#anyways. Yeag. This sharp feeling of realization that an another sinner has turned into something else is like experiencing egodeath to the

[roboyomo]

anywayss i'm thinking about them So Fuckinf Hard lately man. stupid funny little duo that on a deeper level can actually destroy me if i think about the Nuances a bit tooo much. thinking about this particular part of the story right before maude's story chapter

Referecing the previous post about all the sinners being linked and experiencing a dharp and quick feeling throughout their body when one of the others turn into their cursed form stage. And just. Imagining these two getting a huge fight over something which just ends up with aridam spewing out "HOW COULD YOU EVEN THINK THAT SOMEONE WOULD STAY FOR YOU WHEN YOU'RE THIS IRRITANTINGLY STUBBORN—" and it turns to silence. They say rather harsh things to each other all the time in such arguments but they always hurt in the right spot. So these fights end off at a very unpleasant note, and both of the parties leave. To where? They don't even know. Only thing they know is to get away from each other, it will all fix itself eventually.

But just. Imagining Aridam whose sense self is slowly being cracked. The curse of the sin of Pride really messed with his senses and his ability to emphasize with others, making it impossible for him to feel compassion for others. But now. It is all being slowly destroyed. Little by little. Has he ever meant those words? Was he going too far? First time for Aridam to think about him actually hurting others around him. Sitting at his desk, deep in his thoughts, just trying to reevaluate his "beliefs". An hour goes by and he has already ruminated on all the times he has been dismissive of others. Guilt slowly seeping in through the cracks of his core identity. Losing track of his surroundings, zoning out and then it hits.

The sudden but fleeting sharp feeling. Like experiencing egodeath.

Jolting from his seat in a hurried manner, trying to gain sense of his surroundings until he realizes this was an another signal. A "distress signal", as they've all started to call it.

Another one of them has turned to insanity. And they don't even know who. All that Aridam is feeling right now feels like death. Is this panic? Is this concern? Is this fear? What has managed to happen in just about an hour? Or was it even an hour? He has lost track of everything and now it is all catching up to him. Very Quickly. Counting how many others have gone insane like this already, doing the process of elimination - Sora? This has already happened, Agatha? Also happened to her already. 5 of them left. So many yet so little of them to experience this as well. And now at the back of his mind is. An unknown feeling of some sort. One he hadn't really gave attention to most of the time. It was true panicking. That even if it's not big, there is a possibility. A possibility that it was Maude's turn to walk the path of insanity.

So now Aridam, although not actually aware of his feelings, is concerned that there is a chance that Maude either survives or dies. They have grown to enjoy each other's company in a way that neither of them could put it into words or exactly pinpoint and genuinely do not like to envision having to leave each other. Aridam tries to hide that he's worried for Maude for realsies because that will come with unpacking the baggage attached to that root of worry for him. So much repressed and unaddressed feelings towards this person that he still refuses to acknowledge. two fuckers who aren't really friends after all but it is hard for the both of them to imagine leaving each other. boom we have separated them and put the other into a life or death situation, let's see how these two handle that one and if they'll try to talk it out at least Once in their lives

Imagining that it's also Aridam who volunteers to retrieve Maude. After a sinner has been defeated in their cursed form but not killed, they are very obiously wounded and tired out after being horribly disfigured into beings beyond a typical person's comprehension. So they aren't exactly in the right shape to travel back to their "home" by themselves. Others have to pinpoint their location and get them back safely. It is the thought that Maude is out somewhere hurt. The fact that he's potentially on the verge of death is what keeps Aridam feeling unsettled. There is. A need. A want to be the one to find him again to make sure that the person is alive with his own eyes. Aridam obviously looking slightly distressed about the whole situation but nobody questions it because asking stuff from an irritated Aridam is just Begging for an insult as an answer. And he's trying his best to look as cool as possible at the same time okay.

In a way this encounter of Aridam coming to help Maude, who is obviously hurt but is, most importantly (to him), alive. is a throwback to their first ever meeting. Maude, covered in wounds on the floor, acting aggressively upon seeing an unknown figure, with Aridam bringing him back to the rest of the crew. Now Aridam is here to retrieve Maude once again. Maude, who is also covered in wounds but is seemingly tired out. But now it seems that the action was done out of worry this time. Concern for the other side.

These fuckers don't even know that their paths are intertwined like stars.