#arise♥️2020

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HAPPY NEW YEAR, EVERYONE‼️‼️‼️‼️‼️♥️♥️♥️♥️♥️ i hope 2024 is kind to you and that if any difficulties do arise, they can be resolved quickly and easily!!!!!

some thoughts about my 2023 + 2024 are under the cut for personal reference but feel free to read if youd like

OUGH so many things happened this year. it was. a lot. some bad. but also lots of good!!

things i've done in 2023:

- played p3+p4: some of my favorite games of all time!!! i love you persona!!!!!

- started writing fics: ive published more than 30k words since i started, and have AT LEAST 5k scattered across various wips/ufos. which is!! thats a lot of writing for someone who only did academic stuff for the last couple of years!!!! and it feels especially good since i haven't been able to draw or make music so im glad i was able to find another creative outlet and build new(/different?) writing skills :)

- lost my job :(( but found a better COOLER job!!!

- played ghost trick: GO PLAY GHOST TRICK RIGHT NOW!!! please 🥺 best game of all time i will shill it forever

- one piece: i would kill for monkey d. luffy. that is all. haha just kidding i love you one piece thank you for the joy and whimsy youve brought into my life lets keep it up 💪💪💪 lets stay silly and work to overthrow corrupt systems and stop injustices in our world 🔥🔥

- got a surgery ive been planning on for a long time and it!! went well?? which!! yay!!! ill be officially out of recovery in a few days and its :^) nice

- also i graduated therapy for the first time ever!!! it was nice actually having closure and 'ending' the relationship on a positive note, not just being thrown to the dogs in the middle of treatment

things it would be cool to do in 2024:

- travel, even if its just a day trip. literally i've only traveled to visit my family since covid started in 2020. i need to see the ocean soon or ill die

- try revisiting the p2 duology !!! i miss my kids 😔😔 and the music 😔😔 and persona in general and since im abstaining from p3re id like to do something to 'make up for it'

- start playing bass again!!!!

- maybe start up art again?? idk :// as much as i want to get back into it, i have so much difficulty transferring what i see in my mind to the page that a lot of times it more frustrating than anything but it might be worth a shot

- read dungeon meshi

- read dandandan (+ watch the anime if i like it!!)

- write more fics!!!! hopefully i will finish my vinsmoke-centric series!!! id say finish my law series too but that might never happen since i cant shut up abt this guy lmao. and i still want to write more persona!!! so many ideas AND so much time!!!!! no need to rush!! just gotta keep chipping away!!! and trying new things!!!!!

- WATCH STOCEAN. BC I STILL HAVENT < fake jojos fan 🤡

- play the zero escape series

- play twewy/neotwewy > if theres time !!!

- probably more!!! idk!!!

[nomoretears-707]

NoMoreTears707’s Fanfic Masterpost

Hi! I’m Pam! It has been a while! ♥️ I have been writing a lot since the last time I interacted here, so I will make a masterpost with all my fics!

Well, not all of them. Just the ones I don’t hate. XD

So here they are after the cut! And if you want to follow me on Twitter, it’s @/NMTears707!

And I’m putting this meme to give it a bit of life to the post! XD ♥️

Icebreaker

Canonverse/Canon Divergence | 40/(?)

Erwin will be the next commander in a very short time; Levi has lost everything that mattered to him. Their lives are changing; they are heading together toward that landscape painted with mysteries that is on the other side of the walls. The problem will arise when those changes, by reviving old memories, make their minds tortured by past, guilt and fear waver in front of the uncertain. Perhaps, what they need to move forward is to know they can trust someone else.

What they don’t know is that, in order to build that trust, they will need to undress themselves body and soul before the other, doing so to face the unexpected chain of events that will turn their expectations and dreams upside down.

Because only a living heart can fully feel the freedom that awaits them at the end of the battle.

A story about how the bond of trust, respect, admiration and devotion between Erwin and Levi was born during the war against titans.

English Version ➡️ (X)

Spanish Version ➡️ (X)

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Beyond Words

Canonverse | Oneshot

Mikasa Ackerman is the only person alive who could understand the meaning of the secret that Levi is not willing to confess to anyone else.

Levi and Mikasa speak briefly about their feelings for Erwin and Eren.

Link ➡️ (X)

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Little Pieces

Canonverse | 8/8

Anthology of drabbles I wrote for Eruri Week 2020. Boyfriend Jacket // Quarantine // Teenage Years // Scars // Afterlife // “Levi Thank You” // Liege // + Free Bonus Day.

Link ➡️ (X)

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Behind The Lyrics

Reincarnation AU | Teacher!Erwin x No Name!Levi | 6/7

Erwin is just a history teacher in a public school in Mitras; that’s what he thinks, at least. Trapped in a daily routine that feels like an endless loop, his life takes a turn when he hears “Promise”—a song by the most popular band among his students, No Name.In the passionate, raw, beautiful voice of the frontman, the mysterious Levi Ackerman, Erwin finds things he cannot define. Something related to solace, understanding, and feelings that revive his emotions anesthetized by the fatigue he experiences regarding his present life.

Something related to a deep nostalgia, too.

What does Levi talk about in his songs? Why does Erwin feel that only Levi has the answers he cannot find inside his mind?

Why do Levi’s voice and Erwin’s emotions seem to become the same every time Levi sings?

Link ➡️ (X)

French Version available at the beginning! Thanks MxCordelia. 🙏🏻♥️

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Anomaly

Marley AU | Marleyan Businessman!Erwin x Maid!Levi | 7/10

After spending years abroad, Erwin returns to the country where he was born 25 years ago, Marley. Seeing the world from a different point of view has changed his perception of it.

He feels like a foreigner.

His father’s death pushes Erwin towards that destiny to which he has been turning his back for years. He has to dedicate himself to the family business. Also, he has to assume the place his family name demands within Liberio’s high society. Finally, it pushes him to rediscover Levi, the maid who raised him after his mother’s death.

The reunion unleashes another kind of feeling, though. A suffocating attraction between two new strangers, an intrigue impossible to ignore; losing himself between his maid’s legs is something Erwin cannot dodge.

But there’s something about Levi, something confusing, mysterious, that awakens Erwin’s curiosity.

What secrets this maid's uniform is hiding from him?

Link ➡️ (X)

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Prelude

Canonverse AU | Teacher!Erwin x Prostitute!Levi | 7/7

Both followed their respective parents’ paths by devoting their lives to the same professions. Erwin teaches history in a small school in Shiganshina; Levi is a prostitute who did everything he could to get out of that hell called Underground.

One cold winter night inside the walls, they meet each other. During seven nights of shared intimacy, they reflect on their lives, their choices, and how they ended up becoming what they are.

Men without a purpose falling like feathers toward their destruction.

Canon Divergence in which Erwin and Levi never enlisted and Levi never woke up as an Ackerman.

Link ➡️ (X)

Russian Version available at the beginning! Спасибо, Кайю! ♥️

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Allied

Marley A/B/O AU | Military!Erwin x Maid!Levi | 3/4

A beautiful maid’s dress hides from the eyes of the world a legendary Eldian weapon that could bring freedom to his people—that’s Levi, the last fertile Ackerman alive. However, under the dress, there’s an omega that Marley needs to control to perpetuate his bloodline.

Erwin, captain of the Warrior Unit and in possession of the Colossal Titan, obeys Marley for just one reason, to wait for the right moment to destroy them from the inside. When Zeke—his rival, his comrade, an obstacle in pursuit of his goals—gives him Levi as a present without knowing the truth, Erwin finds himself in a situation that, whether he wants it or not, will change his life forever.

To awaken an Ackerman's hidden power, they must bond with an alpha.

Can Erwin stain his hands to that point by making that omega his own, embracing his most primal instincts in the process? Can he use an omega to achieve his long-awaited revolution?

Link ➡️ (X)

Russian Version available at the beginning! Thank you forever, Kinky Pie! Спасибо! ♥️

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Ineffable

Canonverse | Oneshot

Every Saturday after an expedition, the Survey Corps has the night off to do whatever they want. Many men in the Corps take the opportunity to visit a brothel and have a good time.Erwin is not adept at visiting brothels—sex is a distraction incompatible with his goals. Someone like him, responsible for so many lives and deaths, shouldn’t allow that kind of indulgence. However, that Saturday, he’s invited to go.

Captain Levi, too.

The latter’s reaction after the invitation is what pushes Erwin to inquire what’s going on behind the impenetrable stoicism of his right-hand man. What he doesn’t imagine is what happens after doing it. The temptation, the burning desire, the longings so impossible to describe. Inevitable after such a discovery.

Levi hates brothels and hates sex, indeed. He hates everything related to those concepts.

Everything except Erwin himself.

Link ➡️ (X)

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Stranger

Postcanon/Erwin Lives AU | Oneshot

Paradis won the war; thanks to Erwin’s brilliant strategy, Eldians now live in peace. Also, they ended the Curse of Ymir. For that reason, Levi lost what used to make him useful before people’s eyes, his strength, talent, and wings.

Humanity’s Strongest Soldier has died.

Since the end of the war, Levi and Erwin share their lives in an apartment near Paradis’ Harbor. Levi takes care of their home; Erwin is still the Commander of the Survey Corps. Together, they begin to build the peaceful life they always wanted.However, something about Levi is not okay. It’s something in the mirror, in his eyes when he looks at himself.Who is that man?

Is Levi still himself without his strength?

When Erwin understands that Levi needs help, he decides to take some days off. Determined to help just as Levi did after returning from Shiganshina, both try to find out what’s the problem and how to overcome it.Even if peace is not for people like them, they can try to find a way to make it work.

Link ➡️ (X)

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The Real Thing

Canonverse & School Caste AU | Oneshot

Erwin thinks about Levi, love, and their relationship, so unbreakable that goes beyond time & logics.

Link ➡️ (X)

This fic is part of the gorgeous White Lace & Promises, An Eruri Fanthology. You can get your digital copy here.

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Melodrama

Canonverse | Oneshot

After months of extreme sexual tension, Erwin and Levi kiss for the first time. Considering they are two adults around 30, Levi takes it for granted they will have sex. However, Erwin stops him and confesses the truth.

He has never done it.

When Erwin assures him he’s willing to do it and learn from him, Levi realizes it’s time to face everything he feels and desires. Even those things that, unlike sex, he never experienced. Chemistry, for example, and those deep emotions he holds for this man who drives him crazy in every sense.

But this is Erwin, and having sex with him means discovering a whole new truth about him.

The bastard is so fucking curious. And so passionate. And so childish, dammit.

Not the sex god—or the commander having sex—Levi used to picture.

Link ➡️ (X)

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Repetition

Canonverse & School Caste AU | Oneshot

The history teacher has fear in his eyes, one with a specific origin, and caused him all kinds of difficulties from a very young age.

He never expected to see the only eyes he remembers from his childhood, not again.

And here they are.

Link ➡️ (X)

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Aglow

Marley AU | Military!Erwin x Maid!Levi | 1/3

His dear young master Erwin, so changed since the war ended, has three well-hidden secrets behind his stoic, unreadable face.

1. His peculiar sexual lifestyle.

2. The mysterious club he attends.

3. His desire to sleep with his maid.

After finding out and despite his initial prejudices, Levi sees how a simple choice can put his life upside down.

There’s no turning back.

Link ➡️ (X)

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Yours

Canonverse/Marley AU/School Caste AU/Modern AU | 2/8

Giveaways based on people’s prompts to celebrate +1800 followers on my Twitter (@NMTears707)! ♥️

Prompts: 1. Erwin Lives AU/Post-canon tender bottom!Erwin scene | 2. Marley Warriors/BDSM AU | 3. canon!Levi dealing with insomnia | 4. gardener!Erwin x househusband!Levi AU | 5. canon!Eruris sharing a tent | 6. teacher!Erwin x janitor!Levi using sex toys for the first time | 7. Modern AU!Levi is dying Totally Angst™ AU | 8. Erwin Lives AU/Post-canon Eruris alone in a cabin.

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AND THAT’S IT! ♥️ Hope to update it soon!

Thanks for reading! 🫂♥️

[among-the-gently-mad]

I don't require the silence anymore in order to hear Him speak. . . I don't need to climb mountains in order to be near Him. . . I don't need to be lost in order to be found. . . I don't settle with the fleeting things in life and now live with the One who gives everlasting life. . . I don't go chasing dreams anymore and instead just be. . . And live. And smile. And laugh. And be happy. . . And yes, I allow myself to get mad. To feel sad. To feel sorrow. To get disappointed. To regret. To fear. . . Short moments in time when I allow myself to be frail in order to be strong in God's Might. . . To remember what it was like to be betrayed in order to feel God's faithfulness. . . To take a peek in the sullen and dark hole of despair while hanging on to God's hand, my only Hope. . . To recall what it was like to be brokenhearted, in order to be whole again by God's love. . . The missed opportunities paved the way to second chances. And came third, fourth and more...God is limitless! . . When I'm alone and it may seem that there's no one else around me, my constant Companion makes His presence known. . . I don't allow other people's negativities to hurt me anymore nor to dictate how to live my life. It took me this long to realize that their words meant to hurt and not to love. Their cruel intentions hidden under the guise of care and concern. . . I am fearfully and wonderfully made. You are, too. . . Let's spread love. Not hate. . . . #Arise♥️2020 #Arise2020 #EasterSeason #ItsstillEASTER #TheCatholicWoman #Blessedisshe #RomanCatholic #TheCatholicLife #Catholicism #Godisenough #SoloDiosBasta #hipstamatic #hipstaoftheday #jj_hipstamatic #shotoniphone #raw_mobile #raw_mobile_ #stayhome #quarantinelife (at Masao Beach) https://www.instagram.com/p/B_HbqK5h-2O/?igshid=1eyx14mkb8swi