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host-gone-gay · 2 years ago

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TLDR; I thought I was a boy bec lil me didn't know basic biology apparently. Then realised later at age 12 that that's not the case and ignored it for a year until I got introduced to the LGBTQ+ community through the internet then denied the hell out of it until eventually, I came to terms with it and here we are :)

please reblog if you don’t mind! i would love as big a sample size as possible 🫶🫶

also I’m aware a-spec ppl can also be achillian or sapphic (I’m one myself) so just for the sake of the poll choose the one u realized first or feel most aligned with atm <3

#I thought i was a boy until the age of 12 so i never questioned my definitely-not-straight love for girls #the reason why i even thought i was a boy is bec lil me didn't know how gender works and just thought if someone acts a certain way that #aligned with my idea of what a “boy” or a “girl” meant then they must be that without even acknowledging the fact that that defies #everything I've ever learnt in science class #then at 12. i somehow discovered i wasn't. in fact. born male but my brain was like “yk what? this is a problem for another day” and #continued to ignore it for two more years until i was eventually introduced to the lgbtq+ community at 13 #brain decided to use common sense for once and was like “oh shit. thats you”#que a bunch of online “am i gay” tests and the 5 stages of grief later. denial being the longest stage to overcome. mind you #and now here we are now. im non-binary and i still have the same passion for women as my lil self 👍#im also demisexual. might be asexual. still figuring that out #proof reading this and realised i can't do 12+1 bec why the hell did i write “two years” ksjsnansn #maybe choosing a mainly math related field isn't a good idea after all lol #I'd also like to add that i go to an all girl's christian school and the fact that i still thought i was a boy despite that #is pretty dumb on lil me's behalf #but in my defense tho. i thought other classmates were boys too bec they acted the way i acted and my brain was like #“ah yes. that's a fine *human boy* there”#They're still in the same school as me and can confirm that they're not queer (as long as im aware)#still somehow would use she/her pronouns whenever we used to hang out even tho i saw them as boys ¯⁠\⁠_⁠(⁠ツ⁠)⁠_⁠/⁠¯#i have no idea how i got this far in life. trust me #however. i would try to sneakily use he/him pronouns when referring to myself (English isn't my first language and also. he/him and she/her #pronouns can be manipulated by a bit of unclear pronounciation to make them sound like you're using she/her but you're actually using he/him #or vice versa #as they sound pretty similar if you're not pronouncing them clearly enough #so that is my language exploit up until now bec im still closeted :)#i prefer they/them pronouns but since there's no such thing in my native language and it just sounds like you're talking about multiple #people and totally not the vibe and not exploitable like he/him amd she/her #i will have to settle for he/him pronouns when talking in my native language (⁠◡⁠ ⁠ω⁠ ⁠◡⁠)#which isn't that bad ngl. id take he/him pronouns over she/her any day #it appears that i have yet again overshared on the internet :)

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