#apparently cannot shake my firm conviction that time and space itself will warp around me and stretch that five minutes as long as i need

[aiyexayen]

adhd is not just losing track of time by not thinking about it. it's also looking head-on at the tasks you are about to do, full of energy and vigor, and while actively thinking about time still somehow fail to estimate how much time it all will take.

"i'll be right there, gimme just one minute," i say, utterly and incomprehensibly confident that it will take me no more than 90 seconds to fluff the rice, let it sit for 60 of those seconds, then dish out the rice, dish out dumplings, arrange my food prettily, snap a photo, pour out soy sauce, salt my avocados, move my food to the table across the apartment in two separate trips while resting my back between them, go bring in some packages from the front step, rest my back again, answer a text, upload said picture of food, find my sweater, and finally hop on a video call i am genuinely startled to discover i've left waiting for, in fact, nearly 15 minutes.