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gideonisms · 1 year ago

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The last time I got a bit drunk I started doing my dishes and messaging everyone I knew. I was having 3 conversations at once and finally accomplishing a task I'd been putting off all day. how does THAT work. I'm inventing new unique ways to be a failwoman (gender neutral)

#i'm having the world's stupidest problems #if i revealed the specific amount of time i have spent procrastinating on trying to get a job despite waling up every day intending to try #you all would think i was insane #other life tasks too #sometimes i will want to do something and it will be like. okay if i was normal i could do this in months but #let's say 3-5 years #i feel bad about it too not because i want to be productive for some rich guys somewhere but because!#i have goals for my life i would prefer to stay busy and do something that benefits someone somewhere (not those rich guys)#i like doing tasks even #i would prefer to not be sitting here thinking #and if i could just master basic life tasks we could move on to fun creative goals i have too or things i'd like to try #anyway. perhaps i will just try different substances until i can hit the off switch on whatever that is for a sec #i really just need like 3 months of not being like this. total. forever #i truly think i could sort it out in 3 months

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