#as of today the 1/11 I'm fasting at this 8pm time

[maia-and-ria]

Jyuria "Ria" Hoshizumi Home Screen Lines

Credit to @/danieyells for the template

*I added a new type of voice line of my own at the bottom

Hello: (the first time the game is opened after that character is set as home screen NPC. Only happens once per day, unless the character is switched out and back.)

"There you are, MC. Have you given it some thought? What do you mean by what I mean... My offer to work with me, of course."

You've Got Mail: (whenever there's something in the inbox, usually Arena rewards)

"Is that a love letter? Let me see! Not a love letter? Well, I can always write you one~"

Default: (requires no affinity, has no time constraints)

"Have you seen my favorite junior? ...You haven't? Of course I'm talking about my Ritsu."

"🎵~ It's so quiet. Where the hell is everybody? Oh, right. Yesterday was quite hectic."

"You thirsty? I've been trying to make this new drink and I want you to be my judge."

"You look tired, MC. Did Romeo give you too much work? Why do I know...? I know more than you think ♡."

"Here. My business card. Call me whenever you need a relationship advice, matchmaking service, or even a partner rental. I will provide you with the best of my ability. D-Don't look at me like that! You look like you need a lover, that's all!"

Affinity 1: (between 5am and 11am)

"Class? Mai is not attending, I don't see why I should either."

Affinity 2: (between 11am and 4pm)

"Has anyone told you you look cute today? Don't tell me the first thing you hear this morning is Cornelius' kittens calling you to his office."

Affinity 3: (between 4pm and 8pm)

"You always seem nervous around me, MC. I literally don't bite. That's Bami's specialty. Kidding~ I might bite when asked politely."

Affinity 4: (between 8pm and 5am)

"Sweets! Finally! Come closer, MC! We're sharing these. Or do you want me to spoon feed you?"

Affinity 5: (between 8pm and 5am)

"Help me, MC. Red or black? Wrong. It's black. Good guess, though."

Affinity 6: (between 4pm and 8pm)

"You seem tired... Poor girl. Pretty girl like you shouldn't be treated like slaves. It only takes one sign and I can make it all go away. What do you say?"

(But you can't really get rid of her curse now can you)

Affinity 7: (between 11am and 4pm)

"So much better profit than last week~ Good job to all of my minions. I'll be sure to reward them for their hard work."

Affinity 8: (between 4pm and 8pm)

"I can't skip dinner again, or else Maia will scold me... Well, I can always scold her for pulling an all-nighter."

Affinity 9: (between 8pm and 5am)

"Can you deliver this document to Maia? ...Actually, nevermind. I can't afford Vagastrom's vice captain to get his hands on this."

Affinity 10: (between 10pm and midnight)

"Ahh... This mask feels so good on the skin. You should grab one and try it too. It makes you want to doze off as soon as you put it on."

Affinity 11: (between 5am and 11am)

"I know what you're thinking about me and Rui. 'Two flirts in a room and they're not trying to undress each other?!! That's sooooo weird hopefully the world isn't ending tomorrow.' But we're just casual like that. Both of us would rather go for you."

Affinity 12: (between 11am and 4pm)

"I found out one of my minions is planning to stab me in the back. What a shame. But I have no choice. I need to punish as hard as I reward them."

Affinity 13: (between 4pm and 8pm)

"Did you see Ritsu looking for Bami earlier? Had I known he would chase me around I wouldn't sign his papers so fast..."

((FUCK even I feel embarrassed typing this and i am HER CREATOR))

Affinity 14: (between 5am and 11am)

"Don't be fucking ridiculous. My business is not even close to brothel! If I see any clients looking to sleep with my talents, I will cut their throat myself."

Affinity 15: (between 5am and 11am)

"I can't go to out for missions now... That fucking Boss of mine—what should I do with him."

Affinity 16: (between 11am and 4pm)

"Can these stinky boys keep their distance away from me?! I clearly said no and I'm clearly out of their league. Next time they approach me I'm sending Maia to kick their asses."

Affinity 17: (between 10pm and midnight)

"Are you ok...? Can't sleep? I can make us both a drink, if you want."

Affinity 18: (between 8pm and 5am)

"Never lie to me, ok? I hate liars. And I'll always know when you lie."

Affinity 19: (between 10pm and midnight)

"Do I play in the casino? Only when a client can afford me as their lucky charm—which not many people can due to certain reasons. Only for you, though, I'll gladly open a free trial."

Affinity 20: (between 5am and 11am)

"Hey, MC, have you seen that thirst trap edit on TikTok about Mai? That's Romeo's bitch doing. Tell me where he is now so I can stop his heart from beating."

(Romeo's bitch=Leo. It refers to Maia's affinity 20 as well.)

Affinity 21: (between 11am and 4pm)

"Miss me already? You do?! Hahaha. One score for me~ Let's go MC! We're going on a date now!"

Affinity 22: (between 4pm and 8pm)

"Hmm...? Blood? Ah. It's nothing. Just... a nosebleed. Nothing to worry about."

Affinity 23: (between 8pm and 5am)

"A client came to my office asking to be matched with Maia. Had he not pay in full upfront I would've diced his brain by now.

Affinity 24: (between 10pm and midnight)

"Slut... Whore... Nothing new on Wickhive. I wish these people can get a little bit creative after all these years when talking about me."

Affinity 25(max): (no time constraints)

"You precious thing... whatever it is that I can do for you, never hesitate to tell me—even if it kills me to fulfill. Everything that your heart desire, won't you grant me permission to grant it?"

Spring: (March-May) (between 5am and 11am)

"Nothing is bloodier than spring in the fashion industry, be it for the brands or the customers. Someone, get me my tablet! I need to check my credit score."

(between 11am and 4pm)

"There. Beautiful. Can you believe that Maia picked these flowers herself? To think that she thinks so little of herself when it comes to pretty things."

(between 4pm and 8pm)

"I just had some fruits delivered here. Won't you stay for a bit longer? I'm making us something healthy."

(between 8pm and 5am)

"I'm planning for a cherry blossom picnic. It's an annual thing for me and Maia—in which I myself have decided. By the way you're coming too, MC."

Summer: (June-August) (between 5am and 11am)

"MC, catch! Don't forget to apply the sunscreen regularly, okay?"

(between 11am and 4pm)

"Ugh, why can't we have a pool in the house... Wait, I have enough budget to make a private one here."

(between 4pm and 8pm)

"We're running out of ice pretty fast these days. Should I just buy an extra refrigerator..."

(between 8pm and 5am)

"Yikes. What is this song? I don't care if it's one of those trendy summer playlist bullshit, I still don't like it. It sounds tacky. Change it to another."

Autumn: (September-November) (between 5am and 11am)

"Sorry for the wait. It took me some time to look for my autumn outfits. I find it more difficult to dress up during this time of year."

(between 11am and 4pm)

"Are you one of those pumpkin spice latte girl, MC? Be honest."

(between 4pm and 8pm)

"The pastries are the best during this season. I wish we can have these limited ones all year round."

(between 8pm and 5am)

"You should take my scarf. You need it more than me. No, no, don't mention about price. Come here I'll wrap it around you."

Winter: (December-February) (between 5am and 11am)

"Winter vacation... Usually I tour Europe but that's what I've been doing for the last couple of year. It's getting a bit boring now.

(between 11am and 4pm)

"Let's build a snowman. You make Romeo, I'll make Bami. After that we'll throw snowballs at them."

(between 4pm and 8pm)

"Let me tell you why winter is the best for my business. Since so many students are coming back home, the parents expect them to bring back a partner to introduce to the family. Where will they run to when they need to rent a pretend-partner? Exactly."

(between 8pm and 5am)

"Next time you see Maia sneezing, can you take a picture? Pretty please?"

Her birthday: (January 5th)

"Tell me you're not forgetting what day it is. Don't you dare intentionally piss me off only to surprise me later. I do not tolerate jokes on my birthday."

Your birthday:

"MC! The star of the day! Now sit still and let me dress you up for your birthday. Trust me, you will not regret putting your life in my hands. Just be a good girl while I do my magic."

New Years: (January 1st)

"I hope to celebrate next new year with you. Hmm? Too soon for that?"

Valentine's Day: (February 14th)

"I knew you'd pick me for your Valentine! I'm truly the best pick in this place. Hey, don't pay attention to those presents behind me. They don't matter like yours do! Pay attention to me!"

White Day: (March 13th)

"I spent a whole day arranging these flowers at the thought of you. So here comes my gratitude and affection—all in this one bouquet. I hope I can make you smile like that for days and years to come, MC."

April Fool's Day: (April 1st)

"MC... Listen... You won't believe this but there's this guy I've been seeing— Huh, you actually don't believe me? You're either sharp or too confident in yourself that I'll never pick anyone besides you. I do hope it's the latter."

Halloween: (October 31st)

"Me and Maia should really dress up as Wednesday and Enid. She's the Enid. She's the one with pink hair, after all."

Christmas: (December 25th)

"Move, everyone. Your Hot Santa is here to spank the bad kids and reward the good ones. Mommy have spent tons for these presents."

Idle: (about 20 seconds without interacting with the game) (below 13 affinity)

"A pretty girl is right in front of you and this is how you treat her?"

(13 affinity and above)

"Ignore me for 5 more seconds and see what happens. 5... 4... 1!"

Absent: (logging in for the first time in 2 or more days?)

"Have I always been your second option? I don't like being the second option... You wound me, MC."

About others (opinion on other ghouls, asked by MC)

About Maia:

"Did she tell you about following me to the depth of Tartarus? I knew it. Well, it's pretty much the same for me. She can't take care of herself without me, you know."

About Taiga:

"Bami... He's... special. He had seen me cry many times back when we were kids. Some days he traumatized me, some days he protected me. I know I act harsh around him but I'm still adapting to whatever it is that's happening inside of his head. He's the only blood relative that I consider as family, after all."

About Romeo:

"The prettier the rose, the deadlier the thorns. It doesn't matter if you're trying to preserve it or kill it out of selfishness, it will eventually bleed you. And the second you look away, those stems might trap you already and you didn't even know it."

About Ritsu:

"Of course I'm going to keep things professional between me and my Ritsu. I just can't help but feeling giddy because he'll be the key to so many of my revenge. We're going to be the best partners; me and him."

[lifewithoutmeds]

September 8, 2023

5:33 p.m.

today is friday afternoon. it was a working friday and i was at home, where i worked til a bit after 4.

recap of the last few days: tuesday, 9/5/2023: work, then facetime with kelda. i think i forced myself to eat a carrot and some cauliflower. if i recollect, i think i was feeling pretty bad this day. definitely cried on the phone with kelda. i also had a really bad stomachache since the morning, likely from eating so much Gouda and flaming hot cheetos. i was having trouble discerning between heartache or stomachache. wednesday, 9/6/2023: work in the office. i was very productive, took a few walks, and ate a discounted Ralph's salad for lunch. not sure what i did when i came home but was surprised by an unexpected knock on my door around 7 and it turned out to be none other than AT! i was so so glad to see him. i welcomed him in, we chatted a bit, drank a few beers, i rinsed and cut up some cauliflower and carrots for him, and then we went on a walk around the neighborhood where he admired the beautiful houses and one tree in particular that was quite grandiose i suppose. *NO CRYING.

thursday, 9/7/2023: this was a pretty nothing day. i woke up very tired and for some reason decided to eat a bunch of flaming hot cheetos instead of my usual water/hydration, then coffee, then intermittent fasting until about 10 or 11 a.m. so instead i just was very sleepy all day and was barely able to stay awake and finally knocked out a lunch nap, read a bunch of terrible articles on facebook, then knocked out again around 5, then still managed to sleep around 7/8pm, falling asleep to true crime youtube videos (specifically the channel Coffeehouse Crime.) *NO CRYING.

friday, 9/8/2023 (today): i laid in bed a bit longer than usual, but finally dragged myself out and told myself to make the bed to get this day started right. i'm not sure if it was the making of the bed per se, or if it was whatever mentality i had that pushed me to make the bed in the first place, but for whatever the reason, i was ultra-productive today. i did some work, took out the trash and recycling, washed a few loads of dishes, ran the vacuum a couple times, and spent 50 minutes just generally picking up around the condo. i also reached out to lorena and she ended up swinging by with some delicious chirashi and we caught up for a few minutes, which was really nice. resolved to watch the office, read, walk, and journal after work.

SIGNS OF PROGRESS: ENTERTAINMENT: i started watching "The Office" DVD. i was pretty disappointed with the cringey nature of the first couple episodes of the first season, but it's slowly picking up some momentum. i think i've watched maybe 4 episodes now? i try to watch 1-2 a day. as "therapy" per kelda's suggestion. REFRIGERATOR: this has been gross for some time. i had an old can of black beans that spilled at some point that i only half wiped up then it dried up so there's like this weird dry caked dust on one of the shelves. actually it's still there, but i did go through the fridge for a few minutes and took out some pyrex/tupperware containers that have held long-expired foods like a breakfast sausage, some sort of spinach-like banchan, and really gnarly dduk (rice ovalettes.) this left a lot of extra room so i was able to put in all my costco water bottles and consequently, take them off of the floor.

CAMPBOX: this has effectively been right by my door since late May, but i finally opened it up, and went through it a bit. i took out the dishes and things that could benefit from a wash so that i can wash/dry and put back in the bin, so i can actually put the bin away! i will also have to shake out and refold the tent, but then i can put that away too and there will be a clear space by my door.

BEDROOM: i haven't picked up anything from the floor since late may, and so it hasn't been vacuumed at all. so it's pretty gross. everything is covered with dust and the floor has a lot of my hair. again, i can't run the vacuum because there's just so much stuff still in there like random clothing and camping things, so i finally scooped up an armful of clothes that i figured, clean or not, were probably in need of a clean just from lying on the floor for three months. the floor is not 100% clear but is maybe 20% clearER which is PROGRESS.

DESIRE TO PURCHASE THINGS: i bought a bunch of books on amazon earlier this week. most were recommended reading for breakups/heartache, and one was highly recommended by oppah. i also realized that i was running out of writing paper, so i've spent some time looking for 8.5x11 notebook paper and spiral notebooks, and am shocked to find that they're extremely expensive, that is, like $3-$4, whereas an 8x10 notebook literally costs $0.35. very strange. it's such a shame that i would likely prefer to spend 10x more just to get the size paper that i'm used to, but here we are. lastly, i looked into whether there were any concerts i might enjoy from my favorite musicians, namely lana del rey, the xx, and tegan and sara. surprisingly, tegan and sara had just announced that they were going on a short tour around Ontario (Canada) to play one of their older albums in their entirety and i started wondering whether i should go check them out. i hadn't seen them in years, and could make a trip out of it. it'll take a lot of planning and prepping, as they're playing a bunch of shows in neighborhoods that i'm not familiar with, so i'll have to check out each and see capacity, seating arrangements, proximity to airport, etc. but i hope i will go. i remember in 2009 i went to vancouver to see tegan and sara for the first time and i'll sort of be like that again. a person willing to go see things and travel on my own. a person curious about the world.

LOOKING INTO VOLUNTEERING Places I'm considering: Burbank Animal Shelter Los Angeles LGBT Center Downtown Women's Shelter Various Glendale opportunities - senior centers, trail maintenance. On the one hand, i want to review all in terms of schedules, commitment, proximity, etc., but maybe i should just try them all (but one at a time.) like, commit 6 months to one. then 6 months to another. cycle through them within 2 years and then land on something.

i think that since meeting jadai, so much of my energies went into us, our trips, our hobbies, our life with cooper, our social network, date nights, exploring the neighborhood, and of course a lot of her stuff: her family, her social justice causes, etc. there was definitely growth and self-reflection etc., as we worked out our differences, as we learned to be in relationship with each other. and also to be fair we really facilitated each other's interests. i took more interest in composting and gardening and we attended some Smart Gardening or Composting workshop together. i got into boating briefly. and i supported her rock climbing and bicycling. and i loved it all. no regrets. but i think so much of me got lost in us. i was glad, at the time. i was so sick of me. i loved being us. but i think i also have to remember, that i existed before us, and that i could exist again. it had for 36 years. granted, very unhappily most of the time. but. there were moments. few and far between, and seemingly barely worth it most of the time, but apparently enough to get me through.

as she and everyone else has repeatedly told me: i cannot expect to be made happy because of someone else, or for someone else, or just with someone else. somehow, SOMEHOW i need to be enough. somehow, whatever this world offers, and whatever i am, somehow this has to be enough. i've been hoping for some magic pill: an antidepressant, an activity, a relationship, etc., and all have failed. i feel like i need to work 10x as hard to get half as far as someone else, but, i mean, i guess that's just my lot in life? it could be worse. i'm about half way through my life, as i near my 40th birthday. i really should try to curb the constant complaining, the constant comparisons, the always-falling-short.

looking ahead: saturday, 9/9/2023: glendale open house with my mom. she'll be picking me up at 1:15 p.m. she might want to get lunch. anjali will be coming around 5 or 6 and then we'll go get shabu shabu or something afterward. i think the last time we hung out we walked by joon shabu shabu and i mentioned it was good and that we should try it. seems she's remembered that. it'll be good to see my mom and anjali. also i feel there will be enough down time to either nap as needed or get in a few rounds of dishes/vacuum/tidying.

sunday, 9/10/2023: church with my mom in the morning. possibly lunch. then over to the west side. it's rhiannon's bday 9/11 and she's been pretty depressed lately and not wanting to celebrate, which i totally get, but i figured we should try to do something. i think we've landed on a movie in playa vista at 4:45 (Bottoms), and then dinner or dessert afterward. i was just there earlier this week, but hey, a birthday only comes once a year yhea?

now off for a walk, a couple episodes of the office, and hopefully i can get started on a new book. fingers crossed.

[corpsegold]

day 16 - 31/10/22 TOTAL: 2050 Well that didnt work out did it. B/p again. Tried to do rez with my smoothie etc. Decided I need calcium because I’ve not had any in weeks and this foot splint I got from running about a week still wasn’t healing. Not sure if its like some kind of silly tiny fracture because it got worse a few times but after increasing calcium the pains all gone LOL. Bodies are so weird! Placebo probably Breakfast: 0 Lunch: 0 Dinner: 304 at this point u know what's in the smoothie i cba to type it - 234 gravy - 70 Snacks: 1785 Always the way, get to the evening and then fucking go ham 0% fat greek yoghurt - 270 turkey mince - 342 spinach-14  MORE YOGHURT - 189 berries- 96 then I decided to treat myself because I managed to resist getting alcohol ON HALLOWEEN NIGHT which is like one of the most triggering days of the year so currently 11 days strong nearly 12 wahoo! reduced sugar and salt baked beans - 334 salt and vinegar rice cakes, A WHOLE DAMN PACK LOL - 540