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astereux · 5 months

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Birthday boy <3

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soukokucchi · 2 years

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Liminal Space

“This is so stupid,” Chuuya exclaims, carelessly throwing his papers on the nightstand before plopping himself down on the bed and shaking his limbs as if he is a child throwing a tantrum over his math homework (which is pretty much accurate except for the fact that literature is his own brand of math, and he only has himself to blame). At this point, he would rather study derivatives and integrals for this semester than analyze whatever the fuck Haruki Murakami has going on in his short story. "I don't understand anything!"

Fate is a cruel bitch, is it not? No sane person would trade a 100% perfect love for a chance to give fate a middle finger because they are stupid enough to doubt this so-called cosmic miracle.

“Was it really all right for one’s dreams to come true so easily?” Chuuya mutters in disbelief, remembering the most obnoxious line from Murakami’s story, and subsequently blaming himself for choosing this story rather than the works of Hiromi Kawakami or Kyoko Nakajima. “Fuck you, past Chuuya and your desire to please people!”

Or, maybe, he simply couldn't understand the doubt that led the boy and the girl to take such an unnecessary test to find out if they are truly 100% perfect lovers. (Sometime, somewhere, they will meet again, right? Because that is what it means to be 100% perfect for each other.) Maybe, he should not rely on novels that only taught him happy endings and never the tragic endings—the tales of unspoken words and heroes losing the battle and more than that.

Maybe, he needs to learn about this silly thing called love—how an ordinary person can make him feel light and unburdened even after years of feeling like lost baggage waiting to be picked up by anyone who looks at him enough to care. Maybe, he could find him too on one beautiful April morning, wearing the ugliest pair of pajamas and sporting eye bags from sleepless nights, but he would still find him beautiful.

(Maybe, if he is not afraid to make choices, someone would choose him too.)

Chuuya is 15 when he wishes for a "once upon a time." He wants that fairytale-like story—the "I know you, I walked with you once upon a dream" or the "all at once everything is different now that I see you." And of course, he wants that "happily ever after" because who doesn't want to get the prince and the castle in the end, right? Who doesn't want that true love's kiss?

(Years later, he meets "a sad story, don't you think?" in the form of Dazai Osamu.)

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(Companion Art by astereux)

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astereux · 2 years

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