#as someone who has experienced sa this game was gut wrenching

[heavenlymorals]

I adore Mouthwashing (the game, fucking hate Listerine) because to me it's less a game about taking responsibility and more of a game of HOW can you take responsibility when a situation is just so fucked up, when there is no right answer, where the most obvious thing to do is either not feasible or borderline impossible, or when your circumstances somehow bar you from doing so.

Do you wait till an opening? Do you try to keep the peace till then, even if the peace is already gone? Do you look at the big picture first and then the individuals? What is the most important thing at the very moment?

What do you do?

As an observer, the answers FEEL obvious and we hate and criticize people who don't do what we want them to do because we are not in that sphere, that relationship, that place. But the people in the situation are not observers, they are active parts of a situation and any action can and will affect them- only question is how.

And that how is way more difficult than what we make it out to seem.

So I feel such sadness when I think of Anya and what happened to her. Same with Daisuke and Swansea. I feel horrified and sorrowful over Curly's fate- he tried. Maybe not hard enough due to the many circumstances of his situation, but he didn't deserve what happened to him.

And for Jimmy? It is so fucking rancid that he's just able to escape what he's done by suicide and by deluding himself that Curly is grateful to him for keeping him alive and putting him in the cryo chamber and that Curly "forgave" him because that was just the man that Curly was before the crash.

So yes, while Mouthwashing is about taking responsibility, it's moreso a game of how can you take responsibility instead.