#asgsgshs i really do use ellipses like a boomer lmao

[leahclearwaterdefensesquad]

you know it's funny because in a way, bella and edward are perfect for each other. so i kind of get bella x edward - because of how stephenie wrote their characters * - but in a more obvious way (in which i view the relationships through MY perspective and not bella's) i also don't. in the sense of the love triangle, i know i personally, with 100% certainty, would be much more favorable to jacob's down-to-earth brand of love and style than edward's rich white boy shit. (honestly it screams "i've never gotten my hands dirty a day in my life" which is so unattractive in a man imo but anyways). but ALSO - while i am "team jacob" (or as much as you can take a side all things considering), i just.... i realize that i wouldn't want bella to end up with jacob. like the bella in my head who is NOT written by smeyer would be meant for him, but the bella in canon whose very thoughts are influenced by how smeyer views Natives is..... uh uh. and tbh, while jacob could be a steadying, healthier choice for her, i don't necessarily see her being that for him at all. he helped pull her out of a bad place mentally in new moon, but she just got him embroiled so much deeper in the vampiric shit than he already was and (im not even trying to be harsh when i say this but) fucked up his life even further. so actually... for canon bella, i think i would want her to be gone with edward and let jacob live his damn life, even though ik im actually "team jacob".

* see panlight for more details