#anyways interesting movie and hashtag relatable in the first part like yeah me too.

[totopopopo]

I stayed up until 2:30am tonight for absolutely no other reason than to just have some time for myself but now I’m like deliriously tired and still burnt out and annoyed. Also I just finished watching joker (2019) for the first time 👹 i see it as a metaphor you see …………. Sucks up my cigarette directly into my trachea and dies

[watchinglikeafangirl]

Lovely Writer Episode 5

Since it was too late yesterday to write down my thoughts completely and I just ended up writing a small post, I'm going to write it all down right now.

And I have stuff to say, guys. So much happened yesterday in Lovely Writer. But the first question is: Is it "Aey", "Aoey" or "Aeoy" (I'm so confused)? Because they suddenly changed their way of calling him and there's an 'o' out of the blue. Why did they change his name after four episodes?

Nevermind. It was just something I asked myself the whole episode but I guess, no one really knows the answer.

Anyway, here are my first impressions and thoughts in general about Lovely Writer Episode 5:

Gene's negative flaw

Gene is the protagonist here but he is not the kind of protagonist you automatically like and especially not every part of him. He is cute and when he's with Nubsib, we only see that part of him because Nubsib finds him cute and adorable. Nubsib even calls him cute more than once. After episode 3, I said, they are pretending but I would change my statement into something like "they are just not showing every part of themselves" because pretending is something else. Preteneding is covering your true identity and it's different from not telling everything about you. I don't think Nubsib pretends. He just hides some stuff about himself when he's with Gene and vise versa. But at the set, we can see Gene is jealous. He is posessive over someone who isn't even his. It is not necessarily a red flag because he allows Nubsib to live his own life ("Go with him if you want to"). But he doesn't like the idea and the sight of Nubsib with someone else. He even leaves the set because of it. It's pretty clear he gets jealous and this jealousy gets adressed later on when he waits for Nubsib to come home but is too pissed to talk to him. Nubsib has to ask him and only then Gene admits it. Like I said, not necessarily a red flag or big problem because at least they talk about it and Nubsib reasures him but it can become a conflict later on. At least, when they are together.

promotion of BLs

Lovely Writer shows the behind the scenes of a typical low-budget BL and I believe it captures the BL industry quite well, although I'm not an expert. I can only judge from what I see on the outside. But with some shows, I've always had the feeling that things are not running smoothly and Lovely Writer just confirms that feeling. This show is very uncomfortable sometimes.

When I first started watching BLs last year, I was very overwhelmed and surprised by all these ships ot there. I was used to the marketing strategies of Marvel or Hollywood in general and European films. The asian way of marketing and promoting a show is different. It focuses more on the actors and their chemistry, not completely on the story in the show or movie. Or at least, I have the feeling it's different. Of course, different is not bad, just unusual.

I am still surprised of how much the promotion focuses on the actors, especially when it comes to BLs. People ship the actors because their lives and the roles they play get mixed up and fans see chemistry because they've seen the show. I feel like there is a blurry line between actor and character which leads to an immense personality cult. I know, it's because of the contracts and I believe they're the real problem because if you don't portray the actors as such and create a ship, their privacy and personal space gets invaded very quickly and in an inhuman way which easily leads to drama. Things will turn ugly at some point and that's not nice for the actors at all.

Lovely Writer criticizes this. Gene goes on Twittee an there is a hashtag full of weird fanservice and it leads to personal drama because he gets jealous. I don't think it's a rare problem. Because kissing someone as your work, because you are an actor, is fine, if you've talked about it honestly but fanservice is something different because it's happening in your real life and there is no line between your work and life. I think you know what I mean. So, Nubsib has to reasure Gene of his feelings and sees it as work but I get why Gene has a problem and I think it's sad that BL actors have to sacrifice their privacy so much because the industry builds this cult around them. This scene hurt me a bit, I have to say. And it will surely remain a problem between these two.

Also, invasive fans... Some fans tend to see you as a sort of object they can look at and touch all the time. Here, these two girls take pictures of Gene and he is aware of it but just doesn't know what to do to stop them without confronting them which is the only thing he can and should do. He thinks it will be over quickly but it won't. If you've once allowed your fans to do this, they won't stop, And we know, Gene slowly gets a fanbase. But he has to make sure they get that he is a human being and not an artifact in a museum. Luckily, Nubsib steps up saves him.

Criticism of NC scenes

This episode starts with the filming of the first kiss in Bad Engineer and I want to say something about it. This scene is very intense but just so uncomfortable and disgusting. What happens on screen is uncomfortable. What happens behind the screen is digusting. And Gene's reaction is really intense. I love Nubsib saying that it's nearly rape. I was like 'thank you'. Really guys, who thinks this is romantic? A first kiss when one of them is unable to move and fights the other one physically and verbally. It's not dominant in a sexy way. It's just creepy and taking advantage. There is no consent. And Nubsib being the king of consent thankfully says something but sadly he acts it out eventually because the director tells him to.

This kissing scene is the worst kissing scene I have ever seen. The setting isn't good and their kiss is weird. I know, it's supposed to be bad but their kiss looks so unpassionate lmao.

But the director is the worst part of it. His answer to Nubsib saying it feels like rape is the question "Don't you understand soap opera vibes?"

...

Of course, it's supposed to be disgusting but that sentence hit me because I got scared how many directors like that are out there. And I also feel sorry for Gene. He wrote that novel and put effort into it. Even though the story is not very exciting or different, he put his writing skills and creativity in this project. And now they ruin that art and smash it on the ground. I myself draw and write, so I kind of relate to him and it hurts watching. Gene only wants to write but it gets turned into something unadmirable and fussy. Now it's more like a rapey fanfiction someone wrote while sitting alone in the dark and reminiced about their weirdest sex dream. Let me tell you, some fantasies should stay as such because this is passionless and disgusting.

Aey and Gene

(I'm gonna stick to writing his name as "Aey" because I'm confused which spelling is the right one.) I think Aey knows Gene likes Nubsib because he always talks to him about that matter. And maybe he likes his novel but still, Aey is very manipulative. He asks for Gene's help. He aks Nubsib out in front of Gene and says "Gene is busy anyways" when Nubsib is not sure. He then reminds Nubsib of their "date" when Gene is there again. Clearly, he wants to show off. Or he's just weird. But in this show, no one is just weird. It will get clearer when the story goes on.

Aey

Talking about Aey, I have to say, I cried last night. Even though I don't like him, I feel sympathy for him. His family is so broken which affects him a lot. I feel sorry for him because he pulled himself together and faced his family again just to storm out crying. It's a nightmare. All those accusations thrown at him, but also the ones he threw, hit deep. There is a big tension escalating and he has very much pain inside. He clearly has a trauma and I hope we'll get to know more about him because his ex was mentioned and something very bad must've happened. Yeah, Aey is a very troubled kid. He is lonely, sad and lost and reminds me of Fiat in TharnType because he too runs after a guy who only showed slight interest in him. The feeling of being unloved and unloveable leads him fantisizing about the one who seems to be perfect in his eyes. And it will all crash down for him.

But who is Mhok? Were they best friends? Were they lovers? Is that their first kiss? It doesn't feel like a first kiss to me but I could be wrong...

What Lovely Writer does right

This show's promotion is exactly like I wanted it to be. No personality cult. That's a very important point for me because they are humans too and I believe it's disgusting to shed flashligh on actors so much. They are not a big ship, I guess. At least, none that I've heard of. They do some Q&A videos or behind the scenes stuff but not openly toxic behavior and discussions about private matters. They don't pretend to be in love for the fanservice and are pretty much looking like they are just doing their job.

This show is definetlely different and I love that part very much about it. So, I will defineltely keep watching and keep my hopes up.

[imanativeofswlondondahling]

Hidden In Plain Site (2)- Tom Holland x Reader

Word Count:  2348

A/N: This was inspired by this wonderful post by @starsholland. Without it this would not be happening. This will be a multi part fic, but I don’t know how many chapters or when it will be posted so if you’d like to be tagged let me know:)  Welcome to Tom being undercover on Tumblr. Quick notes- Y/T/B = Your Tumblr Blog

Chapter One || Master List

The edit turned out better than you thought it would. You had decided to use blue and red, since they’re Spider-Man colors and it honestly suits Tom and Haz so well. You still are wondering when the picture is from since you scoured the depths of Google and Tumblr to no avail. It’s either really old, or not really posted. Either way it made an adorable edit and will look great in your edit’s tag. It’s also sparked some ideas for a friendship imagine. It’s been so long since you wrote anything, with work and family stuff weighing you down, but you can picture the outline in your head so as soon as you finish the last touches on your outline, you click open a new document and drop a few lines down to get going. 

“What you working on?” Your brother calls to you from across the living room. He knows that once you’re home for the afternoon, it’s not normally work stuff, but sometimes your graphic design projects run into your post work day.

“Just some edits. Nothing too big.”

“Bringing work home?”

“Nope, just working on some extra stuff.” You type some more into the document, wanting to make sure that everything is hitting the moment right. In your browser, you pull up your tumblr and make a new post.

Ask me stuff while I work on my latest imagine. Give me a number 1-100 and I’ll give you a song from my writing playlist and a memory attached to it.

Across the ocean, Tom can’t sleep. It’s nearly 3am, but something is keeping his mind from sleeping. He should be able to sleep just fine. He isn’t working on any movies that have him worried, he doesn’t have any auditions coming up, and he doesn’t have press for a few weeks. So why can’t he get to sleep?

Lifting his phone in his hand he sees a notification from Tumblr saying that Y/T/B has posted. He swipes across and waits for the post to load. You want questions? Well, he can help with that. Plus, he’s interested in learning about what kind of music you’re interested in.

Anonymous Asked:

33?

Anonymous Asked:

86?

Anonymous Asked: 

69;D

Three Anons come in right after another. You weren’t expecting that quick of a reaction. Sure you had a couple hundred followers, but you didn’t tend to get that many reactions to your posts. At least not back to back. But you’ll take it, and reply. As soon as you send the edit to that blog that asked for it.

You pull up the thread between you and tomholland2013. You click the camera button and upload the edit you had done. 

Hey, here’s that edit. Hope this works for you! 

Surprisingly, whoever is behind the account messages back immediately.

That looks awesome! Thanks so muchX

Hows your night going?X

More like afternoon here lol. I’m just getting some work done after getting home earlier.

How about you? Is it night there?

It’s like the middle of the night here and I can’t sleepX

If it’s middle of the night there, did you see the news? 

What news?X

That Tom saved Spider-Man?! It’s been all over Tumblr since I got home from work.

It’s kind of the reason I made your edit in red and blue tbh.

I hadn’t had time to look at my dashboard to be honest. I’ve been busy with work stuff most of the afternoon.X

It wasn’t a lie. Over the past few days having talks between him, Bob and Tom trying to smooth everything over, there wasn’t much time to glance over the explosion that had happened since the original news had been released. But after clicking send on his message to Y/N, he clicks over to your main blog to see the reaction to the news. There are some general reblogs of the news announcing Spider-Man returning to the MCU but then there were also some general posts about Spider-Man and Peter Parker. Your tags are what really get to him. Some like hashtag my-baby-is-back-where-he-belongs and hashtag get-tom-drunk-more-often-if-it-saves-my-baby. He can’t help but laugh at the last one. True he hadn’t exactly been sober when he and Bob had first talked about getting Spider-Man back in the MCU, but he didn’t think that story would take the world by storm.

Going into his settings, Tom quickly updates his picture with the edit you had done for him. Honestly, it looked better than he had hoped for. You had done Spider-Man colors and if he wasn't trying to keep this blog on the down low, he would share it on his Instagram so his fans could see how talented Y/N was. As he hits save, another message comes through from you.

Do you mind if I use the edit I sent you as inspiration for an imagine?

A what?X

An imagine. It’s a specific type of fanfic. I had a great idea of one while I was working on the edit for you, but if you’re not cool with it, I’ll find a different picture.

You did all the work on it. Feel free to use it. What kind of story?X

Basically like a Tom x Reader with hints of Harrison friendship notes in it. It’s hard to explain lol

Have you written other stuff?X

I think everyone on this site dabbles in it from time to time, but yeah I’ve written a few pieces over the past few years.

Do you have a list of them?X

Sure, it’s here.

You had linked a page in your message. Apparently dabbling meant one.. Two.. three… his finger drags down the page as he counts the stories. Holy hell, you’ve written fifty stories about him, Peter Parker and even some of the other Avengers. But most of them revolve around him and x Reader, whatever that means. You had mentioned it in your message, but he wasn’t sure what it meant.

Ok, I’m new to the whole fanfic thing, so pardon my stupidity but what does x reader mean?X

It’s a self insert fic. Basically anywhere that it says Y/N or you, you put yourself into the fic. They’re one of the most popular types of fics.

Before he can reply to your message, a notification comes up saying that Y/T/B has posted a new post.

Anonymous Asked:

33?

Y/T/B/ Answered: Heather by Conan Gray. So I love this song and totally have screamed along with the chorus of this song when I’m alone at home and writing or in my car driving places (otherwise I would freak my family out). When I wrote a fic called The Smell of Your Sweater, on my master list here, I listened to this song on repeat for three days straight to be in the right mind set. Honestly I could probably listen to this song until the end of time and never get sick of it. 

Tom reads over the answer and can picture someone jamming out to a song so much that they love it. He pulls open his Spotify app and pulls up the song, because he wants to feel closer to you, even though you’re time zones apart from each other. The fact that it’s afternoon where you are and nighttime where he is makes him think that you’re in the United States.

So reader insert are some of the most popular type of fics, but what are your favorite to read?X

That’s not even something that I would share on a first date lol you’ll be waiting a bit to find out. 

Is sharing that you write fanfic something that you don’t talk about on a date?X

Not normally. Talking about it with tumblr friends is one thing because I link it on my blog, but what I read is a whole nother thing. It literally says so much about you with who you read, what ships you ship, and especially what kinks you look for.

KINKS? IN FANFICS?X

You haven’t read much yet have you?

Literally no. I’ve only been on tumblr since I messaged you the first time. That was the day I made my blogX

So you’ve been on for a month? And you’re deciding to get into fanfics?

No I’m thinking I should stay away from it still. It seems like virtual porn.X

It doesn’t have to have anything smutty in it. Just click on ones that say fluff or don’t say smut next to them. You can also block certain tags so they don’t come up on your dashboard. Like Starker is a popular one to be blocked for a lot of people.

I don’t think I even want to know what that is if people are blocking it who are into this porn esque writing. X

It’s not porn lol You seem to have only found smut so far. We need to find you some fluff. Maybe some Tom x Reader?

Maybe I’m just not ready for it after all.X

Does he want to read about himself? Not at all. That seems creepy. But other people write about him too. It’s not just Y/N. He decides to research this further. In the search bar he types in Tom Holland Fanfic. The first four post all say smut or NSFW so he’s not going to bother reading them, but the thing that catches his eye is the fact that they all have over 2,000 notes on them. Two thousand people have liked or reblogged about him in a sexual way? What the actual flipping hell?

Before he has the chance to flip out even more, another notification from your blog pops up.

Anonymous Asked:

86?

Y/T/B answered: Praying by Kesha. THIS WOMAN COULD MURDER ME AND I WOULD THANK HER FOR IT. Plus that chorus makes me want to write some epic breakup scene and have one of the people begging the other to feel the same as they are feeling. Oooooo maybe I feel a one shot coming up. Anyway, a memory of this song- my best friend and I blasted this song while we drove from California to Philly to visit a school. It literally got us through so many hours of that drive. Kesha is bae lets be real. Or is that not what the cool kids say? 

When he sent you these asks, he thought he would get one or two sentences in response, but he’s learning so much about you from all of these asks. Maybe he would send you some non song related ones, maybe some To- Peter Parker ones to see what else you liked. Purely science based research. 

If you’re not ready for it, don’t push yourself. Fanfics can be a weird mindset to put yourself in. I used them at first to distract myself from some shitty family stuff that was going on, but now I read and write them for fun too. I think I mainly read Avenger ones at first as well as some TV shows too. Plus would I be a teenage girl if I didn’t read a few Twilight fanfics back in my day? 

Twilight? Like Rob-Tom makes himself type out Rob and Kristen’s full names like a fan would-ert Pattinson and Kristen Stewert Twilight?X

That one exactly. I was the generation it was aimed for and so fanfics galore were my teen years. But I’m proud to say I’m a recovered Twihard.

Glad to hear it darlingX

What about you? What were you into as a kid?

I’ve always been a fan of Spider-Man, ever since I was a kid.X

Comics or movies?

Comics. They’re the originalsX

Which Spider-Man is the best? 

Is that a trick question? Obviously HollandX

Was that conceited? Maybe. But hopefully, Y/N doesn’t think so. Oh wait she has no idea-

It was a trick question. A trick question that you clearly got right. 

Another notification pops up and you suddenly remember the last number that you sent Y/N. Well hopefully the number doesn’t seem like you.

Anonymous Asked: 

69;D

Y/T/B Answered: Noice. 

But the actual answer is Bad Religion by Frank Ocean. This song got me through my last bout of depression lol. I remember sitting on the floor of my bedroom with the lights off and just playing this song on repeat. Always open about that here. It also gets me to channel some deep emotions into some pieces that I’m working on because it reminds me of being in that dark place. I also really like the beat of this though, like how it sounds like a mix of an electric piano and an organ. So if I ever name a one shot Bad Religion, it’s probably named after this song.

Tom feels like a weight is sinking in his gut. Almost like someone slammed an anchor into the lower part of his bowl. He didn’t mean to bring up something so dark with that number. He was hoping it would actually make her laugh. So guess he will send her one more number, but this one won’t be on anonymous.

Tomholland2013 asked: 36

Huh, he must have seen all the responses you posted. Between posting and replying to him, you hadn’t gotten much work on your imagine done, but you could post once more before jumping back to your word document. 

Tomholland2013 asked: 36

Y/B/N answered: The Night We Met by Lord Huron. I literally saw them in concert with my friends last month so a lot of the memories I have of them are about this. But I have a great fanfic idea for this song specifically. To not spoil it completely I’ll just leave you with three spoilers- first date, first dance, secrets spilled. It’s a work in progress.

Now it’s time to get off the internet and back to writing, or else you’re going to Tumblr your day away.

Taglist: @ serendipitous-amor @im-still-tryin-to-find-it​

[searbao]

(The Sunday Times article for those of you unable to read it)

Last Sunday, just days after being nominated for an Oscar, Timothée Chalamet bounded into a busy London bar like a man who still believes nobody knows who he is. Heads turned. Autograph hunters were in the yard outside. At one point during our interview, he shouted “Boom!” so loudly that tables of drinkers turned, stared, turned back, then turned around again. “It’s, it’s...” one said, slightly uncertain as to who he was or, more likely, how to pronounce his first name.

It’s plain old “Timothy”; and what filmgoers recognise him for is his breakthrough role in Call Me by Your Name, a gay coming-of-age story that has grown from cult hit to mainstream contender. He is smart and sensitive as Elio, who falls for his family’s American hunk of a guest, Oliver (Armie Hammer), during a picturesque Italian summer.

In person, Chalamet’s hair bounces, as does the rest of him. He is thin and wiry; as graceful as a ballerina and as energetic as the Duracell bunny; fond of light physical affection. He talks at the motormouth clip typical of Hell’s Kitchen, New York, where he grew up.

I have never met anyone as delighted to be alive as he is right now. Who can blame him? At 22, he is, for Elio, the youngest best actor nominee since 1944. He would be the youngest ever winner: not bad, considering he was previously best known for a bit part in Homeland and quit Columbia University to audition for, but not be cast in, Manchester by the Sea and the latest Spider-Man. In a fortnight, he will be at the Baftas for both lead actor and the coveted rising-star prize. But everyone knows it’s the Academy Awards that matter most. How does all that feel?

“This is how it matters to me,” he says. “Call Me by Your Name has gone beyond my wildest dreams. People came out because of that film. But I don’t want to be known for something that happened when I was young. So [the nomination] comes with tremendous gratitude and is something I’ll humblebrag about to my friends and family, yet this is hopefully just the start. There’d better be more.”

The good news, I say, is that he is unlikely to win, as voters seem unable to look past Gary Oldman’s prosthetics in Darkest Hour. So the accolade might be a millstone, but not as heavy as it could be. He laughs at my cheek.

“The truth is, you want to prepare a speech, but — I don’t know,” he says, frozen. “These ceremonies are overwhelming enough, independent of having to get up in front of legends and have your mouth move.” A fellow nominee, Daniel Kaluuya, the young British star of Get Out, is equally excited. “When we lock eyes,” he says of Kaluuya, “we give each other a look of ‘What the f*** is happening?’”

The crazy thing is that Call Me by Your Name is only the second best film starring Chalamet nominated for best picture this year. The best is Lady Bird, Greta Gerwig’s exquisite straight coming-of-age story, in which Saoirse Ronan’s titular teen struggles with men and her studies. It’s an astonishingly astute film, with Chalamet playing Ronan’s second boyfriend. He sits by the pool reading literature, looking brooding — which is exactly what Elio does. Chalamet claps along loudly when I bring up typecasting. He’s too hot now to sweat the small stuff.

Gerwig has been nominated for best director at the Oscars, which makes her the story of the night. Although other awards have found room for Lady Bird in several categories, they have overlooked the one that counts: best director. Some thought her film was simple compared to, say, Christopher Nolan’s Dunkirk, with its crew of hundreds moving a boat off a beach, and that such traditionally male-made projects are simply harder to do. Size matters, it seems, to panels of predominantly male voters. Or perhaps they just don’t like women to direct.

“There’s no difference in being directed by a woman,” Chalamet says sharply. “But in the public representation, there is a huge difference, and that’s why it’s so important Greta was nominated, and so shocking she is just the fifth woman to be so.”

He looks bemused as I float the idea it might be easier to make a film that is character-driven, as is Lady Bird, than something on a grander scale. “And it’s interesting,” he adds, “that the conversation is framed in relation to production of the movie, because it’s clear that it’s way harder to get an audience for smaller films. Budgets are significantly less.” He sounds irked, clearly finding questions about the battle of the sexes dated and odd.

Yet Chalamet should be used to this by now. He has come into the industry in the era of Time’s Up, which strives for better treatment for all, especially women. It’s hard being in the middle of a storm that’s still raging. There was a late caveat to this interview, namely that I couldn’t ask Chalamet about Woody Allen. The actor recently donated his salary for the director’s forthcoming movie, A Rainy Day in New York, which he filmed last summer, to funds including Time’s Up. He had made a statement about it a couple of weeks ago, and that was that.

I pushed back. Journalists have been accused of dodging difficult questions, but if the interviewee refuses to be asked, that leaves us in limbo. I was then allowed one specific question about Allen, by email. I asked three. Chalamet answered this one: “You were the first lead to donate your salary for a Woody Allen film. What has been the reaction to your statement?”

He replied: “I’m just focusing on the work as much as possible. I mean, I literally get to have this conversation with you in relation to Lady Bird, which freshly presents a female coming-of-age story, independent of a male romance being the catalyst; and to Call Me by Your Name, which similarly presents male coming-of-age with a new lens… Thanks to these films, I’m getting new opportunities. But I’ve also learnt that, along with the opportunities, I have new responsibilities, and none of this is lost on me.”

I have sympathy for him. Allegations against Allen have been public for years, and it’s not as if established A-listers such as Cate Blanchett or Javier Bardem are quizzed about their decision to work for the director. Chalamet’s feeling, I imagine, is that his salary statement was enough, and such a move has probably helped end Allen’s career anyway. I’d be stunned if anyone sees A Rainy Day in New York, and gobsmacked if a leading actor signs up for his scripts again.

Still, although we can’t talk about Allen, we can discuss Time’s Up. Chalamet is in a business going through a great upheaval. He calls it a “really important moment in Hollywood”, and there’s a sense that, like every new generation, he looks at those above him with suspicion, at times even disdain. “I’m in a new wave of actors that doesn’t stand for stuff like this and is part of that change,” he says proudly. “It’s actually been a lesson for me to learn what the — well, prejudices isn’t the right way to put it — the old-school way of thinking was. How they used to talk about these things.”

Does he expect the change Time’s Up seeks will be organic? “It would be a little passive to say it’s going to be totally organic,” he says bluntly. “But we’ve seen in the last months that there is real momentum.”

I can’t shift from my head some theatre I saw him do online from five years ago. The monologue was from White People by JT Rogers. After a largely satirical diatribe, he ended with a furious — and heartfelt — “What right does any human being have to be hateful?” before storming off stage.

Call Me by Your Name’s fandom is now at such a pitch that it already has its own nerds. They have noticed that the opening line of Love My Way, the track Armie Hammer does an elaborate dance to, is: “There’s an army on the dancefloor.” Cute. “OK, I did not know that,” Chalamet admits. Just that morning, they were discussing a possible film in which “he plays a president and I play a KGB spy”. They are the Brangelina we need right now.

Yet leave any film in the sun for long enough and it will get burnt. First, there has been press and online comment that it’s a story about grooming, which is weird, given that Elio is 17, Oliver is 24 and the age of consent in most American states is 16; in Italy, it’s 14. Still, that criticism persists. As does one about straight actors — which Chalamet and Hammer are — playing gay men. It can’t have been for box office, given that the former was unknown, but critics have questioned why out actors couldn’t be cast instead.

Chalamet pauses, which is rare, and answers carefully, as if they teach actors how to make a statement in the age of the hashtag along with the Stanislavski method.

“Well, first, it’s important for actors of all identifications to be represented, so any propulsion to bring that movement forward is good,” he begins. “But as relates to Call Me by Your Name, this is a story that presents love, sexuality, identification and orientation in a definitionless way. That’s one of the beautiful things about the movie. Ultimately, Luca [Guadagnino] is the best person to talk to, because this is his film and he does what he wants.”

“I don’t know anything about the sexuality of Armie or Timothée,” the director said huffily when I interviewed him last year, before adding that he didn’t think Elio would necessarily be a gay man later in life. Maybe the amount you care about the sexuality of the cast in Call Me by Your Name is directly related to how binary you consider sexuality. The film’s youngest actor, like most of his millennial peers, simply doesn’t care.

What about a sequel? “F***, yeah,” Chalamet says. “It’d be a dream. And the great thing about being an actor is that the storytelling would have nothing to do with me.”

I wish him luck with “those awards” as he leaves for another ceremony. He laughs. I meant the Oscars. “Oh, those awards?” He laughs louder, as if it hasn’t sunk in, and disappears into the lift. Up, up he goes, and, hours later, is named actor of the year by the London Critics’ Circle, beating that Oldman.

[smileyanie]

Fan account for 180520 YoonA Fanmeeting Tour ‘So Wonderful Day’ #Story_1 in Seoul Part I, credit @itnw0628

1. Before entrance

Fan meeting was held at Sejong University Daeyang Hall in Seoul, 6:00 pm 2018.05.20. Before going inside the venue, fans had to receive bingo card from the staff and fill it in. They said it will be used during the fan meeting. Bingo card has 100 words (or sentences) which is related to YoonA. Among those 100 words, we had to pick 25.

2. Opening VCR

YoonA is in the studio, doing her make up with staffs. A man (who looks like a manager) comes in and tells her there’s a change in her schedule so she needs to go now. YoonA is inside the van, and she looks outside. There are girls who wear school uniform. YoonA looks at them gently, and after that, she reappears with school uniform on. She walks past a flower garden and a bridge (note: The bridge looks like Dongho Daegyo, which is quite interesting), and eventually arrives at the front gate of a school.

3. MC Introduction

After opening VCR, Kim Shinyoung appeared on stage. On stage, there were two desks and chairs, just like the ones we use in school. She greeted fans, and asked them to call YoonA by saying “YoonA ya~”, as if we call our friends in school.

4. Greeting

YoonA appeared with school look on. She put on sky blue colored blouse and half dark blue / half white colored skirt. YoonA greeted fans.

YoonA: KSY unnie accepted my suggestion of being an MC for the fanmeeting without hesitation even though she didn’t know when or where it will be. Thank you.

Kim Shingyoung: Not at all. You know how we do.

KSY: You had a lot to think about this fanmeeting, right?

YA: Yes, I was agonizing. I even had an hour long phone conversation with SY unnie. Every single picture, every single section was selected by me. And did you receive the present when entering here? I bought them with my own money. (fans screamed) The design of the present was also selected by me, and I was thinking which present is the best for you and eventually decided that the one you can always bring by putting on the phones or your bags would be nice. Words 'SONE Day’ on the present was also chosen by myself. I even included photo cards which I took as selfie, though I’m not good at it. I hope you like it. (fans screamed)

KSY: I could feel how much YoonA cares about fans. It’s not easy to give out presents with your own money. (laugh)

YA: Since you guys come to see me, I thought I have to do something for you as well.

KSY: There are some concerns when deciding the concept of the fanmeeting?

YA: Yeah. You know I’m called 'Yoongtizen’ and of course I checked how fans thought about the concept. It seemed some of you felt burdened by the (school look) concept. But I can see many fans wear nice looking outfits here.

5. Giving out presents to fans

KSY: Yes and we’re going to pick 3 fans with the best style and give out presents.

YA: Yes, since fans must have thought hard of the style for today, we should. In fact, we have a lot of presents to give out. Today is the day of presents. (fans screamed)

Then YoonA and KSY looked around the audience to find out fans with the best style. First fan who got picked was on the second level. He wore school uniform with green tie. Second fan who got picked was on the left side of the first level. She put up full school uniform. Third fan who got picked was sitting at the very first row of the first level. She put on pink colored 3 line stripe slippers. (Note: 3 line stripe slippers are used a lot at school by the students)

YA: I know some of you might feel hurt by watching a fan with the great seat is even receiving the present, but please don’t. I will take care of you even at the very last row. (fans screamed)

KSY: As we already talked about at the beginning, the concept of this fanmeeting is 'school’. So, what is the first thing you do when you go to school? Yes, we call the roll. (she put up the book sized document) And this is the roll book for all of you who came here today. (fans screamed) And we will pick two random fans on the roll book and give out presents.

YA: OK. Since today is 5.20, I will pick a fan whose name is on No. 520. (a lucky female fan was selected)

KSY: Guys, I told you at SNSD’s fanmeeting as well before, but please don’t make this sort of facial expression (she made a mad facial expression) even though you’re not the one who receives a present. (fans and YoonA laughed)

YA: Next is….what time is it now? (KSY showed off her expensive looking watch on her wrist) Whoa! That watch. It’s called 'president’s watch’.

KSY: Because it’s a special day.

YA: Anyway, what time is it again? (fans told her it’s 6.18 pm) Got it. Then I’ll go reverse by picking a fan on No. 816.

KSY: You went reverse. Never expected it. I got goosebumps. (fans and YA laughed, and another lucky female fan was selected)

KSY: When you’re a student and if one of your friends give out presents like this, then she/he could be very popular, right? (fans laughed)

YA: It feels like today is not my fanmeeting, more like the giving out event. (laugh)

YA: Uh, is this the end? Then can I take this roll book?

KSY: Really?

YA: I want it because (fans’) names are on it. (fans screamed)

KSY: OK, you can take it. Since YA have all the names who came here today, if one of you don’t show up at next event…..

YA: (jokingly) If you don’t show up at next event…..you know what I mean. (fans laughed)

YA: This is a present for me, really. Thank you.

KSY: It is.

6. Yoongstagram

KSY: OK, time to talk about your recent update. I heard that you have an IG account to communicate with fans, and it’s called 'Yoongstagram’.

YA: Yes, I do. I sometimes check fans’ reaction and add something on the post. (laugh) Problem is, I’m not a heavy uploader. I think I didn’t completely adapt to it yet. Therefore, I got plenty of pictures I didn’t reveal. I reveal such pictures every time I have a birthday party.

KSY: I see. Let’s talk about it after we see the pictures.

First picture was at the foodcourt inside the Incheon airport. In the photo, YoonA made a pose with rice noodle and kimchi jjigae.

KSY: You like rice noodle and kimchi jjigae?

YA: Yes, I like both of them. And weirdly, I eat them every time I go to the airport. There was a time I felt bloated while eating in flight meal. So I thought it’d be better for me to eat something before getting on board. And guess what? The foods are delicious! Incheon airport is the place for good restaurants. (laugh) Nowadays, it became like a course to me. I always eat them when I go to the airport with the staffs.

KSY: Is it a foodcourt? I mean, you don’t usually eat both of them at once….(fans laughed)

YA: It is. I ordered them together with my staffs, and sometimes I eat theirs. (laugh) But, the main dish is always a rice noodle.

KSY: I see. Let’s move on to the second picture.

Second picture was kid YoonA wearing a swimsuit and inside the pool while smiling. She looked really cute and adorable.

YA: Kid Yoong! That swimming goggles and swimming cap look really cute.

KSY: How old were you then?

YA: I guess it’s around 1st or 2nd grade of elementary school. I think I liked swimming at that time. In fact, I have a phobia of water, I can’t swim. That’s why that picture feels unfamiliar. When I was a kid, I was playing at the beach and swallowed by the wave. It got me a trauma. If water is on the level of my waist, it’s OK. But it goes higher and reaches on the level of my neck, it’s not OK.

KSY: Do you have any intention to learn swimming?

YA: I want to, and I have to but It feel too scary when my feet doesn’t touch the ground.

KSY: How about taking a picture with the same pose and same outfit later and reveal it at fanmeeting like this?

YA: Ah, but I might have to take a picture and get out of the swimming pool quickly. (laugh) If I become good at swimming, then I’ll think about it.

KSY: I see. Next picture.

Third picture was a trophy case of YoonA.

KSY: Wow.

YA: It’s a trophy case at home. Trophies are mostly individual ones, since many of the group trophies are displayed at the company.

KSY: So most of them are awarded to 'YoonA’?

YA: Yes. There are trophies which were awarded to SNSD in the bottom though. When I see the trophy case, it looks quite cool. (laugh) And many of the trophies, I could receive them thanks to our fans. That’s why I wanted to show it to you.

KSY: You must have agonized it before taking the picture of it.

YA: Yeah, I was like, 'It might be seen as I’m bragging.’ (laugh) But, again those trophies were awarded to me thanks to our fans. Thank you.

KSY: OK. Next one, please.

Fourth picture was the one YoonA took in Hallstatt, Austria.

KSY: Oh, is it Europe?

YA: Yes, I made a trip to Europe. I uploaded pictures of visiting Budapest, Vienna, and Prague before. I also went to Salzburg which is famous for 'Sound Of Music’. And that place is Hallstatt.

KSY: I heard it’s quite famous.

YA: Yes, it’s used as the setting for 'Frozen’. I missed a proper timing to upload it.

KSY: Hashtag on the picture is quite funny. “I will reveal all of them when you feel bored”

YA: Yes, please wait for it.

KSY: So you just made a promise.

YA: Of course. I’m always thinking about it.

KSY: Next picture, please.

Fifth picture was the one YoonA took inside the room. And behind her, there were comments like, “Welcome, Euijoo” and other words and stuffs welcoming her.

YA: Recently I picked a movie scenario to participate in, and I had a meeting with production team and director. And production company made such things for me.

KSY: Wow.

YA: I’ve never seen such things before. I went there for greeting purpose only, and I felt touched by the gesture. So I asked their permission of taking a picture of it.

KSY: It starts on August?

YA: Yeah, I think I will start shooting from August.

KSY: Can you tell us the character of Euijoo a bit?

YA: She is a submanager of the convention hall. She is an ordinary woman, but very active and try hard to rescue people��.

KSY: OK, stop. That’s it. (fans laughed)

KSY: I saw the wreath which mentions 'Exit’ at the back stage, was it from the movie production team?

YA: Ah, that’s from Hyori’s Homestay team. They sent it with the meaning of me exiting from part timer’s work at homestay and becoming a submanager. (laugh) In fact, PD and writer of Hyori’s Homestay team are here. (fans screamed) I know where they’re sitting now, but I won’t tell you because they might feel shy. I guess they’re curious about my life as a superstar, not as a part timer. (laugh)

KSY: Actually, I wanted to visit Hyori’s Homestay.

YA: Really?

KSY: Yes, as Celeb Five.

YA: Ah, it must have been great.

KSY: But unfortunately, it’s all done when we applied for it.

YA: You should’ve taken the interview.

KSY: No, I’m not talking about being a part timer. I wanted to visit their as a tourist. (fans laughed) It’s impossible for me to do a part timer work there. It could be done because it was you, YoonA.

YA: Thanks to Homestay, I received a lot of love. Please give them a round of applause. (fans applauded)

7. Q&A

KSY: OK, let’s wrap up the Yoongstagram here. Next section is a Korean class. No, we’re not literally learning Korean here. (fans laughed) The name of this section is, 'Ask YoonA if you’re curious about anything’.

Blackboard with a lot of posts on came in.

YA: Wow, blackboard. It’s been so long.

KSY: Let’s check the questions. You might think we filtered out some questions but we did not. All we did is arranging the overlapping ones, and we didn’t filter out any of your questions. It might be the first time in the history of the fanmeeting. (fans laughed) OK, YoonA, pick whatever you want.

YoonA started moving around to find an interesting one. While doing so, she made a weird and funny noise. Fans laughed.

KSY: I thought it’s the sound of a door opening. (fans laughed)

YA: OK, this one. 'What is the 3 best things after you cut your hair short?’

YA: I cut my hair short because my hair went bad, I couldn’t even comb it. That’s why I cut it.

KSY: Did you do it yourself?

YA: No. I cut it at the beauty shop. When I decided to cut the hair, I was like, 'OK, let’s cut it when I don’t have a lot of schedules.’ I didn’t expect I would have this many schedules with short hair. (laugh)

YA: First good thing is, I can dry my hair very quickly. And when my hair was long, I used to put some pieces on it to make my hair look rich. But now, I don’t need to put anything on it, and it makes my scalp condition very good. (laugh)

YA: And another good thing is, well right now it becomes a bit longer so it doesn’t feel that way, but when it was quite short, it gave me a different, more stylish image.

KSY: Yeah, more intelligent feels. I think the fan who asked you this question has her own concern about it. Do you have any advice for her?

YA: Uh, if you keep your hair long all the time, then I think it’s not bad to try getting shorter. If you feel it’s too much, then cut it by the collarbone level, because we have to avoid poverty zone. (fan laughed)

KSY: Yeah, right before the poverty zone. Let’s move on.

YA: 'You get your ear pierced one more. Did you have any particular reason behind it?’ Oh, yes I got my ear pierced here one more. How did she/he know it, btw. (fans laughed)

KSY: Why did you do it?

YA: No reason. I just did. (fans laughed)

KSY: Did you research before doing it or….

YA: No, I suddenly thought 'Well, let’s do it’ and did it.

KSY: I see. Fans might have thought, 'Oh, YoonA got her ear pierced one more. I guess it’s her way of saying she will work even harder.’ (fans laughed)

YA: (laugh) So, if I get one more, then it’s also showing our fans that I will work harder? (fans laughed)

YA: Next one. 'What YoonA wanted to hear the most from fans was 'It’s alright.’ Is it still effective? Or if it changed, what is the new one?’

KSY: Ah, you used to like to hear 'It’s alright’.

YA: Yes. When I was asked which words I like to hear, I said 'It’s alright.’ No, it’s not 'You’re cool!’, it’s 'It’s alright.’ (fans laughed) (Note: 'It’s alright’ and 'You’re cool’ in Korean can be spelled exactly the same, but the meaning could be interpreted differently by the accent.)

KSY: Accent is important. (laugh) Are you still the same?

YA: Well, yes. I still love to hear it. However, I feel there’s a slight change. Nowadays, I feel even though fans have something to expect from me, they worry that I might feel too burdened by it, and say 'It’s alright’ to me. I’m like, 'Am I forcing them to say so?’ Therefore, I feel like I have to do my work even harder.

KSY: Ah, so you feel you have to do your work harder when you hear the words?

YA: Um, I think this one is more correct. In the past, I wanted to hear 'It’s alright’ from fans, but now, I want to say 'It’s alright’ to them.

KSY: Oh, so you want to tell SONEs so.

YA: Yeah, it’s 'If you’re worried about me being in a tough situation, I’m alright. So you don’t have to worry about me.’ sort of feeling.

KSY: I see. How about telling them here, then?

YA: (with an extremely cute voice) It’s alright~ (fans screamed)

YA: I think I didn’t articulate it well enough.

KSY: It’s alright. (fans laughed) I guess this is the proper time to use it.

YA: I hope my intention was correctly delivered to our fans.

KSY: I think 'It’s alright’ needs to be said sincerely to be delivered well. I heard yours being very sincere, and I believe fans did, too. It’s not about articulating well, it’s all about being sincere.

(YoonA became a bit tearful)

KSY: You should not cry at this point. Not now. (fans and YoonA laughed, and many fans shouted 'It’s alright’, it made YoonA laugh again)

YA: OK, next one. 'What is the feeling of doing fanmeeting tour?’

KSY: Seoul is the first one, right?

YA: Yes. In fact, I’ve been doing birthday part every year at COEX Artium. I was thinking about doing it again this year. I’m planning to do it every year. Then, there’s a talk about holding a fanmeeting tour. So I was like, 'If so, then how about holding the first fanmeeting tour in Seoul as a birthday party, at a larger venue?’ After that, I called SM and told my idea to them. I was like, 'First fanmeeting tour must be in Seoul, and it must be held before my birthday.’ (fans screamed)

YA: This is an Asia Tour, and you can see there’s a gap between this one and the ones in other countries. This is why. I wanted to do it before my birthday. (fans screamed)

YA: And I know fans wanted a bigger place than COEX Artium, since it’s too small.

KSY: You accept civil complaints 100%. (fans laughed) In fact, this venue is quite big.

YA: Yeah. I think it’d be better if we hold the next one at even bigger place. (fans screamed)

KSY: How about gathering fans all around the world and hold it at Gocheok Skydome? (fans screamed)

YA; Wow.

KSY: Imagine YoonA on the wire, and moving around the audience and greeting 'Welcome!’ (fans laughed)

YA: That’s cool.

KSY: (to fans) So please stay as you are until that day comes.

YA: Yeah, I will check the roll book. (fans laughed)

KSY: (to fans) At first it felt touching but now you guys feel a bit scary, right? (fans laughed)

YA: Next one. 'You wrote lyrics for two songs. When you write it, I’m curious about the way you do it, and where you get the inspiration from?’

KSY: I was quite surprised by the news.

YA: Yeah, I wrote two lyrics on an impulse. I now even have a solo song. (laugh)

KSY: I heard writing lyrics is quite difficult.

YA: It is. If I didn’t write lyrics for 'When The Wind Blows’, I might not be able to do it for 'To You’.

KSY: Did you learn something about it?

YA: No, I didn’t. But I asked people around me before arrange it. I’m the type of person who writes what I want to say. In fact, the lyrics of 'When The Wind Blows’ was co-written with composers, but 'To You’ was done all by myself. I wanted to include what I felt during the Homestays. Half of the lyrics was about what I felt during the Homestays, and other half was the feeling I already had. Last year, I had to say goodbye to one of the sunbaenims, one of my friends, and my grandma. It was a tough time for me. That time made me think, 'About the time we spent together, I think of her/him this way, but how does she/he think of me?’ Those thoughts made me start writing, and I found out that it sort of overlaps with tourists at Homestays. So, first half was more about people at Homestays, and the latter half was more about what I felt.

YA: Weird thing is, the first sentence which came to my mind while writing it was 'It’s really strange.’ That thought came to me constantly. It’s like, 'It’s so strange I feel this way.’

KSY: I think it’s because you’re in the period of experiencing a lot, feeling a lot. People are all different, but the way they live is quite the same sometimes. You might have felt that the story of the tourists aren’t all that different from yours. By the way, I wrote lyrics, too. (fans laughed)

YA: Celeb Five? (then she danced choreo of Celeb Five’s song)

KSY: You know it!

YA: Of course I do. (then she danced even more part of the choreos, fans screamed)

KSY: Wow. I can’t be happier now. (fans laughed, and shouted 'Do it together!’)

KSY: Shall we, then? (then YA and KSY danced the choreo together)

YA: I really want to learn.

KSY: Really? If you have some time later, then please learn it from us. (laugh) You don’t have to worry about the schedule, we will match yours. (fans laughed)

KSY: In fact, Yuri said she will be the center if they do Celeb Five on radio. (fans laughed)

YA: I think she should. Center belongs to her. (fans laughed)

KSY: I see. Center Yuri. How about you, YoonA? (fans shouted 'main dancer!’)

KSY: Ah, main dancer?

YA: Uh, I think we have too many people who have to do the center. Yuri unnie, Sooyoung unnie. They are two tops. And if Hyoyeon unnie is a bit more confident, then she’s also a top candidate. But, I think no one beats Yuri and Sooyoung unnies. (fans laughed)

KSY: If you have a chance next year, then how about inviting us to your Asia Tour?

YA: I really want to. In fact, we were watching you do it, and said 'Wow, unnies are amazing. How about us doing it?’

KSY: No joke, I will visit SM ASAP. (fans laughed)

KSY: Actually, the opening VCR was filmed by Shindong from SJ. He is also the director of Celeb Five’s MV.

YA: Yes, director Shindong shot all the VCRs for this fanmeeting.

KSY: Right. Well, maybe next time, we can sort things out, and let us participate in the opening VCR at least.

YA: Got it.

KSY: OK, how about next question?

YA: You pick it for me.

KSY: (to fans) Is it OK? (fans said yes)

YA: Do it as if you’re a SONE.

KSY: I see. I think a lot of questions, fans must already know the answers. OK, I want to make you do this one. (she picked 'Please write a 2 line poet using 'SO-ONE’) (fans screamed, and YoonA sighed)

KSY: (laugh) Did you guys hear it? YoonA sighed heavily when I showed her this one. Let’s do this. Did you do it at your birthday party last year?

YA: No.

KSY: Then let’s do it.

YA: I can feel the burden of Mr. Yoo Byungjae now. (fans laughed)

KSY: Are you ready?

YA: Yes.

KSY: OK. 1,2,3! (fans shouted 'So~’)

YA: SONEs~

KSY: (jokingly) Drop it, drop it. It’s too boring. (fans laughed)

KSY: OK. One! (fans shouted 'One~’)

YA: Watch me more than you could ever want today! (Note: In Korean, it starts with 'Won’)

KSY: OK, that was good. Shall we do it one more question?

YA: This section is my favorite indeed.

KSY: I know. When we talk about fanmeeting, YoonA constantly told me she wants to have a chance to have a conversation with SONEs. Since she can’t talk with every single fan, she wants to have this sort of section instead. If we accepted 100% of YoonA’s opinion, we might have to stay in this venue for two days. (fans screamed)

YA: When I did birthday party, I am also the MC, and I exceeded the time limit while doing Q&A. (laugh)

KSY: Do you go to karaoke?

YA: Uh, sometimes. Not frequently.

KSY: Which song do you sing there?

YA: Well, I sing male singers’ songs sometimes. (fans shouted 'Dance!’)

YA: Dance? I don’t usually do it at karaoke, unless I go there with other SNSD members.

KSY: Ah, this one. I think this question really came out of curiosity. 'Please give us the information regarding the coat you wore at the airport after shooting 'Rag M’ CF.’ (fans laughed)

YA: What did I wear? (fans shouted the color and the style of the coat)

YA: Ah, I see. That one. (to staffs behind the stage) What was it? (fans laughed)

YA: Are you guys really curious?

KSY: I think they are.

YA: (receiving information from the staffs) Uh, I’m not sure I can tell you this since I’m a model of other fashion brand, but it’s XXXX. That’s it. (fans laughed)

YA: SY unnie picked a lot of interesting questions.

KSY: Fans are really curious about those things though. They are curious about 'YoonA look’.

KSY: OK, next one. 'Which app do you use when you take a selfie?’

YA: Ah. I use B612.

KSY: Do you have any particular filter you like?

YA: Recently, I’m into four ways split. There’s a filter which gives you a feel of film camera. In fact, the effect on the photocard I gave you today was from B612 as well. (laugh)

YA: Face changing effect that I used before, it was from B612, too.

KSY: I see. How about next question?

YA: 'You have a really nice voice. Could you do ASMR for us?’

KSY: You know what ASMR is, right?

YA: Yes. I had an experience of listening to it when I couldn’t sleep. There are a lot of ASMRs out there.

KSY: Right. Could you do it here, then? (to fans) Please shut your eyes off. (but fans didn’t)

KSY: (to fans) Please, shut your eyes off. (fans shouted 'We have to see her!’)

KSY: Alright, alright.

YoonA did ASMR of hers. She almost whispered.

YA: I heard there’s a special mic for it.

KSY: Yes.

YA: I actually heard a sound of slime. I really wanted to have one. And recently, I found Taeyeon unnie have one. So I asked her to give me one. She was like, 'Oh, take it. I got plenty.’ I bring one to my house and played with it.

KSY: Was it fun?

YA: It was.

KSY: I think I should ask Taeyeon when I meet her next time. In fact, she gives out something very well. She’s like, 'Go ahead, take it. I got plenty.’ (laugh)

8. YoonA asked fans

KSY: Let’s wrap it up here. Until now, fans asked YoonA about her. Now it’s time for YoonA to ask fans. You must have seen the board when you make the entrance.

White boards with YoonA’s pictures on came in. Each board had a question which YoonA asked fans. Fan had to put a sticker on the answer they like.

KSY: This section is also prepared because YoonA said she’s really curious about fans’ thought about it. First question is, 'What is the best character among the ones YoonA acted?’ What is your choice, YoonA?

YA: Well, to me the most comfortable role was Minyoung from Confidential Assignment. People who know me said to me, “You didn’t even act on the movie. It’s you.” (laugh) During the shoot, when I heard OK sign from the director, I was like, 'Really? I didn’t do anything here.’ (laugh)

KSY: Can I tell you what actress Kang Yewon told me after she watched Confidential Assignment?

YA: Yes.

KSY: She said, “YoonA became a real actress. She’s more than just an idol.” This is not a fake. I myself heard it at her house.

YA: I got a lot of compliments because of that movie.

KSY: I think the movie would have been boring if not for YoonA.

YA: Wow, thank you.

KSY: (jokingly whispering) You know I said that because it’s only us here. (fans laughed)

KSY: It was a joke. Really, you made the atmosphere of the movie quite smooth.

YA: It’s all because of the production.

YA: So, I like Minyoung, and I don’t know why, but I like Anna. I really don’t know. In fact, Anna was not the ideal role in the viewpoint of the company. But I really wanted to do it, so I pushed it. Maybe that’s why, or perhaps the role felt fresh, anyway I really like Anna.

KSY: I see. Let’s see how fans think.

KSY and YoonA started to reveal fans’ votes.

KSY: First one is Hana from Love Rain. Quite a lot.

YA: It was a cute character.

KSY: Next is Saebyuk from You’re My Destiny. Hm, similar numbers to Hana.

YA: Saebyuk is quite an old one at this point.

KSY: Many moms still call YoonA Saebyuk.

YA: It’s when I was a 3rd grade of high school. 10 years ago.

KSY: Wow, 10 years ago.

YA: I was a student, and yet I had to act living a married life. (fans laughed) I felt a bit awkward because of it.

KSY: Next one is Minyoung from CA. Let’s see. (it has a lot of stickers on)

YA: Wow.

KSY: I think you and your fans are connected. Next is San from The King Loves. (it has quite a lot of stickers as well)

YA: I think I know what you guys like. If the next one got a lot of votes as well, then we can conclude that you prefer a character with a sincere heart towards her love. (Next and the last one was Anna from The K2, and it received a lot of votes, too)

KSY: Indeed.

YA: OK, the results are, Minyoung at No.1, Anna at No.2, and San at No.3. Hana at No.4, and Saebyuk at No.5.

KSY: I guess now you know what fans think.

YA: Yes, I think fans are quite similar to me.

KSY: I think fans love the character which has the aspect of a real life YoonA.

YA: If so, then I think fans would love Euijoo, too. (fans screamed)

KSY: I see. Next question is, 'Which hair style is best suited for YoonA?’ You said short cut is quite comfortable, right?

YA: But now it got longer. You know, these pictures on the questionnaire board, I picked all of them myself.

KSY: I see. I can see blonde, short cut, black long hair with front hair, up style, brown long hair with wave. You had quite a lot of hair styles.

YA: Well, considering I was in the business for 10 years, I don’t think it’s that many. But, I didn’t stay as one style for long.

KSY: Do you have a favorite hair style among them?

YA: I stayed as brown long hair for the longest time.

KSY: I think that one is the most familiar one for fans, too.

YA: However, when my hair is brown, then fans wanted to see black. So I changed it to black, and the problem is, if I do so, my hair goes bad. So I leave it like that and don’t touch it. Then it goes back to brown again. Then fans said “Why YoonA dyed her hair back to brown?” (fans laughed)

KSY: I see. You really want to know what fans think.

YA: I cut my hair like this after I shot MV of 'When The Wind Blows’. After that, all I’m doing is root staining. But my hair turned to brown again. I guess receiving sunlight and others might have something to say about it.

YA: I like brown long hair. And I also liked blonde. However, the short cut I’m doing right now is the product of that blonde. (laugh)

KSY: I see. Blonde messed up your hair. I personally like up style, too.

YA: Up style is good. Actually, I want to raise my hair long like that again. Problem is, it depends on the role I take.

KSY: I don’t know which hair is required for Euijoo, but anyway, let’s see the result. So, YoonA’s favorite is brown long hair with wave and blonde. (They revealed votes for brown long hair first, and it received a lot of votes)

KSY: Wow. I think we don’t have to see other ones. It’s already decided. (next one was up style and it didn’t receive many votes)

KSY: OK. Next one is black long hair. Hm, it received some votes, too.

YA: Next is short cut. (it received plenty of votes)

KSY: I guess fans like short cut, too. (last one was blonde, and it received a lot of votes)

YA: Wow.

KSY: I guess you should go back and forth between brown long hair and blonde. (laugh)

YA: So you do like brown long hair. In fact, if I raise my hair long again, I would like to go back to that one. It’s good. (laugh)

KSY: Considering how fans voted, I think you and your fans are really connected. You guys are similar.

YA: I think so. Actually, I cut my front hair recently because when I did short cut first, front hair looked pretty. But now my hair got longer, and with front hair, whichever style I do, it feels too retro. That’s why I cut it.

KSY: About blonde, I think fans want to see it on stage.

YA: I know. I think I made a right choice going blonde at that time.

KSY: How old were you then?

YA: It was when I did Party, so three years ago.

KSY: OK, next question. 'Which dish would you like to eat among the ones YoonA cooked?’ (Even without revealing, we could see the stickers were all over on Mille Feuille Nabe)

YA: I can see the result already. (laugh)

KSY: (to fans) You’re not supposed to spoil like this. (fans laughed)

YA: It looks like more fans voted for this question. (laugh) It makes me feel like I’m very good at cooking.

KSY: It looks like you are.

YA: Not really. I think I said it before, but when I was not having any busy schedule, I got a driver’s license. At that time, I felt sense of accomplishment thanks to the direct result I received. I really liked that feeling. So I tried to find something which I can see the direct result. That’s why I learned cooking. I learned cooking from a teacher for certain period, and after that I googled internet for recipes and tried some. Then, I went to Homestays, and it gave me a lot of confidence. I called the kitchen there as my dream one. I did many dishes which I couldn’t before.

KSY: All of these dishes, I can’t even think of cooking. Even Curry Rice.

YA: Curry Rice is easy.

KSY: Isn’t it 3 min? (fans laughed) (note: KSY refers to 3-min instant curry)

KSY: OK, let’s see the result. It’s too obvious, though. (she revealed the votes for Curry Rice, and not many votes were on it)

KSY: (laugh) You guys were too much. Curry Rice wasn’t that appealing to you?

YA: I guess it’s because you can eat Curry Rice easily.

KSY: Do you have any special recipe for Curry?

YA: Well, putting some milk in it?

KSY: For Curry?

YA: Yes. It makes it softer.

KSY: Next one is Braised Sea Bream. (the result was revealed, and it didn’t receive many votes as well)

KSY: I see. Let’s move to the next one. (next one was Mille Feuille Nabe)

YA: No.1!

KSY: Yes, no.1! (fans laughed)

KSY: It feels like we’re doing a music show with single 1st prize candidate. (fans laughed) (result was revealed, and expectedly, massive amounts of stickers were on it)

YA: Wow, it is a lot. Does any of you cook it yourself? (some fans raised their hands)

YA: I see. In fact, the taste will be similar. (fans laughed)

KSY: Oh, there’s not much difference in taste regardless?

YA: Yes, but making it look pretty is not easy. (then she explained how to make it pretty)

KSY: I think you should be on cooking variety someday.

YA: I’d love to.

KSY: How about 'Homemade cooking teacher Lim’? (fans laughed)

YA: I really want to learn. If I was on that program, then I would’ve learned a lot of recipes.

KSY: How about opening your restaurant someday? (fans screamed) You know, there are many spot bar during college festivals. You open such bar, and cook something over and over. (laugh)

KSY: Next one is waffle. Oh, it received some votes. Right now, it’s the 2nd place.

YA: But I think it will be the 3rd place pretty soon. (next one was Jjimdak, and it received a lot of votes)

KSY: Yoongyoong Jjimdak! How come you cook it at home. It’s very difficult.

YA: This one is what I learned during the learning course. One of the dishes that I cook quite often.

KSY: So you cook Jjimdak at home quite a lot?

YA: Yes. All of these are the ones I cooked quite a lot.

KSY: I guess Curry Rice is the most frequent one, though.

YA: Well, I think I should remove Curry Rice next time.

KSY: (laugh) You’re hurt by the result. (then KSY hand counted the number of votes on Curry Rice)

KSY: Grand total of 15 fans voted for Curry Rice. I guess they were like, “Wait, Curry is being alienated so we should give some votes!” (fans laughed)

KSY: Me personally, I have one which I really want to try among these. It’s waffle.

YA: Ah, waffle.

KSY: It was quite popular after the broadcast. Do you know that waffle making machines were sold out?

YA: I know. Because of that, the company sent me a thank you letter and other products.

KSY: Really?

YA: Yes. Since it’s a foreign company, I heard that endorsement contract is not possible…(fans laughed)

KSY: I love bread, so I really wanted to try it.

YA: Really?

KSY: Yes.

YA: Well then……I will make waffle today for you.

KSY: Wow! (fans screamed)

KSY: Ah, now I see. What you did at the backstage was for this. I thought you’re doing it to eat it yourself. (fans laughed)

KSY: So if you’re going to do it, I think you have to go inside and prepare for it.

YA: Yes.

KSY: We will wait here while you prepare. (YoonA disappeared to the backstage)

9. VCR (Making Film of 'To You’)

KSY talked about how YoonA prepared for the fanmeeting, then disappeared to the backstage. Lights were off, and making film of 'To You’ was on the screen.

10. 1st Stage (To You)

After VCR is finished, YoonA appeared on stage with pretty white dress on. She sang 'To You’ live for the first time for us. She made a slight mistake during the song (perhaps due to her having cold), but she recovered well after that and finished the song.

11. 2nd Stage (When The Wind Blows)

After the 1st stage, 2nd stage began instantly. YoonA sang it flawlessly this time. We had a fan event here, which was holding up the candle light together when YoonA sings 'You are my star’. I’m not sure YoonA realized it, though.