#anyway. im trans/transmasc but thats as far as that goes for me. maybe demigender but thats not something you can explain to | Explore Tumblr Posts and Blogs

basslinegrave · 4 months

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another year, another pride where i feel left out/like i cant participate because i dont know my gender or my sexuality and with the current situation in my country its hard to show pride in any way when even the circles that should accept you would rather shun you but i get the reason - if you show youre queer/lgbt outside youre not safe and are putting others around you at risk too... i used to wear a trans symbol pin in college but chickened out and took it off because i just didnt feel safe. and now its even worse. i also use he/him irl but even though i use it with my parents its only iver chat, i cant bring myself to do it in speech and its so awkward when i speak 😔

#the only safe space left are the local cons #havent met a homophobe there yet once. maybe theyre there but theyre probably a minority #and staying quiet #90% of the attendees are wearing the tiger pride tote bag so it looks like a gay parade every year lmao #anyway. im trans/transmasc but thats as far as that goes for me. maybe demigender but thats not something you can explain to #normies so im a trans man to the general public #and im pan/bi or gay to the general public when in reality its more of an aroace fictosexual situation #what im sad about every year is how people put their flags up but i dont have a flag that i feel is truly mine #i also have a poor memory so i cant even tell some flags apart unless i look it up and i still forget #i kinda vibed with genderqueer tho #and demigender but idk #also i lean towards nonbinary transmasc but theres no proper use of they/them in my language and people and my family hate nb and fluid #so thats between me and the people in my phone #thoughts are being thunk #also the trans flag... i dont like it much like baby pink and baby blue?? hnnnnnn not my cuppa

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