#as i was sat at my desk at work

[onpie]

Noodles and Tea’s work inspired me fr

[blixabargelds]

has adjusting to mood stabilisers made anyone else ffucking stupid before or am i suddenly developing dementia

[whirl00]

sound of broken glass (fig study)

[sharkdays]

AMETHIO INHZ064????

[ovenproofowl]

Bottom of the Food Chain

The appetite goes first.

No one ever gets that part right. Easy to write off as a million other things. Sickness, stress, change in the wind. Doesn't matter. Point is, food no longer means anything to you.

Probably for the best. Means you can spend more time doing stuff, right? Skip breakfast every day, no need to sit down for lunch. The evening just flies by.

And then you're back.

No need for water, either. Y'know, that basic human right that everyone squabbles over? Not you. Not anymore. Now there's no need for bathroom breaks. You count that as a win, you can never find anywhere private here, anyway. There's always a cubicle closed for one reason or another.

Sometimes you hear whimpering through the cracks.

You don't sleep anymore. Maybe it's the stress.

Nights are wide open now, so they call you in. Extra dosh, shifts wide open that no one else has the right mind to take. But your mind is just right. Ever since you stopped eating.

There's others like you, that's the thing. No one talks about them, those crazy zombie idiots who take 18 hour shifts just to feel alive. Must be snorting a line on the side to power them through, but it's a big company and if the CEOs can do it, who's stopping the little guy?

You sometimes check the mirror just to make sure your face is still there. Been a while since you've felt it. All the muscles have gone numb. You prod and poke at your sagging skin, practically sloughing off bone.

Someone's crying in the cubicle behind you.

Well, the toilet still needs to be used for something, you suppose.

Time's gone all weird. All craggy around the edges. How long have you been here, really? What decades have slipped by past your notice? You're still the same. Can’t eat, can't sleep, but hey, you look good. Bones so prominent it could be Botox, but you don't have the cash to burn on that, no matter how many hours you work.

You work every hour. Home's a distant memory. Friends and family are long gone, left behind or aged out of their skin. Sounds like a personal problem. You don't discuss those anymore, not since the crying moved behind the walls.

Time's no longer kind to you. It happens to us all, eventually. But you were meant to be different. The perfect machine.

You're malfunctioning. We all do. Don't be so hard on yourself.

They don't want you near the execs. Soon, the smell is too much for even their expensive cologne to disguise. They put you on the phoneline for a while, conveniently out of sight, right until your jawbone snaps off and your tongue lolls out and sputters.

No voice, no worries, they can still make use of you yet. You'll clean the floors till your arms waste away and even then, pieces of you can always be repurposed.

We're all about sustainability, here.

The rich always want to live forever, but that gift isn't for them. They don't put their whole body into the company like you, they don't make the same sacrifices. They're envious of you, you know? They'd kill to be as skinny as you are now.

Maybe their names will be immortal, but you, my friend, you are.

Your blood is in this company. You'll never die.

Hey... why are you crying?

[spookysplatt]

I just left school because the rain was giving me coughing fits what kind of sickly Victorian child-

[lostherlemons]

definitely outside of the comfort zone for my usual art, but i had fun with this! made for my niece's 2nd birthday 🎂

(petals/leaves were drawn freehand on the back of scrapbook paper, then individually hand cut and glued together! i don't have a ton of experience or skill with really crafty stuff like this, but it was a surprisingly fun project)

[comas-are-for-sleeping]

every few weeks i must fall hopelessly behind, stop doing anything at all, realize that if im not actively learning i feel like a corpse, feel like a corpse, and then wake up one morning locked tf in. this lasts a few days and then the cycle begins again

[acedavestrider]

i am about to have........... a Rough Day

[elastica1995]

sometimes at work i get emails about changes in our department that i feel are 100% because of me. and maybe that's just me being anxious and paranoid but actually it certainly isn't.

[the-casbah-way]

i suppose i owe it to myself to not die but also to stop talking myself out of things that might make me happier because i would be a much better person for everyone around me if i were able to navigate the world in the way i want to because insecurity and bitterness and constant suicidalness do just make you not as kind sometimes i think. i would like to be confident enough in myself to speak and be seen and therefore be as kind as i feel i am on the inside. i hold back so many things because i am scared of being perceived so maybe if i let myself do the things that will help me be ok with being perceived then i will put more good out into the world. i always get hung up on the fact that i so badly want to be good and kind and i care so so much about other people but as it stands currently most people would not really bother too much if i wasn't here anymore because i'm so cut off from everything emotionally and physically. someone send me c.300 quid so i can pay for therapy and you can stop being subjected to posts such as these, by the way.

[thisismyobsessionnow]

When you start feeling the post concert depression before the last concerts have even happened. Lovely.

[hope-ur-ok]

Hey, I just want to say I'm sorry you're unwell... I deal with chronic pain so I think I may have a sense of how you feel... It sucks, I hope you feel better soon!!!!

I feel significantly better today (though that wouldn't have taken much). I slept on and off from like 6pm yesterday to 4pm today, and while I'm still tired and don't feel good I no longer feel nauseous and dizzy just from being upright, which is a huge improvement

[lesbian-diana-cavendish]

Well so far my first RG has been a lot of fun :) these legs are more complex then an entire HG ngl

[samwiselastname]

I've been attempting to fix my sleep with the help of this ridiculous app I paid sixty US dollars for and without fail at 1:00pm I'm like "why do I feel like I want to kill myself all of a sudden" open it and go:

"oh"

[shortscircuits]

last night i dreamt i was hopping from roof to roof on a wharf by the water and i kept going from like, the tops of buildings to the tops of boats to the dock, swimming a bit, cause i had some destination but in retrospect i have no clue where i was going. and i kept leaving shit behind and having to double back and go get things from rooftops i was already on. and at one point a building owner caught me and she was like i dont wanna call the cops but please don’t do that its dangerous for you and its a liability to me and i was like ok i promise i wont anymore and i felt so grateful for her. but obvi i kept doing it just on other buildings. and there was an elevated train system and every time it passed by the building i was standing on i’d have to hide so nobody on the train saw me and reported me.