#anyway yeah long story long im Good and i couldve refused my family's offers yes and i have before and have often while theyve been here! | Explore Tumblr posts and blogs

schizononagesimus · 7 months ago

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being in a family of other addicts is weird, i never really thought of it like that but us all being in town together for my graduation has just been like (ENABLES U) (ENABLES U) (ENABLES U)

#i dont even think of us as addicts rly even tho we all are. like. medically and socially. hell i may not know him but my birth father is in #PRISON for addict behavior soooo #anyway i made some mild drug choices and though i was pretty immediately displeased with the sensations and their consequences nothing #overtly bad happened this time so id call it a neutral thing #i just had a couple beers bc i was sad and my grandad had an entire bottle of wine by himself prior to that #and like a couple beers is Fine but i didnt realize my tolerance had tanked and i shouldnt drink out of sadness and i only got. sadder. so.#at least they tasted good mm duvel (LOUD CRYING) anyway good luck babe by chappell roan #and i had some weed w my dad. i forgot how much i hate getting weed from other ppl bc ive never found a Soul who knows weed like i do so #theyll just go 'oh it's for sleep.' 'no like what strain is it' '8 #ignore the 8 lol anyway #'idk' 'ok then is it like hybrid or do you not know' 'yeah idk' cool at least my dad knew the mg #i honestly needed to eat like in a bad way ive had so much trouble eating recently even eating out so this was helpful on that front #think this might be my first like properly full stomach in a while #and i definitely did need the nap but i DIDNT need the muscle pain #so to answer my own question to my dad earlier that was a HYBRID with the worst characteristic of sativa in it #cause that shit makes pain far more obvious sometimes and man has my whole body hurt for a few days #anyway speaking of body pain im helping a friend move tomorrow THEN going to bjj skdnsksms #it's fine im fine #anyway yeah long story long im Good and i couldve refused my family's offers yes and i have before and have often while theyve been here!#but i didnt because we all in my family got that same 'ehhh fuck it i deserve this' attitude sometimes #but nothing blew up this time though i still didnt like it so again. reminding myself that even when it goes well i still just Dont Like It #ergo do not do the thing #sobriety update #drugs tw #lessons of the hand and the mouth

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