#aoyama going through the horrors of a stomach ache because i had one

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lights will guide you home (Tokoyami Fumikage X Reader) PART 2

PART 2 to: https://ice-cream-kitsunegirl.tumblr.com/post/189811426209/lights-will-guide-you-home-tokoyami-fumikage-x

WHOO! Another part done in a day! I was going to put this in the first part but... ultimately decided to just cut it in two since it wasn’t quite done yet... and the first half felt more complete enough to be a chapter...

And yes... I alluded to a moment in American Horror Story because I’m soooooooo original lol JK JK but I couldn’t resist XD 

Taglist: @shimy-deko​, @teerama​

Summary: Your classmates haven’t found you yet, and Tokoyami fears that the worst has happened. 

The damage is done The police are coming too slow now I would have died I would have loved you all my life...

You're losing your memory now You're losing your memory now You're losing your memory now You're losing your memory, now…

‘Losing Your Memory’ Ryan Star

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=hFpFZxvi3Qs

“Flesh, flesh, sweet soft flesh!!”

“(L/N)!!”

“I’ll… KILL YOU…!!”

“STAY AWAY… FROM ME… YOU’LL DIE!!”

“(L/N)!! Look out!!”  

“(L/N)!!!”

So many voices were echoing in your aching head that you couldn’t even recognize as minutes felt like hours for you.

Who were those people? What were those voices? You thought as you slowly blinked your eyes open as the high-pitched ringing in your ears drowned out the voices you previously heard. It was exhausting just opening your eyes as you inhaled quietly and exhaled, but then you began to wonder.

‘Where… Where am I…?’

You thought as you suddenly grunted and groaned in pain when a sudden wave of agony hit you and made you cringe when you even attempted to try and get up. There was something warm seeping down your back and down your belly and yet you didn’t even realize it, all you knew is that you were in so much pain...

But where the hell were you? It was dark, so dark as you blinked and saw nothing but dimness in this… forest? What the fuck were you doing in a forest? It was all so overwhelming that you started to tremble and hyperventilate as your first instinct was to get up so you could get out of here.

‘I gotta… no… no what this is place…? This… no… I… I gotta get out of here…’

Stumbling, you shakily got back up on your feet but nearly fell back to your knees as a haze clouded your brain and made it hard for you to comprehend anything that might have been going on as you didn’t smell the burning smoke or even hear the distant shouting.

Your classmates, Izuku, Shouji and Bakugou, you forgot they existed. They were nothing but shadowy figures in your brain as you could only try to stay standing and see if you could get out of here.

You forgot that Tokoyami existed and that it was Dark Shadow responsible for the deep slashes across your back and your stomach as you winced with every step you took. Warm fluid flowing in scarlet rivulets down your torso, staining your shirt that you couldn’t care to acknowledge.

What happened? Why was this happening? How did you get here? No, you weren’t supposed to be in this place, you needed to go home…

Was all you could think as you slowly and clumsily walked away from this place, wherever it was in a confused daze as you looked around frantically for anyone that might be able to help you find your way out.

“HEY! Stop right there young hero! Keep going! You’re almost there!”

A voice made you gasp in shock as you saw a man, dressed like Deadpool? Was he a cosplayer or something? You had no idea but you somewhat desperately walked over to him, “E-Excuse me… b-but w-where am I? I-I think I’m… lost… d-do you um… k-know where I can get out of here…?” You asked him politely, shakily as you couldn’t stop your body from trembling and involuntarily brought a hand up to clutch at your bleeding stomach when the pain started to slowly become more apparent.

“Ooh! That looks ugly! Ah you can barely see it!” He exclaimed in regards to your wound, “And I came from that way! You’ll find a street that takes you to the next town! It’s the wrong way!” His words were confusing you even more but he wasn’t hurting you and didn’t seem to consider the fact that he was SUPPOSED to capture you as you nodded slowly.

“T-Thank you sir…” You shyly stammered as you quickly tried to get away as fast as you could to leave this place, “No problem! Shouldn’t you come with me?!”

He was strange but you had to go, you needed to get out of here that’s all you knew, and you didn’t even know that the man actually had enough sympathy to let you go because he was starting to think that maybe you were just someone who got lost and hurt instead of one of the young heroes…

You had no idea that you were standing in the face of a villain, or the fact that the villain let you go under the belief that you weren’t a student.

Oh my God you were going to be late for dinner tonight at home, you almost wondered if your mom was going to be upset. Or worried, probably worried.

This was so weird, you had no idea where you were at you needed to go home fast, you kept telling yourself that.

Meanwhile…

The pro-heroes arrived too late. The police arrived too late.

The villains were successful in kidnapping Bakugou. Had it not been for Aoyama they would have ended up taking Tokoyami too.

Yet all he, Izuku and Shouji could think about aside from losing their classmate was the fact that another classmate was gone and they couldn’t find you. Although Dark Shadow did manage to defeat and maim the villain ‘Moonfish’ as he was named, there was no sign of you and you didn’t reappear after getting attacked.

Todoroki and Bakugou got Dark Shadow to calm down and put an end to his rage, but you were gone and none of the boys could find you. Shouji couldn’t hear you nor could he detect any noises in the distance because there were too many villains and scattered classmates about for him to tell which one could have been you.

The boys, but especially Tokoyami, were extremely reluctant to tell Aizawa that while one their classmates and his students got kidnapped, that one of them was missing, and it wasn’t even the villains fault. Shouji and Izuku didn’t pin any blame at all on Tokoyami, but Tokoyami himself did.

“It was… it was my fault… I lost control and she…” His voice was cracking but didn’t dare show his tears to his teacher when he took all the responsibility for your disappearance. However, the man couldn’t really let him do that to himself when this wasn’t anyone’s fault.

“Your quirk still needs control. But this was a situation beyond anyone’s control.” Aizawa didn’t disagree that Tokoyami lost control, but he was still only a boy who didn’t have complete control over such a powerful quirk, and this was a situation that neither of them was prepared for so he didn’t blame him.

“B-But I-.”

“No buts. There’s going to be a search party for (L/N) and Bakugou. None of the pro-heroes will leave any stone unturned, not until we find them both. In the meantime, we’re all taking you back home.” His teacher shut down anymore attempts he could make to blame himself as he made the raven go back to his classmates and inspect them for any injuries. Of course, several of them had gotten hurt, and Jirou and Hagakure had to be hospitalized due to the poisonous gas from one of the younger villains.

Everyone had to be sent home except for Jirou, Hagakure, Yaoyorozu and Midoriya, whose injuries needed to be tended to in a hospital. But everyone else was allowed to return home to their families due to their Summer Training Trip being cut short.

Tokoyami could barely sleep that night, in fact, he didn’t sleep at all as he retreated to his room after his parents asked him if he was okay. He wasn’t a liar, but tonight he had to because he couldn’t bear telling his parents that he killed his own classmate because he lost control of his horrible quirk.

He couldn’t tell them that it was all his fault that one classmate was missing and probably dead. He could barely even breathe knowing that fact as he sunk to the floor of his room and grit his teeth when a wave of shame crashed over him and brought him down to his knees.

Shallow breaths hitching as he choked on the sob that had been caught in his throat the second he told Aizawa what happened and he’d been holding it all back until now. His tears dripped from his shut eyes and hit the soft ground of his room as he quietly cried.

He had no idea where you were, no idea if you were still out in the forest, no idea if you were even still alive and it terrified him.

You were gone and it was all his fault…

The last thing he would ever see from you was the look of horror and betrayal in your eyes before Dark Shadow attacked you and threw you deep into that forest. The last thing you would ever see from him was the monster that was his quirk, killing you…

He killed you…

“Fumikage… Mr. Aizawa said that they were going to look for her…” Dark Shadow telepathically and softly spoke to his distraught master, but Tokoyami wasn’t having it. He wasn’t going to listen to him anymore after what he’s done. The shadow’s done some bad things but after all of those things he’s done, he finally crossed the line.

“Fumikage…?”

“Fumikage… come on, I’m… I’m sorry that I-“

“I don’t care if you’re sorry!” After ignoring his shadow ever since Todoroki and Bakugou made him stop, he finally answered to him but he wished that he didn’t.

“B-But I…” Dark Shadow was clearly guilty as he had tears in his now yellow eyes, but Tokoyami didn’t feel sorry for him. “I really am… s-sorry…” He couldn’t believe what he did, he didn’t want to hurt you but he was so angry, so fueled by all the fury and everything else that his host felt in the moment that he just lashed out and tore through everything in his path.

But Todoroki and Bakugou flashed their light on him, only then did he realize what he had done.

He hurt you…

He saw you flying and he knocked you out of the wind…

“If you were sorry you wouldn’t have done what you did…” Tokoyami spoke to him coldly, it wasn’t the first time he’s been pissed off at his shadow before, but this time he was just disappointed with him. He hated him.

“I-I know but…” His shadow sadly whimpered and tried to tell him how sorry he was but Tokoyami shook his head, “I don’t want to hear it anymore! And I don’t want to hear you anymore!” The raven didn’t even think, he just shouted at his quirk when he couldn’t take his apologies anymore. Sorry wasn’t going to bring you back after all.

“B-But Fumi…”

“No more! Just be quiet! Be quiet and don’t speak to me!” He shouted at him one last time as he got up on his knees and turned all the lights on in his room to make his shadow go away, and he held his tongue so he would keep to his word and no longer to speak to his shadow. After what they did to you, this was a deserved punishment.

Dark Shadow gave a low sniffle and quickly retreated when the sudden brightness of the light stung. Tokoyami was really mad at him now, and at the moment he felt like he deserved it now that you were gone because he couldn’t control himself.

“Okay then…” Was the last thing Dark Shadow mumbled as he stood within his host and remained dormant inside.

As he could no longer hear his shadow, Tokoyami already felt the twinge of guilt as he shakily sighed. It’s not like it was completely Dark Shadow’s fault that was simply in his nature, but still, Tokoyami couldn’t help but blame him.

However, he also blamed mostly himself. If anyone was the real villain tonight, it was him.

He hurt someone good, someone beautiful, someone who had never done anything to anybody. A hero in training with a good quirk that did nothing but bring light and good to this already bleak world. You were gone, and it was all his fault. He killed you. He killed someone he grew to love…

It was all too much for Tokoyami to bear as he stumbled and fell to his bed, eyes shut as he did his best to hold his tears back, even though he could still hear Dark Shadow weeping inside him. His quirk was crying…

And it was because of him, and because he felt terrible for hurting someone he grew to really love too. He wanted to be mad at Dark Shadow, he really did, and he was, so he couldn’t just comfort him. Not when he was just upset, but he couldn’t bear to listen to him cry when he was on the verge of a breakdown himself.

The raven clenched his fists as the crying grew louder, hands flying to his ears in a vain attempt to block it out. It wasn’t working…

So he lied down on his, head on his pillow as he quickly grabbed his headphones to place over his ears, Dark Shadow’s cries already somewhat muffled and yet Tokoyami could still hear him. As fast as he could he hooked it to his phone to listen to his music on full blast to drown out his shadow.

Three Days Grace.

He put the volume up high so all he could hear was Adam Gontier screaming ‘PAIN!’ in his ears loud enough for him to finally no longer hear Dark Shadow’s crying. As Tokoyami listened to the music on full-blast he didn’t hear anything anymore, not even his own sobs as he quietly broke down on his bed. Unable to stop the warm tears streaming down his feather cheeks and unable to hear himself and Dark Shadow cry.

Tokoyami didn’t even read the time on his phone, and didn’t even care that the lights were still on. He kept them on, he wasn’t going to give his shadow anything after what he’s done, and he wasn’t going to let himself have anything else after everything he had done too.

Not after what he did to you. Yet still your vision, your smile, your laughter haunted him in his dreams as he quietly cried himself to a fitful sleep.

The room might have been bright, but his heart had no light in it right now.

8 HOURS LATER…

You had no idea how long it had been since you asked for directions from that strange man a while back. All you knew is that you needed so badly to get out of here as you kept going, even though everywhere you went there was just trees…

Trees that looked… so familiar, and yet so eerie as you walked with your arms around yourself as your blood started to dry but some was still dripping down your skin.

“I gotta go home…”

A man with blades for teeth dressed in black had cackled…

“I gotta go home…”

A six-armed figure swooped in to catch you when you saw yourself fall…

“I gotta go home…”

A boy trapped in this storm of darkness cried out as he tried so hard to escape from it…

“I gotta go home now…”

The memories were so distant that they weren’t coming to you, you just repeated the mantra over and over again because it was all that made sense to you as you lost your sense of time and didn’t even notice that dawn had arrived and the fact that you were still the sea of forests and not out of the woods yet.

Your feet, your legs, your back, your stomach, your shoulder. How they ached with every step you took, and your stomach, was it still bleeding? It didn’t feel right, no it didn’t feel right at all as you gasped when you started to finally notice…

When did you get stabbed? When did those wounds appear? Where did you get them?

“No, no, no…”

You didn’t want to acknowledge how much pain you were in; you didn’t want to think about it and you didn’t want to see anything that was creeping into your mind as you brought your hands to your head and shook it.

And you gasped when you finally saw what looked like the end of this sea-like forest and quickly sped up with a desperate whine. As you looked at the trees and the arriving dawn lighting up the darkness, an image flashed into your brain, a memory of you flying in the air and you saw sharp blades piercing through the wind and a pair of big, bright, furious red eyes glaring right at you and roaring at you.

It was a monster…

Terrified, you tried desperately to fly away, but the dark, shadowy claw slashed at your back and clawed at your stomach as you let out a scream…

It hurt so much you could see the blood droplets flying into the air as your scarred back hit the back of a tree trunk as your body plummeted to the earthy ground.

Eyes widening in slight horror when such a horrific vision flashed before your eyes that you couldn’t even believe it. What was that monster? The trees, it was still in here wasn’t it? Oh my God it was a monster, it was a monster and this feeling of dread overwhelmed you so much that you couldn’t even think.

You were bleeding, the monster got you… it was in the shadows. The shadows were full of monsters and they were coming to get you, you knew it…

“AHHHHHHHH!!”

You let out a shriek as the shadows in the forest became too much for you to bear and you just ran despite your body and stinging wounds aching in protests. Adrenaline enabled you to ignore it all as you kept running, and your reddened (E/C) eyes widened when you saw more daylight leading you out of this hell. A loud gasp left you as you let out a deep exhale when you were finally out of the trees and could see a road…

There it was, the road! You nearly cried in between your screams as you ran up the steep hill and nearly tripped on your tired feet as soon as you felt the concrete. Eyes wide and looking around frantically for any place that would take you back home. This road would take you home… it had to.

So you kept walking, praying for anything, a car, someone, a hero to see you and just take you home.

Your prayers were answered when you saw a car and you didn’t hesitate to wave your hands around and screamed, “HELP ME! PLEASE!! PLEASE HELP ME!!”

The car was still driving until you moved a little closer and it forced the driver to stop as you hurriedly ran over to the side of it, “Let me in! Please! Please let me in I’m begging you!!” You cried and pleaded with the person to open their car to you and to your relief they opened the door as you quickly sat in the passenger’s seat.

“G-Go please… p-please drive away, please take me away from here…” You shakily said now that you were in a vehicle with a man who looked to be a young adult, 20 years old at best. And he was looking at you like you were crazy as he took off driving nonetheless.

Finally… finally you were going to escape from this nightmare and go back home… the monster couldn’t get you.

“T-Thank you… you saved my life…” You meekly muttered to the driver, who barely even looked at you. “Well you didn’t really give me a choice, you just jumped out and got in the car.” He replied in a somewhat expressionless tone that didn’t imply any sort of kindness.

“I-I’m so sorry… I-I just… h-had to get away… I had to get away… H-He was… he was going to… H-He did…” The monster was male, you remembered that much. A man, there was a man with blades for teeth and the shadowy monster… he was a male too you swore he was.

“Oh yeah? Let me guess, it was your boyfriend? What did you do to him?”

Was this person serious? Why was he asking you this when you were the one bleeding and in pain here?

“I-I didn’t do anything…! H-He did this to me…! And this person was NOT my boyfriend…” You didn’t have a boyfriend, and whoever or whatever it was that did this to you was definitely NOT your boyfriend.

Still the man smirked and laughed at you, “That’s what they always say… I bet he treated you real nice and then you overreacted over something small, and made yourself the victim. Just cuz you’re all bloody don’t mean you’re the victim here. For all I know you hurt him just as badly, if not worse...”

You looked at him with an appalled look as your body continued to tremble from the immense discomfort that this man was putting you through, why was he blaming you? How was this your fault?

“I-I don’t… I-I did not… I-I’m not… c-can… can you p-please just… t-take me to the nearest town s-so I can-“

“Ha! Now you’re telling me what to do? I play the fucking hero for you and you’re trying to tell me what to do? God… Typical women… well not this time sweetheart, I’m not listening to a little bitch like you.” He said snidely with a weak smirk. Whoever this was, he had a serious hang-up on women and now he was taking whatever issues he had out on you.

You weren’t going to put up with this, “Please… s-stop the car… I-I can get out and you won’t have to-”

“Of course… all you women are such fucking cowardly bitches, weak and emotional... all of you just decide to run away when things get ‘uncomfortable’ and blame the men for that even though it’s your own fault. You wanted to try and do something and yet no, it’s not your fault, it’s the guy’s.” He still blamed you, he still felt like whatever happened to you was your fault and not the person who did this to you. It was so uncomfortable that you could feel the tears coming to your eyes, you didn’t want to be here… you’d rather be back on the road…

“Gonna cry now hon? Wow… you bitches really are all the same… you think crying is going to make me feel sorry for you?! I’m not falling for it! Go on! You can cry all you want and even jump out of my car if you want! Leave me like all my other girlfriends did!”

Was that it…? Oh my God… he was one of those guys… it was coming back to you slowly, this guy, he was one of those guys you had heard about on the internet…

“W-Why are you telling me all of this…? I-I didn’t do anything to you…”

“Yeah no that’s what you think. That’s what all you bitches do, I was nice to you. I did something nice for you, I did something nice for her, and now suddenly I’m the bad guy because I made you ‘uncomfortable’ and now she’s gone and now I’M the one getting arrested for ‘sexual harassment’. HA! Classic chick move… I deserve a little bit of that don’t I?! I was nice! I was chivalrous! I opened the door for you! And you go and treat me like this?! You think it’s okay to be nice to another guy and go out with him instead?!”

His screaming tirade terrified you and all you wanted to do was get out, until he grabbed your wrist, “Oh no no darling… I’m getting what I deserve, I was nice to you, so that means YOU do this for me!” He shouted as he let you go and then brought out a gun…

He had a gun…

“I’ll take you to the next town all right, so I can get what I deserve!” His glower turned into a dark, lustful smirk as you gasped in horror and you reached out to open the door. You would risk a serious injury just to get away from this vile man, you had to…

“You’re not leaving me too!” But he grabbed your wrist yet again, still holding the gun as his car began to swerve. “NO!!” You screamed when the car was now out of control, and when you saw him wave the gun right at you.

“I’m taking you with me…”

“NO!!” You didn’t even think, you threw your hand out to make him stop, and sent an involuntary beam of light right in his face as he screamed when the overwhelming brightness stung his eyes and he squeezed his eyes shut.

“AH!! ARRRGH!! You fucking bitch I’m gonna fucking kill you!!” The man shouted hatefully as he tried to grab the wheel to stop it, but didn’t drop the gun as he tried to shoot you but only succeeded in shooting at the glass.

“AHHHHHHHHH!!” Making you scream out loud in horror when the bullet nearly hit you, and the man’s eyes were still closed due to your blinding light.

How did you do that…?

You thought in horror as your eyes went wide when you recognized this power, your power…

In a split second everything suddenly flashed through your eyes. The man with the blades for teeth, Shouji, Tokoyami… Dark Shadow…

You were flying away from him, you were trying to save Tokoyami, but Dark Shadow attacked you… and you fell… you fell down and hit a tree and woke up to forget everything that happened in that moment…

“Tokoyami…”

You found yourself saying his name which just pissed off the man when he cracked open an eye, “Already thinking about your boyfriend that you left?! OH NO GIRLY! I’ll kill you!! I’ll kill your stupid boyfriend if you can’t fucking choose! It’s either him… or me!” He screamed as you finally had enough sense to realize how unstable this person was.

“No!” You shouted and used your light against him to blind him once more and you swiped the gun out of his hands as he lost control of the wheel and you couldn’t stop yourself from screaming when you heard the car screeching and swerving into another row of trees…

CRASH!!

TO BE CONTINUED...