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tumblunni · 7 years ago

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It was also a really disordered panicky dream with a lot of stuff that didn't fit into that semi coherent narrative. I guess just a mashup of all my stress from yesterday? The misc things:

* suddenly briefly was starring as myself in the regular non jrpg version of my dad's kitchen which was kinda scarier. It was that recurring horrible situation where he'd go out for the weekend and I'd get PEACE AND HAPPINESS AND BEING NOT HIT AS MUCH and then I'd be completely on edge waiting for the sound of him opening the door

But also this time I think I was watching some sort of scary thing on the television? I don't think it was the cyborg ferrets dream but I got the feeling it was whatever dream I had before that one, and that I'd forgotten parts of this big ol scary sleep session. Cannot remember ANY details of it tho, its just like a big empty void with 'you will be scared of this' written there. And I dunno, maybe something about the mid 2000s TV magician David Blaine?? Which might be because an episode of a mystery show that focused on stage wizards was like the biggest nightmare of my childhood. My other abusive grandma was being stupidly neglectful and had the whole family sit down to watch Johnathan Creek every night as a family. I'm only just realizing how fucked up that is as an adult! Its not only full of horrible murders but also a surprising amount of sex scenes, eurrgh. And loaaads of racism and homophobia like seriously Britain why u gotta be so fucked up. Anyway there was an episode of someone dying in THE MOST GORY WAY by being split it half by a buzzsaw LENGTHWISE THROUGH THE CROTCH during a failed magician trick, and then her partner stealing her identity and pretending it was her who died and then like.. Stealing her children too?? And they didn't even know this wasn't their mom until asshole racist detective man reveals to them that nope your mom is horrible sexualized deadness and this is the lady who did it. And somehow its sympathetic to her and she keeps the damn kids?? Like, the death being an accident = makes sense not to blame her, but HIDING THE DEATH AND STEALING HER IDENTITY IS KINDA FUCKED UP

Anyway in that dream snippet dad came home and I was worried he'd be mad at me for watching scary movies but he suddenly got all detective himself and was like 'aha there's a secret message hidden in the binary code for the mpeg file hmm hmm yes we should use dish soap on the aliens'

And then it just went back to the aliens dream and now I knew what to do??

* there was also a REALLY EEALLY CREEPY totally unrelated segment where a bunch of east Asian people where being kept in some sort of human farm??? Like reservations and segregation taken to an even worse extent. Why was this in my dream?? It was just like twenty minutes of getting attached to this poor family and then finding out they were trapped in a creepy 'wildlife sanctuary' set up by white people and like.. Having to pretend to be dumb animals while they secretly planned their escape and just YO, DREAM, I AM WHITE AS FUCK, I DONT HAVE THE RIGHT TO HAVE THIS DREAM. Any other sort of sci fi dystopia human farm situation yeah maybe, but not a crushingly realistic one because LITERALLY THERE WERE ACTUAL 'HUMAN ZOOS' FOR SLAVES. God, history is scarier than nightmares.

Uncomfortable.

And it had a really depressing ending where only the eldest daughter managed to escape and THE GRANDMA DIED and just god I don't wanna see any of this. I think it was vaguely inspired by the previous dream cos that Johnathan creek mystery show had a really racist protagonist. But like.. God

Dream-me, there's no constructive point to a story about racism awareness that just shows everyone dying and no hope and also its a sci fi fantasy thing so racists can easily deny its remotely grounded in reality and thus never actually change. And seriously 'racism story for the racists' is such an overdone cliche, Jesus Christ.. I feel like such a fuck that this stupid ass thing appeared in my goddamn dream *shudder*

* And the only impact that part of the dream had on any of the rest was that I apparently unlocked that protagonist as a skin?? Like literally suddenly a character select screen in my jrpg aliens dream. Apparently she was like the original guildmaster or something and that's why everyone disrespected pacman, cos he was the new replacement. So like.. She noped so hard out of racism dream that she landed in alien dream and apparently had a long and successful career as a jrpg space marine. Well at least thats mildly a more optimistic ending?

* A COMPLETELY UNRELATED DREAM AGAIN which was like the symbol of how much I miss my baby sister that I never got to see again after I left my abusive parents. I was playing as someone or other who had to look after a little sister and I think I was at a post apocalyptic version of Glastonbury music festival??? (I guess cos my grandma lived near there??)

And I just remember I had to take the lil sis to the bathroom but when I opened each porta potty it was everything except a bathroom. The closest I managed to get was this non euclidean structure of chrome sinks and nothing else, just a wall of sinks fused together like Tetris blocks.

So somehow I found one door in the infinite line of inter dimensional porta potties that led to Lockerroom Panic Memories. Ah, the horror of being a young in-denial trans kid not even knowing why you feel terrified changing in the girls room. :(

So yeah thankfully it was all empty and I mean I'm an adult now so its not the same sort of scary. It was just like that hallway from willy wonka where it keeps getting smaller until you get trapped. But eventually we did manage to find the door to the gym, and then back into the main school building where we could find the bathrooms.

And then I realised that all this time my baby sister was 5 centimetres tall and inside a block of butter (???) and it was like those grows-in-water toys??? So I was like 'darn I should have stuck with the sink wall' cos this one was a wall of only toilets.

Then I woke up.

So overall I didn't wake up in a panic cos my weird nightmare decided to end on a funny note?? Well OK then???

Anyway I need 2 try and get back 2 sleepe

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