#anyway uh.

[drawnecromancy]

Having a hard divide between sfw/nsfw is actually going to be a problem on my own personal website - I have a thing I want to slightly edit for typos and send off that is largely sfw but does contain One (1) explicit sex scene so far, and it feels unfair to tell it to go to the smut corner where the things that are only explicit live.

The solution, to me, is just going "yeah this one contains explicit sex scene(s)" in the summary.

[the-acid-pear]

me: [Googles if dying without pain is actually possible to "win" an argument with my ex]

google:

[aether-friskets]

oh i realized i dont think i've ever mentioned it here (partially because i feel weird about the idea of even doing something advertising-adjacent BUT), I actually started making more videos on my youtube channel after that initial silent hill minecraft one (which i plan to make more of those too lol)!!

Mostly just me playing games i like when i have the time and energy to make videos (so usually it's been once or twice a week but i did hit a major slump that paused a lot of things including videos for a few weeks sOOo im just getting back into it)

but i already have one complete let's play of lost in vivo and i started a new silent hill 1 one (which i'm planning to play the first 4 silent hill games on my channel so yippee)

and after silent hill I'm thinking cry of fear and/or lunacid, and beyond that... idk yet but i'm sure i've got games to choose from! it could help me finally finish some of my backlog of games i wanna play but keep putting off for no good reason

Anyway, if the idea of me rambling about a game as I'm playing it sounds remotely interesting to you, here's the link to that:

but it's literally just something i started doing for fun so it's not like. the best stuff out there lol

[lovinglin]

I have a thought.

[bro-strider-tgirl-tits]

@insufferable-homestuck 🫵 YOU.

doing this to you right now.

[fishparasite]

im normal about this. btw .

[saddest-girl-in-the-whole-world]

I will NEVER not fuck with women using a traditionally masculine title. Tell me more about that girl that's also a prince.

[kiryuing]

[thefirstimagifabricator]

that art I just rbed linked back to this so. here I am again. and I have some Thoughts that just happened so ima share them bc. I want to

so I have two sets of thoughts. first one is actually the second I thought of while looking at this post but is smth from ~10 minutes before (re-)seeing it so. putting that first—

btw this first one is. less orv and kinda more general and personal lol (though not in terms of info and shite—I’m not doxxing myself or oversharing trauma or wtv lmao 💀)

just. the first sentence of the second paragraph here. “the moment you love a story it becomes immortal, neverending.” it reminded me of the thought process I had like ten minutes ago, that was about how just. I love stories so so much and. wait actually lemme backtrack slightly—stories are immortal so long as they’ve been told and remembered; they’re the things that carry through time, the ones we haven’t forgotten even over millennia—and that’s why I want to read them (or watch them or wtv) and why I want to write them, because I want to remember, and I want to be remembered. but then I was thinking about all the forgotten stories, and it made me sad—but then I also thought that, if they’ve been told, and people have listened, then they’ve made an impact, haven’t they? they left a mark, a portion of influence, even if seemingly not very large. and so they’re immortalized in the passage of time, in their impact, in how they affected people and their emotions and how they thought about things and did things and what things they did—that all cannot be removed from the process of time; it is there forever, and therefore is immortal.

second thought thing!! this is also kinda personal, a bit more so than the first, but also more directly orv-related lol. though it’s also a lot longer and, tbh, kinda darker, and also I think less coherent and more ramble-y so ima put it under a cut I think—

so I. I am a kdj kinnie lol—but really what I mean when I say that is that I see myself in him, and himself in me—but it’s like looking into the deep end of a pool from a shallower area, and it’s like you somehow swam to where you are from somewhere nearer to that deep end without realizing you were doing so most of the time. looking back and realizing now how you’d been drowning without being aware, having not even ever really taken a breath of air, or not enough of them to get the taste of it, and not enough to miss it—and all the points where you finally caught a lungful of it, but also where you were thrown deeper, and the pain burning in your lungs screaming for air that wasn’t within reach—seeing now how you’ve found close companions along the way and helped each other in your journey, if even just as motivation to chase each other and continue onwards most of the time—and knowing how some days and some weeks and sometimes months you still slip deeper, you trip, your head goes beneath the surface, and you flounder.

but you see all this. and you look back. and you see another. and they look just like you, and their path is quite similar, but more ragged, and deeper, further beneath the surface most of the time, shoved there by forces he couldn’t control. and you want to reach out, to guide him gently along to reach where you are now, but you can’t reach him, can’t touch him, can speak to him no matter how hard you try. so all you can do is hope for his sake.

I think I also still see his flaws in myself, the habits we share that I curse him for and yet, hypocritically, still persist in—and yet we are also different in not just overall scope and depth of the ‘water’ we’re trapped in, but how far we’ve come and how much we’ve changed—I kin Kim Dokja because he reminds me of myself, yet the recognition of our similarities leads me further and further from him, ironically.

so I think what I’m saying, in relation to the original post, is that Kim Dokja has helped to teach me how to drag myself along and continue to live, but largely in how he’s taught me not to do so, or rather, called attention to things I’ve already learned not to do for that…and people may say that then it doesn’t make sense for me to kin him, as he is a cautionary tale to me—which would make sense, except he isn’t such; all that most separated the circumstances and occurrences of his life from mine were just that—circumstances set up by incidents which he had no control over, not really, things that could happen to anyone but happened to all happen to him—a collection of tragedies set up by chance.

orv and its core message being: live, even if you must claw your way out of the grave and even if you must burn every page of this book to keep you warm. you can consume us to sustain you through the winter and we will still be there when spring arrives.

the moment you love a story it becomes immortal, neverending. take it. take all of it. we don't mind.

[pieofdeath]

i need someone to stop me from spilling all the thoughts I have about the agents au. someone STOP ME.

[mroddmod]

rough seas

[reblog-house]

William Afton feels like a 7 kinda guy. Not in terms of looks or whatever, just as a number. Which is strange, since 5 is kind of... his whole thing.

[chipjrwibignaturals]

any computer people wanna explain how the hell this works

it wont let me do shit bc i apparently have 81 gigs of apps clogging my c drive, but my largest app is 0.4gb?????? its not system applications either because system is its own segment of storage. wadda hell are you talking about

EDIT:

I fixed it using the program TreeSize, linked in the microsoft store HERE!

[lotus-pear]

bugs when you lift up a rock

[modmad]

I love terrible comic day can we make this an international holiday

[eona-art]

AU where Adrien was a model from the 90's that disappeared, only for his ghost to be found by Marinette on accident and now he wont leave her alone