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Top 5 pictures of Janeway? this is not me trying to pass the work of collecting references for drawing onto someone else. no, it is a gift to have an excuse to present your top 5 pictures of Janeway (or Kate Mulgrew)
What an astonishingly difficult question to answer. I decided to limit myself to only the pics saved on my phone because otherwise I'd be here all night
Bonus pic (because of course):
#this post self destructed 3 times while I was deliberating#a real shame I don't have any white suit photos saved weird#went over the limit my bad. luckily I'm on mobile and limited to 10#thanks for the gift!#but also I have better reference images for character study#lmk if you're interested in those#I couldn't not add that last one apparently it's my brand#every day is threshold day
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i don't think i would have been as happy in a music department as compared to a theatre department but sometimes i do think i should have just gotten a phd in musicology given how most of my writing is about music and performance lmfao
#the work i do really is like true performance studies but with a heavy music tilt rather than art or theatre#which is so funny because i hated being called a performance studies for so long and now i'm like. you want me to teach classical#drama to nineteen year olds? i mean sign me up but also this is about as far from my research wheelhouse as it gets#but also so funny to me because i obviously love doing theatre and teaching theatre but i apparently don't like writing about it LMFAO
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still working on tweening and etc but small self-indulgent sneak peek hehe
#my art#wip#bocchiposting#i wholly underestimated the amount of tweening needed and the amount of layers#originally i wanted to cover the entire song with parts for kita and bocchi#but given my current health condition + having work i think i'll just finish small chunks first and then see how much i can do b4 school#i can definitely finish the intro but i really want to draw in bocchi for a specific part sdjfhdskfjks#unfortunately i currently have the constitution of a sick victorian child! Any stress or strain sends me to the bed!#so i cannot crank this out within 5 hours like i used to be able to#the song is mesmerizer obv credits to that#it really has been a process of oh im just gonna do something small for fun oh no this needs more for a better streamline#halfway through i was like. would this have been easier if i just used. live 2d. probably. but i am too far in.#i need a good video editor program so bad but all the tutorials online are for AE and i do not have the money for that </3#and the next best option is apparently blender and i've done a few tutorials but i have never been able to retain the information <3#the learning curve is seriously hard and i don't have the time for that either </3 time is money fr#i tell myself to not feel guilty for drawing when i could be studying bc this is needed <3 this is self indulgent <3#self care!!!!!! rahhhhhhhhhh!!!!!!#kk rambles
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What if I say possesion storylines are secretly about domination and colonialism and the way in which the whims of the capital dictates every single aspect of social relations, and SA, which in turn is also about colonialism
#can you tell i have to hand this essay in two days and im going a bit delulu#my non-college friends tell me people who don't study humanities don't think and talk about their career all the time#apparently they ''don't have marxism-themed parties'' which makes me wonder what possible theme they could be basing their parties off of#do they have like. freud themed parties?? heart surgery themed parties?? gothic architecture themed parties?#it's all about the way the Big Bad Evil (which is the Hegemony) controls EVERYTHING#NOTHING ESCAPES ITS DOMINATION#THE CAPITAL ABSORBS EVERY FORM OF SOCIAL RELATION. YOU CANNOT EXIST OUTSIDE OF IT#EVEN IN THE RARE CASES IN WHICH A FORM OF PRODUCTION MAINTAINS A CERTAIN LEVEL OF AUTONOMY#(by avoiding the appropriation of the surplus value by the Capital. directly selling the produce to it instead)#ALL FORMS OF PRODUCTION MUST BEND TO FULFILL THE CAPITAL'S NEEDS as explained in chapter 6 of the capital#oh in need to find books about marxist fantasy and sci fi sooo bad. my prof insists on the left hand of darkness#so once i finish earthsea i'll see if i can get my hands on it#sa mention cw
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The thing about PLZA theorizing rn is that, with only one game in that subseries out, it's pretty hard to define what a Legends game is. Yeah, Legend Arceus dealt with time travel, but time and space were themes of the Sinnoh titles, so is Legends Z A guaranteed to follow suit? I guess not...
Kalos' themes, for like 5 minutes, were life and death, so is that why Lumiose City is going through a "Redevelopment" which could be akin to a renewal, so in a sense it'd part of that cycle?
#pokémon#Pokémon Legends Z A#Pokémon Legends Arceus#and yeah Ik part of the theories is placing it as between the 1850-1927~ renovations#which is also where my mind went#and apparently that is corroborated by a silhoutted npc's fashion but it's important to remember like#Wikstrom is using medieval armor in the present day bc he's just a freak like that (valid)#so who knows#I need more info is Ig the tldr#I don't even know that the catching method will be the same#since filling out the dex and studying the nascent Pokémon-Human relationships is not the focus here. presumably
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I just want to say I looove your art style!! It reminds me of a manga :>
Thank you so much!! ❤
And ahah that doesn't surprise me! I started drawing when I was twelve, I was a huuuuge manga reader back then, I fell in love with Fairy Tail's art style and redrew so many FT manga pages this manga is part of my DNA now
My second biggest influence on my artstyle is Voltron, I loved the artstyle so much and I kept drawing pidge over and over again and I feel like the influence is so apparent in my artstyle now :'D
#ask#answered#art inspirations#I vividly remember my mom gifting me the first Fairy Tail artbook Fantasia and it became my BIBLE you don't even understand#I redrew every single illustration in this book and studied his style over and over again it was wild#my 12-14 yo self was the most productive I ever was my tired 24 yo self could never#Voltron was more of an influence when I was 18-20 it's more recent so I think it's the most apparent in my style nowadays
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im so angry and sad i feel like im gonna be sick
#there's nowhere for me to be around people without putting my health at risk because nobody FUCKING cares or even knows (apparently)#what the long term effects of covid are (still.)#i have to fucking educate people apparently but i don't HAVE THE EMOTIONAL RESOURCES BECAUSE I HAVE NO FUCKING SUPPORT#i have online friends they're great but you Know what i fucking mean. i need a real life hug or im gonna [redacted]#c19#covid cautious#all caps cw !/@@€_&!#vent cw :);/€?#i feel like im in a fucking time loop im getting cabin fever i feel like im crazy because im the unfortunate one with Health Condition and#ability to read a fucking studies#i want to go home.
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very confused by whatever happened to me yesterday unraveled was announced and i am suddenly not a hater anymore
#kotlc#i've been trying to word it in this post but gave up I'll circle back around#it's something about like. the distinction between keefe and sokeefe#i don't mind keefe being more important apparently#i DO mind prioritizing sokeefe#and while keefe is obviously very tied to sokeefe. him being in the forbidden cities is going to have a degree of separation from that?#of course he'll probably pine hopelessly through the whole thing#but it's still a level of separation to me#and so. I don't really mind#unraveled doesn't upset me#which was quite confusing because when I first heard keefe book I thought i'd be super annoyed#turns out no so. interesting!#studying myself#don't mind it being a keefe book don't mind the series going forever
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That different people can engage with the same piece of media and come out of it with wildly different interpretations is a testament to the evolutionary miracle that is the human brain. It is also very annoying.
#but i'm gonna mind my own business.#like the point of saw and luthen's characters TO ME isn't 'Both Sides Bad' it's 'revolution is ugly beyond belief and#if you make it out alive it won't be with clean hands EVEN IF your cause is just and the alternative (fascism) is unbearable.#i think the audience is meant to be disturbed by their accelerationist tactics we are meant to think about whether the ends really justify#the means we are meant to think about whether 'good' is something you believe or something you do or something in between.#we as the audience of a prequel series also have the benefit of near-omniscience bc WE know that while saw and luthen are poking the bear#and playing with human lives like they're chess pieces the empire is actively building a weapon capable of blowing up entire planets#and mass-murdering billions which they will later use without hesitation. saw and luthen DON'T know that which complicates things further.#collapsing all that nuance and reducing it to Both Sides Bad is. well. reductive. but like i said i'm gonna mind my own business (lying).#btw i say all of this as someone who studied real-life parallels of these kinds of things extensively in school and had to stop because#i was too much of a kumbaya pacifist and it quite literally drove me insane.#so if anybody came out of that show saying Both Sides Bad it should've been me. and yet. like idk man at the end of the day#there is a difference between a rebellion using violence to claw back an imperfect democracy and a brutally repressive empire.#sorry i promise i'll stop talking about this show someday but ummm that day is not today. apparently.
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Devastating news: my brother is a normal person. It doesn't run in the family, I'm just a weird freak for no reason
#i'm exaggerating but not that much. my parents are like that because they're in their 50s. they were young adults once#okay so my brother. 18 years of age. just started his fancy higher studies in maths. tiny baby goatee he's not shaving.#went to a friend's week long birthday party in a house in the countryside#made out with a girl there?? apparently???#started drinking alcohol. and has now been going out longer and more frequently and sleeping at other people's places#and bestie. let me tell you. i was never doing any of that shit. in fact i am not doing any of that still and i'm a few years older#i don't go out much. i have like four or five friends at all times tops. i certainly don't come back late or god forbid sleep over#never drunk alcohol (don't want to. i could! i just don't. i'm the sober idiot in the corner when everyone else is drunk)#never kissed anyone or had a partner or anything of the sort#he decided to sleep over at midnight?? with zero preparation??#buddy it would have to be pouring acid rain for me to have an unplanned sleepover#without my toothbrush? my pyjama? my phone charger? my plushies? possibly my own pillow/blanket? be for real#my brother is a normal teenager/young adults with a social life and no weird hangup about romance and alcohol and spontaneity#and i'm some kind of freak i guess. having a normal time#older sister girlfailure forever i suppose. how the fuck do i feel like my younger brother is cooler and more normal than me???#i don't even want to be like that i like myself i thought i left all this stupid unfounded insecurity behind with school!!#arghhhhhh#wow i have a ramble tag now
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listening to ASMR again, WHY DO THEY KEEP KILLING OFF MY FAMILY??? WHAT DID THEY DO?? THEY COULD BE ALIVE? THIS HAS NOTHING TO DO WITH THE PLOT YOU JUST KILLED THEM OFF FOR FUN???
#radioislisteningtoasmragain#also sidenote getting REALLY into hero villain dynamics and I'm literally about to break out my villain oc and put her in a story here#i swear once I get over my weird social anxiety thingy I will BE UNSTOPPABLE#I WANNA BE ONE OF THOSE WRITERS WITH THE COOL OCS THAT PEOPLE LIKE RAAAAA AAA AA A A A A A A A A A A A A A A#SOMEDAY MY TUMBLR WRITING PIPE DREAMS WILL COME TRUE hopefully I gotta get my shit together soon because apparently I'M GOING TO COLLEGE???#the fact that I'm likely going to be a BUSINESS MAJOR SICKENS ME no offense to business majors but I have not heard good things#I'm taking my GED this year and then college next year i think but uh I'm shit at studying#I genuinely think something's wrong with me because WHY CAN'T I STUDY LIKE A FUCKING NORMAL PERSON#and I can't even ask for help because I SHOULD KNOW THIS BUT I DON'T#I'm smart I know I'm smart I just can't BE smart school wise anyways#aAA A A A A A A anyways enough with the tag rambling back to cleaning my room because it's starting to look like an episode of hoarders#and I need to snip that hoarder mindset in the BUD because its not healthy#I'm gonna take a nap after this
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my mom read one or two articles with supposed "statistics" that say sleeping in a bra or even just frequently wearing a bra causes breast cancer and like I cannot believe that she's fearmongering to me about "would you rather wear a bra to bed because 'it's so uncomfortable without it' and have to fight breast cancer, or would you rather get your priorities fixed?"
#gurt made a great point over the summer bc she got the full brunt of my mom's insanity#she said that like. one or two small studies don't necessarily mean definitive fact#but my mom takes any statistics she sees from this stuff as absolutely true#so like... yeah maybe there's some correlation. but I don't think that me covering my massive badonkalonks when I sleep#is going to directly cause cancer#yeah maybe too much high omega 6s CAN cause inflammation and heart problems or whatever. but eating peanut butter isn't going to kill me#my mom has no sense of moderation. she's a statistics person and if there's a statistic that says something well by golly#that's the gospel truth apparently#Lu rambles#I have got to get out of this house. I have to#does anyone in the western US need a roommate? I'm working on getting a car rn
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Vislor Turlough my beloved you are so so special to me because of. how circular you are when you start off, character and motivations. his life in exile is basically a loop between "I want to go home (I want to be somewhere I belong)" and "I can never return home (I will never find a place where I belong)" and. and idk but that hurts and kind of reminds me of the doctor.
like. you want to go home. you can never go home. it’s all you’ve ever known. you have no idea what’s happening there. it’s where you were born and raised. you don’t know how things have changed since you left. it’s associated with your good memories, of family and friends and education. it’s also associated with some of your worst memories, of war and death and separation. but you want to go home. that’s the problem, isn’t it? you can’t help yearning for it, that familiarity that can’t be replicated anywhere else. it’s your home, your people, you don’t know where else to go, where else you could go. you can't go home. if you go back you will be exiled again or executed. but it’s the one place you may truly belong, you're tired of being an outsider and you want to be somewhere you belong. you will always be an outsider, you will never find somewhere you belong. you want to go home. you can never go home.
#doctor who#classic who#vislor turlough#my thoughts#character study#i'm just jumping around dw istg#i get obsessed with one character and their angst for a few weeks and then jump on another character and do the same thing w them#THERE IS NO END TO IT#also i was reading trivia on turlough#and apparently trions (his species) don't like to look back and prefer to live in the present#which is both ironic and sad for turlough#bc i KNOW he spent most of his time on earth miserable and hating every second of it#and we always see into his mind after he's left earth but never when he was on it#looking back on his time there as he travels with the doctor#but never when he thought there was no way to leave and he'd be there until he died eventually#so i like to imagine that even tho it hurt he was always looking back on his days back on trion to distract himself#(maybe avoiding bad memories like the war and his mom's death)#then again he's a bit of a pessimist/realist so he could have thought about those too#especially since he associates those w his exile and misery on earth#and his desperation to leave#oh well#more angst for us yea baby!!!#thank you for coming to my ted talk
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I saw in one of your tags that Oli went to uni. Do you know more about that?
well I'm so glad you asked, not because I have much info but because the little I do know is from the funniest possible source: his tinder bio from 2020
#among other things we don't know exactly WHEN he went#but I like to think he studied some kind of media/ management stuff#that is relevant to his learning to do tour management#which we know from Louis he was doing#and apparently also spanish!#anyway I thought I was SOOOO funny making an account where I leave Oli but blur Louis#but the man himself was way ahead of me#galaxy brain oli living in the future back in 2020
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every time I come up against a pregnancy food restriction I don't like I text my mom about it like "are they for real on this one or can I ignore it"
#apparently rhe reason they don't prescribe zofran until you're in hyperemesis land is one (1) study showed it maybe causes cleft palate#and I'm like [puking] dude I do Not care we can fix that in post
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I feel like every day I log on and find posts complaining about apparently inescapably common bad takes, and just about every time it's something I've never heard of happening. Where are these coming from, TikTok? Some parallel Encantblr I've sequestered myself from? The Bird App? The comments section (never read the comments y'all, except on fics you enjoy, and then leave one yourself)?
#I'm sort of curious but at the same time am glad I've curated my experience#so I don't get fussed about stuff#except people fussing about stuff#which makes me wonder what the fuss is about#this post brought to you by a bunch of people apparently thinking Mirabel is an uwu baby#who are they I wish to study them for science
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