#anyways im rambling. my point is i barely had a religious upbringing

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so often i see people equating hierophilia with religious trauma and im just over here like. actually im just into it bc its hot <3 xoxo

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MUSE   PLAYLIST. // Avaldr Stormcrow

post 3-5 songs that remind you of your muse.

rules: repost,   don’t   reblog.

tagged by : @landwaker​ tagging : @s-udarshana​ @riicred​ @aurorahawklight​ + @lady-of-crowns​ (id do more tags but it’s 12:30 and im laZY.. gomen my dudes)

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01.   [[ NINETEEN - Movements ]] 

Cause I am not who you were at nineteen I am not the men you want me to be I am not a warrior, I am fragile, I am weak I'm not a warrior, I am not you, I'm barely me

p straightforward, avaldr’s relationship with his father

02.   [[ WHAT DIDN’T KILL ME JUST GOT STRONG (instrumental) - A Lot Like Birds ]]  

moody guitars for a moody man and overall just track with a lot of ambient effects that makes you as uncomfortable as he feels 24/7. the drum are like his anxieties spiking and i cant explain the sax in here but it’s just like Jazz for His Soul but not in a meme sort of way

03.  [[ fill;avoid - The Color Morale ]] 

I'll never know comfort till the sun sets. I've always known the struggle when the light and my eyes met. They connect. Put me back in the earth. I came from dust and not dirt. You made me from dust, not dirt.

oddly religious and has to do about life vs. death, so it’s more of a literal play on the card i gave him -- but the vibe fits perfectly

04.   [[ THE SUSPEND - Stick To Your Guns ]]  

Until death relieves me, I'll give until I've got nothing left I'll give / I won't lend I won't break / but I'll bend I'll move with the wind / And I won't fear the end Because I won't live forever / But I will die tall I see only one truth And that truth comes for us all

this doesn’t reflect avaldr quite yet, but this is 100% where i want him to end up.

a small ramble — right now, avaldr’s sort of in the process of turning a new leaf. he’s had an entitled + rotten upbringing, but after his own actions cause him to be cast out of his family & he starts traveling with the scions, he starts to see the world differently. very slowly. because he is still a bastard -- but he’s learning to treat people like people (didn’t think you’d have to teach someone that, but hey that’s avaldr in a nutshell)

anyways yeah his character arc is about going from a shitty person to a Pretty Allright Dude so this song makes me wistfully think abt when he gets to that point