#arkeerants

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ranting on here for once instead of twt (which is back for me!) because i'm too lazy for the thread format and i must yell A LOT

it's about cid, and angeal deniers in ec...

like, i'm absolutely hating the lengths some people have to go just to be all "cid will come first" or "i would prefer if cid came out first"

you can just say you prefer a character over another without dissing one of the characters, saying shit like "oh but he's just a bad zack clone/bootleg so he's not important the way cid is", "you're doing selective reading on the interview", "i'll quit the game if angeal comes first", "what's there to explore anyway," etc.

like excuse me if maybe i'm biased towards the guy, but being someone who does have some impact in sephiroth's life, i think angeal is much more important than "guy who has a beef with shinra over the space program and drives our airship"

sephiroth is a driving force of the main ff7 plot

if not for cloud chasing after sephiroth around the world, cid would stay in his near backwater rocket centered town yelling at shera and not going anywhere (aside from maybe driving the bronco around, if you consider rebirth additions and the implications of him owning the bronco in og)

sephiroth, cloud and aerith are the driving forces of the ff7 story and anything directly relating to them in any way will be always more important

angeal is sephiroth's friend (and if you read into it, sephiroth's anchor). sephiroth's behavior through cc is impacted by his friendship with him and genesis both; showcasing that sephiroth's loyalty is not fully shinra's, that he's willing to ignore orders, dump missions on others and make his own rules if that means possibly helping both angeal/genesis survive

hell, after angeal dies, before nibelheim and with genesis possibly still alive, sephiroth has enough of a wake up call and decides he'll abandon shinra depending on the circumstances

cloud's sword was angeal's before it was zack's, and aerith was there when zack mourned the loss of the guy by his own hands

cid's character arc is mostly done in og; he goes through the domestic violence arc and "i'll join you because that's dumb as fuck, i like that plan" to "oops, the woman i yelled at and scared and blamed all these years for something that i chose to do was actually right". he gets a few extra tidbits in the extended compilation (i.e: marrying shera, naming an airship after her, working for wro now, having met ifalna in the past) but they're afterthoughts. the character was already explored

all of this to say that people saying angeal has no/lesser importance to the narrative than cid is fucking insane shit

i get people not liking him (it's not easy to because we're given crumbs of character exploration and also the way people behave towards mentally ill characters not acting 100% as they claim their moral code to be), i get people not wanting to play as him for the possibility of Yet Another Sword User™, i get people liking cid for whatever reason

but the fact that they feel they're obliged to jump into the discussion whenever someone shows the slightest amount of angeal hype in the chat to go "but naaah, cid is in the data, so cid gotta be first uwu" or "cid superior" or some other crap? it's driving me nuts

like imagine being so against the exploration of a character who needs it because he got crumbs in canon that need expanding to also further the main antagonist's tale, to the point you have to use other character already being in the data as justification

just say you're an og purist and go at that point, smh

"oh, i'll quit if angeal is first"

it'll be fucking hilarious if that happens, would love seeing that kind of person quit so much

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i just think that if there were to be a sephgeal week and if i were in charge of that... ok, may be controversial, but i would slap a "no antis allowed" sign on it

mostly because i'm very tired of the absolute hypocrisy of seeing some folks enjoying sephiroth based ships and slapping the stupid "pro ship dni" on their profiles/bios 🫠 (literally........ seph is the problematic component of nearly every single ship he's in, and none of the firsts are saints)

then again, i don't think i can muster the energy to run a third ship/character week thing.... i would probably explode lol

but god if it isn't frustrating to see art for a ship i'm highly interested in, go to a person's profile and see that they think people should perish for practicing "don't like don't read" 🫠🫠🫠

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ugh, i hate people who feel the need to comment rude things on others’ art just because of some sort of morality crusade when its not something that’s hurting real people at all : ^ )

like, please consider that the artist probably knows pretty well that certain things shouldn’t happen irl? consider ignoring it or blacklisting the tags or blocking people if the art made you that upset? consider that it takes effort to produce art of any sort and that your “feedback” contributes absolutely nothing to it other than being a mood killer?

just a thought

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i wanted to draw a thing based on this song i’ve been listening to on repeat the whole day (basically) but i got a phone call and i got sad and i have no energy to draw i guess

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I’m gonna put this under a read more because of obvious reasons (a trigger and it’s quite long), but please scroll down, really, if you’re triggered by this subject and if you’re on mobile and can’t blacklist ‘tw: rape’ or the read more doesn’t work there for some reason (because this site is broken, yes) or something.

Alright.

I’m feeling so damn sick after hearing the news today. A 12-years-old girl was raped by three (yes, three, what the fuck, I ask) boys from other classroom in her school. Yes, in a school. (Sources: [x] [x], although in Brazilian Portuguese, mind you.) Her attackers were all underage and thus, because the laws for cases like this sucks, the only thing that was done was to put them in a different fucking school.

I’m so damn enraged.

And not only that is the worst, after the 50 minutes long assault, this young girl tried to get help from one of the school’s employees, who thought she was just skipping class! They only got help for her when she started to hyperventilate and fainted.

She’s taking medication and stuff so she won’t get any diseases or worse, get pregnant.

And yet, her attackers won’t go to fucking jail because they’re underage and that’s how the laws are here in Brazil. The only thing that can happen, maybe, is all three of those boys getting sent to a reformatory, until they’re 18 y/o, maybe not even until that.

But the only thing they did until now was to put them in a different school.

This girl is like, just 3 years younger than my sister, what the fuck? This shit happened in the god damned state I live in? What the fuck?

I’m so done, so fucking done with this country, where people who study and do things rights face trouble finding a simple job, people who worked for most of their lifes get fired because of companies closing down and don’t get paid their rights, where electricity bills are increasing in value by every month, where minimum wage barely can pay for such bills and taxes and where a 12 y/o kid gets raped but the only thing they do is moving her rapists to a different school.

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i sent a résumé to a place last friday and till now, no answer was given and i was ranting about it and my mom just "and who would even email you back?" thank you for being an asshat, mom

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i hate my sister sometimes because she says a lot of shit that discourages me from doing/liking things i like and it’s very toxic and completely stressful

it also makes me fucking afraid of drawing whenever she’s around and she just says that i “don’t know how to take a critique”, like can you fucking not, what you give me isn’t critique, it isn’t a new color to work with a make things better, what you give me is a sword through my chest and it hurts.

i don’t need to hear “i don’t like this because your anatomy or w/e sucks”, i need to hear why the anatomy or w/e is possibly wrong, though i know it’s not, though i know i’m trying hard to get somewhere

like, holy fucking shit

stop

[s-ephiroth]

no, but i seriously had a fight so intense with my parents that i felt my chest burning and i don’t think this is a good sign, but at the same time i can’t not fight back when my mom does things as invalidate my sexuality and my dad says things like “you’ve got respect us because you depend of our money” while they don’t make me feel respected or safe to speak out my mind and keep asking me why i’m angry or why i give more attention to my friends than i give them

i don’t cry anymore because i get. judged. by. shedding. tears, can you believe this shit

i want out

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they threaten to turn off the internet everyday just to mess with me wtf