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[tangerinesock]

I LIVE

Now don't get crazy, no new update, but I simply had to come back to life in order to share this with you all.

SOMEONE MADE A DOUJINSHI OF THE FIC.

This is not a drill a real doujinshi has been made and you can find it online for free! The art is sublime and really highlights the darkness of my fic, this is more than I could ever ask and I thank you all, this would not be possible without you.

You can find the link here:

https://twitter.com/ozukofan/status/1482408163215384587

This would not be possible without @ozukofan, who made this possible and regularly shares a lot of great content Zuko content, they're the nicest person and you should head there and say thanks cause I can't say it enough to them!

In an effort to say thanks, I have decided to try and get ready an update ready for this month, it's the least I can do.

Things have been getting better for me, so I hope to achieve this.

Again, thank you so much for your support y'all! Support the artist as well! Hopefully I'll see you all in AO3 soon!

[tangerinesock]

Update and Questions Regarding a Next Update.

Hey guys! So, Ive got a few asks, asking how I am and what's happened, and why have I vanished from the face of the earth.

The last few months have been a bit of a mess. In good and bad ways?

Family sorta found out I don't wanna be part of the cult anymore, which led me to have a 3 day long breakdown. They took it... surprisingly well, maybe in part because I managed to get the house to my name before the shit went down.

I got into drama college, fun, took a few prep classes and then had to decide to wait another semester or two to join because shit's expensive and the fam is NOT gonna help on that. Acting is for sinners yadda yadda.

Grandma is going into early dementia and I've gone through a streak of uncontrollable sleepiness for which I'm getting tests.

I got a bit of a temp job and I'm working on opening a little store of handcrafted goodies.

But you guys are not here to hear about my life, that was just me ranting gratuitously. You want to know, is A Prince's Ruin gonna be updated? The short answer is: Yes, eventually. At least i want it to.

I have a list of basically how I wanted this fic to go on and eventually finish. According to my plans, it would end after another 10 chapters, which I had more or less planned out. But in all the months to follow, I've grown more and more self conscious of whether this planned development would be worth the wait. Would it be dissapoiting? Would it not be everything you guys wanted?

It started as my self indulgent smut fest, and then i got invested and got serious, and I'm like: all I've written so far is horror, porn, and campy sex comedies, I'm not versed in making angst end in a fulfilling way???

So, I guess what I'm asking here, is for you guys to indulge me, and answer a few questions for me? I guess to fine tune the rest of the fic into something not shitty?

What do you guys expect to see?

Ozai's torturous death?

Aang and the gaang finding about the shit going on at the Fire Nation?

Team up with Aang to take out Ozhit?

More dark smut?

Zuko once more, not catching a single fucking break?

Uncle Iroh saving the day?

Uncle Iroh catching this hands?

Azula redemption arc to get revenge for her and Zuko?

Everyone suffering thanks to Ozai being a big ass sexual deviant?

Zuko Happy ending?

Zuko sad ending?

Final big battle? (I warn you, I'm shit at action scenes)

Less hurt for Zuko, more comfort?

The revenge of Zhao and his charbroiled dick?

This are just prompts, you literally can come here and suggest me anything. Just, send me and ask with your requests and I'll probably consider it. If not, it will at least get the creative juices flowing to help me write for this again.

Hope this has served to at least let you know i did not just fuck off into the night. It makes me very happy to know some of you guys are still out there, and remember my dumb fic. Have a lovely day.

[tangerinesock]

While I work on the next update, would anyone be interested in some background info of how A Prince's Ruin came to be?

It's funny, it started with a dream about a week after I started watching Atla on Netflix. The idea that became the fic came before I even finished the show.

[tangerinesock]

Could you expand on your writing process during Ozai & Zuko's wedding in A Prince's Ruin because I loved the way you conveyed the emotions and also because it pulled on my heartstrings reading it . You conveyed the wrongness and Zuko's confusion stunningly in the story so thought I would ask

This is gonna sound bizarre but before I write this kinda scenes I tend to close my eyes and like, immerse myself in the scene and what kind of emotions would be involved.

Most time as writers we haven't gone through the explicitly same situation as we're writing, but I like to grasp the core of it and try to relate it to a thing I have experienced. This scene, for example, I know what it's like to be trapped in a situation where you would rather be anywhere else, and it slowly dawns on you that you can't say or do shit to get out of it. Or craving for an affection even if it's given in the entirely wrong way.

So I tried to make a realistic portrayal of the storm of emotions that would occur? First confusion, a bit of shame because let's face it, Zuko's a boy who's always been pushed to be strong and ruthless, and he's in a situation where those things are being pulled away from him, where he feels like he was not enough. And then Ozai springs the wedding shit on him and like, on one hand he's been taught all his life that his father is right, and can't do wrong, that Zuko will always be the problem. But Zuko's also aware that there's something wrong here, that he doesn't want this, even if, as a prince, he's been somewhat sheltered and innocent, he knows enough to distinguish what's right and what isn't. But to admit what's really going on would be too hard to accept, so he'd rather believe he's the one thinking wrong, he's the one that should accept this. And he tries to scramble for ways on why this is right, on how to make it right, but there's always that voice in his head telling him the truth, trying to make him face what is happening, and he can't accept it, so he'd rather completely dissasociate with it, or lie to himself and believe this is good.

Idk if I'm making any sense? I can clarify if you have more questions. But this is the usual way I go about it.

Also, thank you so much for sending this ask! It gave me motivation needed for making progress on the fic today!

[tangerinesock]

Chapters: 4/? Fandom: Avatar: The Last Airbender Rating: Explicit Warnings: Rape/Non-Con, Underage Relationships: Ozai/Zuko (Avatar), Ozai & Zuko (Avatar), Azula & Zuko (Avatar), Iroh & Zuko (Avatar), Azula & Iroh (Avatar) Characters: Zuko (Avatar), Ozai (Avatar), Azula (Avatar), Iroh (Avatar) Additional Tags: Ozai (Avatar) Being a Terrible Parent, Ozai (Avatar) is an Asshole, Zuko (Avatar)-centric, Hurt Zuko (Avatar), Emotional Manipulation, Unreliable Narrator, Sexual Abuse, Childhood Sexual Abuse, Forced Marriage, Forced Feminization, Parent/Child Incest, Incest, Parent-Child Relationship, Angst, Angst and Porn, Porn With Plot, Alternate Universe - Canon Divergence, Brainwashing, Implied/Referenced Drug Use, Dead Dove: Do Not Eat Summary:

Madness had always been a silent companion to the royal family.

With Ursa gone, Ozai turns to her son, and something inside him snaps, an ugly idea that coils in his mind like a snake and tells him to make something unspeakable of his son.

Prince Zuko dissappears in the eve of his father's coronation, and in his stead, the servants gossip about the new wife Firelord Ozai seems to keep secluded in his rooms.

[tangerinesock]

Chapters: 5/? Fandom: Avatar: The Last Airbender Rating: Explicit Warnings: Rape/Non-Con, Underage Relationships: Ozai/Zuko (Avatar), Ozai & Zuko (Avatar), Azula & Zuko (Avatar), Iroh & Zuko (Avatar), Azula & Iroh (Avatar) Characters: Zuko (Avatar), Ozai (Avatar), Azula (Avatar), Iroh (Avatar) Additional Tags: Ozai (Avatar) Being a Terrible Parent, Ozai (Avatar) is an Asshole, Zuko (Avatar)-centric, Hurt Zuko (Avatar), Emotional Manipulation, Unreliable Narrator, Sexual Abuse, Childhood Sexual Abuse, Forced Marriage, Forced Feminization, Parent/Child Incest, Incest, Parent-Child Relationship, Angst, Angst and Porn, Porn With Plot, Alternate Universe - Canon Divergence, Brainwashing, Implied/Referenced Drug Use, Dead Dove: Do Not Eat Summary:

Madness had always been a silent companion to the royal family.

With Ursa gone, Ozai turns to her son, and something inside him snaps, an ugly idea that coils in his mind like a snake and tells him to make something unspeakable of his son.

Prince Zuko dissappears in the eve of his father's coronation, and in his stead, the servants gossip about the new wife Firelord Ozai seems to keep secluded in his rooms.

CHAPTER 5 UP NOW!

[tangerinesock]

Just a heads up guys, there won't be a new chapter of A Prince's Ruin this week. I need some time to take a breather from the fic for a bit, enjoy the fresh air and shit.

But I'll be back next week, up to my usual bullshit and stuff. I'm not just gonna dissapear on you lol.

[tangerinesock]

CHAPTER 6 OF A PRINCE'S RUIN IS UP

Summary:

Madness had always been a silent companion to the royal family.

With Ursa gone, Ozai turns to her son, and something inside him snaps, an ugly idea that coils in his mind like a snake and tells him to make something unspeakable of his son.

Prince Zuko dissappears in the eve of his father's coronation, and in his stead, the servants gossip about the new wife Firelord Ozai seems to keep secluded in his rooms.

[tangerinesock]

Heyyz so, I may update A Prince's Ruin tonight, instead of until Wednesday night.

The reason? Somehow, even tho this is the longest chapter to date (over 8k words) I managed to finish writing it yesterday.

I'm halfway through edits, there are some rough patches. But if I finish it today, I'll post today.

As a little teaser I can say:

Azula looks for help, to little sucess.

Ozai makes her be careful of what she wishes.

And somehow, a certain commander makes a discovery he believes to be in his interest. (For now)

[tangerinesock]

Soo, the next update for A Prince's Ruin will probably be tomorrow instead of tonight as usual.

I got side tracked by a little plot crisis and a Zucest idea that I refuse to get started on until I'm halfway down this fic

[tangerinesock]

The aesthetic for tonight is:

Do I finish watching Bly mannor or do I plan the next chapter of my fic?

I technically have an idea of what to do but I also wonder if it would be okay to not have Zuko's POV in the next chapter? Only Azula and maybe Ozai being a piece of crap.

Like, where do you even go when your life has been turned upside down by becoming your father's wife?

Would people like to hear my ideas for next chapter?

[tangerinesock]

This just in, I may update the fic of hell sooner than expected.

Turns out, being bedridden in pain works wonders for updating fics where there's also people in pain.

[tangerinesock]

My power grows stronger