#anyway. he’s not doing thattttt

[mythtakens]

you know what while I’m at it the headcanon that Eddie is riddled with horrible internalized homophobia and would be supposedly so tortured by realizing he’s in love with Buck but Buck not being a woman.. um that shit SUCKS!!! people have been saying stuff like this for years for some reason ummm that guy literally is not real. like none of this is real obviously it is tv but sorry he is not doing that. Eddie-who-cannot-escape-replicating-toxic-masculinity is genuinely just the opposite of the character we have been watching for 7 seasons. his relationship with religion has always been portrayed as agnostic at best and he is regularly a figure of vocal support when it comes to validating other people’s feelings. he does not need some torturous agonizing sexuality arc and half a season of therapy about it. his problem explicitly in the text for years was that he has a hard time feeling like he deserves to express things on his own behalf?? putting what he wants first has too often put him in a place where doing so has felt like failing the people he loves, largely in part because he was told to put his childhood aside and start taking care of other people at age 10. like his main root problem is not internalized homophobia or toxic masculinity it’s always been parentification and a lifelong lack of support from his parents causing self worth issues. and considering his arc this season has been headed to continue to resolve that as much as possible and put him on a path to self love I really and truly do not think he is gonna give that much of a fuck if Buck is a man and that makes him queer. like yeah it’s a perspective he clearly hasn’t thought about in depth yet but I think it would be the opposite really?? I think it will make the rest of it easier. it’s Buck, and loving Buck couldn’t possibly be a bad thing, so reaching for other good things doesn’t have to be either.

[wnightingales]

when Kenny comes back the Hangman anti hero babyface arc is going to shift in overdrive oh my god I’m so excited

[buwheal]

After everything, we don't know how to look ourselves in the mirror until we say sorry.

I guess that makes the apology a little selfish. Would it be awkward to apologize for saying sorry?

[lctibule]

i feel like, in the verse where he's living in the us, minjoon gets homesick with some regularity and either a) orders a shitload of korean food from one of the many local restaurants he's tried in search of the right taste, or b) if he's feeling especially lonely & homesick, cooks for himself some of the meals that his mom would make for him growing up.

he also finds himself tempted to call his mother in these moments, but usually knows better than to actually do it (bc he knoooooows they'll get into an argument over something, and that'll ultimately just make him feel worse).

[astrangeghost]

Being a dork loser is so fun until. All my interests are dorky loser stuff and I don't want to sound like a dweebus talking about them

[zeltqz]

having rindou as a clingy, needy fwb

content: safe sex, sexting, suggestive pics, rindou is a horny guy, needy guy, clingy guy, implied possessive rindou, fem!reader

a/n: ive been so inactive im so sorry guys i feel so bad :( uni has been literally kicking my BOOOOOTYYYY anyway enjoy this quick one shot with rindou :))

He’s bold.

You set the shopping bag down on the floor by your bed and began to unpack its contents, ready for a mini fashion show in front of your mirror when your phone chimed by your bedside table.

You were halfway with taking your top off when you heard the buzz and walked over to it and grabbed it.

rinnn wyd

You smiled at his random text message, eyes trained on your screen as you sat backwards onto your bed and texted back.

you Just came back from shopppinggg

Setting your phone down, you’re about to stand back up to head towards your mirror when he responds at lightspeed. Oh he must be so bored today, you snigger and decide to text him back.

rinnn What you get?

you Cant tell you thattttt Too personal

rinnn What was it? Lingerie?

you Oh um

rinnn No way. Pfft yeah right

you WHATS THAT SUPPOSED TO MEAN????

rinnn Nothing i just cant see you in that at all

you Well its true 

rinnn Sureeee Lemme see it

you Ok wait one second

You stand up from your bed and walk over to your bag, grab the lacy bra and matching panties set and place it flat on your bed. It took longer than a second to snap the photo as you wanted it to look perfect and presentable so you spent longer actually wiping stray crumbs from your bed, closing your curtains to get perfect lighting, straightening out your bedsheets in order to get the perfect photo.

Once you were pleased, you hopped back onto your bed and sent the photo to Rindou. As expected, since it took longer than you said to send the photo he went offline and you huffed impatiently. Ten minutes later your phone was buzzing and you zoomed for it eagerly, only for your smile to fade when you saw his response.

rinnn Thats not what i meant

you WDYM?????

rinnn Did you get it for your boyfriend?

you You know damn well i dont have a boyfriend

rinnn Lmfao i know. just checking

you what???

rinnn Show me the fit tho

you I did

rinnn Put it on

you oh…OHH Sure okay…

You weren’t expecting that at all honestly. Yet the idea of putting it on for Rindou weirdly turned you on. You bit your lip and stared down at the lacy material laid on your bed and slowly began to strip off your shirt and bottoms. Once it was on, you quickly walked up to the mirror and examined how it looked on you. 

It was the cheapest matching set available in store and you weren’t rich by any means so it’ll have to do. You quickly grabbed your phone and snapped a photo of you standing in the mirror. 

The photo was horrible. You were stiff, awkward and you accidentally took the photo in the middle of blinking. You wanted to cry but you couldn’t find the confidence left in yourself to retake it, so you cropped your face out and sent the photo to Rindou without a second thought. 

It all happened so quickly that you failed to realise the gravity of what you just did until you saw Rindou read the message. Your eyes widened and you tossed your phone across the room, flopping instantly onto your bed and thrashing between the sheets for a minute or two to let your frustrations and anxieties out. 

It was the first time you ever sent someone intimate photos and you made a promise to your younger self that you’d wait until you were in an official relationship to do that. But here you were sending them to your best friend just because you wanted his approval for reasons that were beyond you.

Your phone buzzed minutes later and you peeked an eye open at your phone from across the room, took a deep breath then reached for it.

rinnn Damn u look so sexy right now

you Lol stop Thank you tho

rinnn Send another

you Desperate much?

rinnn Coming from the girl buying lingerie for herself

you Nothing wrong with that :( But fine wait

You feel exceptionally giddy when you stand up from your bed, your confidence rising back up in copious amounts as you waddle towards your mirror. This time, you recorded a short video of you from side to side, showing off your assets as seductively as you possibly could before sending it to him.

His response only spurs you on even more.

rinnn Would u kill me if i was hard rn

you Probably yes Flattered, but yes

rinnn How would u kill me?

you Choke you maybe. Or like suffocation and prolong it as long as i can

rinnn With your thighs? I wont mind that

Your face flushes as your thumbs freeze over your keyboard.

you OML YOURE SO HORNY I DIDN'T MEAN IT LIKE THAT

rinnn Thats how i took it 

you Yeah i know, you weirdo

rinnn How would you suffocate me though?

you With my hands duhhhhhh. Actually maybe a pillow. More surface area.

rinnn You’ll be on top of me?

The image of you on top of him with your hands around his throat plagued your mind and you were lost for words for the third time tonight. It didn’t even occur to you that you were sexting your best friend.

you If that's how you want to go out then yes

rinnn It is

you Then i will

rinnn Good

You This escalated so fast Goodbye rindou 

He’s needy.

His phone is ringing. 

Rindou’s phone is ringing whilst he’s on top of you, lips kissing and sucking your soft skin just under your jaw as his cock thrusts slowly into you. Your hands are playing with his hair, running your fingers through them, scratching at his scalp when his cock reaches that spot inside you with enough force to tease, not satisfy you. 

You’d been begging him to go rougher, want to hear the loud slap of his hips against yours but he’d been so adamant on taking his sweet time, like his phone hasn’t been ringing for the last thirty seconds.

“Rinnnnnn,” you grumble irritatedly, the soft strokes you were doing on his hair now turned to a full on tug , as harsh as you could, with enough force to completely still his lips on your neck. 

He pulls away from you and lifts himself up onto his arms, looking down at you with a peeved expression on his face.

“What.” His hips still don’t still, thrusting ever so slightly into you but keeps on managing to hit that spot regardless and see your eyes roll as you bite down your lip to stifle a moan. 

Unlinking your arms from around his neck, you try to reach over to the bedside table but your arms are too short. Grumbling, you try to shift and Rindou just stills entirely, watching you grab his phone that was face down as it rang continuously for the last minute. 

Missed call: Dad

Missed call: Dad

Your eyebrows raise as you read the contact and turn the phone towards Rindou. He clicks his tongue, irritated your attention is off him and grabs the phone. 

“It’s just my old man, who cares?” He tosses the phone backwards on the bed, this time you can’t reach it if it rings again and his thrusts restart, slowly rolling his hips into your core.

“What if it's important?” you mumble, your voice shaky when he relowers himself on you, kissing your lips softly. “Rin—” Your words keep getting swallowed by his lips and he doesn’t stop kissing you until you finally give in. 

He grabs onto your hand and lifts it, nestling it on top of his head and moves your fingers to play with his hair. You got the hint and began stroking his hair again, loving the way he hums into your mouth whenever you tug at his hair.

You were finally submitting to him again, his phone long forgotten in your mind and he grins before pulling away from the kiss to reattach his lips back onto your neck, adding more to the marks he left on your neck prior.

“Rin faster please,” you whine, trying to lift your hips to feel his cock deeper inside you but he’s quicker. A firm hand pressing down on your hips to keep them flat on the bed.

“Stop being so needy,” he says, voice muffled as he doesn’t stop sucking down your throat. 

“I’m needy? Says the one who’s been kissing me and having me play with your  hair for the last—” You grab your phone that was under his pillow and check the time. You got here around five p.m and it's now close to six. “—hour.”

“Were you not complaining you barely get aftercare during sex? All those other boys you were with practically discarded you, now I’m doing it and you have a problem?” His hand runs on the underside of your right breast before cupping it, squeezing it in his hand, enjoying the way you shiver momentarily. “Make up your fuckin’ mind.” 

His tongue licks at your nipple and your body jerks briefly before stilling as he sucks on your soft nipple till it hardens. 

“That’s—not the same and you know it, Rin.” you huff, unable to think of a comeback; not when he’s treating you like this.  He chuckles and bites gently on your breast.

All you can think of as you toss your head back is the feeling of his soft lips on your breast, his tongue licking at your nipple, sending static down your entire body. 

His mouth is hot against your skin and you find yourself subconsciously lifting your chest higher to feel more of his mouth. 

Your hands grab onto his face and lift him to look at you before pulling him towards you for a kiss. His hand rests on the headboard behind you as your needy mouth moves against his. 

You take the time to run your fingers along his sides, dragging them along his bare back that’s far too clean for your liking, not enough scratch marks like usual. If only he’d actually fuck you like you wanted.

This time, your phone starts to ring beside you and you pull away, breaking the kiss and completely missing the way Rindou rolls his eyes as you instantly go to answer it.

“Hello?”

Bored, Rindou bends back down to your neck only to have you press your spare hand against his mouth, looking sternly at him and shaking your head.

“Oh hi Kakucho. Yes, Rindou’s with me.” 

Rindou gives you a confused look and you shrug before listening intently at your phone. “Oh really? Yeah, we’re not busy right now. I’ll tell him. Okay, bye.” You hang up and put your phone back on the bed.

“Why did you lie?” Rindou asks.

“Kakucho said he needs you for something. I don’t know what, he won’t tell me.” 

“Okay? I’m still busy though.” He pins you back down to the bed when you go to sit up. “I’ll fuck you for real this time. Let me finish.” 

As if to prove his point he shifts backwards, grabbing your ankles and lifting your legs to rest on his shoulder. He leans forward and his cock instantly slides deeper than before; you moan loudly.

 “Right there?” He rolls his hips again, testing. You nod rapidly, breathless and that’s all he needs before snapping his hips recklessly. 

Your walls flutter around the condom with each thrust and he can’t get enough of how good you feel around him. He buries his head between your shoulder and his pillow and listens to your moans, how loud and shaky they get when his hips press firmly against yours. 

“I’m close,” you say softly, biting down on your lip.

“Me too. Shit.” 

His orgasm comes faster than he’d expected, his seed spilling out into the condom when you moan his name softly as your own walls spasm from your own orgasm. He lays on top of you momentarily before remembering Kakucho’s call and reluctantly lifts himself off you.

He slides off the bed and you lift your jelly legs up to sit upright, watching him change back into his clothes. 

“What time will you be back?” you ask, resting your chin on your arm perched on top of your knee. 

“Not sure to be honest. I don’t even know what these people want.” He fixes his belt. “Why? You’ll miss me?” he adds with a smirk and you roll your eyes,

“Other way around Rindou.”

“Mhm sure .” Fully dressed, he fixes his hair that’s been ruffled from earlier. “C’mere.” 

You slide off the bed and walk over to him. He cups your cheek and pulls you closer, gently kissing you. 

You pull away after a few moments and push him towards the door. “Get out already. Stop stalling and go see your friends.”

He laughs before closing the door.

He can’t keep his hands off you.

Rindou has his arm wrapped around your shoulder, keeping sure your body is pressed against his side the entire party. If you wanted to get a drink, he’ll be with you with his arm around your shoulder. It’s a friendly gesture, what can he say? 

 If you wanted to play beer pong with his friends, his arm is around your hip, standing behind you, close enough so that your ass constantly brushes his crotch whenever you make any sort of movement. 

His friends all look at him like he can’t be serious. Ran can’t even think of a time he’s seen you without Rindou’s arm around you honestly. It’s gotten that far.

If you’re sitting on the couch, Rindou’s arm is around your waist, making sure you’re sitting as close to him as possible. What can he say, he just wants to make space for others on the couch. He’s a generous guy.

You’re currently in the bathroom, fixing your hair up to get ready to step into the pool. 

Rindou’s watching you as he sits on the edge of the bathtub, shamelessly running his eyes along your body in your bathing suit. You’re not oblivious to his staring, only used to it at this point. It’s not like you don’t stare at him too whenever he’s shirtless. 

It’s only admiration .

Rindou stands up and stands behind you as you take your earrings out, his chest right against your back as you look at him through the mirror.

“You good?” you ask, concerned. He’s been silent the entire time you’ve been changing.

“Yeah. Why wouldn’t I be?” he murmurs, distracted by the thin strap of your bathing suit. He can’t help but wonder how something so thin can be sturdy enough to hold up in the waters. The last thing he wants is for it to come loose and have your entire chest exposed in front of all his friends.

“I dunno Rin. You’ve been really quiet since Sanzu mentioned swimming—”

“Isn’t this a little flimsy?” he cuts you off, ignoring you in favour of tugging at your strap.

“You think?” You tug at the other one and wonder. “I think it’ll be fine. Actually! Could you tighten the strings at the back?” You reach behind your back and gesture at it.

“Sure.” His voice is low as he unties the straps and begins tying them again but tighter. Halfway, he stops and you don’t notice until you’ve fully taken out your earrings, feeling your bikini top begin to slip. 

“Uh, Rin?” You feel him moving the straps off your shoulder but before you can question it, he’s turning you around and hoisting you up onto the bathroom counter. “Rin. What are you—”

He leans forward, entrapping in a kiss that has you shutting up instantly. His hand palms your breast through your bikini top that’s on the verge of falling to the floor. 

Your hands move to the side of his face and hold him close to you as he slips between your legs, his hand dropping to rest at your hips. His tongue plays with yours, licking into your mouth and you have to fight to keep the soft moan rising in your throat down as you ran your hands down the plane of his chest, gripping at the waistband of his shorts to tug him closer.

Your bikini top finally falls to the floor and it feels so good to have his hand caressing your bare breast. 

A loud knock at the door startles you; Rindou remains unfazed, only irritated at being interrupted. 

“What the fuck do you want?” Rindou yells at the door.

“We’re about to get in the pool. You guys coming or not?!” Sanzu yells back from the other end.

Rindou turns back to you and you shrug, not really minding what you do. His eyes drop down to your lips, your bare chest, your legs, then his dick that’s been hard in his shorts for the last five minutes.

“We’ll see you in a bit.” Rindou kisses you again, lifting you off the counter slightly to slide the rest of your bikini off.

“We’re busy right now.”

[eldizzle69]

“thinking their crush likes someone else”

masterlist

including :: Hotarubi

—Subaru Kagami

•genuinely heartbroken

•like I see him letting his thoughts get the better of him and telling him he was never good enough anyways.

•he might unconsciously avoid you, like he doesn’t mean to it just kinda happens.

•might look a little gloomy when your around.

•pls make it abundantly obvious you life him he would be so sad.

“Subaru can I ask you a… uh question I guess?” You spoke finally, and your words visibly caught the Hotarubi captain off guard. He gave a nervous nod to your question.

“Have I upset you?…”

“What?” His response was immediate, his eyes panicked. “N-not at all! Why would you think that?” casting his gaze down, he knew why.

“You’re avoiding me,” you said sternly and Subaru sputtered, ���if I’ve upset you just tell me why….please?”

There was a long stretch of silence after that. Neither of you said a single thing, and Subaru refused to meet your gaze what so ever. So, you took that as his answer. Bitting your lip you lifted yourself from your seat and went to leave. You were into a few steps into leaving when a gentle hand frantically reached out and grabbed your own.

“I-I’m sorry,” Subaru said with a red face. Quickly he let go of your hand. Then the two of you were engulfed into more silence as Subaru collected his words.

“I like you…,” he said after a moment, with red ears. “A-and I know you like that guy from your anomaly law class but—“

“Why would I like him?” You cut him off, arms crossed. Subaru looked at you suprised and stumbled over his words, “w-well— you—“

“Subaru,” you said pulling him from his s rambled thoughts. Plopping down in front of him, to be eye to eye with him, you couldn’t help but grin. “The one I like is you Subaru.”

—Haku Kusanagi

•a little disappointed, but doesn’t let it affect him

•the way he treats you never changes, he’ll never lead on to being disappointed

•I don’t see him acting or doing much different than he normally does really.

•he still seeks you out to make sure your okay

•he’s just Haku, and that won’t change no matter how you feel about him.

“Penny for your thoughts?” The voice came out of no where, but the familiarity was comforting. Looking up at Haku you sighed and leaned back in the bench. You shook your head and closed your eyes for a moment. When you opened them again Haku was standing right in front of you.

“Well, clearly something is bothering you,” he hummed, crouching down in front of you, “you sure you can’t tell me what’s wrong?”

After a moment of silence you opened your mouth, “…there’s this guy I like…”

You didn’t catch it. It was a brief flash of disappointment that went over his features before he went back to his usual expression.

“Hey, what’s with that expression,” he hummed noting the almost sad look on your face.

“He just…… doesn’t seem to nice my advances..” you admitted defeatedly, fight off a strong blush. Haku hummed and placed a gently hand on your knee. “Well… you can’t make people like you back, but If anything that guys missing out.”

You only shook your head, “not really…”.

“Ah don’t say thattttt,” he said drawing out the last letter. Still kneeling down he gave your knee a pat, “seriously the guys gotta be lucky to have you running after him.”

“Well, do you consider yourself lucky Haku?” You murmured out quietly. Looking up from his hand resting in your knee you notes to shocked look on his face. He didn’t say anything and you bit your lip, “sorry… I’ll just go—“

“I consider myself extremely lucky, now that is,” he hummed not letting you finish. The grin in his face said what you needed to know.

—Zenji Kotodama

•This is so sad Siri play despacito

•definitely going to write sad songs on his biwa about his heartbreak.

•but despite how expressive he is, I see him hiding his heartache AND his crush.

•he knows he’s dead, and he also knows that, if you did like him back, it would be kind of tragic.

•he can’t help but think, if he were alive, could it ever be him?

The gently strum of Zenji’s biwa was the only sound heard in the deck of the Hotarubi pond. There was an odd sense of sadness etched in every note, something unusual of the musician.

“Why the sad song?” Your hummed glancing at the ghost from your spot laid out on the deck.

“Heartbreak is simply beautiful,” he said, his face plastered with a smile nonetheless. You quirked a brow and sat up from your laying position.

“And who exactly is getting their heartbroken?” You hummed, looking for the source of his inspiration. You had been around Zenji long enough to tell what he’s feeling, and you had the hunch this heartbreak was personal.

“No one dear,” he said simply, still strumming his instrument, “a simple thought has clouded my mind.”

“Or a simple someone,” you said your tone accusatory as you shuffled to sit directly next to him. His fingers paused for a moment, the area around you two falling still with silence.

“Might….i ask you a question?” Zenji said after some seconds. He didn’t look your way and his normal grin was nowhere to be seen. You gave a soft nod of approval. “If I were alive, would you ever choose me as a lover?”

The question made you pause, silence once again enveloped the two of you as you sat there wide eyed.

“Ah I see…,” Zenji spoke quietly, his fingers resuming their strumming. Zenji could accept this, he had accepted it for a long time. What he wasn’t expecting was for something—rather someone— to fly through him.

A thump drew his attention as he glanced over to see you lying face first on the deck. “[Na-name]!” He called with concern and you only peaked at him.

“You were always the first option Zenji.”

[menlove]

why do you think “I will” is about John?

oooh man so it's certainly less in stone to me than others but like. on an objective level. on an emotional I'm 100% dead convinced and you'd have to give the world's most convincing argument otherwise for me to buy it. (although I will say the other interpretation I'd buy from an objective level is it's about no one- yet, anyway, but rather paul's future love of his life he hadn't found yet)

but!! there's two reasons. the lyrics fit a lot more with john than... anyone else in paul's life

like it's very easy, imo, to interpret this as being about john bc it's pretty much exactly their meeting. seeing him around before he knew his name (& crushing on him lmao) on the bus and at the chip shop, then Actually meeting him when he was singing yk just very literal

but mostly what convinces me more is what he's said about it. (from here, though it's in the lyrics)

When I sit down to try and write a song, I’m often thinking, ‘Oh, I wish I could capture that feeling of first being in love.’

which ofc points to other songs he's written as well, but it's interesting w this one! but more than thattttt

Yet again, just because I was involved with Jane at the time doesn’t mean this song is addressed to, or about, Jane. When I’m writing, it’s as if I’m setting words and music to the film I’m watching in my head. It’s a declaration of love, yes, but not always to someone specific. Unless it’s to a person out there who’s listening to the song. And they have to be ready for it. It’s almost definitely not going to be a person who’s said, ‘There he goes again, writing another of those silly love songs.’ So, this is me in my troubadour mode.

bc here he's saying that it's not to jane and then says it's not always to someone specific unless it's someone out there listening to the song. who has to be ready for it. and isn't someone who says "there he goes again, writing another of those silly love songs". which. well obviously it's a reference to silly love songs. but JOHN was the one that called his songs silly love songs in the first place like that wording has been attributed to him (by paul himself I wanna say but I gotta leave in like 2 seconds so I'm not hunting that down rn). so just To Me it sounds like a bit of a well it was to him but he wasn't ready to hear it type of tongue in cheek comment.

ofc though like I said this is more of an emotional interpretation than an objective one but like. To Me...... it's so about john

[serejae]

I DONT FEEL LONELY WHEN I SEE HER | SEOK.MATTHEW

WHAT ! - matthew bf thoughts for my menda😇

WHEN ! - (warnings) fluff, kissing, petnames

WHO ! - i get you. ill be completely new to a group but THATTTTT one is my man. ANYWAYS I HOPE YOU ENJOY MENDA BOOKIE SNOOKS😇

! - dating matthew is like a breath of fresh air, he isnt too distanct nor suffocating

! - i think thats mainly based on the fact that he took time to study and know you before he asked you out. by the time it was your 1 month he already (been) knew the temperature you like certain drinks, how much milk is too much in your cereal, and if we wanna be normal, when you need space

! - i feel like the trope that most resonates with matthew to me, is bestfriends brother. him and his sister have such a cute bond that i feel like he’ll recognize some of his sisters friend, but when it was you it was different. he couldnt pull himself away, his sister quickly caught on and realized what he was up to (before helping you both out)

! - matthews favorite parts of his day is definitely the morning and nights time. how he’ll wake up with you in his arms taking some time to admire you before carefully sneaking off and getting ready for the gym. he’ll wait for the clock to go off at a certain time that he memorized to start making your breakfast and drink, cause by the time you get ready and freshen up it’ll be the perfect temperature

! - speaking of gym, i see some people describe matthew as friendly, in which yes he is BUT HE DOESNT HAVE EYES ON ANYOJE BUT YOU. in his mind you guys already have a white fenced house with a dog and 3 kids running around. but i digress, he’ll call you and work out while talking to you because there’s nothing that gets him more pumped than you. if any other person tries to talk or hit on him he’ll act like he cant hear them through his headphones as he speaks to you

! - he loves the night time, because after a long day or you both being tired and stressed at least he knows he can come home to you and relax with you in his arms again. he loves how his day begins with you and ends with you

! - if hes away he’ll definitely buy a stuff animal that reminds him of you before the trip and take photos of it doing the most basic things “look were on a breakfast date:)” captioned to a photo of a breakfast platter with the stuff animal sitting infront of it sitting straight up (he adjusted it making sure ur postures always right)

! - his family loves you, they hear all abour you 24/7. his family knows that when matthew cherishes something he means it. mattthew has a big heart that he doesnt take for granted , he’ll try to bring you over to canada as much as he can to bring you to his family, talk about his childhood town, as well as trying his favorite childhood snacks

! - you dont have many arguments with matthew but when you do, he does get rather defensive wanting to defend himself but after a couple arguments with you he learned that being defensive wouldnt get him anywhere, so he tries to keep his composure. on those days he does slip up, he reflects why and what made you two get here. afterwards he’ll try to start a convo so you both can go back to normal and the way he missed

! - sometimes to matthew he gets tired of the basic ways of showing affection. he loves physical touch yes, but he knows you know he basically latches onto anyone he loves. so he decided to make a new system for you, and just for you. he loves you more than the words i love you, i love you isnt enough to describe his love for you so he tweaks it a little. he’ll say phrases that make your heart flutter

“i wanna be with you in every life time”

“you make me believe in love”

“you make me feel safe”

“you look like the in bloom instrumental”

! - matthew would love to indulge in your interest, could be as adventurous as rock climbing to as calming as bird watching. he never complains. if you like it , he does too

! - he loves to try new things with you. he wants his first to always be with you, if the members invite him to go to a new amusement park he’ll drag you along or go later with you because he knows he’ll constantly be in a state of mind of “yn wouldve liked that”, “i wish yn couldve seen that”

! - please. before there was rizz king matthew, the amount of tries he took on you. you were his first victim at all his flirting attempts. more of them making him look silly than 🫦🫦 but youd never tell him that. for all he knows he is your rizz king❤️

! - everything always relates back to you somehow. if someone asked him what happiness meant to him the conversation will lead back to you. if someone asked him if he knew the technique of how to make the best slime, its still gonna lead back to you

! - yeah sure you’ll have to fight jiwoong and gunwook every so often for your own boyfriend but hes worth the fight right? or at least thats what he constantly tells you 🤨

! - when matthew loves you you know he does, not because he tells you all the time but its the little things he does that remind you “im right here if you need anything”

[princessbrunette]

controversial opinion : can i just say that i think topper is actually not THATTTTT bad yk 😭 i know he did some shitty stuffs & i dont rlly like him too for numerous reasons but i'd like to think that he actually has a good heart deep down inside yk. i remember when rafe was drowning sarah , she almost DIED but thankgod topper came right on time . sarah probably wouldnt be alive if topper wouldnt have saved her

maybe he just needed a good partner to fix him up a lil bit .... hmmmmm .....

i mean he might be. it’s all opinion based, and my opinion on him isn’t based on him doing ‘crazy’ stuff cos i mean…. i literally write for rafe ! his vibe just really rubs me the wrong way and i don’t like sarah with him. every ‘nice’ thing he does for her in my opinion doesn’t seem genuine in the slightest, always coming to her rescue as means to put on a display and ‘win’ her because he thinks she owes him something.

even the scene in season 1 when she changes her mind and doesn’t wanna sleep with him anymore and he gets super angry and flips out on her is just a red flag. in my opinion that’s not even something rafe would do bc whilst rafe is crazy he’s not a creep the same way topper is. even rafe is weirded tf out when he finds out topper was tracking sarah that’s how u know he’s a fuckin weirdo. anyway that’s just my take teehee

[fraudulent-cheese]

I really wanna hear about the skave one(12.)

OH BOYYYY

I'll get this one out of the way immediately. I hate them as a couple.

Ok hate's a little strong? To me, wanting them to be a couple is missing the goddamn point, on top of being an insanely boring outcome and doing the exact thing the ship subverts in canon. No hate to skave shippers, i just dont like this ship as an actual couple.

HOWEVER. As the train wreck they are in canon? Ignoring Lies, Cries and One Big Prize for a second - they rule. Awesome, nearly no notes. I love that they're doomed from the start of their actual romantic advances, that their flaws prevented them from getting in a relationship, hell i'd argue the superficial nature of their crushes is a good thing here since it reinforces both how this relationship wasn't gonna work out AND it feeds into each character's main flaw: a lack of communication.

Neither Dave nor Sky are great at telling the other what they want, and endlessly run on assumssions based on their own expectations and narratives; Sky thinks Dave would understand the competition comes first but Dave isn't doing that, while Dave is convinced Sky wants him bad for half the season and pines very hard after her for multiple challenges. Hell, this lack of communication/ignoring boundaries on Dave's end is set up perfectly by the first actual conversation they have! Sky opens up about her family's history and why she's training for the olympics... And he hasn't listened to a word she said. And then U-turns the conversation to liking her (according to my own recollection, maybe im missremembering). They both have apparent "quirks" related to how they communicate/react to liking someone else that would inhibit good communication for fucks sakes! They were doomed! And i love that! They're both trainwrecks in romance (especially Dave dear god) and it's so, so satisfying to watch it finally grumble by episode 9.

I love how Dave's cockiness is born out of him following the advice Shawn gave him last episode to an extreme, again showing that he's just going off on the assumption on how a "winner" acts. And then! Sky! Tells! Him! Off! Literally my favorite moment of the episode. If reality TV wouldn't let them reconcile i am glad it let Dave pathetically try to get over/get back at Sky while the girl completely brushes him off and really asserts her boundaries. I also like Dave outright eliminating himself afterwards (i dont get why Sky was in the bottom 2 tho...) because like! He would do that! He's only staying here because he's got a crush on the idea of Sky and now it's been destroyed, ofc dude wants out!

...and then the finale happened. Ughhhh why did they do them like thattttt

Look, im still making the tdpi video, but it's been put on the serious backburner since i am in medical school and have very limited access to my computer. But i have an entire paragraph about how i dont like how skave was handled in the finale, i've yapped about it before on here, how it mischaracterises Sky, how the Boyfriend Back Home reveal sucks ass, how Dave's reaction feels like the writters being desperate for an antagonistic force in the finale when Chris is right here, ect... Im not going there again. TLDR, i really dont like it.

Uh if you want more thoughts about them in canon, i'd recommend reading this post by @/leonave since it's really good. Anyways

NOW FOR WHAT I WANTED FOR MY REWRITE.

Now the thing is that i dont think there's much wrong with the start of the season. This applies to the set-up of Sky and Dave's dynamic; Dave crushing on Sky because she helped him makes sense with the way he seems to view her, and the way their crushes feel so artificial (ESPECIALLY on Sky's end) is actually beneficial to the direction i wanted to go with them - namely, that Sky isn't really crushing on Dave and Dave realises how superficial his crush was. And wasn't as intense as he thought it was. Obviously the conversation is a little awkward - Dave still wouldn't take rejection well, but is also trying to be supportive because he does like talking to Sky and also he basically just came on international television by accident and Dave isn't that terrible of a person - and they wouldn't be on good terms for a bit, but they would resolve the conflict and actually become friends afterwards. Eventually. They're still not great at communication and are also dealing with confusing emotions on reality TV.

uhhh idk what else to add to this post so uh. Here's Sky and Dave friendship propaganda with some yuri added ontop lol

[moonshynecybin]

All Too Well (10 Minute Version) (Rosquez's Version) 

i dont think rosquez ever really thinks about their age gap (marc voice ive got eight titles that makes us The Same.) but uhhh. well its there its sexy its mildly problematic (to be clear i enjoy thattttt). and i do think marc is better at conceiving of how that power imbalance (which is more about fame/media control as well) influenced the sepang drama as he gets a little older. anyways im never not thinking about this verse in relation to that tbh. like early rosquez when valentino makes sure to shake the hand of every single member of marc's family in parc ferme while marc looks at him like he's so happy he could spontaneously invent the power of flight. its very that.

[bobbydeerfields]

Good morning, Kelsey!! How was yesterday? 🩷 I hope today is wonderful!!

good afternoon, ashley!

yesterday was...a lot! i was up before 5 for my test and did that. i think it went alright. i honestly don't care, because i'm so done. i ran into a bit of a timing issue on one of the sections, but that seemed to be an issue across the board for a lot of people (it's not something i typically run into on practice tests), so i'm hoping the curve works out in my favor? the other sections felt okay, so i just want a score that's higher than my first attempt from october 😭 something to prove that the three extra months i put in/delayed applications for were worth it bc my november score was not </3.

after that, it was my cousin's first birthday party. it was only two hours, but he was so cute omg. i'm not a frequent baby-fever sufferer but i was when he got his first cake. my sister got on video this clip where he was all scrunch-faced and smiling with green frosting all over his face and then kissed his mom/my cousin's cheek and literally just. it was so cute.

after thattttt, i did not end up going to dinner with my friends because i was a.) too tired and b.) not talking to my sister atm bc of a fight i had with her and my mother on friday 😇 (oversharing) so i just went home and watched a mafia movie with my cousins and then went to bed. it was more of what i wanted to do anyway.

today, i'm doing nothing!! i'm gonna be finishing my applications in the 2.5 weeks i have until score release, but i'm literally using today to just rot, which means write. i go back to full time work tomorrow!

how are you? how have you been? i hope today is going well!

[habibisagi]

duck anon - l reading your isagi selfship lore is sooo cute omg sora… best couple 5ever 4real :3 asking you about ribbon (what gifts do they get you/what do you get them?) and mango (do you and your lover like to dance) :00!!!

(particularly invested in your answer to mango cause i remember you mentioning a bit ago that u can belly dance and i think isagi would be soooo enamored by that 🙂‍↕️🙂‍↕️)

HI DUCKY!!!! <3 TYSM FOR SENDING THESE IN u are soo so sweet to me i don't deserve u fr ;___; <333 ALSO STOP... U MENTIONING MY BELLYDANCING... KJHJKFSDF i will go coconuts and bananas thinking about it omg...... doing it in front of isagi i'd pass away man >_>

ribbon ৻ꪆ what kind of gifts do they buy you? what gifts do you buy them?

isagi's way of gift giving is paying for everything i want to buy and i cannot refuse it under any circumstance he gets pissy KJSHDJFHKJ even the littlest things that i can more than afford to get myself -- he needs me to use his money because he has so much of it that he doesn't give a fuck about and the idea of me of all people not using it would drive him insane KJHSDFJK he loves to be relied on so badly. so i have to v__v like even the silly little things i like to spend my money on like games and in game skins etc etc he's got his payment info ready to go for me (like overwatch... he follows the ow cavalry twt to keep up w skins i might like bc he knows i'm insane about the game and asks me to buy for myself LMAOOO... he usually can buy things from the bnet app for me automatically he's so... same with my steam like a wishlist does Not exist he buys a game for me the second i mention it skdjhdsjkf) he loves his lil geek nerd gamer gf.....

[putting a readmore cuz it lowkey got long LMFAO]

for isagi i usually love to make things for him !! like scrapbooks of us and knit him little things to wear and carry... and charms.... i'd also write him so much poetry and in cute little letters... he keeps those and occasionally takes them with him as a lil reminder ;___; i rarely buy things just bc. Again he doesn't let me buy anything w my own money and it's weird to buy him gifts w his own money LMFAOOO even tho he'd be fine w that but i am Not LMFAOOOO... but yeah its,,, mostly him buying things for me and the only gift he likes is seeing how thankful i am,,,, makes him sooo weird n luvsick abt me i fear..... >_> <333

our gifts r just... truly acts of service it's more about intangible personal things really i would say :"3

mango ৻ꪆ do you and your lover like to dance?

yes!!!!!!!!!!! we dance super silly at home (or if we go out which is Rare lmao)... to silly songs or voice cracking when we sing... we're just silly goobers LMAOOO

but sometimes we'll slow dance at his soccer galas ;___; it's a thing that happens there anyway but... he also just loves to dance slow with me it flusters us like crazy but he loves it sm... loves dancing with me when i'm all dolled up, him too -- he's so charming and a gentleman during those, he gets so happy dancing w me during those OUAAHGHHG even tho im so shy and might step on his toes >_> he loves it......

can't talk about the belly dancing thing i'm toooo shy abt thattttt omg >_<.........

roma's selfship ask game!!

[chiangyorange]

you'll never guess who it is!!!

anyways i find your wild and wars interpretations of eachother SOOOO silly and funny like, oh my god

thus i made my own version of it LMAO, hopefully you don't mind </3

THEYRE SOOOOOO SILLY <3<3<3<3<3

i see their dynamic as seeing themselves in the other and NOT ALWAYS necessarily liking what they see (wild w/ "ah shit wars is like me if i succeeded the first time and didnt beef it man i fucking hate being employed") (wars w/ "you stupid dumb reckless kid STOP THATTTTT STOP DOING THINGS ALONE you have resources RIGHT THERE.")

but if they have a sit down and have literally 1 conversation of what they like in common. please. please im begging. they are so the dynamic ever. i know in my SOUL they can play dress up and its the most fantastic thing ever.

(i imagine if there was ever a scenario that wars meets aoc link after meeting wild. he would blow up. its just the dynamic above but worse ("OHHHHH MY GOD ALL OF MY BAD HABITS ARE ON HIM WHAT THE FUCK WHAT THE FUCK WHAT THE FUCK GET ME OUT OF HERE I NEED TO EAT ROCKS WITH WILD RIGHT NOW WHERE IS HE. WHERE IS MY BROTHER."))

[thelunarsystemwrites]

oh neat!!!

AND OH STARS OKAY

so like,,,,, me and my friend deni have this one inkmare au and they’re sososo silly

i mentioned the au like. once. on my blog. BUT IT IS SO DEAR TO ME AND THEY ARE LITERALLY EVERYTHING TO ME

in the au nightmare is just grown up passive with negative apple goop thingy and ink is a wild neurodivergent frenchman, and they run around the multiverse trying to stop shattered from spreading his cruelty around the world. ink also has error to deal with so that makes matters worse

BUT ANYGAYS they’re very in love and do eventually end up getting married

they’re half domestic half not and they’re the best <3333

THAT SLAYS FRFR I LOVE LOVE LOVE THATTTTT

I think ships w/ adult Passive noot noot are really interesting!! Especially since he still has a shit ton of trauma and Ink is like, "wanna colour :33" and like bitch yes. Yes Ink give that bitch healthy coping mechanisms.

Though what happened to dream? Whyd he go noot noot mode? :0

(Error being error I see :])

Anyways consider it EATEN

@denieatsart <- mentioned and spotted!