#are sonja and spark confronting their own issues - no but they're not gonna let capsize avoid hers

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One of my headcanons for post timeline Capsize is that she has cleithrophobia (fear of being trapped). I say for the post time line, because while I think was still present during her original life it was more just a fear, something she found uncomfortable, rather than a full on phobia.

On Ianerea, her nerves with being trapped never really turned many heads. It was common enough in Ianitee legends for those with connections to the goddess to be uncomfortable in small spaces or when they were kept away from the sky. Though her fear started before her connection to Ianite, she was always glad for the cover the stories gave her.

However, after her imprisonment by Dianite, it became significantly worse. Admittedly, she didn’t realise this for quite a while since she died not long after said imprisonment started. But the moment her spirit started to become aware, the mere idea of being trapped or locked in started bothering her.

As a spirit, it’s an uncontrollable panic reaction. Her thoughts are messy and fleeting and all she knows is that she needs to know where an exit is. This mostly manifests in her opening every door Spark attempts to close to the man’s exhaustion. He assumes this is just typically ghost behaviour rather than something she's doing by choice. Until he gets himself locked in one of the old vaults and Capsize goes full poltergeist until the entrance is broken open.

He starts treating the constantly re-opening doors with less frustration after that.

Post revival, she’s better at hiding her panic. Though frustratingly she's far more aware of it bothering her. In all honesty, she feels embarrassed about the problems she’s having that she previously didn’t. Her missing memories were bad enough, the fact that she can feel her breath catching in her throat if she can’t find the exit to a room almost feels maddening. 

In general, it annoys her as it’s a clear sign to her that she isn’t fine. That everything that happened to her has had an effect and she needs to actually confront that. So she tries to just sweep it into one of the many things she’s ignoring to feel more like her old self. Unfortunately, Sonja and Spark have decided this is an unhealthy coping mechanism and are insisting on actually trying to find a healthier one for her.