#anyways this is just a ramble brought on by seeing Daniel LaRusso being a good girl-dad and thinking ~that must be nice~ lol

[deviousdevilx]

Sometimes I wonder what my life would be like if I had a dad who was a better dad, and I was close to? Would I still possess this lack of desire to be in any kind of romantic relationship with a man or woman? Like I never been in a serious relationship much less romantic one EVER. I've had close friendships come and go, three friends I'm still kinda close with from high school, but dating? I never actually dated in any traditional sense. Mostly my social life in high school and 20s were going out with friends, going to raves, parties, hanging out at someone's house, or the mall, going out to eat/coffee.

Like "romance" or dating just did not happen for me during my teens and twenties. There were folk I was physically attracted too, but I never wanted to date, or be anyone's girlfriend, it just was not something that I even really thought deeply about. It just never HAPPENED. I got busy, work, school, trying to keep in touch with a few friends. My hobbies are often solitary ones (gaming, reading, movies/tv, online fandom spaces).

and I ain't sad about it. I just sometimes wonder if my dad was actually a source of trust, comfort, and affection, would I still be aromantic? Would I be so disinterested in dating/romance/marriage if I actually was raised in a household were my parents loved each other and were affectionate? I DUNNO.