#ash is mushy... read with caution

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                    ❝  2020... the year that felt like a fuckin decade. ❞

That being said, I thought I’d take the time to stop and take a breather. Reflect on some lovely people who have made 2020 at least a little bit brighter for me. I love all of you, know this before I go any further and get into it. I’m gonna do my best to get everyone, but if you’re not on here... doesn’t mean I hate you so please don’t think that. Also, these are not in alphabetical order and for that, I apologize...Kinda. I rambled, so just to keep this post from stretching out the dash, I’ll be a good girl and put a read more.

Also, why yes.. Yes I did post this two whole ass days before 2021. I am.. that ready for 2020 to be over if I’m being perfectly honest and I’m praying that 2021 is better than 2020 was because 2020 was a whole ass bitch. We all know that though.. anyway... enough rambling.

@micolegg​ I love you so, so, so much. And words cannot express how proud I am of you because you not only saw a need for a fic you wanted to read, you went out there and you wrote it and it was fucking brilliant, okay? I hope you keep writing, because you have serious talent. I love talking to you and listening to you tell me about your family always makes me smile. I’m glad you’re happy. I’m so glad I met you and I truly hope we continue to be friends, because you’ve always been there for me and I don’t think you realize just how much that means to me.

@wardl0w​ J, i love you. I love you with my whole ass. I’d say heart, but my ass is bigger lol. I love your fics too, you have this amazing talent with capturing scenes and describing them in a way I know I honestly cannot... and I think from like.. The second conversation we had, I was happy because it felt like I found a kindred spirit. We’ve been friends forever now and I honestly hope that never changes! P.S.. You can have the sequoia, I’ll take the idiot boy toy with ridiculous fashion sense. We can split Trent? Seems fair, yeah? ( We both know I’m only sharing Trent because I’m greedier with Mox, lmaooo.) I know you’ll protest this when I say it, but you’re such a sweet person, don’t bother denying it. You put up with my fuckery in the DMS and that means the world to me. You have been a huge support this past year, i honestly don’t know what I’d do if I didn’t have you to talk to.

@andie01​ i’m so glad we met. you’ve been an amazing friend. i love that you don’t talk me out of my dumb fuckery -we both KNOW it is half the time, don’t lie, lmaooo.  I’m so happy for you, and I’m so proud to call you my friend. You’re always making me laugh or smile and I just wanted you to know that if you ever need to talk or vent, I’m here for you. Also, I miss your writing because I was addicted to your a/overse fic, you have no idea. Love you!

@kayah16​ It has been an actual blessing to get to talk to you, dear. I love you lots. Your posts make me smile and you’re such a sweetheart. I truly hope that you’re doing well and that you have a great year. I hope that you know you’ve always made me smile and laugh and you’re just such a sweet and open hearted person that I feel like getting to talk to you when I do is an actual gift. You say that you’re not a writer and that your writing isn’t good. You’re wrong. It’s good. I like reading the things you post. And keeping up with those threads you’ve been doing on the dash. Thank you for being you.

@schizoauthoress​ we just recently started to talk and I love you so so much. I enjoy our talks, because even if we don’t share the same view, I come away enlightened and I love it when that happens. You’re an amazing person, okay? You have a big heart and a good sense of humor and you’re always making me smile, even when some days I don’t feel like smiling. I hope we continue to be friends. I’m always here for you if you need me or want to talk, I hope you know that by now.

@missjenniferb​ ahhh i love you. and it’s so great to see the things you tag me in, you don’t know how many days you’ve tagged me in something and I saw it and it made my day infinitely better. I’m lucky to call you a friend and I love your sense of humor. You’re always making me smile or laugh. I hope you know how much I enjoy talking to you / your posts. I wish I was an artist like you because you’re really good. If I could do it, I’d totally kidnap Dean Winchester and give him to you, by the way. I call dibs on Moose though. :) I love you! 

@chasingeverybreakingwave​ Loni, bb... ahhh, where do I even begin? You’re always making me laugh. And thirst. A lot. I love that I can joke with you and you’ll give it right back. I enjoy every single one of our talks and I’m always so happy to see you on my dash. Heel hoes for life, ftw. I haven’t forgotten, bb. I won’t ever forget.

@helluvawriter​ You’re such a sweetheart and I love you. You were one of the first people in the wrestling fandom I talked to way back when and I remember being blown away when you started talking to me because I’m like... Holy shit, they want to talk to me, an actual idiot? I hope that one day, if I grow up lmao, I’m like you. Never change, bb. Also, you’ve made me like fandoms that I know nothing about, you have this way of making your writing so emotional that like ahhhh.. It’s so good. So good.

@vonschweetz​ even though we don’t get to talk much anymore, I still love you. You’re like the kid sister I never had? And I’m still so very proud of you, the way you’re taking life by the horns and making shit happen. You’ve been through a lot, so to see you blooming like you are is a joy. Keep going forward. I know you’re going to make everything your heart desires come true.

@rampagewriting​ bb, I love you. I love your sense of humor and you’re an actual sweetheart, okay? Like with von above.. I truly do feel like you’re a sister to me. I’m so happy that your life is going great and that things are working themselves out for you at last and I’m so very proud of you. You’re an amazing and creative person and I always have fun talking to/ yelling with/ thirsting with you. You’ve actually been a huge source of comfort to me this past year, btw. I know I haven’t ever really said as much, but you have. And I hope that you know I’m always here for you.

@champbucks​ , you’re the kindest soul. I love how I can go to you with literally anything and not feel like I’m bothering the shit out of you. I’m so glad you wound up on the same discord server I’m in. I truly enjoy our talks / venting / thirsting sessions. I really hope we continue to be friends because honestly, our talks have really brightened my days. If you ever just need to vent or rant, I’m always around.

@cowboyshit​ Doe.. Sweet Doe... My name twin. You have the sweetest and biggest heart. You have helped me through a lot this past year, I don’t think you know how much. Just having somebody that gets how it feels when the bad brain weasels kick in to talk to. I hope you realize that if you ever need me, I’m here. I wish I had half your talent in gif making and writing because every time I read something you wrote / see a gif set you made, I am blown away like... Holy shit. I think my decision to fall head over heels for a certain blue eyed cowboy had some amazing results, becoming friends with you was honestly one of them. I love how accepting you are and the way you stick up for people. There should be more people like you in the world, I’m being totally serious.

@kyleoreillysknee​ lemon, i loooooove you. I also blame you because I now love Kyle O’Reilly and a certain citrus guy from AEW. But I don’t mind at all. Getting to know you has been a joy and you crack me up. I love talking to you and I really hope we continue to be friends. I’ve been so happy to get to know you and I’m so proud of you, okay? 

@adampage​ Emi! I know we don’t get to talk much at all anymore. I just wanted to tell you I love you and I’m so so so so glad you asked me to join in the hangman gang. Because if you hadn’t, we might not have spoken and that’d be sad. You’re such a sweet and caring person. I’m glad I got to know you and I hope that we get to talk more at some point. Your gifs and your posts always make me smile and I’m always so happy when I see you online. 

@tetsuyainthesky​ dirt.. wife.. It kinda feels like we are two ships passing in the night. But honestly, I have enjoyed talking to you when we have gotten to talk. You’re a sweetheart and you always crack me up. I really hope we get to catch up at some point. I just wanted to tell you that I love you and you’re a sweetheart.

@hungmanhorsecarriage​ i just wanted to tell you that you’re a sweetheart. And I’ve liked talking to you, hope to talk to you more in the year coming. I know I haven’t been around / talkative that much but I enjoy talking to you and I think you’re so sweet. It makes me smile to see you on the dash, you just don’t know how much. I’m glad we started to talk because you’re hilarious and you make me smile.