#appreciating how broken our boy is ;///;❤️‍🩹❤️‍🩹

[finzphoenix]

I always wondered why he got two of his many toxin tubes connected to his jaw; honestly I kind of assumed it was more of a stylistic choice than a logical one.

But given that we now know he started huffing his own fear toxin after that Batman fight in Shadows, I guess it only makes sense that he would develop an addiction so severe that he could die without constant access to it years later if he kept kept taking it.

Camouflaj's attention to detail really is immaculate o.o

[xxxsharpcheddar]

Thank you for responding.

I normally wouldn’t say anything as to interject myself into other people’s lives, or do anonymous but I don’t want to potentially expose my husband to criticism for his past. He’s not on tumblr but that’s not the point. Like I said we are in the community. We aren’t the most well known anymore but we are known.

You have got to trust that he wants to be with you. That person that gave you love and affection and planned a future with you is who he is. That is the version of himself he wants to give to you. That’s who my husband was. He had a laundry list of terrible men to learn from. (I’m Not making excuses) abusive and toxic relationship molded him and it’s so hard to unlearn childhood traumas especially for men. If you want your partner to nurture your inner child then you need to nurture his too. The Little boys in them need just as much love as the little girls in us. Patriarchal power negatively affects men too. It was a source of relief for him to feed his childhood wounds. He felt isolated and alone in his struggles from his past. He didn’t talk to me about his struggles because he thought it would make him weak and how could I ever love someone struggling and my heart hurt for this man. He projected the man he wanted to be while fighting the man he was at that time. He is not perfect, but I’m proud he’s mine and I could never imagine my life without him and I’m glad I don’t have to. You would be surprised how powerful forgiveness can be for you.

You’ll do as you want, and that’s entirely valid. I just wanted to let you know that sometimes the right path isn’t the easy one and it damn sure wasn’t the popular one, but we found happiness and a bond between us that will never be broken. And you’re right, sometimes love isn’t enough, but sometimes it is.

Make the choice that make you feel fulfilled not the one that makes you feel safe. We all run from demon when we should stand and fight.

Good luck xxxSharpCheddar

Totally understand. Everyone’s got a past, myself included.

He was so calculated. He used the right buzz words. He did “inner child work” and he went to therapy (idk about you, but I know a lot of men who think that will emasculate them somehow, so that was already a gold star.) At the risk of sounding apathetic, I don’t want another person in my life that I have to heal from. I almost forgave him for the first person because I really did think the move was harder than he let on and he went for something familiar. I can understand that, though I’d never do it myself. We had an argument about her when we were first talking and he assured me it was just a misunderstanding. This was his second chance.

But how can I look at myself and explain away the others? Besides the original one, there was the one from January, the one from April, the feeder from about a month ago. There were others who were wronged outside of our timeline too. I don’t know what your situation was with your partner. You have given him grace and he sounds to have learned from his mistakes and you were able to create something really beautiful and meaningful. You have no idea how desperately I wanted to beg him to stay. I dream of it.

He was so seemingly open and raw with me about not only the struggles of his past but how he overcame them. He gave me hope that I could be as healed as him if I continued doing my work.

Regardless of everything, I am still very clearly in the trenches of it all. (Wishing my therapist would stop canceling!! Lol) You have such a big heart and I’m glad your man learned not to take advantage of that. I genuinely don’t know what my future looks like but my focus is on healing and putting my energy into my support system right now. Again, I really appreciate you sharing this with me. I’m sure it wasn’t easy to relive the not so fun parts, but it lead to something so beautiful.

Thank you❤️‍🩹

[myteavsricochet]

Hello, lovely ✌🏽 I want you to know that your love for rwrb, the movie and our boys always makes my day 💖 I don’t have many people irl who share that same enthusiasm, so I tune to blogs like yours to feel that sense of community! Thank you for all your thoughts and posts - you’re always appreciated

thank you, thank you, thank you I appreciate it so much I sound like a broken record but I really don't have enough words to explain how emotional I am about these messages ❤️��🩹

[onlyjaeyun]

my angel love zadie!!🌷🤍 idk if my asks are going through/being delivered to you bc my tumblr has been a bit weird lately :/ but i want to send another one and hopefully you’ll receive it!!

BUT OHHHH MY GOODNESS THE LAST COUPLE CHAPS LETS DISCUSS:

the amount of times i had to pause my reading session for the friendmas chap bc the more i read the more my heart broke and im too fragile to read it all in one go🥲💔 but hoon’s secret santa present for yn omg that was the most beautiful and thoughtful gift ever and the fact that it was hoon’s peace offering to finally put an end to all this enemy stuff made me so 🥺🥺 AND HIM WRITING THE CARD IN JAPANESE TOO!! i know our hearts have to hurt for a bit but im so excited to see soft and fluffy hoonie w/ yn and vise versa like they are each other’s person❤️‍🩹

now i don’t want to talk about the interaction with riki’s mom but i’m going to talk about it — what a witch!!! the fact that she could even sleep at night after knowing what she did to sunghoon & yn’s friendship is so unsettling to me like they were so young :(( and when hoon asked “what letter?” i swear i got so silent and had to stare blankly into my wall to process my heart shattering into a million pieces. like how they treated each other for the past decade was built off of a huge misunderstanding caused by none other than that witch of a mother/stepmother, i swear when i catch her!!!!! and yn giving up her dream for riki :(( she loves him so much and so does he like i cant even imagine riki’s emotions finding something out like that. also with yn too like she carried such a burden for the longest time to make her brother happy i’m so :(( they deserve a happy ending too and knowing that their “family” can never come near and hurt them ever again makes my heart so content😭❤️‍🩹

the nishimuras have such a special place in my heart 🥺❤️‍🩹 i don’t have any siblings so i like to indulge in her character a bit and their closeness is just something that pieced my broken heart from the friendmas chapter back together🫶🏻

NOW HOON FINALLY CONFESSING TO HIS BOYS HIS FEELINGS FOR YN!!!! i’m so so excited to see how this all unfolds and for hoonyn to get all fluffy and do couple things🥹💓

as always, i hope life has been treating you well my love!!! always thinking about you and how you’re doing🤍 wishing for you to be happy always baby!! sending you so much love💓💓💓

- 💌

oh goodness, my sweetest, kindest, softest baby's here and i couldnt be happier, hi my love 🥺🥺🥺🥺🤍

first of all, i hope you've been doing well and that life's been treating you even better baby, you deserve nothing but the best!🤍 please make sure to take care of yourself and i hope you have the best weekend ever 🤥💗💗🌥️

now, you have NO idea just how much your feedback and review on the most recent chaps means to me 🥺 thank you thank you thank you :( not only for taking the time out of your day to make mine so much better but also for always being so sweet and so kind to me, i can't even explain just how grateful and appreciative i am of you. i love you so so so much and am still giggling over your reactions, i love it SO much 😫

sending you the biggest kiss baby 💐🌷💞

[thatsmyships]

This is my attempt at trying to get out of the lurking side of Tumblr and actually participate. He’s an introduction to my likings! (couldn’t find the original page to credit the author of this questionnaire!!)

Your current OTP.

My current OTP is Gallavich! (Ian and Mickey from the show “Shameless” !)

A pairing you initially didn’t consider but someone changed your mind.

Sterek! (Stiles and Derek from “Teen Wolf” !) Watching the show the first time around, I was all about Stydia (Stiles and Lydia), and I still love them. On a few more watch throughs I took the advice of an online pal of mine, and definitely was surprised at how I couldn’t see the chemistry before! Love them.

A pairing you wish you shipped, but just can't.

Rina (Ricky and Gina from “HSMTMTS” !) I will learn to appreciate them over more time I believe, my Portwell ( EJ and Gina) Heart is just broken right now! ❤️‍🩹

What was the first thing you ever contributed to a fandom?

Not sure if this counts but probably a like on whatever fanfic I was reading on AO3 at the time!

Have you added anything stupid/cracky/hilarious to your fandom, if so, what?

Not yet! Just really getting into posting about my interests for the first time in here. I hope to one day be comfortable enough to maybe even share my writing!

What’s the longest you’ve ever been in a fandom? What fandom was it?

Not sure how long it’s been, “Boy Meets World” holds a special place in my heart! Especially Corey and Topanga!

What was your first fandom?

Sidemen I think, definitely way different to anything else I’ve listed here so far. 😂

Do you prefer real-life TV shows or animated TV shows?

Real life.

Has tumblr caused you to stop liking any fandoms, if so, which and why?

Bughead. (Betty and Jughead from “Riverdale”) Not going to lie, I’ve always been a Barchie (Betty and Archie) from day one, but thought Bughead was cute, but the fan base for that ship is wayyy to toxic.

Name a fandom you didn’t care/think about until you saw it all over tumblr.

Outerbanks! I’m literally obsessed. I can’t thank the “For You” section enough for introducing me to that show.

How do you feel about the other people in your current fandom(s).

I love everyone I have interacted with so far, there is always gonna be a bad apple, but I think for the most part the fandoms I’m in seem great!

Your favorite fanartist/author gives you one request, what do you ask for?

I’ll give the PG version for now, let me know if you want the answer to the NSFW version. I am in love with both Friends to Lovers and Enemies to lovers. Honestly I could read thousands of fics all with either of those concepts!

A person who got you into a fandom and what fandom they pulled you in to.

My IRL friend got me into “Stranger Things” just this past year. I honestly don’t know why I had been avoiding watching it for so long, but I’m so glad I did!

Your favorite fandom (for the people; not the thing you fangirl over).

Soap Operas, specifically Days of Our lives. If you’ve ever been on SOAP Twitter, you know the good drama that goes on with both fans and the actors. 😂

Choose a song at random, what ship does it remind you of?

“The Way I Loved You” Taylor’s version ~ Belly and Conrad from TSITP. ❤️

Invent a random AU for any fandom (we always need more ideas).

This is already an AU, but I don’t see enough of it!! ~ Fake Dating.

And a original idea… honestly I think every fandom needs any AU that deals with outer space!

A ship you’ve abandoned and why.

Don’t come for me but Olicity. (Oliver and Felicity from “Arrow” !) I was so into them when the show was still running, but now that it has been off for a while, I just don’t really seek it out, if that makes sense!

A pairing you ship that you don’t think anyone else ships.

The Moms from TSITP ~ you can’t convince me they aren’t lesbians.

What's a headcanon you have?

Stiles Stilinksi is BISEXUAL.

What are your favorite male/male ships or female/female ships?

Male/Male: Gallavich, WilSon (Will and Sonny from “Days of Our Lives” !), Ballum ( Ben and Callum from “Eastenders” !) Charle and Nick from “Heartstopper”!

Female/Female: Choni (Cheryl and Toni from “Riverdale” !), Calzona (Callie and Arizona from “Grey’s Anatomy” !), Brittana (Britney and Santana from “Glee” !), Stena (Lena and Stef from “The Fosters” !)

What are your favorite male/female ships?

Naley (Nathan and Haley from “One Tree Hill” !), WestAllen (Barry and Iris from “The Flash” !), Sarah and John B from “Outerbanks”, Barchie (Betty and Archie from “Riverdale” !), and Stabi (Stefan and Gabi from “Days of Our Lives” !)

Do you have any 3-way ships? If so, what?

Not currently! Maybe in the future!!

5 favorite characters from 5 different fandoms.

Eddie Munson/Steve Harrington- Stranger Things

Will Horton - Days of Our Lives

Iris West - Flash

JJ Maybank/Kiara Carrera - Outerbanks

Belly Conklin/Conrad Fisher/Cam Cameron - The Summer I Turned Pretty

3 OTPs from 3 different fandoms.

Gallavich (Ian and Mickey) - Shameless

Naley (Nathan and Haley) - One Tree Hill

Belly and Conrad - The Summer I Turned Pretty

A fandom you’re in but have no ships from.

Criminal Minds! I haven’t been in the fandom long enough to have any set ships yet!!

What's a ship that you want to ship publicly, but everyone on tumblr hates it so you keep your mouth shut about it?

They aren’t hated, but I feel like it’s always a 50/50 if you like this couple - Jim and Pam from “The Office”!

Thanks for reading! Let’s be internet friends and obsess over fandoms together! 🖤