#and now here we are now. im non-binary and i still have the same passion for women as my lil self đ
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TLDR; I thought I was a boy bec lil me didn't know basic biology apparently. Then realised later at age 12 that that's not the case and ignored it for a year until I got introduced to the LGBTQ+ community through the internet then denied the hell out of it until eventually, I came to terms with it and here we are :)
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also Iâm aware a-spec ppl can also be achillian or sapphic (Iâm one myself) so just for the sake of the poll choose the one u realized first or feel most aligned with atm <3
#I thought i was a boy until the age of 12 so i never questioned my definitely-not-straight love for girls#the reason why i even thought i was a boy is bec lil me didn't know how gender works and just thought if someone acts a certain way that#aligned with my idea of what a âboyâ or a âgirlâ meant then they must be that without even acknowledging the fact that that defies#everything I've ever learnt in science class#then at 12. i somehow discovered i wasn't. in fact. born male but my brain was like âyk what? this is a problem for another dayâ and#continued to ignore it for two more years until i was eventually introduced to the lgbtq+ community at 13#brain decided to use common sense for once and was like âoh shit. thats youâ#que a bunch of online âam i gayâ tests and the 5 stages of grief later. denial being the longest stage to overcome. mind you#and now here we are now. im non-binary and i still have the same passion for women as my lil self đ#im also demisexual. might be asexual. still figuring that out#proof reading this and realised i can't do 12+1 bec why the hell did i write âtwo yearsâ ksjsnansn#maybe choosing a mainly math related field isn't a good idea after all lol#I'd also like to add that i go to an all girl's christian school and the fact that i still thought i was a boy despite that#is pretty dumb on lil me's behalf#but in my defense tho. i thought other classmates were boys too bec they acted the way i acted and my brain was like#âah yes. that's a fine *human boy* thereâ#They're still in the same school as me and can confirm that they're not queer (as long as im aware)#still somehow would use she/her pronouns whenever we used to hang out even tho i saw them as boys ÂŻâ \â _â (â ăâ )â _â /â ÂŻ#i have no idea how i got this far in life. trust me#however. i would try to sneakily use he/him pronouns when referring to myself (English isn't my first language and also. he/him and she/her#pronouns can be manipulated by a bit of unclear pronounciation to make them sound like you're using she/her but you're actually using he/him#or vice versa#as they sound pretty similar if you're not pronouncing them clearly enough#so that is my language exploit up until now bec im still closeted :)#i prefer they/them pronouns but since there's no such thing in my native language and it just sounds like you're talking about multiple#people and totally not the vibe and not exploitable like he/him amd she/her#i will have to settle for he/him pronouns when talking in my native language (â âĄâ  â Ïâ  â âĄâ )#which isn't that bad ngl. id take he/him pronouns over she/her any day#it appears that i have yet again overshared on the internet :)
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lets get personal (but im answering now 4 funsies)
i wanted to make a question tag but feral and this is what i came up with. tag ur friends, tag ur enemies, but most importantly give me a kiss at ur earliest convenience.
1. say hi! :D (name/age/pronouns)
molly and 20 and she/her but i do not care if i am referred to w they/them pronouns either. i identify v strongly w femininity and also feel like a woman but also gender is not real and was invented by gender companies to sell more gender (and limiting something so complex to a binary scale is silly)!
2. whatâs your venus sign? <3
pisces </3 absolutely disgusting the way i gobble up a mere whiff of romance
3. would you rather people perceive you as the person you present to the world or your true self? are they the same?
person i present as i guess bc if i wanted to be seen as my true self then they would be the same :) but! i think they are merging more and more everyday. Â
4. what do you prioritize in your relationshipsâhow well someone treats you or how much you like them?
i think how well someone treats me. i like most people! so ive tried to prioritize healthy and loving relationships more recently.
5. whatâs the most embarrassing fanfic youâve ever read?
during a manic episode a couple months ago i logged on here very briefly for the first time in years and it happened to be when the supernatural finale came out. i have never seen a single episode, scene, or even a clip of supernatural and know nothing about it. but a famous 100k word spn fanfic came on my dash and i read the whole thing. whole time had no idea what actor played dean and what actor played castiel. still dont know which one goes to which. thats not my business.
6. would you rather be fluent in every language or a master of every instrument? if you could only pick one of each what would it be?
language! but one of each would be french and piano :^)
7. share some of your favorite characters!
mr. darcy, grendel, pompey the clown and isabella from measure for measure, hinata from haikyuu!!, ash from banana fish, tamaki from ouran, lisa from my cousin vinny, any lesbian
8. whatâs a niche interest/subject you could write a 12-page essay on?
food politics! origin of certain dishes and how every dish is a product of class, either being creative with very little or flaunting an excess of. even the method used to make different things have different meanings!
9. what are you missing the most right now?
my friends :) !
10. hottest non-human animated character? (ex. zootopia fox, ryuk from death note, aunt fanny from robots)
raven from teen titans and robin hood
11. share some of your old urls/handles/usernames (iâm looking at u, 1D insta with 70 followers from 2013)
this used to be shampainmarina which was cute; before it was marinas-supermodels-legs which was less cute and pretentiously niche of me. oneband1dreamoned when i was 11
12. whatâs a favorite physical feature of yourself? what are some favorite physical features of your friends/loved ones?
i like my eye color bc its the same as my mommyâs. jills u have the prettiest smile and freckles <3 and alyssa u have the most striking eyes :o
13. whatâs a favorite personality trait of yours? of your friends/loved ones?
i like my sense of humor and being kind ! jill i think u r vey adventurous and creative and alyssa u r very dedicated and passionate ab a lot of stuff. all of my friends r funny and kind too those r staples
14. describe a recent time someone made you feel loved/valued
my mom giving me a hug and telling me that things will be ok when i was upset a few days ago, and making soup w me the next day :)
15. whatâs the most embarrassing character youâve been attracted to?
maybe jimmy neutron mom? or teapot from beauty and the beast idk slim pickings for 6 y/o me
16. gayest thing youâve done recently? (complimentary)
made frog cakes w fellow queers @the-bean-god @veganmilf
17. gayest thing youâve done recently? (derogatory)
listened to man or a muppet in the dark in an empty bathtub about an hour agoÂ
18. what are your comfort movies/shows/books/foods?
movie is a tie between ponyo, coraline, and baz luhrmannâs 1996 romeo and juliet; show is haikyuu! and 2003 teen titans; book is grendel; food is miso soup and honey tea
19. last 5 things you looked up in your youtube search bar/history?
red swan attack on titan opening (i listened to it 30+ times yesterday @ jill its so good), guren no yumiya opening, sasageyo attack on titan (had to compare w the ones u txted me yesterday lmao), jim carey grinch monologue, titanic sinks in real time
20. should we kiss rn? :*
:o yes. even tho i made this. pemdas effect and im actually kissing all my friends rn
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(i hope Im not sending too many!) Can you tell me about First Casters Romance? That's your game right? :3
(Youâre not, really. :D Iâm just worried the responses are too long! ^^â)
Romance in first Caster! Pardon me while I sit down and pull out my notes... XD
Weâre going to have thee cathegories : confirmed, in development, and crackship. :)
CONFIRMED : Ivan and Courtney : Our grumpy, God-plagued cleric and his sweet and mischievous husband twice his size. Tastes like those acidic sweets : Dear god it pricks, but you want one more. XD Permid and Ryan : HAVE I TOLD YOU ABOUT PEACOCK HUSBAND??

Ryan the social butterfly, lover of nerds, very determined to have ONE occasion to talk and hang out with Permid after all of this craziness settles, and the feeling is apparently mutual! ;) Nervous Wizard âbout to get some cuddles for his anxiety! Saka and Zahz : Our local magic cop has been running away from his controlling ex for 3 years, fearing to come back... Surprise surprise however when he gets back, said ex has had such a slap in the face when he left that he was put into therapy and it opened his eyes to his manipulative and controlling tendencies. Theyâre both still very lovestruck, but... they have a lot of work to do to be actually good for one another. But they are ready to try this trip together, as soon as they deal with the current situation. Not everybody looks at this favorably... But Zahz is determined to make amends. Isnât fantasy wonderful? You can have exes that actually DO give a shit and are ready to become better! :D Glaire and Raph : With their friendship having lasted for years, now that Glaire is more confident in her body, things have developed... ;) Yay for one happy trans lady and her non-binary tech wizard partner! :D

IN DEVELOPMENT : The Standon Household : Originally just with Ivan and Courtney, the household has seen the addition of multiple bachelors, to the point where most men under this roof are considered one of the husbands. First, Peter, the lost vampire gentleman.

Arrived in Earth by accident, he took this opportunity to escape his old vampiric habits. Adept in blood magic, he saved Courtneyâs life earlier, discovering the temporary addictive side effect of it. It took 2 weeks for Courntey to recover from his sudden crush, but in the meantime, Peter has been getting closer to the Standons, and now lives under the house as they make him a new coffin. Before that however, he was housed at Permidâs fatherâs place! And said father, Archeon, was very grateful for the company. Peter serves as a bridge between the Standons and him, and it seems like this is heading towards a big polygamous house! :D So, Standon Prime (Ivan), Soft husband (Courtney), Night husband (Peter) and Science husband (Archeon) in total. :) But nothing is official yet, if very seriously pursued and hinted at. :) Isa and Jef : Our cute bard has found a soft boy, the local druid NPC and coffee shop employee Jef! :)

Although Isa is quick to accept any kind of flirt out of curiosity and panic (with a complete disregard for her own safety, might I add), this seems to be a possible path. Actually, I should have put Permid and Ryan here, since theyâre still getting to know one another... Woops! XD Tethys and Damiana : One is an exchange student with top grades, a massive familial sword, and is definitely not Lyn. (Same player though. XD) The other is a tiefling in disguise, artificer with a deployable shield on her forearm, a gun-brella, death rumbas, and a tendency to throw imaginary knives! They have only met recently, but a shopping trip is planned, so... Hopefully we see more about that soon! :D
CRACKSHIPS : Oh boy. XD
Alexia and Damien : More or less childhood friend, Damien still sees Alexia as the person heâd die for to protect her. Because sheâs the only true positive influence in his life, but also because she gives him pastries. ;) Heâs still in shock every time she handles things herself with extreme prejudice : Sheâs a dangerous warlock! Also tsundere Damien is VERY fun to play. XD

(There was also some low-key shipping between Alexia and Jef, but I didnât see it in time, so we missed the opportunity... But it could have been amazing. XD) Quiet self-indulgent desire to push Dylan and Peter together as a crackship because the snark would be legendary but ignore me playing with my NPCs. Damiana and Permid : Or how to get a teacher to stop talking to you, by Damiana : Expose Permidâs fake love life and hope it makes EVERYBODY uncomfortable! :D And it worked! XD Those two actually have a nice friendship, itâs always nice to watch them interract! Damianaâs big enabler/sister energy comes out when there is a Permid around to go do slightly illegal stuff with! Personal crackship : Lyn and Oni. Oni crossed half of france with a full storm to make a dramatic entrance and challenge her, and she headbutted his ass right out! If Lyn wasnât blatantly ace, their rivalry could be a textbook kissmesitude! (My homestuck is showing)

In the same vein, Oni and Shanti! New addition to the group, Shanti is a soft girl trying to wrap her head around things. Oni is weak to honest, purely good people. And his duty to protect people that Ivan sees as allies means he fought off a full group of SWAT officers so they wouldnât try to arrest Shanti during an emergency! :) Permid and â5th dimensional friendâ : As a Horizon walker, Permid sometimes ends up in a space between planes, where unfathomable beings reside.. And one of them, noticing the cute little 3 dimentional being appearing now and again, has taken a liking to him! :D There was also talk of an Archeon and Master Kavoleg crackship!

Eminent atomic scientist meets other-wordly wizard master.. And picks his interest. ;) Please picture Archeon excitedly explaining what an atom is to an enraptured mage, and the scientist marveling at each and every spell the tiefling casts!
Iâm sure there are a lot of others I donât know about. Some of the off-sessions rp happens in private chats, depending on everybodyâs preference. :) But now is a good time to link my players, if youâre curious about some of those ships! :D
Saka, Glaire : @girugin (master DM, energic, soft boi!) Permid, Archeon : @hands-of-fate-ocs (Hug this man, he deserves it!) Ivan âStandon Primeâ : @techpirate1 (With distinction and drama, please!) Alexia : @ember-menia (A very passionate lady, with writting power!) Isa, Shanti : @space-caramella (the absolute softest bean!) Damiana : @quynh-tessance (Oh my god, this wonderful, talented human being!) Tethys, Lyn : @entransta (Praise this quiet girl! Hell yes to powerful women!) Unfortunately due to the time of the session, @ask-manda-of-the-6 does not have a character in this campaign... Ă©_Ăš but she participates in most other campaigns! :D The sweetest, puniest canadian!
All of these people are dear friends and good people, please be nice to them, alright? :) They are wonderfully creative and I love them to bits!
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Meet  SEHUN IM. Thatâs the  TWENTY SIX year old  OMEGA  who has facial features that favor  KIM JONGIN around here.  HE  is  BLUNT  and  IMPATIENT  and belongs to the  BLOOD MOON  pack.  HE is in an arranged courtship with  KAYN KIMURA.  ââ   ( DENI || 25 || GMT+9 || SHE/HERïżœïżœÂ )  Â
â  ⊠ *  CHARACTER ââ  background.
Two Omega she-wolves played house and the world hasnât been the same since. Sehunâs a goddamn gift to earth, and he wonât let you forget it for a second. Betas and Alphas, Omegas and whatevers ââ whatâs all that but one or two hellish weeks a month and a lifetime of popping pills so you donât sweat to death in the middle of a coffee shop? Â
Growing up outside of Lycan Bane, Sehun chalked up his experience of bouncing around from country to country to his mothers being adventurous hippies. Explorers, they called themselves. Modern-day Adventurers, searching for an ever-elusive El Dorado to call home. Sehun learned how to live. Set out in cities where he didnât speak the language during regular cycles of the month, learned how to make fast friends that heâd never forget but wouldnât always remember. Sure, it got annoying sometimes. Especially as he grew older, when he had to leave behind a trail of boys, girls, and non-binary sweethearts and buddies, woulda coulda shouldas that made his heart ache. At thirteen, Sehun began to understand the reason why they had to leave: they were being hunted.Â
At seventeen, he and one of his mothers almost didnât make it home, so they set off for a place where they knew theyâd be safe. Lycan Bane. His new home was weird. A lot smaller. Wasnât Hong Kong or Busan, Los Angeles or Sydney. Was just a place they stayed in one too many months. Once he realized they werenât leaving, he acted out like any other hormonal-driven teenager would, smashing and crashing and cussing and shouting. They swore his temper would make him an Alpha  ( called him that when he was being a real pain in the ass ) so it was sorta a surprise when he woke up with slick and fevers. Â
He's tried to leave several times. Recently, last year. Set off on his own to see a band and his heat hit at the worst moment  ââ thousands of feet n the air, one of those crazed hunters catching that evidence easily and cuing the worst forty-eight hours of his life. Sehun had to fight for his life in a goddamn steel tube, and when they touched down he found himself in a pair of silver cuffs and was still fucking sweating , wanting to fuck anythingggggggggg omg it sucked  but the pack saved him. Thank motherfuck. Sehunâs settled back down in Lycan Bane since. Sucking it up. Dealing with the monotony the best he can. Popping suppressants and just ... living, I guess. Job, house. Hobbies and a routine. Itâs gross. Â
â  ⊠ *  ZODIAC SIGN ââ  aries.
â The first sign of the Zodiac, Aries are the trailblazers.  Passionate and independent, Aries will never do something just because everyone else is doing itâa Ram needs to be 100 percent committed to the task at hand.  Competitive to the max, the best way to motivate an Aries is to turn something into a contest.  Aries will put everything they have (and then some) into winning.  Loyal, smart, and impulsive, they always have multiple projects on their mind, and wonât be satisfied until their work, social life, and personal lives line up exactly with the dream life theyâve envisioned.  Those who are drawn to magnetic Aries may have trouble keeping upâbut if they can, theyâll have a friend for life. â ( x )
personality quirks:Â assertive, goal-oriented, energetic, sensual, industrious, easygoing, temperamental, forthright, competitive
â  ⊠ *  PERSONALITY TYPE ââ  estp.Â
â ESTPs are outgoing, straight-shooting types.  Enthusiastic and excitable, ESTPs are âdoersâ who live in the world of action.  Blunt, straight-forward risk-takers, they are willing to plunge right into things and get their hands dirty.  They live in the here-and-now, and place little importance on introspection or theory.  The look at the facts of a situation, quickly decide what should be done, execute the action, and move on to the next thing. â  ( x )
personality quirks: overdramatic, impatient, suspicious, practical, spontaneous, reckless, restless, perceptive, chaotic
â  ⊠ *  CHARACTER ALIGNMENT ââ  chaotic good.
â A chaotic good character acts as his conscience directs him with little regard for what others expect of him. He makes his own way, but he's kind and benevolent. He believes in goodness and right but has little use for laws and regulations. He hates it when people try to intimidate others and tell them what to do. He follows his own moral compass, which, although good, may not agree with that of society. â  ( x )Â
â  ⊠ *  CHARACTER  ââ  miscellaneous.
Hobbies: playing drums or the piano, skateboarding, listening to music, bowling, eating shitty food, complaining, taking naps everywhere, rigging claw machines, getting daydrunk, online shopping, bar games, arcade games, games games games, cards, running to the sunset, boxing
Vices:Â herbal cigarettes, cheap champagne, taking dares
Personal style: true 2000âČs punk ass.  Skinny jeans, skater shoes or combat boots, flannels around the waist, arms stacked with bands and ears all studded.  Barely wears the same sunglasses twice.  Obnoxious patterns in the summer, not afraid of colors.  Beanies or ring-studded caps.  Lip-ring.  Tattâed arms, back, and chest.  Studded belts.
Occupations: Scout. Liquor store cashier.  College student (  engineering  ).
â  ⊠ * WANTED  ââ  plots.Â
you got me and i got you: an omega Sehunâs spent a few heats with. Theyâre nothing serious, not romantically, but theyâre there to help take the edge off each other when theyâre feeling soft or needy or cute. Sometimes itâs not even sex, itâs just talking. With all the craziness of this mating law, Sehun has a feeling theyâll be talking a lot more.
we are YIKES: theyâre not handling this mating thing super well. Neither is Sehun. No one is, okay? Itâs kinda fucked up. But, they know Sehunâs had experience on the outside. Heâs more than willing to talk about life beyond the borders. Surely they wonât be getting any new ideas ...
spy control: Sehunâs mate isnât in his original pack, the Blood Moon Pack. Now, Sehun isnât super big on pack loyalty and all that shit, but they are. And they want #Notes. After all, the tideâs shifting in Lycan Bane, and Sehunâs in a prime position to possibly get some deets on an Alpha. Â
ummmmmm iâll add some more eventually.
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Hey. Im a beginning writer and I saw your post about trans characters. Im cis but i want to do it properly. What would you like to see? How do I make them come out? Sorry i just want this to be good yknow? Thanks
Hi there! Thank you for asking, and never apologise for wanting to be respectful about including people. I wish more people did that.Â
I tried to make this short at first but itâs just impossible for me, so buckle up because Iâm passionate about this.Â
Same as with writing any minority, including trans people in your story doesnât mean you get to talk about the experience of belonging in said minority. While you might have some empathy, unless youâre basing your trans characterâs story on a specific experience of a real person, you have an enormous chance of being misguided by pop culture and its obsession with turning us into tragic, suffering figures only there to be pitied or as a way to shock the audience or as a way for the writers to get diversity cookies. Weâre just people, and even if we do have traumatic backstories, let us talk about them in our own terms. Make a character that just happens to be trans, but donât focus on that part of their identity because that bit is not yours to tell.Example: Madeline is an actress. She likes sci-fi and is currently studying French literature while she follows her passion for theatre. She also sings and plays the ukulele and piano, she has a YouTube channel where she does operatic covers of video game themes and makes nerdy songs about popular fictional characters, and wants to play the main part in a West End musical one day. She knows itâs hard because sheâs trans, but she trusts her abilities, and sheâs grateful for the few fans sheâs gotten from YouTube who are super supportive.
Donât be misguided by stereotypes. 99% of trans women donât dress like drag queens, trans men are not butch lesbians who just desperately want a dick, and not every trans person has a tragic past with their family because of their identity. Also, no need for your trans char to be 100% feminine or masculine to PROVE they really are trans, and thereâs no need to be a short-haired, flannel-wearing, very non-gendered white thin model in order to be non-binary. Example: Madeline has a girlfriend and two dogs. She lives in a small flat and struggles to pay rent, but sheâs happy. Every Sunday she visits her dad. Sheâs an only child, and he absolutely adores his daughter and her girlfriend and likes to cook for them. Sheâs got her differences with her mother because she wanted Madeline to be a doctor, not a starving artist, and thinks sheâs irresponsible, but Madeline was tired of trying to live out her motherâs dream and has chosen to take some distance.Â
How to make them come out? The same way youâd say anything about anyoneâs past: respectfully. Donât make someone find out against their will. Donât have someone from their past misgender / deadname them and then put them in the awkward situation of having to explain themselves to both the people they once knew and the people theyâve chosen to surround themselves with in their current life. Everyone in my life knows Iâm trans, and if they donât yet, itâs because of circumstance, not a cunning plot of shame on my part.If you do want to have them be stealth, donât treat the moment of coming out into a huge betrayal. No more hiding genitalia because theyâre ashamed to tell their partner, no more telling their date and their date storming off because they trusted you, how could you not tell me, [deadname], if thatâs even really your real name, WHAT ELSE ARE YOU HIDING, ARE YOU A MURDERER, and so on and so forth. Example: Madeline is accepted in a new acting group, and makes a new friend. They hang out, compliment each otherâs Star Trek t-shirts, and have rehearsals together. They talk about parts theyâd played in the past, and Madeline mentions that in high school she was given all the male parts even though she tried to get the female ones, but they wouldnât give them to her because well, we all still thought I was a boy back then, but one teacher ever gave her the one she wanted, and she was her favourite, and hopes to invite her in the premiere of the play. âAw, thatâs so sweet,â her new friend says, who has met trans people before and realises that Madeline wants to focus on the affection for her teacher and not her own past at the moment, âIâm so glad you showed them whoâs the boss, I hope your teacher makes it. If you ever wanna talk more about that time iâd be glad to listen.â They keep eating their ice cream. Here you can easily pull a Raymond Holt and make her openly trans but the people around her just donât seem to get it because sheâs way too casual about it. I know Iâd love to do that at some point but I tend to write in fantasy universes where itâs not a big deal in the first place. If you can do that, even better. In sci-fi and fantasy, itâs always so refreshing to see people who actually imagined worlds without transphobia.Â
Now, what Iâd like to see. I kept this one for last, because Iâm picky.I guess, no more transphobic violence. No more showing who the bad guy is by verbally / emotionally / physically attacking the trans character for shock value.No more trans character being there just to be trans. Make a Krem, whoâs there to tell weird stories of past jobs and be the second in command; make a Rhett Hennesey, whoâs there to be the protagonist and kill paranormal creatures and find his destiny; make a Nomi Marks, genius and very queer and an incredible hacker, kind, badass, there to be part of something bigger and share the love; make a Cheri Littlebottom, forensics expert extraordinaire, who makes friends and reinvents herself and claims her identity tooth and claw and earns peopleâs respect and will not get rid of her amazing dwarven beard or her lipstick and high heels; donât make a Sophia Burset, who is forgotten after a few episodes and sheâs only there to waste a talented actressâ abilities and remind people that hey, look, thereâs a trans woman in here, look how tragic her life is, look how her identity is tearing her family apart and literally put her in prison. And in the end, because Iâm picky, no, donât make a Krem or a Rhett either, because theyâre treated as cross-dressing women from their narratives, and theyâre both awesome and deserve better than that.In the end, Iâd like to see trans protagonists. Trans teachers, and lovers, and criminals, and superheroes, and space captains. Feminine and fat and black and Native and Mediterranean and alien and elven and muscled and disabled and ugly and hot and creative and famous and feared trans people. Two or even three trans people per story. Non-tragic trans people. Well-rounded, loved characters, whose motives are something else besides being trans, whose families value them, or if they donât, itâs not because of their gender.
Write people. And if they talk to you and tell you that theyâre transgender, hear them out, and make it happen. But make them people first.Â
#hypnotic-spellz#steve talks#transtuff#writing trans#this got out of hand and in the end idk if it's helpful so feel free to ask again if you need anything#long post
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