'you mean be your chaperone?'

'I wouldn't put it that way, think of it that you're there as my food mate.'

it was a weekly food bazaar that happened at the city square, filled with all kinds of food from all around the world. yizhuo was always down to try anything that was edible, while you were just there to be with her as you didn't fancy trying new things.

'come on! try this, the vendor said it's glutinous rice cooked in a bamboo tube.'

'it looks questionable.'

but to be honest, it did taste good. while she had a habit of ordering a variety to try, she wouldn't hesitate to share it with her friends, encouraging them to head to the bazaar to try out too. when you looked back and thought about it, she was also helping out the local businesses that had a hard time. she tried to deny, giving you the reason that they had better food that whatever the cafeteria served. however, you would notice each time you stood by her while she talked to the vendors. the way her eyes fold into crescents, truly grateful that they were doing great.

as you spent more time with her throughout your days, you harbored feelings for her and they just grew out of control when you would malfunction from being around her. you were there once as an acquaintance, now you were back there again, as her girlfriend. wow, thinking about it made you feel overwhelmed.

"are you sure we're able to finish this?"

"if we can't, we could bring it over for minjeong."

"I'm pretty sure she would be too full from lunch with jimin. you know how those two are."

"well, I guess this is all for us!"

just watching yizhuo enjoy the food in front of her made you feel as if you had ate. if your girlfriend was happily full, then so were you. at some point, the vendors didn't change often, and they soon became permanent at the bazaar, being able to find a crowd of customers for themselves. you didn't remember how it happened, but when yizhuo would always recommend it to the people around her, you knew who it was because of.

"what? is there anything on my face?"

your gentle gaze had her rub the sides of her mouth, then her cheeks. full of food while she mumbles, it was just a sight too adorable. you succeeded at holding back your urge to squeeze her cheeks, or you would end up with a flick on your forehead.

"nothing, you just look really pretty."

"thank you, but I can't tell if you're being sarcastic cause I am stuffing my face full of food right now."

"nothing beats a happy girlfriend who loves her food. and it's cute."

extending a hand over to clear that sauce stain on the corner of her mouth, you looked so lovesick, it almost made the people at the table on the right gag. what did single people do to be punished like this?

you would only cut it out with the lovey dovey eyes when yizhuo made sure that you were eating enough unlike when you were in your final year. that final year research paper had you lose 5kg throughout the journey and you wish to not experience that ever again. sleep was an option and so was food. if it wasn't for her threatening to have your meals properly or she would not see you again, you would have probably fainted at least twice that year.

so now, you have a wonderful girlfriend and a stomach full of good food. the day was going spectacularly smooth without any problems. but you spoke too soon when the sun had set and night had came.

after the bazaar lunch, you were to drive to a restaurant by the beach that yizhuo had really wanted to try but didn't insist on going as it was far. since you had rented a car, it was only right to bring her there. before night would fall, it would have been perfect to enjoy the sunset by the time you would have arrived considering the journey.

that was until the car started to smoke on the front all of a sudden. pulling over to the side of the road, you had to call for help from the nearest car repair shop to send a tow truck. you weren't going to risk driving there despite it being a short distance, not with her in the car.

as the tow truck arrived along with another car, you thanked the foreman for offering to drive you two to your destination when he couldn't get you a spare car. nevertheless, you managed to reach just in time to sit by the beach to admire the sunset with yizhuo. that was before it got windy and droplets of rain turned into a downpour.

"why is it always like this whenever we decide to go out for dates?"

she was feeling a little down from the mishaps from the car to the downpour. to be frank, you were too, since you had hoped that the date ended perfectly since she had looked forward to it a lot. although she didn't verbally express her excitement, you could tell from the way she had already put together an outfit for the day a week before and marked the date on her calendar with a big red circle and hearts around it.

"babe, things happen. plus it was my fault that I didn't check the car properly before today."

"it's not your fault, like you said things happen. just why on our dates..."

you were half soaked from the rain even with an umbrella. as you sought shelter at nearby shop, yizhuo wasn't soaked as much because you had wrapped yourself over her to make sure she didn't. that also made her a little more upset as she was scared you would get sick because of her. on the brighter side, you were at a vintage shop where they had quite a collection of film cameras. you had to take the opportunity to get one from here before you left. but first, back to making your girlfriend feel better.

"hey hey, babe. look at me."

you placed your hands on her cheeks and made her face you, squishing them a little. around her colleagues, she was competent and very professional when dealing with the producers and directors at her workplace. but when she comes home and relaxes around you, she would turn into a small little kitten that needed her favourite human pillow. just like how you had her pouting and leaning into your hands.

"things don't have to always go as planned. it's best if it did, but now that it didn't. we're here at this vintage shop and it looks like there's a lot of stuff to explore around here."

"sure we missed the sunset for a little, but we stumbled upon this place."

and with that, your girlfriend was back to her normal self.

"okay, but promise me you're not going to get too many things. nothing else is going to fit that glass case."

"yes, ma'am."

giving her a tiny salute and a cheeky smile, it was another mission success of making the best out of a (sorta) ruined date.

"I did mention not to get too many things, but you did get something that was very expensive."

"but it does take really good film pictures. plus, a good camera to fit the most beautiful model in the world."

yizhuo scoffed at the compliment but couldn't help but blush a little. thankfully, the downpour had come to a stop, only a small drizzle remained.

as you headed towards the restaurant that you had made reservation for, you couldn't help but feel super lucky at that moment as the sky was still lit and the ambience of the waves hitting the shore, as well as the drizzle adding its touch. along with the beautiful sight of her while her hair is blown by the wind, that gorgeous smile making you fall for her all over again.

arriving there, you were brought to your reserved table before ordering whatever she wanted on the menu. the wait wasn't too long, which was good as it was quite eventful before this meal. as you indulged in the local delicacies, you couldn't help asking yizhuo if she was in for some alcohol. and knowing her, she wouldn't pass on the offer.

you only drank a little as you would still need to drive back, as the foreman had mentioned that it wouldn't take till the next day to fix the car. just as you wrapped up your fulfilling meal, your phone rang, indicating the caller to be the foreman.

"yes, mr. lee. is the car done?"

"I'm very sorry miss, but I've called to inform you that we've come across another problem from the engine as we looked into it earlier. we would need another day for it as we are closing soon."

"ohh... umm... alright then. we'll look around for somewhere to stay for the time being. thank you very much."

hearing how you would need to look for somewhere to stay and seeing that apologetic smile plastered on your lips, yizhuo just knew that the plans for the day had changed for third time.

"we need to look for a motel?"

"hey! you don't need to put it that way."

the ends of your ears started burning a little as you hid your face in your hands, trying to lower the rising temperature of your cheeks. her word choice had caught you very off guard while she remained calm.

"it is what it is. plus, we could get separate rooms so why so shy?"

she was definitely having a great time teasing you.

you managed to find a decent place after asking the locals. but being there on the weekends only meant that there was no such things as vacancy. however, you still decided to shoot your shot, praying for two rooms.

"we've got only one room left, with a single bed."

and you definitely didn't expect that shot to miss entirely. it was better than no rooms at all, and it meant using the same room as yizhuo. you had to repeat that to yourself several times to fully register what you had heard. number 1, you had not slept over at her place before as you didn't want her housemates to feel uncomfortable with your unfamiliar presence. number 2, it would only be you and her in a room. nothing would probably happen, given that you would be sleeping on the couch.

"where are you going?"

"to sleep...?"

drying your hair with the provided towel, you glanced over to your girlfriend who already dried her hair and changed into a set of pajamas that you had got from a nearby shop. you were in a similar one with a different color, reminding you too much of what married couples would usually where in dramas. 'enough!', you thought.

as much as you wanted to wake the next morning in your arms, you held yourself back as it might make her uneasy. what if she's not used to sharing the bed with someone? what if she thinks it would be hot? what if you snore? what if―

before you could complete all the possible scenarios from overthinking, yizhuo stretched out her arms, telling you to hug her. and so you did. as you fell for her temptation, she pulled you in closer to make you fall onto the bed. as she leaned over to place her lips on yours, your brain short-circuited with too many things happening at once. pulling away, all she saw was a shocked puppy speechless and thoughtless.

"you good?"

"huh?"

"were you going to sleep on the couch?"

"yeah..."

it was as if you lost your ability to speak because all you could do was nod or give short answers to her questions. well, you were being considerate for your girlfriend in case she didn't want to share the bed with you and you were more than willing to let her have the bed for herself. after all, the bed wasn't the biggest and it was just fitting for two people, no more, no less. but she didn't mind at all.

"why when we could just sleep together?"

you hit her a few times for her choice of words and she just wondered what she said so wrong. 'sleep together', technically you were going to sleep together but not sleep together. there was a difference, but you were just being overly sensitive from the way that your body was in close proximity with yizhuo.

it wasn't like you didn't cuddle with her before in the living room while watching dramas and movies. it wasn't like you didn't hug her every single time you would leave by the end of the day. it wasn't like she wasn't already clingy and always finding an excuse to stick right next to you, be it be holding hands or just pulling you into a bear hug. but why was this time so different just because it was on a bed?

"you could take this as practice before we get married in the future."

right, that was why it made you so fidgety and anxious like a teenage girl who was in love with her first love. true enough, she was your first love, if you were to minus out the short fling back in high school that wasn't even a relationship nor situationship.

your relationship had not even turned 2 years old and yizhuo already had confidence in that you would marry her when the time comes. and she was darn right that you would. that day just sealed the deal where you definitely couldn't see yourself spending the rest of your life with someone else other than her.

the way she would enjoy your rants about sea animals that she couldn't care less, the way she reminds you about spending too much, the way she held your hand throughout the whole date.

although she wasn't interested in the many species of fishes that you knew, she didn't complain about it and just enjoyed how you were ecstatic about them. she would nag you a little about getting too many vintage cameras when you wouldn't even use some of them, but she knew that every single one you've bought had at least taken one picture of her. she knew that physical affection wasn't your way of expression where gift giving and words of affirmation was, she made sure that you felt hers.

just like this very moment, you could feel it through the way her gaze bores into your eyes, letting you know that she loved you as much as you did for her, if not more.

"okay, if you say so, wifey."

"oh? already agreeing to the proposal?"

"no way, I will be the one proposing to you in the best way possible when that day comes."

"but does that mean you want to marry me?"

yizhuo was glad to see how you snapped out of your trance with the playful banter between you and her. not only that, your string of thoughts had brought you to a conclusion that sounded like the best one to your life story.

"yes, ms. ning yizhuo. I would love to marry you."

"cause all I wanna do is be with you."

[kim3jeon1min1park1jung1-bts]

A moment of silence please.

It's a really sad day for all of us Kpop fans. We lost another kind and talented soul today. Astro Moonbin passed away at just the age of 25. I’m not an Aroha, but I’m moved to tears while writing this.. My thoughts and prayers go out to all of Moonbin’s family and friends right now. My heart is truly breaking. Sua, Sanha, Jinjin, MJ, Rocky, Eunwoo, Seungkwan, SinB, Chanwoo, his family, we’re all thinking of you. I hope people will give them privacy in order to grieve on the loss of such a beautiful and smiling soul.

Kpop idols are humans. They have emotions just like us. Please be kind to them. Please don't post hate under the name of personal opinion, you don't know what they are going through behind their smiles. It doesn't harm you in being a little bit kinder. Please be kinder and respect them and their privacy.

I don't know what situations he had to go through until it finally came on this point. Even today, i just saw one of his videos where he was smiling with such a beautiful smile.

My condolences to his family members, his friends and to Aroha's. I can't even imagine the pain they are going through. I'm not an Aroha, but he and his songs really did comfort me. I was shocked when I read in Google that he passed away. And I'm still in shock that we lost such a gem.

Please be kinder.

May his soul rest in Peace 🕊️ i hope he is happy wherever he is 🙏🏽

[skzcoffeemachine]

Darling..

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a/n : moonbin (may his soul rest in peace) was actually one of my earliest bias. And this is not me romanticising the whole unfortunate accident. I just wish to be there for Chan, parasocially, delusionally, whatever works.

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“it's believed that the young idol passed out and his phone was on the floor, broken..”

You turned off the YouTube video you clicked on, expecting some truth to come out behind the passing, but ofc it was the internet with speculations abound.

Astro was the first group that got you into kpop, and the demise had affected you but not as much as it had affected your boyfriend.

“hey.. ”

He sounds weak.

“Hey.. ”, you smiled softly but his head was hung too low to notice. You knew what was affecting him. But cannot even start to imagine what must be going through his head. Just the thought makes your eyes well up.

I wish your pain was mine.

You watched as he trudged over to his desk, sitting down, laptop opened, trying to drown himself into his work.

You realise the least you could do was to help him eat. He has not ate properly in days, chugging down energy drinks, something out of character for Chan. But he needed energy to appear reliable in front of his kids. Earlier in the day, you had called Chan's mom to learn her curry recipe. It was ready, on the stove, piping hot.

It has also been days since he smiled in front of you. True, he force smiles when he's out and about. He did not have to pretend , in front of you. And you preferred it that way.

As much as you wanted to go up to him and kiss his worries away, you knew better . Instead, you went straight to the bathroom and started prepping a warm bath.

He recently bought bath bombs to try, but neither of you really knew the best way to enjoy it. So, you earlier asked Hyunjin about it. Time to apply it practically. You added some epsom salts, known to relieve stress. Then, dropped the bath bomb, which started fuzzing up into the colours of the galaxy. Next step was to dim the lights. You smiled to yourself. The mood lighting in the bathroom was a great idea on your part. Now it was the harder part. You silently draw up cue cards in your head to chain the perfect sentences , something that might help him.

“Chan.. ” his eyes looked up to you when you put your hands on his shoulders. “Come”.

He was probably too tired to retaliate or even say no. You gently tugged on his hoodie, signalling him to take it off. He stripped down, quite lazily, his eyes glued on the floor the whole time. You gulped down tears. How can you bear to see someone you love like this?

You guided him to the bathtub. He slid into the water until he was immersed upto his neck. You sat besides the tub, helping him place his head comfortably against the edge.

“baby, can I wash your hair? It will feel good”, you said in a whisper. He hummed in response. You stood up to bring out your shampoo from the cabinet. You remembered how he said your shampoo relaxes him whenever he was feeling less than ideal.

You were not the slightest bit alarmed or shocked by the sound of small sniffles that come from him as you detangle as gently as possible.

You silently and delicately wipe some tears from his eyes. 

“Darling.. ” you whispered, “it was not your fault”.

That was what he needed to hear. Enough for silent sniffles to evolve into hoarse sobs. Enough to finally break you too.

It was not the first time he had cried in front of you. Yet, it had never been like this. As far as you knew this man, you know his soul and how he takes the blame for everything bad that goes in his loved one's life. He had been working on it. It was getting better.

“I ..Should..Have been there”, he cried out in between sobs.

“y/n..what must be his family going through? His members? His sister?” he was shaking so much that you had to get into the water waist deep, with your clothes on, to hug him tight.

As his face buried in your chest, tears staining the sweater darker, he let it all out, everything he had been holding on inside himself. You hugged him tighter as he clung on the fabric in a failed attempt of control.

“Chan.. Chan.. Look at me.. Look..”

You held his reddened face in both hands.

“Breathe.. Baby”

He obeyed, although it was getting progressively difficult for him, from all the tears.

“Chan.. ”, you drew small circles on his cheek with your thumb, “you know..you have always been there, for us, for them, even for people you haven't meet yet. ”

For the first moment in what felt like forever, he held eye contact. His eyes was swollen, more than his morning kind of swollen, more than you have ever seen before.

“But what if one of you was going through the same thing.. And what if I failed to be there.. ” he spoke what was in his mind the whole time, mustering up courage.

To that, you smiled. “Well.. You have given us so much love and hope and strength . You have even saved millions with Channie's room. You just don't know it yet”.

And that was the truth.

His sigh was of relief to you. It hurts. He will hurt. But also it was extremely important for him to realise how loved he was, how he was helping millions out there.

The silence was disrupted by a growl. Your stomach. Perfect timing, dear tummy. He let out a small laugh. That was the sound of angels to you. “Let's have dinner, hmm? ”, you took the chance to ensure he has his proper meal in days. “How can I say no to that cute tummy? ", he quipped, rubbing your belly violently but teasingly,both of your giggles resounding through the bathroom walls.

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A/n : is it peaceful there, moonbin? Rest well. Thank you for everything. 6