#anyways old men yaoi amirite?

[tadbitsilly]

ALL I DO IS DRAW OLD MEN KISSING AAAAAAAAAAA

[ajaegerpilot]

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i tried 2 describe how bizarre my early tumblr experiences were but im not sure i can

dood meanwhile I’ve been writing an essay on my overall fandom experiences in response to ur reply ‘before lok book 3 hit me in the face w how good femslash is i was a superwhomerlock blog :( i want to froget’ . UNDER THE CUT for LENGTH:

as pretext: when i was like 10 I used to read archie comics a lot and I’d draw a lot of girls and I got gay panic over drawing girls and then I assured myself ‘well I’m attracted to boys too so even if I like girls I’ll never act on it and I’ll just be straight ladeedadeeda :))’

before tumblr i was a harry potter fan (11-12 years old). i read harry potter and started writing my own harry potter fanfiction before i knew what fanfiction was in a pirate game forum (I wrote in the forum because we had modem internet connection so I could never actually play the game) until someone directed me to harrypotterfanfiction.net and fanfiction.net. (ps: I also wrote fanfiction for sweet valley university when a new author was hired and wrote Todd really OOC so she could make way for her OC. writing fix-it fanfic has always been my instinct)

then I got my sister to get me copies of buffy the vampire slayer & heroes, shows I borrowed from our local library because we didn’t have TV, so I was into those for awhile. I had Bad Het ships. (12-13) hpff.net was my first taste of anything gay (to this day my heart still lies with remus/sirius). while I was interested in het in buffy, I steadily started moving into yaoi (CRINGE ALL YOU WANT BUT IVE GOT TO BE HONEST). I was still getting most of my media from the local library and reading manga on the internet. everything CLAMP made, and I tried to read a bit of naruto. I think there was no general fandom because when I was 14-15, just a large hodgepodge of me consuming media and then reading increasingly m/m fanfiction about it. (you don’t get it, its actually MORE heterosexual to read about two men falling in love because ahahahah there’s no girls amirite you don’t have to think about girls or your feelings about girls or why you stare at girls in dance class and take two dance classes and never dance ahahahaha PERFECT) (i still can’t dance)

then I turned 16 and got a tumblr. I think this might be due to me watching inception, searching up if there was eames & arthur fanfiction (since they’re white dudes of course there was), or perhaps that came after I got a tumblr, but I got a tumblr nevertheless bc of m/m fanfiction/fanart. then came teen wolf where I thought sterek was cannon. I briefly was Interested in this ...

.... but nothing ever came of it with myself or the show and now both characters are dead heterosexuals. about this time I tried to watch sherlock and I found a textpost early on my tumblr that said I was 92 on the waitlist. after 4 months I finally got the dvds and guess what. sherlock is boring with good cinematography, that’s it. the movies are more entertaining and elementary is more human.

steadily I moved from teen wolf to avengers. then came my tom hiddleston phase. LET ME TELL YOU ABOUT THE FILTHY FANTASIES I’D HAVE ABOUT TOM HIDDLESTON for example: I was the director on a film he was working on and we got along great and went on jogs together :DD. I also got into SPN at this time too!! i still do hope destiel happens :)) I thought it was really cute how in one of the later episodes there’s like a play some fans in the show put on where destiel happens but it’s two butch girls dressed as cas and dean :’)) let it happen SPN Do One Decent Thing I’ll Never Watch You Again But Do It. by the way, Dean is a fucking bottom @spn fandom just because his actor is like 2cm taller than cas’s does not a top make, if you paid attention to the show at all you’d notice that in every single sex scene he’s submissive, straights have the weirdest fucking rules about who’s the top/bottom in gay relationships i SWEAR it pisses me off so much. in the meantime I was watching ATLA, LOK when I could, playing batman games.

and then. and i joke abt this is a bit but. I think I watched sailor moon one summer, the summer of 2014. and sailor moon. made me gay. or rather, sailor moon kicked off the thought process of ‘UM! the yaoi-fan argument that slash is the most progressive thing bc its gay is wrong and the het argument that het is better bc it involves women is wrong bc you could be writing abt women in love! and i’m going to do this and never pay attention to guys ever again because I’m a good Feminist and more Feminists in Fandom Should Do This It Doesn’t Make You Gay Obviously Because I’m Not Even Though I Was Obsessed With My Band Teacher’s Daughter And A Girl in Dance Class And Another Girl(s) I’m Just An Artist And A Feminist’

so anyway................ this is my life