#as a surging feeling within us jikook shippers recently

[jikook-love]

Seeing how people determined BTS members' sexuality is sickening, somehow, like they are gay when one member sat on other's lap or hugging each other or when their hands linger longer than intended, bc in my place, such things (between same gender) are completely normal. But then I'd come to realize that actually I one of those people when I ship Jikook like so hard it's getting worst.

[cont..] I once said to my sister that I will support the members if they wanted to date openly or secretly but not Jikook bc I’ll only support if JM date Jk and vice versa and I don’t think that I can follow BTS anymore if JM or JK announce their relationship with someone else not with each other. Can you see how bad this situation is?

[cont..] One more thing is that I will become restless when there are moments between other members with either JM or JK but I don’t hate on other members when people shipped them with Jm or Jk. Am I too obsessed with them? Please don’t hate me. I wished I could return back time to when I only shipped them for fun and bc they looked cute together.

Hello anon!

I’m actually really glad you sent me this message because I think you honestly summarized all of our concerns as Jikook shippers to the exact point. I know many would disagree with you on the exterior ( “Do not choose a ship over the band!”) but I think if we were to be completely truthful to ourselves, we all think like this as shippers to a certain extent, and I actually respect you for being able to say it like this, to come to terms with your guilt and knowing these thoughts are “wrong”, even if simply through anon. 

And I get it–extremely relatable. I myself often say in my personal DMs: “If they’re not truly gay for each other at this point, is it not simply queerbaiting?” I say it again and again, and I genuinely mean it because it is so common for companies and idols alike to use “fanservice” as a marketing tool, whether or not we are aware of it ourselves. And if this were to happen to Jimin and Jungkook, we would certainly be upset, because from the way we see it, the way they interact with one another seems to deeply stem from their actual, true personalities. For example, Jungkook’s natural shyness yet obvious partialness when it comes to Jimin and Jimin alone is seen as a direct indicator to his proclaimed introverted self, and how he acts differently when it is someone he is smitten with. If all this were to go away, it would certainly change our perception on his personality as a whole. 

I personally have felt every single thing that you said above in the past, every single sentence. When I say things like “I didn’t sign up for this” I definitely mean it haha. It becomes obsessive, I totally get it. I came to terms with it simply by rooting myself in reality: I trust that the personalities and images they show on camera are real, but should they not be then that’s a whole different problem of who they truly are and what they wish to be seen as. But I always keep the “worst case scenario” in my head, that perhaps, just by history and just with the way things usually are, that it’s ultimately all fanservice, and I should simply take it all face value and enjoy it while I can. In that way, I set the bar low, if they ever do anything to contradict this “fanservice theory”, it simply improves from there. If it ever is that they are “real”, then it’s a bonus for me. For me, this was easy to do, because I can be totally pessimistic when I want to, but I’m not sure this is just as easy for everyone else. 

 Also, if you are worried about feeling seething jealousy should they date anyone else, I’ll tell you now that trust me: it is not that bad. In my younger days, I had my ultimate bias go on WGM, and even though I thought I would hate it, seeing him so happy and genuinely trying to fall in love was so rewarding that I forgot everything, and watched the show genuinely enjoying. You’re not as bad of people as you all think. Usually, your feelings of wanting to see happiness for your idols that you love and care for will overpower your negative feelings of jealousy and hatred. So trust yourself, that you’ll still support them as always, regardless of what the result is :)

Ultimately, use “jikook” as they are as a distraction, as a imaginative love that may or may not be true. Appreciate their dynamics, and do so jokingly. So that every time they prove it’s not really a joke, it becomes more fulfilling. I’m not sure if this advice will work for you, but that’s what I personally do. But ultimately, it’s okay to have all these “wrong” feelings in your mind, so long as you are aware of it and have a rational foot on the ground at all times so as to not completely lose when things don’t go your way–because a ship is a ship. It’s like watching a love story unravel in front of you, so totally okay to get invested in it ^^

But at the end of it, I guess all I can say as that glimmer of hope is: trust them. Who knows? Maybe they can be that one rare exception. It’s happened before. Maybe, just maybe we’ll get lucky in our lives and it’s what we think it is. :)