#artblock + december was a hell of a month

[vaduart]

Eclipse

how did I forget this completed artwork in the drawing program file??

[itsalola07]

I wanted to do stickers design! 😚💗 HI I haven't drawn for AGES I traveled, got back to work, opened and patreon (didn't post a damn thing) bought procreate dreams so I can do future animations and brainstorming for the exclusive thank you comic for people who bought JerSal combo plushies and and and-- 😵‍💫😵‍💫😵‍💫

Idk lmao I would love to inject myself with anti artblock serum because that shit was nasty as hell. I don't like it. I miss drawing, and I miss Jeremiah and Sally. 🥺💗 I hope my birth month DECEMBER will grant me exploding art energy so I can draw nonstop. ♡

[arollingriver]

My 2020 Summary of Art!

I was the most inspired in April and May, and got started with my new work rythm around October. 2020 was a terrible year overall, even for me, and yet an amazing year for my art... And I’ll write my own contemplations under the cut!~

cw: mental health themes, mention of suicide

I dropped my artschool in February. ♥

I’d started going to this new, expensive school in September 2019. The first few lessons were extremely useful, and taught me better ways to approach drawing, but it quickly went downhill. My health was at its worst, I couldn’t stand it anymore-- I didn’t even realize that I was starting to have suicidal thoughts again, when they’d had completely stopped since I’d started seeing my therapist. I was struggling, and the school’s administration was no help. If anything, they only made matters worse. I kept forcing myself though, as myself and my family had paid a lot of money for me to go to this school... But I simultaneously started to realize the teachers were straight-up bad. They were all artists, but almost none of them were actual teachers. They treated their adult students like kids while simultaneously yelling at them for not being more mature, and most of their lessons had no actual value other than to make us practice in a rush.

Not too long after I stopped going, and when I was done going through the immense guilt of having wasted everyone’s money, I realized I didn’t necessarily want to die. So that was my introduction to this year.

I participated in two Danganronpa-styled RPs around February/March that weren’t all that, but inspired me to create a season 2 for my own RP. Despite my difficulties with the french Danganronpa RP community, I managed to find and build a group of understanding, and interested people who participated in my RP and were, a large majority of them at least, very kind to me. Thanks to that, I was able to create a space to explore my main story (WIP! I would like to publish it eventually!) and some OCs, old and new. This inspired me to draw them... more and more... oh, and Thus Spoke Kishibe Rohan: The Run came out, making me realize that muscular bodies cool look great AND were extremely fun to draw.

As my OCs were a team of highly-trained secret agents, this was the perfect opportunity, and I was inspired to draw more and more. From that point on, I realized I was having fun drawing, and most importantly, that I was satisfied with what I drew, and I continued to draw both my OCs, and any and all fanart I was inspired to create.

I felt a little bit of an artblock by the middle of the year, but in retrospect, it made a lot of sense. I’d suddenly drawn so much the few months before, of course I would eventually burn out. It still felt important to me to continue going forward with my art though, so... I focused on what I needed, explored different methods, and still drew a few good pieces. 2020 is the first year ever in which my Summary of art isn’t missing a month.

Around October, I started to take my new work rythm seriously. One day I’ll write for my current main project, @murderfabrication, and the next I will either draw or rest. Because of that, I found myself drawing almost every two days. Between October and December, I was even able to draw Danganronpa sprites and a Danganronpa-styled illustration for pleasure (and Murder Fabrication ofc) again, when that had become a chore in 2019.

This year is the year I enjoyed drawing. Something always felt off before, because I had no idea what I was doing, but that’s over. I’m still not great, but... some of my art is good. It just is. Hell, I even drew a few profiles this year-- that’s how confident I am. I started drawing in a sketched style because I realized that was what I enjoyed the most and, oddly, that allowed me to get better at sketching to the point that when I do lineart now I actually... don’t... need to do lineart. My sketches are now so confident and solid now that I barely ever need to edit them for the final result... when I’d been known for my terribly messy sketches for years.

Yeah...

I don’t expect anything out of 2021. I always hope for the worst, so I’ll either turn out to be right, or pleasantly surprised. But I’ll continue to work the way I’ve been working these last few months (this very week doesn’t count - I’m on break!), and I hope to be able to draw more things I like.

If you like my artstyle in any capacity... Please look through my art this year on this blog. I’m really proud of it.

[ninniso0o0o]

2019 art summary

I knew this was bound to happen, I knew I’d grow impatient and flustered trying to get used to digital art, I tried my best to keep cool but I just... UGH! I tried to get back to traditional art, however I got rusty due to lack of practice... yub! That’s it! ARTBLOCK!

Jan: To fend off this artblock I decided to avoid drawing human figures, and surprisingly it paid off! I managed to finish creating my signature! It looked so good am confident in using it for my artworks!!! Also, I painted this beautiful bracelet... I still remember my struggle with blending, and then the moment it worked I just... gasped and jumped away from the screen, came back slowly in disbelief!

“I... did THIS”

Feb: I decided to design a tattoo, coz I needed to learn how to draw symbols and patterns, And so I did~

Mar: All about finishing dem WIPS, and struggling with my weak arm tendons... it’s strange... every March my arm just acts up... Also, I finally started to understand (one way perspective)!

Apr: The month of باليز ... I learned making videos in a new software, also getting to know my digital art style... I hope

May: No Mermay for May! It was a collide between my hatred for my drawing and the desire to pass time by drawing... that’s my annual Ramadhan condition

Jun: Hey look! A 3d chibi... yeah well, here’s a funny story: I was trying to take a shortcut and paint over the 3d model instead of tracing it for line art. But I ended up spending longer time than what would I have spent if I chose to just trace it... still, I’ve learned lots of things! Mainly tweaking colors, which is a very important skill to me... so yeah! 3d chibis is one of my things now heheheh.

Jul: My first half tradi half digital work with the tablet... I’ve always loved artworks that are mix of traditional and digital, and I am surprised I didn’t try this earlier... so yeah! Here’s my first attempt...

Aug: That’s it... I gave up to the desire to stop drawing. Ever since I went digital my comics got too lazy, and never beyond 2 panels... hell I didn’t even color the one I made for this month... Also, I started dubbing, and this account kind of lost its original purpose.

Sep: The fruits of learning one-way perspective... You see, Knowing where this line goes and why, and the feeling that everything looks just RIGHT are things I NEVER experience in my whole life!!! I have 0 spatial intelligence which means I can’t draw shit from my head and I am obligated to use references ALL THE TIME, Even with the basics of the basics... worse still, I can’t find references for everything... So being able to draw this background on my own means a lot to me...

October: I said I wouldn’t participate in Inktober and I FINALLY kept that promise! I don’t have the mood to draw normally, let alone with ugh ink! This month I hit 2 birds with a stone: I missed drawing myself, and I’ve always wanted to draw fanart for solve_hq! BOOM!

Also, I found a new way to quickly color sketches while making a birthday gift! That’s the funny thing, I only learn new stuff or form style of drawing/coloring when drawing for friends rather than for myself

November:

It is important to be carefree in drawing every once in a while! I rarely draw while saying: I don’t really care about the result! And I don’t spend more than an hour on them and yet, somehow, they turn out nice! I should do this more often

December : I am a gamer once again so I draw less than usual, You can see that I am trying to force myself to simplify my drawings and be less of a perfectionist so I can produce MORE ARTWORKS! Don’t tell me “quality over quantity” ... because at this rate, I am barely producing anything...

It feels silly that the main motivation of drawing this year was to fill this BEAUTIFUL art summary template by oh-no-Castiel of deviantart!

Plans for next year? I am keeping them under wraps. You’ll figure them out eventually ~