#as an addendum to this all : most of my delusions are persecutory or grandiose in nature | Explore Tumblr posts and blogs

butch-errant · 11 months ago

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The extent to which it's delusions vs the extent to which it's me correctly interpreting a vague doesn't matter. What matters, functionally, is the manner in which I respond to things. The knowledge that this is a manner in which my shit presents itself will (hopefully) be enough to avoid in the future falling into uncritically confusing personal reality for Actual Reality. Especially when coupled with recognizing the ways in which this kind of delusional thinking has affected my other relationships

#it is unreasonable to believe thay someone who has told you to wait to message them until they message you...#... is sending coded messages using the numerological significance of the times they post to tell you to message them first #and regardless of my ability to convince myself & my subconscious that this is true #there is only one acceptable outcome/path forward #which is to simply act in line with the reality that has been expressly indicated by the person #i.e. to not message them until they expressly indicate theyre good with that #as an addendum to this all : most of my delusions are persecutory or grandiose in nature #and this doesnt seem to be operating in either of those patterns so im unused to dealing with this/preventing myself from giving in #but i do think i will be able to move forward in healthier ways (& without having to self-isolate)

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