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doebt · 5 years

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man you are really completely screwed if you are sexually abused by your biological mother. good luck getting taken seriously literally EVER. ESPECIALLY as a girl... bc its the whole..you know. mother daughter bond deal. NO ONE will ever believe you, and even if they say they do, they really dont, not ever completely. EVER.

#sorry im on reddit having 4am realisations... again. eyeroll emoji #unless its extremely jarring... or theres a scar or photo or some other solid proof... its like it never happened #i will not talk about this in detail...probably ever. to anyone #including therapists #it is just impossible to grasp. its just not something that 'happens'#its always 'just something moms do' or 'she was doing her best' or a 'misinterpretation'#you know... well no one knows really. but i know #the vast majority of the time i tiptoe on the fine line of 'was it really though...was it truly abuse...'#and when i cross that line i step onto the even finer line of 'if it was abuse then was it really sexual...can i call it that'#anyways. me being trans is one big coping mechanism. ill never recover from this. they dont make medicine for it #this is the extent to which i can talk about...ive tried to bring it up more and my throat closes up #or i just start shaking or i cant breathe and i just have to stop bc its not worth it. bc no. one. believes it. no one.#bc mothers dont do that...not to their daughters. never. absolutely inconceivable #anyways straight up i gotta stop posting stuff. the mortifying ordeal.. goodnight #ask to tag

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