#apolocheese if this wasnt the most cleanly arranged! mx. adhd just woke from a dream where my friends died. rafayel-core✨️

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good morninggg i love how mc keeps being born into vulnerable positions no matter if theyre a royal or became a hunter or mutually considered an equal to their friend/partner and so on because they seem to always know the least out of everyone else before dying and even whenever theyre bound by some greater force or by choice(s) to whoever it's in a (sometimes also mutually) doomed way

or a way that doesnt even work in mc's favor bc theres setbacks mc especially doesnt know (mc doesnt remember, or mc has to say a name a certain way (rafayel, rafayel who in floral promise says hes allowing himself to be trapped as if it's the first time, as if he didnt very soon after make her realize that she only can sway him through the bond by calling his name a specific special way, as if he didnt not change his name and did seek out her company (like a pepper spice that stings but can still be held & sought and beautiful (aheem heem whimper Anecdote)) then accidentally like her again too much the way he accidentally ended up still liking various aspects of the surface world in general in the process of trying to mostly just learn it because his big thing is seeing the beauty in/despite darkness and not being entirely consumed by his duties (godhood, artist work stuff, justice against raymond-core mfs), as if hes not who keeps seeking her with a softness through multiple lifetimes despite his conflicts n how she forgets him entirely and he already died for her at least twice (fragrant dream, forgotten sea's purposefully ambiguous end's likelihood) he has so much else to do but so does she and

theyre both just ppl fighting to escape / fix fucked parts of the already fucked roles they were assigned by being born))

they said Fate Sucks In All These Directions Let's Beat It Up Til It Goes Where We Wish Or Literally Die Trying Because I Willingly (Perhaps Even Forbiddenly) Gave My Heart To You (Perhaps Literally) And Don't Want It Back Even If Others May Push Or Not Understand Us Or If Even You Won't Understand, Over and Over (new fall out boy song title dropped) that applies to

probably every of the main characters in their own ways and

i love rafayel (can you tell hes my bias)

and his processes & cycles of love & grief for one person + so many people and

i love mc for miraculously still subverting the damsel in distress trope